Freaking mad!!! M 23, not 5!!!

Current Mood: Freaking mad
Current Colour: red and black
Current Music: a pretty hypnotic song- teardrop by massive attack (listening to Prison Break OST) wait... change to deftones cd. not my kninda thing but my emo guy listens to it. it has serve it's purpose... it's emo enough for my emo mood... grrrrr....
Current Annoyance: parents being a pain in my@ss... they treat my sis as if she's 20 years older than me n i'm only 5!!
Current Obsession: getting the hell out of brunei



Ok. so I lie. I do hate getting stucked in brunei, no frens except Lina and Khiong, working with OLDER ppl who have kids my age, no life except go to work- come home- sleep- and repeat that every freaking working day!!!

I've been trying to convince myself, life isn't so freaking bad here in brunei. no tax, no war, earn enough money to convince myself not to kill myself after work each day....

do i hate my job? no... i hate my freaking life! d only fun i ever get is when i go out with lina to shop/ eat/ hunting/ wahatever... enough fun to be contented to actually have only one real fren here in this WHOLE country. sad? i think i really should have taken up mum's offer to bring me to psychatrist when i was 15-16. yeah, i've been pretty fucked up since i stepped into brunei. i had a normal life in kuching. when i was in miri at least i have a semi normal life. Now?? i dont haf a life. One day might go haywire and be dysfunctional. maybe i shud do a britney and shave my freaking hair off...

yes. this is my cry for attention, i want, no, i NEED to get out of brunei. it's screwing up my life- depression at 15, suffered from bully-ish from form 4-5, low self esteem at 16, inferior complex at 16, duel/multi personality complex by 18 (if u know me from uni, u'd b surprise to know the me in brunei), no bf til 23.... damn. How to get a bf if wanna go out with a FEMALE friend (aka Lina, who else?) also haf to ask for permission?? Am 23 orr, not 15! My sis sometimes just go out and she's 20!!

my sis allowed to travel on her own (she flew ALONE yesterday) or with frens by 18 or 19. me? d furthest is miri la, by bus n sampan. u think my parents even allow me to go further? once off handedly said wanna go to sibu by land with frens, they freak out... yeah. That bad. and that was when i was in uni.

the first time i went out with frens (legally) was when i was 17 (at 123 0r 14 or so got sneak out la... pretend go to post office or sch or buy sch project stuffs... but go lim teh or just browsing at BOOKSTORE... m such a nerd/ geek). my first sleepover was at 18. my first sem in uni (foundation at riam time) i was grounded for 1 sem coz i got caught at d shopping mall at 10.30pm by my cousin (tale tell... :( grrr...) My first date... hahahha... u think any guy wanna date me? considering that they probably haf to send in written request to my parents just to go out with me or worse probably wanna chaperone. Oh hell...

come on la. M old enough to think here! if in uni manage to fend off ppl who wanted to get into my pants (yeah, a few... including... nevermind), definitely know how to think properly. I mean, d idea of u know, one night stand... to some it's fun but to me... i have a sense of dignity and self worth. i still respect myself and even if no 1 respect me, i still wanna respect myself in d morning when i get up. me no prude (oh hell, further than that ok. my mind is like an x rated movie store sometimes, thanks to listening to too much guys' talk in uni) but dont expect me to screw around.

drug, smoking, drinking, sex... all the vices... i manage to graduate without trying any of those. what makes it different now?? considering i had frens who r alcoholics, chain smokers ( normal ciggies n also those who did weed...), druggies/ pusher (well i suspect only la, cant confirm... lol. dunno whr they r now), permiscuous frens (yeah, some bitches i know slept with HIM)... i don't condemn them for their choices... it's a free world. but they never influenced me. hell, idont even go clubbing!! not that i'm a goody two shoes... iame home at 9am before (but stayng alone so who cares... din come back for days also no1 scold...)

parents shud give me some slack la... m 23, repeat, 23. I work and earn my own money. yes, i did set aside some for d future. for my studies but hey... i need to relax sometimes. need to go out, meet some friends, meet guys (brunei no guys that interest me, all i meet are OLD ppl from work related thingies) mayb date a few guys? Grrr!!! I wish some guy jsut sweep me off my feet, bring me away to a far far away land and live happily ever after... when i was 12, i said i wanna marry at 24... hello, m 23 and no bf... u think my parents let me get married after a short courtship??? no way... ppl gossip only later, must b pregnant one la, shotgun al, whatever la... probably at least 5 years by d looks of it... if i even manage to get a guy to date me in d first place!! sigh... scared of ending up alone... a lonely spinster with 30 cats... Oh hell!! that's scary. if by 40 din marry probably kill myself liaw lorr or b permiscuous... hahahaha.... sigh... only if.... who knows, probably dun even live to be 30 with all this stress and depression... lol. touch wood!!!

But m raring to leave this place so ppl, if u wanna make me happy, offer me a job OUTSIDE of brunei and sarawak/sabah ok. The further aka Hollywood d better! of course m not cutting ties la... come back 4 holidays but hell... need to get out n learn how to cope in d real world. how to be a mother to a 23 year old next time if i cant give advise how it is to b a 23 year old trying to survive in the real world???? Grrr...right now my family is dysfunctional enough ok (not immediate family, extended family). dont make my future like that too... need space to breathe!! aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, my point is... I'm 23. Give me opportunity to grow up and experience life as a 20 something. Allow me to make decissions ( how to how to learn if never get opportunity?? like this job, i applied for it and took it because MY PARENTS want me to, not because I WANT to... more like I HAD to coz I HAD NO CHOICE... I need a job that i enjoy and not a job whr i haf to lie that i liked it whenever i meet YOUR friends) Let me go outh with friends sometimes. If my youngers sister can go for holidays alone, why not me. After all, I'm going with my best friend of 13 years.... who was like another daughter in the family. So... Let me go to Singapore!!!!!!! aargh!!! Stressed enough in office. need to let go some steam before i explode.


P/S: M not disrespecting my parents here or how they r bring us up/ parenting skills. we turn out ok but please... no need to hold on too tight. I need to grow up and leave the nest.

