Goodbye Sunshine

Current Mood: melancholic
Current Colour: red
Current Music: Heaven by Nu Flavour, Close To Heaven by Color Me Badd
Current Annoyance: Why do I miss you?
Current Physical Ailment: Insomnia

 Funny how I haven't written in this blog for years and suddenly I decide to write in here about an old flame... *sigh* Just like the old times...

I supposed I might as well dedicate this whole blog to 'him', eh? LOL.

 Hmmm.. Close To Heaven just came on iTunes. Thing song will always remind me of 'him'. How long has it been? 7 years?

 Crushes come and go. Time to move on. Well I did, and ended up with a rebound. Pathetic of me. hahaha... This I supposed, will be the last blog about 'him' in here.

 So, Mr Sunshine. For the last time... Thanks for the memories.

 xoxo
S. (I wonder if you remember what you used to call me...)

Current Mood: mixed emotions... mood's been a rollercoaster since Thursday
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Single (NKOTB fr Ne-Yo)
Current Annoyance: I would like to kick a gossip monger to the the center of the sun
Current Obsession: NKOTB, duh!
Current Physical Ailment: headache.... maybe been thudding too much?

This is what that I am waiting for!! Yaaay!! These men have been my distraction for the past 4 coming to 5 months!

Current Mood: Excited
Current Colour: Pink
Current Music: Click Click Click
Current Annoyance: I don't live in LA
Current Obsession: NKOTB, Jonathan Knight. (LOL)
Current Physical Ailment: Jet Lagged. LOL

OMG I can't wait for the new album! I have order two CDs and one Deluxe Edition CD. LMAO... Anyway, I'll leave something that I have been doing for the past 1 month...

(To Leave Comments http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXe60OPcjfE)

Enjoy!

Happy Birthday Jordan (and Happy Birthday to me)

Current Mood: tired but estatic, on an all time NKOTB High
Current Colour: Black and white
Current Music: Radio (for once)
Current Annoyance: I wish I am in New Jersey for the Zootopia concert!
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!
Current Physical Ailment: 1 1/2 months without proper sleep... panda eyes!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORDAN!!

Hope you have a great birthday this year, with after the amazing comeback show yesterday and the concerts today and tomorrow! You get to share it with thousands of Blockhead!

Erm, sorry Danny, Happy belated birthday to you too! You also celebrated your birthday with the Blockheads at HOB too!

New Kids On The Block is BACK! Thanks for the great show guys!

Jonathan, you did great! Looking hot n sexy!!! :) You did that thrust thing too riiight?? I nearly fell off my chair! :D

Joe, the hat almost made me cry! :')

Donnie, OMG! The Thrust is back and you tease! You should kept ur shirt up longer! :D

Jordan, you looked sexy today! We need you to dance more! We miss your moves! ;)

Danny! You're looking fine these days! :)

I'm lazy to post the videos up just yet so I'll just put the links. Afterall, the blog is still blasting Tonight at the moment. LoL...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irlfv4VNHrY [NKOTB Live in NYC Part 1]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mG2_zcw-gw8 [NKOTB Live in NYC Part 2]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e1H1xluB6js [NKOTB Live in NYC Part 3]

On another note... It's my birthday too! LoL.... So what do I want? Go here to see (Wishlist)!! And whatever is on the column on the right, under the heading "I still believe in Santa Claus"!! hehehe....

NYSE

Current Mood: OMG OMG OMG
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: no music... watching New York Stock Exchange on CNBC (wtf?)
Current Annoyance: NYSE link not working (online)
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!!!!!!
Current Physical Ailment: I forgot how nice it is to actually get sleep...

OMG OMG OMG... NKOTB looked so yummylicious at the closing of NYSE!!! Yum Yum YUM!! Jon looks so......ooooh. I dunno, I forgot all my vocabs! LoL..

Ok, it's 4.24am as I type this. I woke up at 3.30am just to wait for the closing at 4am (4pm NYC time). Damn... SE usually drives me to sleep, now I'm watching it coz of NKOTB! LoL... Real estate used to bore me, now I'm trying to learn more too... hahahaha... what next? me trying to learn the NKOTB moves? LoL... Been trying too actually. LoL.. I know the "New Kids dance" already and the "Right Stuff" chorus move... lol.. Funny. My poor yoga mat is flattened already.

