Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Current Mood: dunno
Current Colour: black
Current Music: some jiwang Richard Claderman song (not me play one!)
Current Annoyance: wanna shit... hahaha
Current Obsession: sleepy
Current Physical Ailment: back ache & stomach ache (PMS I think)

hmmm... i dunno la but this jiwang music makes me feel... erm, dunno la... *SIGH* u know, all this while (for the past 6 months) I've been pretty mum abt my 'relationship' with Sunshine (as friend la). Outside I seem pretty ok esp since he is now out of my life.

But seriously, eventhough the time we were frens i treasure a lot, thr's lots of up & downs in that 1 year plus... I dunno but maybe i'm just sensitive la but sometime i feel like he only befriended me (well, i took the first step but yeah, he accepted it) only for his own gain. Dunno la... Just my feelings. I mean yeah, he's pretty nice & did do some nice thingies like opening the door & stuffs but I dunno how to say la... It's like sometimes I'm so invisible. Oh well, most ppl think I am so anyway.

I dunno y but these Curtin guys r really crazy & insane sometimes. They scare me alot u know sometimes. I know some close frens knows this but it was SHOCKING when someone "invited" me to bed with him.... (not in those words). HELLO!!! u CRAZY KA??? ppl think dat i'm like dat jez because i hangout with guys. Excuse me! then thr's this guy, i wrote notes for him when he was sick but he dun really seem to remember it (duh! & I failed dat unit pula).

Sometimes, it's nice to be appreciated u know... lots of ppl treat me like dat. I'm so sad. I mean, i do do things sincerely from the heart but sometimes it's nice to be appreciated & thanked. Esp from friends dat u care for, ppl dat u respect. Yeah.... life's like dat & i shud jez take it as it is. I'm jez bein a bitch now... PMS wat to do...

Aaargh!!! I dunno y i'm so crazy today... these few days. Sunshine is giving nightmares each night (no more sweet dreams of him...) I fear dat he might one day coem to murder me... hahahah,..... dat's wat my dream says wat... hahhaha... well, gtg & gd nite...