My Cutie's Going To Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: Love sick & ecstatic
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Way Back Into Love from the Music & Lyrics OST (on repeat & singing it too)
Current Annoyance: being so far away from.... ;p
Current Obsession: Heroes and milo peng addiction
Current Physical Ailment: Love sick


OH my God, Oh my God!! My dream guy is coming to Singapore in like 3 months!!!! Aiiiii!!!! (Scream!!) Just found out the news about 20 Minutes ago! OMG OMG OMG!!! Gonna die from excitement!!! LOL. See, I have not blogged for ages and now m blogging abt him! AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh man!! I need to find a way to Singapore then! Planning ahead. Ok, ok…. If he is confirm going I’m gonna book tickets. Hopefully I can go. Please please let it be a Saturday so I can fly on Friday and come back on Sunday. OMG…. Like planning a rendevous!! Hahahaha… IZZAH DO NOT MENTION HIS NAME HERE!!!! OMG…. Now I feel like drinking a glass of cold milo peng… aiyo… had one already today!! Hahahah….

Calm down, calm down… Ok who is he? Hahahaha… not gonna say… *Sing* “all I wanna do is find my way back into love” Oh Gosh he’s so freaking hot. Damn, I was so engrossed with “Sunshine” back then I never saw how hot he is…. LoL… And I thought “Sunshine” was all that… damn. This guy makes “Sunshine” pale in comparison!! His brown eyes, cute smile and tousled hair…. Aiyo, makes Sunshine look blah. Seriously, how does Sunshine look like again??? Hahahahaha… M serious!!! LOL.

Oh man, m so in love with the song. Who cares if it’s Hugh Grant singing… I love the lyrics and the melody!! Hehehehe… It kinda makes makes me nice, worm and fuzzy inside like thinking of my cutie does… LoL… hahahaha… makes me imaginew me & cutie dancing together… lol lol lol… The lyrics kinda speak of what I'm feeling right now...

Was under some sort of hypnosis thingy the other day... The psychologist said thing of a happy memory and in my mind i suddenly remember how save and secured I felt in Sunshine's car that one rainy day... how the air smelled, the feling of his car seat, my wet clothes, the smell inside the car, his perfume, how his smie looked like and his voice etc... then the psychologist said "now it is time o let go and forget of the past. move on. forgive and forget..." and then he counted backwards and I woke up... freaky but i kinda find it easier to forget sunshine... sigh... and that was at a talk by a psychologist i went with my family & some church ppl...

Now I'm ready to move on and think abt my cutie!! Damn, why cant he come to Brunei eh? And Lina, stop SMSing me all that stuff just now... not too X Rated at church k... LoL... I know u dont mean it to sound x rated but u know d state of my hormone right now!! LoL.... ROTFLMAO!!! Oh man.... I dunno wat to do now.... Shit better not effect my work la. Hope my boss dont find me drooling abt him or me sending him Myspace messages... LoL... Which reminds me... I supposed to ask Lina what to ask him. Damn. lol... oh man, I swear a lot today, huh? and to think that all it takes to get me all swear-y wa the thought of a rendezvous with him!! Hmmm.. i should realy get him a nick name.... will think of it tonight. The one Lina & I use is too conspicuous !! Man, my feet r tingling! LoL... hahaha... M I in love??? nah, until d day of the skin on skin contact (ew... sound so x rated... til we r physically near each other?) probably?? LoL...

Hmmm... gotta go off now... Need to shower and start the beautification regime... LoL. I love it when I'm crushing... My face's skin becomes all soft and smooth with out much work. Don't even need to worry to exfoliate or do facial... and my face glow from inside. must be too happy... LoL...

Oh man.. update!! he's gonna be inSingapore on Aust 31 & Sept 1st!!!! OMG!!! Tickets!!


Hugh Grant & Haley Bennet- Way Back Into Love (Music & Lyrics OST)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

What an eventful week!

Seems that I have not updated for a zillion years!! Been pretty busy these few weeks. To sum up last week...

One day I had to work at 5.30AM and it was raining cats and dog (some parts of Bandar flooded!!) but luckily I had the rest of the day off after the event I had to do.

A few days later I went to an ambassador's house an was overwhelmed by her 'down to earth-ness'... She's so nice and frankly speaking, treats everyone equally but yet still retains their respect for her and her people really looks up to her. Who? Someone who is quite a good friend of dad's (or so I think). We even had dinner at the same table as her!! I feel so touched by her humility that I feel like such an ass for being so diva-ish sometimes! LOL

Been a pretty hectic week this week and yesterday was so hectic I felt so faint... esp since I had to go for another meeting after work. So stressed!!! 1 hour after i got home I decided to check my blood pressure... OMG! It had shot up to 131/83!!! I wonder how high it would have been if I had checked an hour earlier! Anyway, we also had soem sort of family gathering with my mum's God daughter's family at my place as her bro just celebrated his birthday. They her mum did facial for mum, me & my sis (in that order...) LOL. She's a beautician ma... My God sister is so cheeky... she wanted to polish our then-white-with-masque faces with black shoe polish!! She & her sis were running around climbing over chairs and people... I wish I was 5 again... hahahah..

Today was quite ok, not as bad a yesterday la. But my boss woke me up when she called at 7am! (I wake at 7.20am every working day). Just came back from a dinner actually. A 'rojak' dinner- thanksgiving, early 39 Wedding anniversary (uh-oh... I thought it was 40! My bad...), a belated wedding dinner by the couple's son, family gathering/ reunion, friends gathering etc... Pretty ok. Had quite good company at my table (though it was the last table at the back but we could actually have more 'privacy' to talk). They are all my parents' friend but hey, I'm cool with them. Prefer them to some young people (who kinda freak me out! yeah, soem of my sister's friends do!)

Oh yeah, yesterday got a call from Body shop that my pics are ready to be collected. But since I was rushing home from meeting for the family thingy I didn't manage to collect it. Dad collected it this morning for me (thankie...) and it's ok la. Though my family said I look like Bollywood actress pulang (heh??!!? Me Chinese, not Indian... As fas as I know I have no Indian blood in family line... What am I? Read my sister's blog entry on that.) Anyways, I'll put up one pic at a time at my friendster site so if you are curious look at it la... hehehe... The link to my friendster is at the link area on the right --->>

Okies... gotta shower and go to bed now... Got hay fever and allergies from a HUGE vase of flowers at the dinner... I'm allergic to pollen! My eyes are pinkish, watery and and had running nose during the dinner. Din help that I was (am still) wearing a very low cut dress... Was worried that my bra would come out! lol.. Ok... Nite nite... Ooh... gotta wish ppl happy birthday before midnight!