Bet u went "yoga mat????" right? lol.. yeah, i bought a yoga mat & a set of dumbells... lol... Trying to get serious about losing weight and getting tonned!

Damn I am in NYC camping with my fellow Blockheads. yup, there's about 200 Blockheads camping outside the Rockefella Plaza right now... A few of them camped since wednesday night and... Donnie n Jon popped by! LoL... Jon says that they are nuts (in a good way) coz they are camping out TWO days in advance waiting for the Today Show!! LoL... I'd probably died if he said that to me and go to heaven.. LoL...

Okay, I better head off to zzz now. I'm so worn out these days!!

Current Mood: odd, weird, sleepy
Current Colour: Orange
Current Music: Popsicle by NKOTB (hehehe... Jul, "popsicle"!)
Current Annoyance: Monday can't come soon enough and eurgh! Have to to minutes again
Current Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: Backache n stiff neck due to long hours on the pc, sore muscles coz of my work out on Thursday!

I nearly bought an orange shirt on Friday! hahahaha...

Instead, I bought a size M off white linen shirt and it fit perfectly (did not try it at the shop.)

I had one wild dream during my afternoon nap, I'm pissed mum woke me up. :( Wonder how far it could have gone. need a cold shower

I saw a guy that reminded me of Jonathan Knight.

I managed to control myself from over eating a buffet.

I can't wait til Monday to download Summertime.

I can't wait til Monday coz there's a surprise on nkotb.com.

Oh oh oh oh oh...

Current Mood: Weird out
Current Colour: Orange
Current Music: Favourite Girl (NKOTB) too many oh ohs.... Donnie said when they saing "Oh Oh" it actually means "I wanna grab your ass!" LoL... gotta find that quote! LoL
Current Annoyance: I wish I cud b in NYC on Thursday to join the Slumber Party at the Plaza (Rockefeller Plaza) and celebrate my 24th b'day with NKOTB. Hey's it's Jordan's b'day on the same day as mine too... LOL. Have fun everyone!
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!!!!!
Current Physical Ailment: Lack of sleep.... need to cut down my time on nkotb.com..

This is random... Sth Nong gave the link to me... LoL. Can u guess who the Sagittarius guy is? LoL...

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Randomness

Current Mood: random
Current Colour: blue
Current Music: Time is on our side (NKOTB) do you think I'd ever listen to anything else now?
Current Annoyance: I need my NKOTB fix!! Craaaaving...
Current Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: I hate food. lol

Random. Random. I just wanna blog. It is odd. I don't usually bother to blog for months but this month is a record! Blame NKOTB! lol...

Probably coz I'm feeling pretty hormonal... lol... Not that my hormons have been stable but lately it has been better than it has been for the past 1 year! LoL... My skins is almost flawless (don't look at the blackheads on my nose... they are almost gone...), my hair actually grew faster than usual and it freakingly much fuller and silkier now. And the best of all... I'm actually losing weight!! Yaaay!!! LoL...

What this have got to do with NKOTB? Well, for starters, I've been much much happier now, laughing and giggling a lot (thanks to all the crazy stuffs I read on nkotb.com) and also been in such a dreamy mood that I barely got time to snap at ppl even when I am stressed and over worked (except that time when I had a panic attack coz of a dateline... I was cursing like mad, feeling abt to faint/ blackout and on the verge of jumping down the building! LoL). I have a new crush (hahahha...) and major crushes like this leads to very good doses of endorphines and stabilises my hormons (LoL)...

ok ok... I'm crapping here again. but at 12.42am who wouldn't? I just need to wait for my manicure to dry then i can sleepzz... hmm... If i type sleepzz in my msn, a picture of Jonathan sleeping pops up... LoL...

