Goodbye Sunshine

Current Mood: melancholic
Current Colour: red
Current Music: Heaven by Nu Flavour, Close To Heaven by Color Me Badd
Current Annoyance: Why do I miss you?
Current Physical Ailment: Insomnia

 Funny how I haven't written in this blog for years and suddenly I decide to write in here about an old flame... *sigh* Just like the old times...

I supposed I might as well dedicate this whole blog to 'him', eh? LOL.

 Hmmm.. Close To Heaven just came on iTunes. Thing song will always remind me of 'him'. How long has it been? 7 years?

 Crushes come and go. Time to move on. Well I did, and ended up with a rebound. Pathetic of me. hahaha... This I supposed, will be the last blog about 'him' in here.

 So, Mr Sunshine. For the last time... Thanks for the memories.

 xoxo
S. (I wonder if you remember what you used to call me...)

UPDATE: Skin change

Current Mood: Temperamental
Current Colour: colourful
Current Music: Freaky G by KRU
Current Annoyance: Job search
Current Obsession: NKOTB, Twitter, CSI:Miami
Current Physical Ailment: FLU! Damn haze!

Ok, this is my temporary blogskin. The candies look very cute! LOL...

Will work on a new NKOTB skin when I find time. And will try to start blogging more often... again.

Current Mood: mixed emotions... mood's been a rollercoaster since Thursday
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Single (NKOTB fr Ne-Yo)
Current Annoyance: I would like to kick a gossip monger to the the center of the sun
Current Obsession: NKOTB, duh!
Current Physical Ailment: headache.... maybe been thudding too much?

This is what that I am waiting for!! Yaaay!! These men have been my distraction for the past 4 coming to 5 months!

Happy Birthday Jordan (and Happy Birthday to me)

Current Mood: tired but estatic, on an all time NKOTB High
Current Colour: Black and white
Current Music: Radio (for once)
Current Annoyance: I wish I am in New Jersey for the Zootopia concert!
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!
Current Physical Ailment: 1 1/2 months without proper sleep... panda eyes!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORDAN!!

Hope you have a great birthday this year, with after the amazing comeback show yesterday and the concerts today and tomorrow! You get to share it with thousands of Blockhead!

Erm, sorry Danny, Happy belated birthday to you too! You also celebrated your birthday with the Blockheads at HOB too!

New Kids On The Block is BACK! Thanks for the great show guys!

Jonathan, you did great! Looking hot n sexy!!! :) You did that thrust thing too riiight?? I nearly fell off my chair! :D

Joe, the hat almost made me cry! :')

Donnie, OMG! The Thrust is back and you tease! You should kept ur shirt up longer! :D

Jordan, you looked sexy today! We need you to dance more! We miss your moves! ;)

Danny! You're looking fine these days! :)

I'm lazy to post the videos up just yet so I'll just put the links. Afterall, the blog is still blasting Tonight at the moment. LoL...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irlfv4VNHrY [NKOTB Live in NYC Part 1]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mG2_zcw-gw8 [NKOTB Live in NYC Part 2]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e1H1xluB6js [NKOTB Live in NYC Part 3]

On another note... It's my birthday too! LoL.... So what do I want? Go here to see (Wishlist)!! And whatever is on the column on the right, under the heading "I still believe in Santa Claus"!! hehehe....

Current Mood: odd, weird, sleepy
Current Colour: Orange
Current Music: Popsicle by NKOTB (hehehe... Jul, "popsicle"!)
Current Annoyance: Monday can't come soon enough and eurgh! Have to to minutes again
Current Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: Backache n stiff neck due to long hours on the pc, sore muscles coz of my work out on Thursday!

I nearly bought an orange shirt on Friday! hahahaha...

Instead, I bought a size M off white linen shirt and it fit perfectly (did not try it at the shop.)

I had one wild dream during my afternoon nap, I'm pissed mum woke me up. :( Wonder how far it could have gone. need a cold shower

I saw a guy that reminded me of Jonathan Knight.

I managed to control myself from over eating a buffet.

I can't wait til Monday to download Summertime.

I can't wait til Monday coz there's a surprise on nkotb.com.

Oh oh oh oh oh...