P/S:: My birthday is 2 week's time!! Yahoo!!! Hope i get many prezzies! lol...

What an eventful week!

Seems that I have not updated for a zillion years!! Been pretty busy these few weeks. To sum up last week...

One day I had to work at 5.30AM and it was raining cats and dog (some parts of Bandar flooded!!) but luckily I had the rest of the day off after the event I had to do.

A few days later I went to an ambassador's house an was overwhelmed by her 'down to earth-ness'... She's so nice and frankly speaking, treats everyone equally but yet still retains their respect for her and her people really looks up to her. Who? Someone who is quite a good friend of dad's (or so I think). We even had dinner at the same table as her!! I feel so touched by her humility that I feel like such an ass for being so diva-ish sometimes! LOL

Been a pretty hectic week this week and yesterday was so hectic I felt so faint... esp since I had to go for another meeting after work. So stressed!!! 1 hour after i got home I decided to check my blood pressure... OMG! It had shot up to 131/83!!! I wonder how high it would have been if I had checked an hour earlier! Anyway, we also had soem sort of family gathering with my mum's God daughter's family at my place as her bro just celebrated his birthday. They her mum did facial for mum, me & my sis (in that order...) LOL. She's a beautician ma... My God sister is so cheeky... she wanted to polish our then-white-with-masque faces with black shoe polish!! She & her sis were running around climbing over chairs and people... I wish I was 5 again... hahahah..

Today was quite ok, not as bad a yesterday la. But my boss woke me up when she called at 7am! (I wake at 7.20am every working day). Just came back from a dinner actually. A 'rojak' dinner- thanksgiving, early 39 Wedding anniversary (uh-oh... I thought it was 40! My bad...), a belated wedding dinner by the couple's son, family gathering/ reunion, friends gathering etc... Pretty ok. Had quite good company at my table (though it was the last table at the back but we could actually have more 'privacy' to talk). They are all my parents' friend but hey, I'm cool with them. Prefer them to some young people (who kinda freak me out! yeah, soem of my sister's friends do!)

Oh yeah, yesterday got a call from Body shop that my pics are ready to be collected. But since I was rushing home from meeting for the family thingy I didn't manage to collect it. Dad collected it this morning for me (thankie...) and it's ok la. Though my family said I look like Bollywood actress pulang (heh??!!? Me Chinese, not Indian... As fas as I know I have no Indian blood in family line... What am I? Read my sister's blog entry on that.) Anyways, I'll put up one pic at a time at my friendster site so if you are curious look at it la... hehehe... The link to my friendster is at the link area on the right --->>

Okies... gotta shower and go to bed now... Got hay fever and allergies from a HUGE vase of flowers at the dinner... I'm allergic to pollen! My eyes are pinkish, watery and and had running nose during the dinner. Din help that I was (am still) wearing a very low cut dress... Was worried that my bra would come out! lol.. Ok... Nite nite... Ooh... gotta wish ppl happy birthday before midnight!

P/S:: My birthday is 2 week's time!! Yahoo!!! Hope i get many prezzies! lol...

Facelift

Current Mood: pissed
Current Colour: seeing red
Current Music: tv
Current Annoyance: ppl who dont like me to input into conversations... ppl trying to make conversation ma... if i dun talk ppl say i'm sulking again n not sociable

Nothing much to blog coz got mood killer at home... ppl cannaot kill that person's mmod but that person can kill other's mood la... grr...

Anyways, in d next few days would be giving my bloggie a face lift. Deleting some entries, esp those of me ranting about more oh-so-boring job. Why can't I have a job half as exciting as what I studied? The closes thing to a production set/ studio i have now is the RTB studios!!! *Groan* Can't wait til Rama announce that Curtin would be offering MA in mass Comm... though he did say it could be Media Management... Not my kinda thing... prefer to work my way up first... It's weird that nowadays ppl tend to get managerial jobs without knowing what they are supposed to be managing. I mean, if a person is a Media manager, of course he/she needs to have a knowledge and experience of the people they are managing. eg, managing a TV network... should know how TV programming is done, handled, the selection proccess that has to be done when selecting tv shows, time slots, adverts etc... Besides... I'm kinda sick of working in an office with no action! LOL... need the adrenaline rush, moving here and there, working under extreme pressure... Syok man!!

Anyways... I'll better stop before I go off ranting about my 'job' again... People would think i hate my job. No I don't actually hate it. Frankly speaking.. I don't feel anything about it. I do what I have to do, not because I want to but because I have to. Most ppl hate their bosses... Mine's not bad. Pretty nice. too bad I cant say the same about my DOB (only I know what DOB means) colleagues... Plus... the AGE GAP!! and the lack of men... Married older men with kids my age or older ada lah in my office but sorry... Not interested at all... Sigh...

PPl think I hate my life in Brunei... Truly, if this is any other country and my life is still like this, I'd stil hate it. It's not the country (unless it's a country where I can actually see/meet young hot guys and not boring old people only)... it's d ppl (or lack of ppl) I'm around. Need to hang out with more younget ppl... Other ppl can hang out with their colleagues after work... Mine? Hello... they haf families to return to. Had so much fun that day cruising around and hanging out at coffeebean til pass midnight with Lina & Khiong... and coming back only when my parents were already sleeping! hahaha... Definitely better than coming back from workand crashing on d bed
each night, day in and day out...

Pain...

Current Mood: melancholic
Current Colour: navy blue, dark red
Current Music: Pain by Three Day's Grace
Current Annoyance: Get out of my head!
Current Obsession: getting someone out of my system again

this song's one of my fav new songs... cant find the CD song manage to get the ring tone. Saw d music vid on MTV & loved d song from the first time... Lyrics says it all... got a "relapse". wonder when can I get over this????

Pain - Three Days Grace (Album- One X)

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
‘Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

Thank God it wasn't him!

Current Mood: tired
Current Colour: black
Current Music: sleeping with the lights on (busted)
Current Annoyance: my body aching
Current Obsession: sudoku on my N73! oh noooo....
Current Physical Ailment: body aching all over

Sigh... cant sleep again. so checking mail & what not. hmm... was reading my previous entry. hahahha... wanna laugh la. Was laughing d other day. I saw d guy-who-looks-like-Sunshine at airport. he was checking in. same flight as my sis. i had a good look at him. Definitely NOT Sunshine! why?