I'm really into this 80s thing since January la... I have a bunch of Jem and the Hologram cartoons on my laptop, i have a couple of 80s inspired/ style tops, my nails have been pretty bright coloured (now it's hot pink, toe nails are bright electric blue), been buying big bangles and earrings... listening to NKOTB songs (LoL)... luckily my hair is still normal... my perm didn't work! LoL... Never mind... I have two sets of crimper........ lol.... Been getting 80s style tips from mum! LoL....

hmm... I've been "LoL-ing" a lot lately... as well as ROFLMFAO.... must be a little high on endorphines... lol... Or mayb I'm just showing my age again. LoL... I was talking to my 3rd boss in my office & I said somethings which sounds so odd in the office... kinda slang-ish and he was laughing... he's not that much older, same age as Joe but I think I do sound like a teenager...LoL.. which, I'm afraid (despite my NKOTB obsession) isn't that long ago (LoL... how old should one be to be considered NOT a teen? 20? Then 19 isn't that long ago... It's like 5 years ago! LoL)

Do I miss my teens? probably. I had a crappy teenage years in brunei 15 1/2 until 17 1/2 then i moved out to uni... the worse 2 years of my life probably was then or 2006 after i graduated and bummed at home looking for a job and had no friends... :( Now? Still pretty crappy-ish but I am just waiting for the right man to sweep me off my feet and i will follow him to the ends of the earth... LoL... a KNIGHT in shinning armour (a suit would be fine) on a white horse (or in a white car/ plane...)LoL....

Hmm... It's 1.12am.. really late. My manicure has set so I'm Off to sleep... Do drop a note in my guest book ok... and do comment if you want to (just click the comment link below). gd nite... yawn... i know wat and who I want to dream of tonight....

NKOTB DAY!!! (dedicated to NKOTB...lol)

Current Mood: Estatic & unbelievably high (stil haven't eaten all day)
Current Colour: Orange (again)
Current Music: Happy Birthday by NKOTB! (LoL) followed by more NKOTB songs
Current Annoyance: I wish I can sit in Starbucks LA all day long *wink, wink*
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!!!!
Current Physical Ailment: Not feeling hungry but a little high coz lack of food!





24 April= NKOTB Day!! Wheee... lol..





So, all Blockheads out there, Let's Paaar-taay!! LoL.



Seriously, I'm partying alone tonight. LoL.. Just came back from work at6.30 (now's 7.32pm) and my parents went out. Came home and sat in front of my laptop listening to NKOTB mp3s... lol... As I had pledged! (more about that later). Brrr... a bit chilly here. My air conditioning is on high and well... I'm not exactly dressed. LoL... I'll shower after I blog. LoL

So, NKOTB Day... Someone asked what will I do to celebrate it. Well, cant exactly go out celebrating coz I don't personally know any fellow Blockheads in Brunei, which is weirs since the whole population here (est 391,450 in 2007) is definitely much smaller than the whole of Boston (est 590,763 in 2006)! lol...

Anyway, as part of NKOTB Day, I had pledged on nkotb.com to:

1. Vote for NKOTB at least 24 times here (oops... I voted 62 times! lol);




2. Influence my friends to vote;




3. Dedicate a blog post to NKOTB (nothing new, my last few posts were already abt them);




4. Listen to NKOTB songs at work, at home, in the car, in the shower (LoL), and anywhere else possible on my mp3;




5. Change all my mobile ringtones, message tones, reminder tones and alarms to NKOTB songs;




6. Change all my mobile phones wallpaper to NKOTB pics;




7. Change the wallpapers of the 3 laptops and 2 PCs at home to NKOTB related pics;




8. Change my MSN/Gtalk usernames;




9. Watch NKOTB videos (I just watched 2 parts of the E True Hollywood Story)




10. and etc which I have yet to come up with...

So someone asked me, why is NKOTB so great? I'm like, they are the father of all boyband, they are more successful than any other boybands (hmmm... did the word boyband even existed before them?), great music, fun, crazy crazy people (LoL), yummy looking (i kind of have a crush on all of them but nah, Jon's THE ONE... LoL), erm... I could go on forever... Hey, they were my 1st love (musically) and Joe was once my 1st crush (way, way, way before I ever saw Yusry.. LOL) that no one ever knew (ever wonder I ALWAYS like dark/ dark-ish/ reddish wavy/curly haired guys?)