Current Mood: Weird out
Current Colour: Orange
Current Music: Favourite Girl (NKOTB) too many oh ohs.... Donnie said when they saing "Oh Oh" it actually means "I wanna grab your ass!" LoL... gotta find that quote! LoL
Current Annoyance: I wish I cud b in NYC on Thursday to join the Slumber Party at the Plaza (Rockefeller Plaza) and celebrate my 24th b'day with NKOTB. Hey's it's Jordan's b'day on the same day as mine too... LOL. Have fun everyone!
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!!!!!
Current Physical Ailment: Lack of sleep.... need to cut down my time on nkotb.com..

This is random... Sth Nong gave the link to me... LoL. Can u guess who the Sagittarius guy is? LoL...

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Will randomly blog again later...

"Special project"!!!!!!

Current Mood: Syok sendiri (erm... how to put this in English? I'm just smiling to myself n grinning like a nut... in Coffee Bean!)
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Please Don't Go Girl (Live) by NKOTB (Music Video from a show... damn cheesy... 80s cheesy that I love it!)
Current Annoyance: I wish I have such great connection at home
Current Obsession: NKOTB aka New Kids On The Block, downloading stuffs
Current Physical Ailment: Lack of sleep + stiff neck coz of spending too much time online doing my 'special project'

So a few ppl know I've been doing a 'special project'... for the past 6 days. lol.. So here it is... A NKOTB blogskin!! Lol... hahahaha...

My friend aka Juliana think's I'm obsessed. Lina probably thinks I'm crazy. lol...

This is my first self made blogskin so please be very forgiving... hehehehe... Over the next few day/ weeks there will be some little changes to the layout or pics (depending of there are anything new on NKOTB's Official Flickr site.

Anyway, wanna share some videos. I so wish I could in New Jewsey for their first concert on MY BIRTHDAY!!! lol... dream on... But I'd love to have NKOTB merchandise for my birthday ya... LoL...


NKOTB Stay Tuned!



A Little Buzz



NKOTB- Thank You!

Just to pass time...

Current Mood: bored n sleepy
Current Colour: orange... dunno y
Current Music: Bubble Wrap- McFly (on repeat mode)
Current Annoyance: I forgot to do the minutes coz was busy at work and is busy being sick!
Current Obsession: McFly & James Marsden songs, Heroes Ability & Superheroes games on Facebook
Current Physical Ailment: Swollen throat n cough, heart pain listening to this song (lied to Ade. I mite said I finally m over him n gave up but.... the heart remembers...)

Just passing some time while do the Minutes for some church stuff, do laundry n FB-ing... Came across some Blogthings on my sister's blog so I did a few n prob doing more to pass time while i think how to do the minutes. Hate to be a Secretary coz I suck at minutes... Why do I always get chosen to be Secretary?? Is it coz I'm always copying stuffs down? I'm doing that to stay awake!! Anyways...

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

See... It saws I should not be a Secretary... And worse... I'm a PA at work. :s

There's a 78% Chance That You Need Therapy

You almost certainly need therapy. And there's nothing wrong with that. Lately life has not been easy for you. Why not let a therapist help you sort things out?

Do You Need Therapy?

Hah!! I'm depressed, traumatised, heartbroken, stressed and now I'm nutters?? Oh man!

You Should Wear Bright Red Lipstick

In Your Face Sexy and Flirty Your look: Flawless Beauty Your signature lip gloss flavor: Cherry

What Shade of Lipstick Should You Wear?

LOL. M already wearing red Lipstick since uni tho I stopped for a few years n got back into it this year. Almost used up abt 1/2 of my Revlon Red red lipstick.

Your Birthdate: May 17

You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single. Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you! Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Ngaiteh... My heart gets broken 4 times? Does 4 times by d same guy counts? Sigh... can go thru this more than once... so 3 more times? probably gonna kill me. And compatible wid ppl born on *th? Hey, Milo's birthdate! lol

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Oh WOW! This is so true!! and the questions they ask r like so unrelated coz they ask u abt animals! Wow! Probably d most accurate n true blogthing I ever did. Period.

You Are An Attention Seeker

You're only human, so you can't help but want a little attention every now and then. You love the spotlight, but only when it's well deserved. You'd hate to be known for the wrong thing. And you also don't mind sharing the spotlight. You can easily give someone else credit or a complement. You know there's enough attention to go around, and it makes you happy when your friends shine. You come across as: Friendly and interesting People may wrongly think you're: A little more modest than you actually are!

Are You An Attention Whore?

I love d attention!!! LOOK AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! LoL

Your Mind is NC-17 Rated

You're mind is so filthy... you should should be washing every part of you out with soap. If your thoughts can go dirty, they do. Almost everything is NC-17 to you!