1. his nose is sharper & lips r different.
2. face is smaller & sharper. kinda ratty! lol.
3. he is a left hander (Sunshine's right handed. I should know. I observe him enough to know dat)
4. SKINNIER!!!
5. shorter
6. when i really got to look at him, i realised his build is not d same. small shoulders, d waist also different. dunno how i can tell but yeah.
7. his ass!! His Ass made me decide it wasn't Sunshine! LOL! Why? coz Sunshine's ass was wider! lol. and rounder and so nice to look at that it makes one wanna smack it! huhuhu...

hahaha... I sound like a perv la! But hey, I stare at his ass enough to enjoy it. din help dat he even purposely raise his t-shirt a bit to show his sexy red undies & then tug his short up... in front of me IN THE RAIN... after we got to uni... together... LOL. huh? together? hehehe... ader la... not gonna tell... *wink wink*

U shud haf heard my sighs of relieve when I realised it wasn't him. Kus semangat! Nearly died when i thought it was him. why? coz if it was him... i'd probably die of curiosity why he's here 7 all dat. Plus I had a weird dream abt him becoming a manager in brunei & we get invited to d same function (by French embassy at Yacht club!! must. be. wary. if. i. get.invite. from. french. embassy). weird, weird , WEIRD!!!

anyways... happy it's all over. but stress out coz my boss it back & i feel like my ass is gonna get busted. dunno la. when she was away office was very tensed bah. I have d feeling i used to have in uni or sch when i feel/know/think dat i will get called up and get busted! damn!

I thought I saw Sunshine in Brunei!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: confused
Current Colour: navy blue... hehehe
Current Music: some a1 songs my sis is playing... sigh remind me of......
Current Annoyance: was it you just now?
Current Obsession: is he is brunei?
Current Physical Ailment: headache due to confusion! heart ache is back again coz it remembers all d beautiful things of 2003-2004... sigh....

I just need to blog before I go crazy! was waiting 4 dad after work & i saw this guy talking to another guy (I assume asking something/ directions/ whatever). the first guy's back was facing me but something abt d physical build and mannerism reminded me of -HIM-. was wearing a cap and something abt d side of his face/ jaw under d cap reminded me of... Grrr...

when he walked passed me... aiyoyo... really looks like -HIM- except thinner and darker. height same, eyes, facial features all same. d guy din seem to show any recognisation when he passed me so maybe it's just me being silly and it wasn't him. then again, mayb if it WAS -HIM- then mayb he din recognise me with all my clothes on. eh, dont think d wrong way... i meant, he prob din recognise me (If it was -HIM-) coz he used to see me in skippy spaghetti strap tops and mini skirts in uni. Not that he had seen me nude la... choy! u think i so cheap ah? got offer but u think i want meh? wanna kena disown ka? cheh!

Anyway, now i cant sleep thus am blogging coz me so confused if that was -HIM- of his doppelganger (sp?) Aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! d first 2-3 hrs i was grinning like a fool, now my head is spinning like a whirlpool.... oh man. I'm starting to rhyme again. He makes me rhyme & write poems... beware if u get poems in my blog!! Damn!!! if it is him... wat's he doing here? where is his other half (rumoured to have one already...) wt was he doing where he was (just now) and looking for wat? Aaargh!!!! I nearly fell off the steps just now and my heart cud haf dropped out when he passed me. the eyes wa... it was similar... Kinda know how he looks like with out know it is him (physical-wise/ mannerism) coz i probably spent more time studying him than my books (lol... actually yes, i did but cant tell u when & where. but canteen & football field/ basketball court area are some of d places but thr's another place i spent hours 'studying'!).

Grrr... i need sleep!! got work in less than 7 hrs time! probably have night mares dreaming of him stalking me this time! LOL... Sigh... If anyone knows if that was -HIM- or not tell me please!!!! but.. "As if u'll know who -HIM- is!!"

Pictures from 2004

Just an old picture from my uni days... An Orientation Night party I organised. Need to find the original picture (sorry Fi, I cropped you coz I wanted to use the pic as my display pic in MSN). The theme was Hawaiian & Carribean... As u could probably see (if ur eyes r sharp) I was wearing a bikini top! Lol! just needed the top for decency's sake!

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Hahaha... I am?

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart. While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

Coz I m a 'teenager' stuck in an office full of 'deperate women...' LOL!! Seems like an episod of Despearte Housewives everyday!

Your Hair Should Be Blue

Wild, brilliant, and out of control. You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

You Are 36% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Your Stress Level is: 62%

You are prone to stress, and you're probably even pretty stressed right now. Life's problems seem to pile up on you, and this often makes you feel depressed and burned out. Learn to take time to relax and enjoy life, even if things are stressful. It's the only way you'll get through the bad times.

How Stressed Are You?

You Should Drive a Bentley Azure

You're all flash, and you love to show off to anyone who will watch. And you're such a high roller, this is just one car of many for you...

What 2007 Car Should You Drive?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few. But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

You Are Shadowcat

You're like a little sister to some, but others see you as a sex kitten. You are well trained in martial arts, a bit of a computer geek, and can totally kick butt. Powers: the ability to "phase" through walls and other physical objects

Which of the X-Men Are You?

You Are a Chick Rocker!

You're living proof that chicks can rock You're inspired by Joan Jett and the Donnas And when you rock, you rock hard (Plus, you get all the cute guy groupies you want!)

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

You Are Very Worldly

You're an international jet setter - or pretty darn close. And while you may feel like you have many more places to visit... Most people live their whole lives without seeing what you've seen. In fact, you're probably going to be traveling again soon. So Bon Voyage!

How Worldly Are You?

You Are a Drama Queen (or King)

And the oscar goes to... you! You're all about overreacting and just plain acting. You see the world as your stage, and give a great performance. And while you're friends may find you entertaining at times... Everyone's secretly hoping that you'll just chill a little. (But they'd never tell you - they fear your wrath!)

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

Your Birthdate: May 17

You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single. Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you! Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

You are a Rocker Girl!

If you don't have musical talent, you've got a talent for picking out great CD's. Music rules your life - and you've got the best MP3 collection of anyone you know. Many guys find you intimidating, but a select few think you're the catch of a lifetime. Start hanging out in more used record stores, and you'll find love with a fellow rocker!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

You Should Be a Cherry Redhead

Sexy, dramatic, but still sweetly feminine. Perfect for getting out of the hair color doldrums!

What Kind of Redhead Should You Be?