K, what else to blog on NKOTB?? -break. shower first-


Back. I have no freaking idea... They llok hot in suits (ahh... I love gorgeous men in suits). They have funky dance steps. Their music is good for the mind, body and soul (to release stress or day dream, to dance/exercise, to Rejuvenate the soul -music therapy- etc...LoL). Okay, I've coming up with crap now.


NKOTB reminds of fun times as a child. Makes me all excited to revisit my childhood. BUT now they are much older, reminds me of why I think music is so great (if I had the talents, I wouldn't have majored in Film Making, instead I'd take Music... LoL). Music should be fun, not a popularity contest/ beauty contest. Of course that did play a factor in the success of of NKOTB but for me, it's all about the music (and Jonathan... ;p), the dance, the live shows (seen the vids but dying to go to at least one), the videos and perhaps, the merchandise (Len, you know what I want for my b'day- which is same as Jordan's... LoL).


Did I ever have a NKOTB merchandise? No. A NKOTB cassette (old school ma)? No, but I did have a "Greatest Hits" CD, which I have to hunt for in my room. Did I ever meet them? No, except in my dreams, unless I did meet D, D or Jon but din recognise them... LoL.


What got me excited was the whole phenomenon of them getting back together, the new music, the upcoming tour (please please PLEASE come to South East Asia!! I know Brunei has only 0.00001% of osting them, though). Maybe new merchandise? LoL... (it's like taboo to mention it to some ppl... LoL). Or maybe the fact that Jonathan reads the threads in the NKOTB Community? (eeek... Pretend you did not see the Jonathan's Mile High Club or stuff about Jonathan's Elevator Shaft! {or what I said!} LoL)

Hmm... I don't know. I just LOVE, LURVE NKOTB. New Kids On The Block Rocks!!


*Oh ohoh, she's my covergirl....*


-Shit! I have bruises on my body... Did I knock on another table today? or... what did I do in my sleep last nite? Karate?-


Back to blog... Dial up really sucks but right now that's all I've got (not worth getting eSpeed when you don't know whr u'd be in 10 mths time... Mayb Boston, perhaps? )


Ok I seriously have nothing to say abt NKOTB coz I can't express it in words!!! So just go to NKOTB.com and here to know more...

Current Mood: WHOAH!! Semi shocked/ semi turned on... hahahaha...
Current Colour: Orange baby, orange.
Current Music: You Got It (Right Stuff)
Current Annoyance: Dial up so slow la
Current Obsession: NKOTBS (need I repeat? lol)
Current Physical Ailment: Still pretty dazed! hahaha...

Ok, I left my internet on while I went to sleep coz I was loading a video on youtube and dad woke me up at 5.45am screaming "why is the internet still on??" Lol.. oops. supposed to off it at 4.30... lol...

So in my dazed and sleepy condition I walked to my laptop and check it has finished loading. Since It was done so I watched it at 5.45am... It's the Hangin' Tough Live VHS (thanks to you tube it's digitized!) and was part 5, singing Right Stuff... Suddenly at around 5:15 my eyes opened wide and I was like OMG!! hahahah... Love 6:20 tho. lol... hahahah... "The party is just starting"

Can you handle 5 times? (Uh oh... give it to me baby! I think thr's more than 5 times thr!)

Wrote this from 12am-2am, Friday morning.

Current Mood: "overstimulated" lol. hahaha...
Current Colour: Orange...damn, I watched that vid of a live show whr someone wore an orane shirt n it's stuck in my head! lol...
Current Music: I'll be Missing You Come Christmas by NKOTB- I dunno who though. But i feel so lonely now… :'( and other NKOTB songs... on repeat mode for 2 week & counting!
Current Annoyance: Not inspired
Current Obsession: NKOTB and Jonathan...woooo
Current Physical Ailment: sleepy n tired n... only Jul knows. lol