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

LoL... this is funny!! NC-17??/ R u sure....??

You Are 68% Pure

Well, you're not exactly an angel - but you're pretty darn close. But chances are, you have a couple juicy secrets deep in your closet.

How Pure Are You?

LoL...

You've Changed 72% in 10 Years

Compared to who you were ten years ago, you've changed a great deal. In fact, you're probably in a completely different phase of your life - and very happy about it!

How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?

Well, duh! I was a teen in Kuching and was at my peak of rebelliousness...lol

Your Nail Polish Color is Purple

How you're unique: You are artistic and expressive Why your style rocks: You pay special attention to color and fabrics What this color says about you: "I'm creative and know how to take care of myself"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

Lol... I haf maroon nails now...

You Are Picky When it Counts

Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well. But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating. You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!

Are You Too Picky When It Comes To Men?

Really??

You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Months

Maybe you need a bit more time to get over an ex Or maybe you need a confidence boost to talk to new guys Either way, you'll find a boyfriend in time... As long as you keep getting out there and meeting new guys

When Will You Meet Your Next Boyfriend?

OK. LET'S SEE IF THIS IS TRUE.

You Are Jean Grey

Although your fate is often unknown, you always seem to survive (even after death). Your mind is your greatest weapon, literally! Powers: telepathy and telekinesis, the ability to project thoughts into the mind of others, communication with animals

Which of the X-Men Are You?

Cool! I get to make out Cyclops! hahahah... I've always had a crush on James Marsden anyway... LoL -)

Your Daddy Is Johnny Depp

What You Call Him: Big Daddy Why You Love Him: He's the Mack Daddy

Who's Your Daddy?

Swoon.....

Your Mommy Is Angelina Jolie

What You Call Her: Mum

Who's Your Mommy?

LoL.. Johnny's my Daddy n Angie is my mummy... Y aren't i Half as hot as them?

Your Mind is Purple

Of all the mind types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Mind?

TRUE!!!!!!!!!

You Don't Need a Man ... or Want One!

Generally, you're very happy being a single woman. And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem. Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy. You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man!

Do You Need a Man?

LOL! YES IT'S TRUE!!! But there's hope...

Your True Love Will Find You Eventually

You definitely put yourself out there a little - but you could be doing more. If you're truly looking for love, try doing more things and meeting more people. You don't have to actively look for love, you just need to stay active. Be out there a little more, and the right person will find you!

Will Your True Love Find You?

Told ya...

You Are 64% A Child of the 80s

Not only did you experience the 80s... you are practically an expert. You should be totally stoked!

Are You a Child of an 80s?

LoL... Listening Joey McIntyre and also NKOTB now... so??

Your Job Satisfaction Level: 32%

Your job is definitely a bummer, and you probably should get a new one. Make sure you know what's getting you down. Is it your co-workers? The work environment? Your boss? Getting a new job is important, but so is not repeating the same mistakes.

Should You Get a New Job?

Hmmm......... how?

Your Career Personality: Capable, Friendly, and Energetic

Your Ideal Careers: Actor Advertising Executive Artist Counselor Entrepreneur Musician Politician Psychologist Teacher Television Reporter

The Quick and Dirty Career Test

LoL... wrong job now?

You Are a Comma

You are open minded and extremely optimistic. You enjoy almost all facets of life. You can find the good in almost anything. You keep yourself busy with tons of friends, activities, and interests. You find it hard to turn down an opportunity, even if you are pressed for time. Your friends find you fascinating, charming, and easy to talk to. (But with so many competing interests, you friends do feel like you hardly have time for them.) You excel in: Inspiring people You get along best with: The Question Mark

What Punctuation Mark Are You?

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image. On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex. You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time. Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

What Donut Are You?

That's me! Beware...

You Are a Great Liar

You can pretty much pull anything over on anyone. You are an expert liar, even if you don't lie very often.

Are You a Good Liar?

To end this entry... LoL

I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart...

Mood: Emo
Music: Bubble Wrap by McFly
Colour: Black n Maroon


Damn... just minding my own business and downloading a tonne of McFly song when I came upon this song from their "Motion in the Ocea" album entitle Bubble Wrap... makes me wanna cry.. Before that I was listening to a song entitled "Lonely" by them too... Guess this is how I feel right now...