I used to have cherry red hair!! Coincidence?

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Marquise Diamond!

Like most Marquise diamond wearers, you are sexy and impulsive. You're also good at getting what you want in life, no matter what it is. You tend to be successful at love, your career, and anything else you desire. Think Victoria Beckham and Catherine Zeta Jones: proud wearers of this ring!

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring?

Your Perfume is Still

You are simply and totally sophisticated. Your style and class mesmerize everyone you meet. Underneath it all, you are delicate and refreshing. You're different enough to make an impression, that's for sure. Power scents: White pepper, musk, and honeysuckle.

What Perfume Are You?

You Are Most Like Christina Aguilera

“I'm experimental by nature...always exploring my creativity.”

What Modern Bombshell Are You Most Like?

Current Mood: dense, dark and moody... probably in a killing mood
Current Colour: b lack
Current Music: jazz (weird for moody mood but jazz is kinda dark too)
Current Annoyance: lots of things. read my other blog... friendster one... go to my links to c access it.
Current Obsession: manicures & pedicures... i go every forthnight!
Current Physical Ailment: sick physically & in d head

what to say? I'm still alive. 'nuff said. read my other blog.

Merry Christmas to all!!

May you all have a happy & blessed Christmas and a prosperous & meaningful new year!! Woo hoo!!!

Sorry, i've been updating lots lately coz i'm so damn busy but what to do? heheheh...


Hope you haf a great Christmas. did you get what you want?? hehehe... in 4 years, I've finally received presents for Christmas!! better still, for once, I've actually received a present fromone of my friends!!! hehehe... last yr I had no presents! And this year I'm so excited abt receiving a present from a friend coz my friends never ever did give me any presents, except Ai Ling but we usually exchange gifts at least twice a year and not during Christmas. hehehe...

Anyway, take care you all...


P/S: not sure who's actually reading this except for Fifi, Lu Jee & Ai Ling as 99% of my friends who I've been trying to "reconnect" to are not responding... So while this is a happy season, I'm actually still slightly broken heart... friends who made plans with me & never did fulfill it, ppl i've contacted to meet up have not replied. ppl that I'm trying to patch up with isn't replying too... Sheesh! So much for "friends you make in university are friends for life!" << note for the Dean of Curtin, don't repeat this at graduation again!

My friends now r those I made when I was a kid and those who I met in uni but never really hung out with/ barely talk with! ppl that i practically 'sehidup, semati' (live together, die together) with and those who I hung out with through out most of my waking hours aren't even texting or emailing/ messaging me any more. So, what the.... they can rot whr they r.

Aargh!!! I have a job interview on Thursday morning!! *starts to freak out now* This is my second time at the same place with the same people but for a different post. Still wonder if I am doing this coz I want to or coz I have to... More like I have to coz my parents push me to apply. Grrr....

If I get this job, it's gonna be a HUGE responsibility (really, really huge responsibilty. Bigger than that of Curtin's PR officer... ;/ Scary!) and yeah, I'm most definitely NOT going back to Kuching lorr... :( I miss home.

Sigh... i'm not going to Miri too tomorrow coz of the haze situation and coz my dad has an appointment later in the afternoon (think so) and then we have to attend this dinner at night... Sigh... so busy doing 'diplomatic' works with the family, huh? Oh well, can't complain since I've been doing this since I was born and besides- free food! hahahah...

Current Mood: annoyed... stoopid haze making Brunei so warm
Current Colour: red
Current Music: the sound of d computer
Current Annoyance: haze. haze. haze! I need a thunder storm!
Current Obsession: Dynomite & solitaire!

Grr... So annoyed right now. The haze is killing me. Itchy (an occassionally sore)eyes, itchy nose leading to flu, sore throat & heat! Grrr!!! plus now, I can smell my neighbour downstairs cooking roti canai. Dunno why but during non fasting month their roti canai smells so delicious that even in my sleep I can dream of it and when I wake up, I haf to raid the kitchen to make myself some! But now it seems as if the roti canai is burnt every night (well, if I'm awake during sahur time la!)

Anyway, I'm sure a couple of ppl reading this knows something abt my dad being one of those up for a 'promotion' thingy gummy. Not really a promotion la, just that my dad' 'boss' is retiring and well, the need someone to be the new 'boss'. (well, if u know abt this, u obviously what line of job my dad is in...) Dad made the annoucement this morning (Sunday) and the whole place (church) was pin drop silence. LOL... my sis & I were sniggering away. it's not that my dad got it la. We were sniggering at the whole situation thing. My sis said she could haf droped a feather and hear it touch the floor!

I guess lots of people think/ feel that we/I am disappointed. Seriously, we are more relieved than disappointed. I guess it's a huge burden off our backs now. Why? Well, for starters, we would ahve to move back to Kuching. I hate packing!! LOL. but seriously, what we were scared of was that if my dad had gotten it, the family would be uprooted AND separated (mom working here & mike completing form 5 next year) Plus, it would be an added responsibility to dad and we probably won't ever see him much. I mean, right now he's barely home sometimes coz of work, meetings, visitations etc... What more if he had gotten it?

Worse still... I probably have to continue to be a 'goody two shoes'. hahahah... well, I guess I'm pretty tame right now compared to my rebellious day. but still, those were just minuscle (spl?) things compared to what is happen round the world. I proud to say I don't do drug, drink nor smoke nor do I engage in "straineouss physical activities involving bodily fluids". If u get what I mean. In fact, i think i was pretty much a homebody/ girl next door since i moved to brunei. No sneaking out like before (i was always sneaking out to the post office to send fan mails... LOL). no playing truant or getting dimerit marks or being a pain in th ass for teachers. hahaha...

In uni I had the opportunity to do what ever I wanted, esp the last 2 years since I lived ALONE. no house mates to say anything if I did anything they disapprove. hahaha... Hey, cud haf brought a boy back/ sleep over/ whatever if I wanted but of course, the way i was brought up and by my own choice i never did that. LOL. hell, I would probably regret it til the day I die if had done so! Thank God for being so grounded. hahaha... but I guess i turn out right. mom told me before, she was worried I wont turn out right. but I know myself, my limits and what choices to make. If I had made the choice of saying yes to someone, probably I might even be married with kids today. who knows what wud happen?