Aaargh!!!!!!!! I'm like supposed re-design the flyers for the church camp for KOOL & YDM and I'm seriously out of ideas!! If I can put NKOTB photos and write about my beloved JJJDD (as Jul & I call them)- Jon, Joey, Jordan, Donnie & Danny (yeah in that order!) or Double D Tripple J or Triple J DD or... nevermind! I can do that with flying colours. But sadly I'm so uninspired… Damn, even my spelling, grammar and punctuation suck but coz I'm typing this in Word, spell check can check me. Lol

Realistically, I'm been a 'mess' these 13 days since the announcement. Oh wait, since I got the email from nkotb.com on 1 April (it's 31 March in US then) I've been like a kid! I didn't stop squealing for a week like a 5 yr old (think I became a fan at 4 or 5 when I moved back to Kuching)! And don't mention work, I'm pretty zonked out (P.A.s should never, never do that!) and a couple of people have caught me smilling or grinning to myself (Jul knows that without seeing me coz I tell her what I read… lol) and someone said I'm in love. Lol. Yeah, with NKOTB! Lol… Not to mention that I finally lost my appetite to eat (my 'dinner/super' a can of tuna is on the table now and it's half eaten only) so I've been having these weird diet.

• Monday- only dinner.
• Tuesday- lunch and dinner.
• Wednesday- only dinner.
• Thursday- lunch & supper.

Lol… Tomorrow, eh later, I'll be going for lunch with Lina and I reminded her I'm 'semi-vegetarian' at the moment- I only eat vegetables and seafood- and am on a diet so no pigging out for me. Lol. I've been eating so much over the last few years. Depression and boredom was the main cause la. Depression caused mostly by two people who I used to be damn close to (no, my then crush did not contribute to this depression) and seriously I got so inferior complex-ed and probably went cuckoo. Hahaha… just kidding! Lol.

But all is fine now. A little inferior complex still lurking around but I'm coping. I have to, in my line of job. With people I know and am comfortable with I can be loud and chatty but with strangers I can be pretty shy, which is weird since in uni I was so in-your-face! Lol… hahaha…
Oooh… I forgot to continue for ½ hr. chatting with Jul lah! Lol… Ooh… Joe looks so young in d Please Don't Go Girl video. The original coloured one (need to llok 4 the link one day). He looks 10!! Hahaha…. Hide it (the video) Joe! LoL… Jonathan looks so thin there. He needs a woman to feed him! (I'm single, what's your number? Lol)

Damn… another ½ hr gone. Lol.. Busy chatting with Jul again. Lol.. (and d/l Jonathan's pics. Yum! Sorry Joe, you are my 2 now… lol) hmm… my mind is so easily distracted lately. Lol… Now feeling sleepy. Think I'd sleep for a while then wake up to continue the flyers. So no mood la. I need a massge. Hmmm… wonder who I have in (my filthy) mind… lol….

Gtg & zzz before i wake up to finish my 'task!

"Special project"!!!!!!

Current Mood: Syok sendiri (erm... how to put this in English? I'm just smiling to myself n grinning like a nut... in Coffee Bean!)
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Please Don't Go Girl (Live) by NKOTB (Music Video from a show... damn cheesy... 80s cheesy that I love it!)
Current Annoyance: I wish I have such great connection at home
Current Obsession: NKOTB aka New Kids On The Block, downloading stuffs
Current Physical Ailment: Lack of sleep + stiff neck coz of spending too much time online doing my 'special project'

So a few ppl know I've been doing a 'special project'... for the past 6 days. lol.. So here it is... A NKOTB blogskin!! Lol... hahahaha...

My friend aka Juliana think's I'm obsessed. Lina probably thinks I'm crazy. lol...

This is my first self made blogskin so please be very forgiving... hehehehe... Over the next few day/ weeks there will be some little changes to the layout or pics (depending of there are anything new on NKOTB's Official Flickr site.

Anyway, wanna share some videos. I so wish I could in New Jewsey for their first concert on MY BIRTHDAY!!! lol... dream on... But I'd love to have NKOTB merchandise for my birthday ya... LoL...


NKOTB Stay Tuned!



A Little Buzz



NKOTB- Thank You!