Finally, once & for all, last Sunday I gave up all hope n watever feeling etc I had for Sunshine. He's such an ASS. I found out what he was trying to do... such a playa... thank God I was thinking straight or I'd end up like his miri ex... :(

Anyway, here's "LoneLy" and "Bubble Wrap".


P/S: Sharon & Mike, miss u 2!! :P No one to fight with me.... lol



Lonely (McFly)

It's only been a day
But it's like I cant go on
I just wanna say
I never meant to do you wrong

And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live

Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
'Cause thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby
Im so sick of being lonely

The stuff is in my house
So many things I cant ignore
Coats still on the couch yeah
Your photos on my freezer door

And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live

Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
Thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby
Im so sick of being lonely

lalalalalalalalalala
I am so lonelyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
lalalalalalalalala

And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live
yeahyeahyeahh..
Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
Thats the worst thing you could do!

Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby Im so sick of being lonely

I am so lonely
I am so lonely...



Bubble Wrap (McFly)

I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart,
In case I fall and break apart,
I'm not God I can't change the stars,
And I don't know if there's life on Mars,
But I know you hurt,
The people that you love and those who care for you,
I want nothing to do with the things you're going through.

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

I'm a little dazed and confused,
But life's a bitch and so are you,
All my days have turned into nights,
Cos living without, without, without you in my life,
And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,
And lose all your friends,
Did I mean nothing at all?
Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed?

Cos this is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

Yeah!Turn on the radio honey,
Cos every single sad song you'll be able to relate!
And this one i dedicate!

Whoa oh!
Don't get all emotional baby
,You can never talk to me,
You're unable to communicate!

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised...

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

This is Goodbye.

Heroes!! Lurve Heroes! (aka I have nothing better to blog?)

oodlCurrent Mood: estatic !!
Current Colour: light Bluuuueee (aiyo, how cud Milo/Peter look so freak hot in a hoodie??)
Current Music: Freak Me by Another Level (uh uh... ya know why... lol... tho this reminds me of Sunshine!)
Current Annoyance: Dial up freaking slow
Current Obsession: 1) Heroes Season 2. 2) Facebook. 3) Scrabulous 4) Britney's Gimme More (dammit, it's addictive! LoL)
Current Physical Ailment: Sleepy... lol. No thanks to my med...dang...

Okie... me nothing to blog so...

Hmm... I've finally caught up with my Heroes Season 2. Missed two (yes, TWO) weeks worth of Heroes. Hmmm ... but what I DIDN'T miss last week was this:




or you can watch it at here. (BEWARE: MINOR SPOILER )LoL.

Not 100% the sole reason I watch Heroes but probably erm... 85%?? hahahah.... Anyway, Ep. 8 is out... the one everyone has been waiting for: the one about what happened during & after the HUUGE PETER EXPLOSIO!! So gonna watch it tmrw... if m lucky.

Btw, abt the meds I was talking abt?? I'll blog abt it when I have a lil more time. basically me pretty high on some sort of 'dope'... my sis has been teasing me abt not getting involved in sports! lol.. It's prescription leh. but man, I do have a hell of an appetite... been trying to control it tho my tummy rumbling. lol... And yeah, i can't sleep or lie down within 2 hrs after meals. Damn. LoL... That means no bed time at 7.30pm after dinner. grr....

Anyway... it's alreasdy over 5 hrs after dinner but since i had chocs while baking choc & almond cookies... it's considered 3 hrs... can zzz now... so ciao.

Later babes.

Current Mood: Annoyed... can't find the hidden room/ clue!
Current Colour: seeing RED
Current Music:Photo by Ryan Cabrera (go figure why)
Current Annoyance: can't find d hidden room/ clue (what is this? read on)
Current Obsession: Heroes Official Game
Current Physical Ailment: Sore thumbs!!


Yatta!!! hahahah... I finished the Heroes game... THREE time already. lol. At first it took me 4 days, then two days then one night to complete. Lol... The first time was draggy coz it tooke me almost 3 day to finish the Final Battle... tricky but i figured it out finally. If you are playing, you'll get what I mean.

I'm not here to do a review, nor am I here to tell you how to play (sorry, i'm not a spoiler queen even though I do read them!) lol... The only thing I can tell you is that there is a HIDDEN ROOM in the game wich will provide a vital CLUE related to tehe current 2nd season. WHERE? I also dunno... still looking for it. I think on one of Hiro's level I did wander off in a different path somewhere but i'm NOT totally sure. LoL...