It's weird, i have all sorts of friends. from the straight laced clean ones to those with a past to those who aren't so clean to suicidal ones to addicts of many sorts (sex, cigarettes, alcohol, etc) but i've pretty much remained the same. The peer pressure and temptations were always out there but yeah, never really succumb to it. Of course not only cos of my upbringing, i have really good friends who really cared and they prevented me from doing anything stupid that i might regret. Hey, I almost started smoking coz of stupid rows with a friend. not once but a couple of times but my other friends were always there to watch out for me. Thanks Guys! Esp Sameen & Shaun during the CV Environmental Rally 2003. I was really depressed. Another time I nearly jumped off my friend's 10th floor balcony coz of a row with the same person. Thank God my guardian angel was 'working' over time that night. : ( Never want to live another episode like that.

Eiy, it's almost 5am. i know I've been pouring my heart out and ranting so much. Sorry if i made life a little bothersome for a while. hehehe... But life goes on. I'm ok. Pretty happy these days. i try to. A laugh a day keeps the shrink away! hahaha...

Mood: tired
Colour: dark colurs
Music: KRU's Mania Medley
Annoyance: Insomnia... sleepy but once i lie down I wont b able to sleep
Obsession: My blog skin! need to adjust it... again!

Ai Ling this is for you...


Ingredients:

• 250g self rainsing floor
• 150g butter
• 85g sugar
• 125g chocolate rice/ coloured rice/ etc (you can add more or use less according to taste)
• 1tsp baking powder or Bicarbonate soda
• 1 egg
• 1 tsp vanilla essence
• **for decorations, you can use coloured rice, coloured starts or silver/coloured sugar balls. or cherries if u want)

Method:

1. Beat butter & sugar.
2. Add in Egg.
3. Add in BP & Flour (which have been sieved together).
4. Add in chocolate rice.
5. Make into balls.
6. Press lightly with fork. Make sure it is not too thick or the center would nor bake properly. Also, not too thin or it'll burn.
7. Put decorations on tops if desired.

You can add or lessen some ingredients such as sugar or chocolate rice. If the cookies don't turn out like mine, don't blame me worr... hehehehe... SMS me if u need any further instructions ya.

** If you r doing d chocolate rice one, it's a family recipe, just modified a bit by me. But if you use stars like the one I gave you it's "Serena's Superstar Cookies." It tastes different.

*** If anyone else wanna use this recipe, please do let me know & please credit it to me. Thanks!

Mood: mix moods
Colour: red
Music: Truly, Madly, Deeply
Annoyance: Stooopid Haze!! brunei is so hazy & my poor nose is suffering!
Obsession: Trying to upload a song that fits my blog!

Grrr... stoopid haze is killing me!! it's giving me a running nose. Not to mention that I'm so exhausted after yesterday's treasure hunt and those sleepless nights and late nights (actually early mornings coz i din sleepm til 8.30AM on Friday & 7AM on Sat) coz I was busy doing d posters for the church thingy. better b appreciated or I'll just rip them off. hahaha... If you've known me for ages... two things that pisses me off lots more than anything else (except being backstabbed la) are

1. being ignored especially if I'm there and the people act as if I'm not or stupidly ask "where is Serena" when I'm in front of them. Or just ignoring my SMS. That's plain rude!
2. Being under appreciated! I hate that!! My uni life can be sum up as "Overworked and Underappreciated"

But then again, who gives a f*** sometimes when d ppl dat unappreciate u r d ones dat u dun care to impress... I dun mean d church thingy, I mean d ones in uni. My mottos in uni in addition to "Overworked & Underappreciated" was "Sh!t Happens", "Life Without Stress is Meaningless" and "Curtin No Cute Guys!" hahahaha... the last one is more of a statement than motto la. No offense to d Curtin guys, but my 'taste' varies lots from the other girls in uni. Besides, who wanna haf a bf dat was once a friends bf who was once another friend's bf? That's d scenario in Curtin u know.

Not that no guy actually tried to get close to me. Hell, some even try to get hanky panky with me (Yeah, you. If u read this, u r lame.) I had 3 stalkers in Foundation that I had to change my phone number! They like to call between 12am - 2am! 2 of them called me a few times at night, trying to talk crap. One really stalked me coz he knows whr I live, SMS me to tell me he can see me in d comp lab, what i'm eating, what i wear, etc... FREAKY!! . In my first year & second year some guys (not fr Curtin) got my number fr friends and start call me. Annoying la esp those that wanna talk crap! My number was spread to even as far as Labuan! Crazy! Worse of all, most of these guys would say "Can you speak Chinese?" Coz they cant speak English (or well enough). Aiyoyo... that irritates me.

Cant stand ppl who cant speak English. If u cant, then speak malay to me la! I'm not like typical ppl in Brunei who cant speak proper Malay la (they speak local Malay mostly). Hell, d examiners fort my O levels Malay oral said I can speak Malay better than malay ppl! hahaha... true or not sunno la but then again, I went to private school where English is emphasized lots. No surprises here. besides, i studied in Malaysia la. We have a HUGE advantage. Eh, but my English not so bad ya. One of d top students in my class leh. :P Of course, when I blog i use lots of malay & Chinese expressiojns & words too so it sound kinda bad sometimes. hahahah...

Anyways, gtg... got a vid to add to my blog. Hopefully it works. Grr... so hard to get it done. D song cant be loaded on line coz of d stooooopid connection! Did I say i talk crap most of d time? Oh no... forgot to finish mopping d hse. half way done! hahaha...

Current Mood: frusty & tired
Current Colour: blue & green
Current Music: Crush by Mandy moore
Current Annoyance: Previous post got lost b4 i posted it! Posters still 50% done!! aargh!!!
Current Obsession: Prison Break. Arts & craft (papier mache words, words made out of toothpick, cardboard words etc... u geddit?), wentworth & shayne ward, need sleep. need sleep.

Finally I manage to get my blog skin changed. it's 7.35am & I've not slept. not coz I was surfing. dat wud b 'suicide' for me if I'm online for such a long time surfing & my dad wake up to see me online. hahaha... Actually doing some typing and posters thing the whole night. feel like dying! so tired deh! Abt 6- 7 hours these stuffs. due tmrw for some church thingy la. haf abt 2 -3 hrs to sleep b4 i haf to dash off to do some printing in town b4 lunch then after lunch meeting!!! Aaargh!!!!!!!!!!! Need sleep. haf been up til 6 d past 3-4 day deh!