What would the weirdest...

Current Mood: sleepy (n freaking out, my boss is back tmrw)
Current Colour: pink
Current Music: You Got It (Right Stuff) by who else? NKOTB
Current Annoyance: Y cant I find d pics that Papa need??
Current Obsession: Duh. As if u need to ask ... NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: sleepy, squinting now. lol

What would be the weirdest song for NKOTB to sing after 22 years? I thought of it either when i was half asleep in bed or in the shower, can't recall.

My picks are those from the first album:

3. Angel

2. Popsicle

1. I Want to be Love By You ( hahahaha...)


Why I wanna be loved by you? Read this and tell me that u did not try notL laugh imagining mid 35-39 yr old men sing this:


I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

Hi, I’m danny, and I’m a taurus,
And I wanna be loved by you.
Do you wanna be loved by me?
If you do, check this out.
Aaaaah....
Sounds good to you, don’t it?

Oh baby, I just got to let you know
I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

I’m jon, and I’m a sagittarius
And I really, really wanna be loved by only you
And I want you to only love me too.
And if this is the way it’s gonna be, girl, then check me out

I wanna be loved by you, baby
I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

Yeah, I know, I know, I’m young....
I might be young, but I’m not too young to let you know how I feel.
I’m Joe, and I’m a capricorn.
And if you can relate to that, then check this out.

Oh, girl, I wanna be loved, loved by you baby
I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

I’m donnie, a loveable leo
And rather than tell you how I feel,
I’m gonna sing it for you,
babyI wanna be loved by you girl
I wanna take you by the hand and make you understand

I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

Well, I guess they saved the best for last
I’m jordan, and I’m a taurus
And if you think you know everything about me,
then check this out

I wanna be loved by you baby, by you baby
I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

LoL. Cheesy. It'll be so weird to hear them sing, esp Joey (then Joe) sing Yeah I'm young... hahahah....

Ok. Off to bed now... & dream of going to NJ on my birthday. Darn it, I live so far away! (Jon is hot too)

NKOTB! NKOTB! NKOTB!

Current Mood: estatic & squealing like a 5 year old!!
Current Music: Baby I Believe in You (NKOTB!!)
Current Annoyance: NKOTB not stopping by Brunei!!! :'(
Current Obsession: NKOTB NKOTB NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: losing my voice coz squealing too much!


OMG!! Think blog is so 4 days late! hahahah... On Tuesday morning d first thing I saw in my inbox was an email from nkotb.com... Eeeek!!! Opened it and... NKOTB was gonna do a show + annoucement on Friday... Eeek!! NKOTB's finally coming back???

And yes!! They are!! eeek! so many many news n blogs abt them today. I'm still squealing coz I cant get over it! heheheh... Weeeeeee.... lol... OMG OMG OMG I adore NKOTB!! lol... was so addicted to their cartoons...lol.. and who can forget "Step by Step, oooh baby" and "I'll be loving you forever" hahahhaha... OMG I LOOOOVE NKOTB.

Cant wait for their new album! Btw, anybody wanna offer to get me NKOTB merchandise (not opened yet at time of blogging) ??? heheheh... My birthday is just next month! Never thought I'd say this to anyone, but yeah, NKOTB was my first favourite even before KRU. LoL.. Btw, who can get me ALL the NKOTB albums??? I WANT!!! lol....

P/S: Eeek! Joey is still hot! lol... hahahaha... Sorry Yusry, Milo, Wentworth, Shayne, Gareth etc etc...

My Cutie's Going To Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: Love sick & ecstatic
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Way Back Into Love from the Music & Lyrics OST (on repeat & singing it too)
Current Annoyance: being so far away from.... ;p
Current Obsession: Heroes and milo peng addiction
Current Physical Ailment: Love sick


OH my God, Oh my God!! My dream guy is coming to Singapore in like 3 months!!!! Aiiiii!!!! (Scream!!) Just found out the news about 20 Minutes ago! OMG OMG OMG!!! Gonna die from excitement!!! LOL. See, I have not blogged for ages and now m blogging abt him! AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh man!! I need to find a way to Singapore then! Planning ahead. Ok, ok…. If he is confirm going I’m gonna book tickets. Hopefully I can go. Please please let it be a Saturday so I can fly on Friday and come back on Sunday. OMG…. Like planning a rendevous!! Hahahaha… IZZAH DO NOT MENTION HIS NAME HERE!!!! OMG…. Now I feel like drinking a glass of cold milo peng… aiyo… had one already today!! Hahahah….