It's weird to blog when I know practically no one reads this but what the hell... this is my only outlet. Anyway, probably will be changing the blog skin... so see how it goes. Kinda sick of the purple look now. lol...

Heroes Mania!

Grrrr... I wanna go to LONDON!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah Lina. LONDON!! OMG, I'd cut ppl's brain open and eat them like Sylar to be there!! LOL LOL... eew... I take that back. LoL. But yeah, I need a break too... :( So freaking bored here. Aiyo, Wanna go Singapore with Ai Ling also parents dun let, wanna go London?? Dream on la. (besides, I haf no money la... LoL)

Ok, ok.. I'm so kinda obsessed with Heroes these days. I just can't wait for the DVD!!! Ppl in Singapore, London, where ever... Get me the DVD set! Oh well.. u know how lagging Brunei is. Beside WHERE IN BRUNEI CAN YOU GET ORIGINAL DVDs?? Lol...

Hmmm... can't wait til season 2 starts showing here. Aiyo. How come we r not getting the Heroes specials which the stars host their special episodes?? aiyama... have to rely on youtube but... dial up worr... so slooooow... hahaha

Anyway, these are my favourite links

Heroes 360

Heroes MySpace

Heroes Wiki I love this site. Gives lots of indepth info on the show. even on things you never noticed! LoL. M such a geek...

Heroes the Series

Heroes transcript

Heroes Store I want everything there!!!

LoL... M such a geek leh. hahaha...need to get a life but... hey, who has a life here in brunei? LoL. All we do is work, eat, shop and sleep.... and repeat again. Is isn't a wonder why I seem to spend hundreds every month! (OMG Hundreds??? mum's gonna kill me!) Hmmm... they should have a Heroes store here....

Ok ok.. I better stop before everyone thinks I'm too heroes-crazy or a heroes maniac. Lol... Sigh... Y Brunei so sien one??? NOTHING ever happens here... :( AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!


Linaaaaa!!!! Knock my head!! LoL... (R u sick of me yet ah?) Damn, my sis not here for me to bug! LoL...

My Cutie's Going To Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: Love sick & ecstatic
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Way Back Into Love from the Music & Lyrics OST (on repeat & singing it too)
Current Annoyance: being so far away from.... ;p
Current Obsession: Heroes and milo peng addiction
Current Physical Ailment: Love sick


OH my God, Oh my God!! My dream guy is coming to Singapore in like 3 months!!!! Aiiiii!!!! (Scream!!) Just found out the news about 20 Minutes ago! OMG OMG OMG!!! Gonna die from excitement!!! LOL. See, I have not blogged for ages and now m blogging abt him! AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh man!! I need to find a way to Singapore then! Planning ahead. Ok, ok…. If he is confirm going I’m gonna book tickets. Hopefully I can go. Please please let it be a Saturday so I can fly on Friday and come back on Sunday. OMG…. Like planning a rendevous!! Hahahaha… IZZAH DO NOT MENTION HIS NAME HERE!!!! OMG…. Now I feel like drinking a glass of cold milo peng… aiyo… had one already today!! Hahahah….

Calm down, calm down… Ok who is he? Hahahaha… not gonna say… *Sing* “all I wanna do is find my way back into love” Oh Gosh he’s so freaking hot. Damn, I was so engrossed with “Sunshine” back then I never saw how hot he is…. LoL… And I thought “Sunshine” was all that… damn. This guy makes “Sunshine” pale in comparison!! His brown eyes, cute smile and tousled hair…. Aiyo, makes Sunshine look blah. Seriously, how does Sunshine look like again??? Hahahahaha… M serious!!! LOL.

Oh man, m so in love with the song. Who cares if it’s Hugh Grant singing… I love the lyrics and the melody!! Hehehehe… It kinda makes makes me nice, worm and fuzzy inside like thinking of my cutie does… LoL… hahahaha… makes me imaginew me & cutie dancing together… lol lol lol… The lyrics kinda speak of what I'm feeling right now...

Was under some sort of hypnosis thingy the other day... The psychologist said thing of a happy memory and in my mind i suddenly remember how save and secured I felt in Sunshine's car that one rainy day... how the air smelled, the feling of his car seat, my wet clothes, the smell inside the car, his perfume, how his smie looked like and his voice etc... then the psychologist said "now it is time o let go and forget of the past. move on. forgive and forget..." and then he counted backwards and I woke up... freaky but i kinda find it easier to forget sunshine... sigh... and that was at a talk by a psychologist i went with my family & some church ppl...