Hope it is appreciated or else... plus everytime i haf to go down to d office I haf to walk 5 floors down coz our elavator is being changed!! 2 weeks of walking up & down 5 floors is taking it's toll on my knees. In case u dunno, I haf a knee problem which wud hurt like hell dat i can walk properly if i use d stairs to much. like royalty/ diva pula eh! hahaha... even if I'm barefooted it'll hurt. Thank god so far so good but my back;s aching & numb from sitting in front of d computer d whole nite. Grrr...

Actually my typing thingies r done, just need to fwd them. And waiting to load my new mp3 to my blog. hahaha... Prison Break Anthem! hahaha... fits d layout dah. Now downloading some sort of mp3 converter then can upload it. ma fan. Interesting song. not sure if it's d one they use in season 2 since we r always like 6 months - 1 year behind (now ep 6 in US). Hmm... I even requested d song to b played tinite on radio. To all Wentaholics!! hahaha...

Anyway, gotta ciao. need to sleep soon. my bro just went off for extra class!! OMG it's almost 8! haiya, wat to do. well, atleast d email I want to send has been sent. Sigh... wanna pengsan already... ZZZzzz... got abt 2-3 hrs to sleep b4 I gotta dash to d printers to print some thingies b4 lunch then after lunch meeting at church again... Aaarghh... that's life. imagine how is it gonna be like when I work... considering d latest job i applied for is gonna b so hectic, bet my CV! experience working over time wud be like peanut! hehehehe...

Oh ya, talking abt CV, happy belated B'day to Dee Dee, Fiona (Fifi my cuzzie), Debbie, Ehon, Tiang & etc.. Sorry cant recall now since I'm more thasn half asleep. Grr... downloading so slow!! Oh well, a little time is enough for sleep & my Wentasy dreams & inspirations. completed 2 heading but got 2 more to do!! need inspiration & ideas!!! k, k... ciao.

Current Mood: frustrated but yet also contented
Current Colour: purple!
Current Music: TV advert ... ooh It's Kiss Kiss by Holly Valance now (she was in PB too eh!)
Current Annoyance: my sis & mom insist on watching Siti's wedding reception on TV3 thus I miss PB on 8TV & Emmy's on NTV7... 30 seconds earlier I won haf missed wat I was waiting for!! Sh!T one
Current Obsession: Prison break la!
Current Physical Ailment: sleepy!!

Sigh... I jst found out I actually watched 4 episodes of PB dat day, not 2 as I thought. I watched another 4 just now... That makes it 8 episodes... 16 more to go!! aargh!!! can I do it tmrw?? I mean in The morning... hahaha... It's nearly 5am! wat m i doing awake so 'early'? watching PB just now & doing packing. now doing laundry la... sigh.. I wish i had more time of my own (and not doing housework...)

Goota soon. Need to hang d laundry & get my ass off to bed b4 dad wakes up! Need to b up latest by 9 or 10 coz I've got more cookies to bake!! 4 batches done... Perhaps another 4 or 5 to go... sigh... I lovew baking cookies but I wish I cud give it to someone I like/ love... Sigh...

Ciao....... I'll blog b4 I leave. No sleep 4 me tmrw... 12 hrs of car ride. sleep in d car la!

Hope that girl with Green Eyes isn't his g!! hahaha... yeah, pretty jealous tho I'm just dreaming on... hahaha.... He's too only 4 me!

Current Mood: head in the clouds
Current Colour: green... beautiful green eyes' green... hahaha
Current Music: Disney Channel... K-U-Z-C-O Kusco, Kuzco, Kuzco! hahaha... Bro watching Kim Possible now.
Current Annoyance: Have to fight for TV. I wanna watch my Prison break DVDs la! hahaha...
Current Obsession: Prison Break, http://www.vidilife.com, Happy Tree Friends. hahaha...
Loving: my beautiful green eyes... who? hahaha... Won't say.

**wrote this last night**

Finally… I could take a break & ‘goyang kaki’. Today was a busy, busy day. Started at around 5.30am when mom woke me up. Around 6am mom, dad, grandma & I went to Limbang Immigration. I had to walk across the border with my grandma to ‘cop’ aka stamp her passport (visit pass is only 14 days ma so have to stamp it before it expires). Wah lau eh. Can u imagine me half asleep walking across the border? Luckily it is not like Miri immigration which is so far. Mati pula if haf to walk across. Hahaha… It was so cold la this morning. What do you expect at 6.30am? Lots of car… about 20 -30 car nya la, not like in the end/ beginning of the month after pay day. Definitely about 40-60 cars la then.

Anyway, after stamping the passport we went back la. On the way we saw this truck towing a ‘pulley’ with a buffalo on it! Aiyoyo… so kesian la I saw it. The buffalo was on its way to the butcher! To make things worse, another buffalo’s head was placed at its feet. Ish… Mom said “why are they so cruel? I think it must be crying because it knows it is going to be slaughtered because it can see its’ friend’s head at its feet.” Aiyoyo… so kesian pun ada. Anyway, got so pictures… not so clear la coz my dad didn’t want to go so near the buffalo coz it ‘shitted’ on d pulley. Hahaha… we saw shit coming out! Eew!! So gross la. But really kesian la… I dun like to see fresh or life stock, poultry, fish, seafood or whatever before I eat it. A family friend used to give us some chickens that she slaughtered. They were fro her garden! Eeew!!! I refuse to eat it coz I’ve been to her house before and the chickens/hens were like pets! Ish! Imagine eating your pet. I also can’t stand fresh fish that have not bee ‘claeaned’ and cooked, especially in the fish market. Aargh!!! Make me wanna vomit only. I get nauseous if I go to the market and the smell of the fish is so strong and pungent! It’s minging especially the putrid smell of rotten fish and its ‘insides’. Eew!! Uwek!!!!!


So we got home around 8 something. By 8.30am I was already in bed, continuing my sleep. Sleepy la. Come on la, you guys know my bed time is like after 1am. I slept at 2am yesterday night bah. At 10.30 I got up and then we all went shopping at the mall. Bought a couple of things for some people & I got myself ‘pearl’ bracelets.

(Ooh…got to go. My dad wants to use the computer… hmm… I know. I’d just watch my new DVD box set la. My first box set. Hahaha… Prison Break. Wentworth’s such a hot jailbird! Hahaha… brb…)

Aaah… back once more. It’s 3.07am now. No. no. I didn’t watch the whole set la. I started at 10.30 plus and watched the first & second episode. The Pilot was 2 hours long bah… so finished around 1.30am. Then I kind of hung around d living room, walk up & down… disturb my sis… anyway, more about that later la.)