Calm down, calm down… Ok who is he? Hahahaha… not gonna say… *Sing* “all I wanna do is find my way back into love” Oh Gosh he’s so freaking hot. Damn, I was so engrossed with “Sunshine” back then I never saw how hot he is…. LoL… And I thought “Sunshine” was all that… damn. This guy makes “Sunshine” pale in comparison!! His brown eyes, cute smile and tousled hair…. Aiyo, makes Sunshine look blah. Seriously, how does Sunshine look like again??? Hahahahaha… M serious!!! LOL.

Oh man, m so in love with the song. Who cares if it’s Hugh Grant singing… I love the lyrics and the melody!! Hehehehe… It kinda makes makes me nice, worm and fuzzy inside like thinking of my cutie does… LoL… hahahaha… makes me imaginew me & cutie dancing together… lol lol lol… The lyrics kinda speak of what I'm feeling right now...

Was under some sort of hypnosis thingy the other day... The psychologist said thing of a happy memory and in my mind i suddenly remember how save and secured I felt in Sunshine's car that one rainy day... how the air smelled, the feling of his car seat, my wet clothes, the smell inside the car, his perfume, how his smie looked like and his voice etc... then the psychologist said "now it is time o let go and forget of the past. move on. forgive and forget..." and then he counted backwards and I woke up... freaky but i kinda find it easier to forget sunshine... sigh... and that was at a talk by a psychologist i went with my family & some church ppl...

Now I'm ready to move on and think abt my cutie!! Damn, why cant he come to Brunei eh? And Lina, stop SMSing me all that stuff just now... not too X Rated at church k... LoL... I know u dont mean it to sound x rated but u know d state of my hormone right now!! LoL.... ROTFLMAO!!! Oh man.... I dunno wat to do now.... Shit better not effect my work la. Hope my boss dont find me drooling abt him or me sending him Myspace messages... LoL... Which reminds me... I supposed to ask Lina what to ask him. Damn. lol... oh man, I swear a lot today, huh? and to think that all it takes to get me all swear-y wa the thought of a rendezvous with him!! Hmmm.. i should realy get him a nick name.... will think of it tonight. The one Lina & I use is too conspicuous !! Man, my feet r tingling! LoL... hahaha... M I in love??? nah, until d day of the skin on skin contact (ew... sound so x rated... til we r physically near each other?) probably?? LoL...

Hmmm... gotta go off now... Need to shower and start the beautification regime... LoL. I love it when I'm crushing... My face's skin becomes all soft and smooth with out much work. Don't even need to worry to exfoliate or do facial... and my face glow from inside. must be too happy... LoL...

Oh man.. update!! he's gonna be inSingapore on Aust 31 & Sept 1st!!!! OMG!!! Tickets!!


Hugh Grant & Haley Bennet- Way Back Into Love (Music & Lyrics OST)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

Pain...

Current Mood: melancholic
Current Colour: navy blue, dark red
Current Music: Pain by Three Day's Grace
Current Annoyance: Get out of my head!
Current Obsession: getting someone out of my system again

this song's one of my fav new songs... cant find the CD song manage to get the ring tone. Saw d music vid on MTV & loved d song from the first time... Lyrics says it all... got a "relapse". wonder when can I get over this????

Pain - Three Days Grace (Album- One X)

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
‘Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

Thank God it wasn't him!

Current Mood: tired
Current Colour: black
Current Music: sleeping with the lights on (busted)
Current Annoyance: my body aching
Current Obsession: sudoku on my N73! oh noooo....
Current Physical Ailment: body aching all over

Sigh... cant sleep again. so checking mail & what not. hmm... was reading my previous entry. hahahha... wanna laugh la. Was laughing d other day. I saw d guy-who-looks-like-Sunshine at airport. he was checking in. same flight as my sis. i had a good look at him. Definitely NOT Sunshine! why?