Now I'm ready to move on and think abt my cutie!! Damn, why cant he come to Brunei eh? And Lina, stop SMSing me all that stuff just now... not too X Rated at church k... LoL... I know u dont mean it to sound x rated but u know d state of my hormone right now!! LoL.... ROTFLMAO!!! Oh man.... I dunno wat to do now.... Shit better not effect my work la. Hope my boss dont find me drooling abt him or me sending him Myspace messages... LoL... Which reminds me... I supposed to ask Lina what to ask him. Damn. lol... oh man, I swear a lot today, huh? and to think that all it takes to get me all swear-y wa the thought of a rendezvous with him!! Hmmm.. i should realy get him a nick name.... will think of it tonight. The one Lina & I use is too conspicuous !! Man, my feet r tingling! LoL... hahaha... M I in love??? nah, until d day of the skin on skin contact (ew... sound so x rated... til we r physically near each other?) probably?? LoL...

Hmmm... gotta go off now... Need to shower and start the beautification regime... LoL. I love it when I'm crushing... My face's skin becomes all soft and smooth with out much work. Don't even need to worry to exfoliate or do facial... and my face glow from inside. must be too happy... LoL...

Oh man.. update!! he's gonna be inSingapore on Aust 31 & Sept 1st!!!! OMG!!! Tickets!!


Hugh Grant & Haley Bennet- Way Back Into Love (Music & Lyrics OST)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

Pain...

Current Mood: melancholic
Current Colour: navy blue, dark red
Current Music: Pain by Three Day's Grace
Current Annoyance: Get out of my head!
Current Obsession: getting someone out of my system again

this song's one of my fav new songs... cant find the CD song manage to get the ring tone. Saw d music vid on MTV & loved d song from the first time... Lyrics says it all... got a "relapse". wonder when can I get over this????

Pain - Three Days Grace (Album- One X)

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
‘Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

I thought I saw Sunshine in Brunei!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: confused
Current Colour: navy blue... hehehe
Current Music: some a1 songs my sis is playing... sigh remind me of......
Current Annoyance: was it you just now?
Current Obsession: is he is brunei?
Current Physical Ailment: headache due to confusion! heart ache is back again coz it remembers all d beautiful things of 2003-2004... sigh....

I just need to blog before I go crazy! was waiting 4 dad after work & i saw this guy talking to another guy (I assume asking something/ directions/ whatever). the first guy's back was facing me but something abt d physical build and mannerism reminded me of -HIM-. was wearing a cap and something abt d side of his face/ jaw under d cap reminded me of... Grrr...

when he walked passed me... aiyoyo... really looks like -HIM- except thinner and darker. height same, eyes, facial features all same. d guy din seem to show any recognisation when he passed me so maybe it's just me being silly and it wasn't him. then again, mayb if it WAS -HIM- then mayb he din recognise me with all my clothes on. eh, dont think d wrong way... i meant, he prob din recognise me (If it was -HIM-) coz he used to see me in skippy spaghetti strap tops and mini skirts in uni. Not that he had seen me nude la... choy! u think i so cheap ah? got offer but u think i want meh? wanna kena disown ka? cheh!

Anyway, now i cant sleep thus am blogging coz me so confused if that was -HIM- of his doppelganger (sp?) Aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! d first 2-3 hrs i was grinning like a fool, now my head is spinning like a whirlpool.... oh man. I'm starting to rhyme again. He makes me rhyme & write poems... beware if u get poems in my blog!! Damn!!! if it is him... wat's he doing here? where is his other half (rumoured to have one already...) wt was he doing where he was (just now) and looking for wat? Aaargh!!!! I nearly fell off the steps just now and my heart cud haf dropped out when he passed me. the eyes wa... it was similar... Kinda know how he looks like with out know it is him (physical-wise/ mannerism) coz i probably spent more time studying him than my books (lol... actually yes, i did but cant tell u when & where. but canteen & football field/ basketball court area are some of d places but thr's another place i spent hours 'studying'!).

Grrr... i need sleep!! got work in less than 7 hrs time! probably have night mares dreaming of him stalking me this time! LOL... Sigh... If anyone knows if that was -HIM- or not tell me please!!!! but.. "As if u'll know who -HIM- is!!"