So anyway, as I was saying, I bought a couple of things to bring back to Kuching. Can’t wait to get back home. We’re leaving on Wednesday morning at 5.30am!! Or so I was told. Hahaha… about noon we went to pick my dad from the office then we went to Hua Ho Mall Manggis to have lunch. One of dad’s friend ‘belanja’ us lunch at the Emperor’s Court. My first time there. The Dim Sum’s not bad. Hey, Royal Brunei Catering 9RBCF) food, what do you expect? Kind of frustrating though, he said today is Friday so we won’t order meat. Haiya, my family isn’t THAT strict you know. Considering what a feast we had for dinner later on… Anyway, food not that great compared to Dim Sum. Then again, maybe because it lacked the taste/ ingredients of meat! Hahaha… I’m a ferocious meat eater! After lunch we went back and the whole household except for my dad (who went back to work because he’s got a meeting) had a nap. Fuyoo… letih gila man. I was so exhausted for I don’t know what reason and when mom woke me up at 5.30 I couldn’t get up. I was like trapped in this semi-conscious state for a while. Plus my bro was playing this instrumental soundtracks CD I bought for him. Good music plus tiredness made me fall asleep. Finally I managed to drag myself out of bed. After I went to freshen up I sat in the living room and nearly doze off again! Sigh… I miss those days in uni when I could sleep all I want when I have nothing better to do. (Clubbing isn’t an option. It’s out of the question because I can’t stand the loud- and sometimes unpleasant- music plus the smoky atmosphere. And I prefer shopping than spend my money on useless things like alcohol)

At almost 7 we went to have dinner at Excapade Sushi Japanese Restaurant. One of the owners belanja us dinner at the Gadong branch. Pretty packed when we arrived but we got a VIP room! Hahaha… one of the waitress told another to bring us to “VIP room 5” bah. Hehehe… the room was in the new extension of the restaurant. We had to take off our shoes and kind of sit on the floor. It’s different, we don’t have to sit crossed legs, there’s like a ‘hole’ ion the middle of the room for the table and our legs. Hahaha… sakai bah. Never been into the room before. My sis goes there pretty frequent over the last 2 years or so. So she was the “head order-er” (I’m the one in charge when we have meals at the Le Taj Indian restaurant because I ate lots of Indian food when I was in miri… sometimes everyday or every other day!) She got me the prawn with rice sushi thingy, crab meat thingy, fried chicken sushi (she had the seaweed) and sizzling beef steak and soup. Hahaha.. think that’s a lot, I think we at about B$60 worth of food. My bro, dad & gandma had bento, my mom had this ‘kim chi’ soup thingy, and my bro also had raw salmon (eew! Fish is bad, raw is even worse! Luckily no smell!!!). then we had some other sushi which my sister feasted on, octopus, seaweed jelly, jellyfish and some kind of Japanese fried kuih or something like that la… the pics…


After that amazing filling dinner (had been on a 1 meal a day soup diet and today I had to ditch it. Lost a few pound already though) we went to this place that sell VCDs, DVDs and CDs. We call it Communist shop or komunis tiam (in Hokkien). Don’t know why, ask my sis la. Darn cheap stuffs there. I got POTC2 DVD, Mariah Carey music video (come on… it’s not to see her but the hot guys in there. Seriously.), Christina Aguilera’s Back to Basics, my 3rd Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights CD (my first got stolen so I replaced it and it got borrowed and never returned) and my Prison Break box set. I didn’t get the original box set because I didn’t have enough money (only have 20 & it’s 30. hey, Mall got the same box set –though looks different- & it’s 28 only!) and because I want to check the price in Kuching. If cheaper I buy there la. Ooh la la… 24 hours of Wenworth… should be worth it. Hahaha… don’t mind the pun! But I’m definitely going to get the original DVD. I would also buy Just My Luck original DVD in Kuching la. Was searching for Jessica Simpson’s new CD (not sure it’s out yet, got to check), nelly Furtado, Paris Hilton (hey, just curious you know. Also to add to my ever expanding collection), McFly’s American Edition album (Just My Luck… the ‘fake’ ones here have the correct cover but the wrong songs! Weird, they have other singers on it but none of McFly’s songs. Not even the title song. Weird.), Fightstar (good for smashing things around) and Shayne Ward’s album. Shayne’s song “No Promises” is stuck in my head. Nice song and sad video… reminds me of “No Me Ames” and the movie Ghost (I saw a music video –I think karaoke- of the Righteous Brother’s Unchained Melody using clips from the movie) where the guy dies and he comes back to see the girl kinda thingy. This kind of movie/video always make me want to cry and it would bother me for days… kind of disturbs me psychologically. I don’t know why but it seems like Dé Ja Vu you know. Maybe it because I had this recurring dream that I was married in the 60s to a Man Utd (or England, can’t really recall) footballer who died or something. Weird la… but it kept on recurring when I was 16… for a few months then it went off. Weird. But I don’t believe in reincarnation so it’s just bollocks!! Hahaha…

So, back to today. As I was saying I watched the DVD. Cool series and not what you imagine. I mean for a title like “Prison Break” you would imagine a lot of fighting and all that, Not so much. Maybe in the first few episode. It’s more of a psychological thing. It’s brilliant. Some of you guys know I like to read book or watch movies that toys with your mind and make you think here and there. Lots of plot and subplot which makes it interesting and captivating (I should know. I studied this kind of thing in uni, remember? Hehehe…) Wentworth as Michael Scorfield is the Mastermind of the escape and his character is very mysterious and intriguing. I like watching characters that are more than what you see. Actually I watched it on 8TV since July but I missed the first half and there’s two more episodes left (next week and the one after) so I might as well get the DVD right. Don’t want to spoil it for anyone interested but it is interesting la. Sigh… I’m going to devote this weekend to 100% sheer Prison pleasure (definitely worth it. Hahaha...)

Oops… got to go. My sis wants to sleep already. She’s sleeping in the living room tonight. Damn, I can’t go online on nights like this. She likes extreme darkness when she sleeps where as I hate the dark. I slept with the lights on when I was in Miri!! Hahaha… especially when I lived alone for two years. Scary bah coz… I see dead people… hahahaha…. Cheers y’all.