1. his nose is sharper & lips r different.
2. face is smaller & sharper. kinda ratty! lol.
3. he is a left hander (Sunshine's right handed. I should know. I observe him enough to know dat)
4. SKINNIER!!!
5. shorter
6. when i really got to look at him, i realised his build is not d same. small shoulders, d waist also different. dunno how i can tell but yeah.
7. his ass!! His Ass made me decide it wasn't Sunshine! LOL! Why? coz Sunshine's ass was wider! lol. and rounder and so nice to look at that it makes one wanna smack it! huhuhu...

hahaha... I sound like a perv la! But hey, I stare at his ass enough to enjoy it. din help dat he even purposely raise his t-shirt a bit to show his sexy red undies & then tug his short up... in front of me IN THE RAIN... after we got to uni... together... LOL. huh? together? hehehe... ader la... not gonna tell... *wink wink*

U shud haf heard my sighs of relieve when I realised it wasn't him. Kus semangat! Nearly died when i thought it was him. why? coz if it was him... i'd probably die of curiosity why he's here 7 all dat. Plus I had a weird dream abt him becoming a manager in brunei & we get invited to d same function (by French embassy at Yacht club!! must. be. wary. if. i. get.invite. from. french. embassy). weird, weird , WEIRD!!!

anyways... happy it's all over. but stress out coz my boss it back & i feel like my ass is gonna get busted. dunno la. when she was away office was very tensed bah. I have d feeling i used to have in uni or sch when i feel/know/think dat i will get called up and get busted! damn!

I thought I saw Sunshine in Brunei!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: confused
Current Colour: navy blue... hehehe
Current Music: some a1 songs my sis is playing... sigh remind me of......
Current Annoyance: was it you just now?
Current Obsession: is he is brunei?
Current Physical Ailment: headache due to confusion! heart ache is back again coz it remembers all d beautiful things of 2003-2004... sigh....

I just need to blog before I go crazy! was waiting 4 dad after work & i saw this guy talking to another guy (I assume asking something/ directions/ whatever). the first guy's back was facing me but something abt d physical build and mannerism reminded me of -HIM-. was wearing a cap and something abt d side of his face/ jaw under d cap reminded me of... Grrr...

when he walked passed me... aiyoyo... really looks like -HIM- except thinner and darker. height same, eyes, facial features all same. d guy din seem to show any recognisation when he passed me so maybe it's just me being silly and it wasn't him. then again, mayb if it WAS -HIM- then mayb he din recognise me with all my clothes on. eh, dont think d wrong way... i meant, he prob din recognise me (If it was -HIM-) coz he used to see me in skippy spaghetti strap tops and mini skirts in uni. Not that he had seen me nude la... choy! u think i so cheap ah? got offer but u think i want meh? wanna kena disown ka? cheh!

Anyway, now i cant sleep thus am blogging coz me so confused if that was -HIM- of his doppelganger (sp?) Aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! d first 2-3 hrs i was grinning like a fool, now my head is spinning like a whirlpool.... oh man. I'm starting to rhyme again. He makes me rhyme & write poems... beware if u get poems in my blog!! Damn!!! if it is him... wat's he doing here? where is his other half (rumoured to have one already...) wt was he doing where he was (just now) and looking for wat? Aaargh!!!! I nearly fell off the steps just now and my heart cud haf dropped out when he passed me. the eyes wa... it was similar... Kinda know how he looks like with out know it is him (physical-wise/ mannerism) coz i probably spent more time studying him than my books (lol... actually yes, i did but cant tell u when & where. but canteen & football field/ basketball court area are some of d places but thr's another place i spent hours 'studying'!).

Grrr... i need sleep!! got work in less than 7 hrs time! probably have night mares dreaming of him stalking me this time! LOL... Sigh... If anyone knows if that was -HIM- or not tell me please!!!! but.. "As if u'll know who -HIM- is!!"