Pictures from 2004

Just an old picture from my uni days... An Orientation Night party I organised. Need to find the original picture (sorry Fi, I cropped you coz I wanted to use the pic as my display pic in MSN). The theme was Hawaiian & Carribean... As u could probably see (if ur eyes r sharp) I was wearing a bikini top! Lol! just needed the top for decency's sake!

Blog thing quizes

You Are 60% Extrovert, 40% Introvert

You are quite outgoingYou are a social connector - you know a ton of peopleWhile you aren't a wild extrovert, you are a great talkerA fantastic storyteller, you keep everyone laughing

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

You Are 47% Angry

Generally, you are not an angry person. But you're easily frustrated and enraged. You have one heck of a temper. And because of your anger, you tend to feel resentful and even spiteful. You already know how to quell your anger. You just need to do it more often.

How Angry Are You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts)

You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced. You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

YES!!! I SHOULD!!!

You Should Be an Actor

You have a flair for the dramatic, and you probably already do a lot of acting in your day to day life, just to entertain yourself. No need to steal the spotlight from your friends... You'll get plenty of attention once you start acting professionally!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack, I've been too long, I'm glad to be back" Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos. But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

What's Your Theme Song?

You Are 64% Control Freak

You are a pretty major control freak, though you may not know it. While your confidence is inspiring, your bossy ways tend to scare people off.

Are You A Control Freak?

Hahaha... I am?

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart. While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

Coz I m a 'teenager' stuck in an office full of 'deperate women...' LOL!! Seems like an episod of Despearte Housewives everyday!

Your Hair Should Be Blue

Wild, brilliant, and out of control. You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

You Are 36% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Your Stress Level is: 62%

You are prone to stress, and you're probably even pretty stressed right now. Life's problems seem to pile up on you, and this often makes you feel depressed and burned out. Learn to take time to relax and enjoy life, even if things are stressful. It's the only way you'll get through the bad times.

How Stressed Are You?

You Should Drive a Bentley Azure

You're all flash, and you love to show off to anyone who will watch. And you're such a high roller, this is just one car of many for you...

What 2007 Car Should You Drive?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few. But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

You Are Shadowcat

You're like a little sister to some, but others see you as a sex kitten. You are well trained in martial arts, a bit of a computer geek, and can totally kick butt. Powers: the ability to "phase" through walls and other physical objects

Which of the X-Men Are You?

You Are a Chick Rocker!

You're living proof that chicks can rock You're inspired by Joan Jett and the Donnas And when you rock, you rock hard (Plus, you get all the cute guy groupies you want!)

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

You Are Very Worldly

You're an international jet setter - or pretty darn close. And while you may feel like you have many more places to visit... Most people live their whole lives without seeing what you've seen. In fact, you're probably going to be traveling again soon. So Bon Voyage!

How Worldly Are You?

You Are a Drama Queen (or King)

And the oscar goes to... you! You're all about overreacting and just plain acting. You see the world as your stage, and give a great performance. And while you're friends may find you entertaining at times... Everyone's secretly hoping that you'll just chill a little. (But they'd never tell you - they fear your wrath!)

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

Your Birthdate: May 17

You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single. Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you! Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

You are a Rocker Girl!

If you don't have musical talent, you've got a talent for picking out great CD's. Music rules your life - and you've got the best MP3 collection of anyone you know. Many guys find you intimidating, but a select few think you're the catch of a lifetime. Start hanging out in more used record stores, and you'll find love with a fellow rocker!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

You Should Be a Cherry Redhead

Sexy, dramatic, but still sweetly feminine. Perfect for getting out of the hair color doldrums!

What Kind of Redhead Should You Be?

I used to have cherry red hair!! Coincidence?

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Marquise Diamond!

Like most Marquise diamond wearers, you are sexy and impulsive. You're also good at getting what you want in life, no matter what it is. You tend to be successful at love, your career, and anything else you desire. Think Victoria Beckham and Catherine Zeta Jones: proud wearers of this ring!

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring?

Your Perfume is Still

You are simply and totally sophisticated. Your style and class mesmerize everyone you meet. Underneath it all, you are delicate and refreshing. You're different enough to make an impression, that's for sure. Power scents: White pepper, musk, and honeysuckle.

What Perfume Are You?

You Are Most Like Christina Aguilera

“I'm experimental by nature...always exploring my creativity.”

What Modern Bombshell Are You Most Like?