~ It's been a long time...

It's been a week since I've been home... yet I've not written anything here yet. hehehe... anyway, lazy la... always wanna watch TV & been doin a lot of reading... finished nearly 10 books since I got home. :P

Anyway... not in d mood to write much today. Jez wanna let u all know that I'll be having an OPEN HOUSE.

Day/Date: Sunday, 26th December 2004 (aka 2nd day of Christmas/ Boxing Day)

Time: 6pm onwards

Venue: My hse (plse email, friendster or sms me to get d full address as it's risky to put online.)

Please tell me if u r coming as soon as possible. Any enquiries, please contact me. U know my Number, friendster & email. or use d tag board. Thanks. :) Hope 2 c u guys soon.

Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays.

Serena. :)

i'm going to Miri in less an hr... 5am!! damn! flying off to KL at 10am... hehehe... tot suppossed to b monday but it's today la, tuesday. *sigh... so many things happen this yr, esp this sem. too many to name... nearly drove me crazy so hope this holiday can help me get sanner... LOL... anyways... c u all online in 2 weeks time... ciao

Seryna.


P/S: this is dedicated to SOMEONE... (*if u need translation, it's YOUR problem, not mine...)

masih segar di ingatan
kali pertama berdepan
mataku bertentang matanya
umpama bidadari dari syurga...
oh! Dia
terus dari saat itu
cinta mekar dan berpadu
ku rela korbankan nyawa semata untuknya
namun aku diperdua

SUKAR 'TUK KU PERCAYA
DIA SANGGUP BERDUSTA
PADA INSAN YANG LAMA
MENYINTANYA SEPARUH NYAWA
BAGAIMANA TERJADI
APABILA BIDADARI
BISA MERANAPKAN HATI INI

* Bidadari sung by Tyco aka KRU (Tyco, 2001. EMI Malaysia, KRU Publishings...) betul ke ni?

~~Damn! I feel so depress...

I'm leaving Miri in say... around 20 hrs time. And would only be back next January... why am I so depressed?? I've not said good bye to so many ppl... people I call friends, brothers, sisters... not the ones I'm gonna see again next sem. It's d ones dat r leaving...mostly to Australia... Worse, thr is some one I've not talked to for 77 days... *sigh..* Do friends part this way??

I'm gonna mis my crush/ex-crush... wateva. On & off crush. sheesh! never had sth like this happen b4... I mean... first real serious crush. As long as I dun c him... I'm ok. but once I see him... I'm a gonner. esp if he talks to me... It's history. next year is a new chapter without him.. hehehe... sound as if I broke up..

Anyway, ppl.. keep in touch. U know my email, friendster, MSN & phone number. :) have a good holiday and c u (most of anyway) next sem (some during summer). Take care...

Seryna.

P/S: I can't wait to go to Kl... coz I wanna buy at least 10 pairs of shoes!!! hahaha... and see some celbs.. Yusry!! hopefully meet some cute guys (hey, who know my parents' friends' kids rite?? since my dad know some Brits... hehehehe... :)

PP/S: Merry Christmas to those dat celebrate ( Gimme pressies! I want Charlie from Busted, shoes, a new lap top and a huge doll house... hehehehe).

~~ Giving me headaches...

Why sum guys like to send msg thru their fren's friendster???? Scared to talk to me?? Or are thing dat I dunno?

~~I got this from my best friend's blog...

30 vital things a guy should know about a girl

1.When a girl says she's sad, but she isn't crying, it means she's crying in her heart.
2. When she ignores you after you've done something wrong, it's best to give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology.
3. A girl can't find anything to hate about the guy she loves (which is why it is so hard for her to 'get over him' after the relationship's over.)
4. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minute of the day, even though she flirts with other guys.
5. When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, she will melt.
6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually is not sure how to react to them.
7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the smiles and stare ok?
8. If you don't like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.
9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.
10. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways ofexpressing themselves (which explains why most girls like writing journals).
11. Never tell a girl that she is useless in anyway.
12. Being too serious can turn a girl off.
13. When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl may act uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately start telephoning her friends to spread the news.
14. A smile means a lot to a girl.
15. If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let her get to know you.
16. If a girl says she can't go out with you because she has to study, leave.
17. But if she still calls you or expect a call from you, stay.
18. Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask her.
19. Hearing the words "I love you" is a greatreassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.
20. After a girl falls in love with a guy, she'll wonder why she never noticed him before.
21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.
22. When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who is standing next to her crush before actually looking at herself.
23. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.
24. Girls love having fun!
25. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.
26. A girl's best friends usually know best what she is feeling and going through.
27. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get close to their 'prettier' friend.
28. Love means devotion, caring and happinessto a girl, in that order.
29. Some girls care about looks, some care about brains, but ALL girls want a guy who will love and care for them.
30. Girls want nothing more than to feel loved.

~~Appreciations

Haiyo... so long I didn't log on... dunno wat to say at 1.27am so I'd just post this from Abel ok.

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Special Note of Thanks to Curtin Volunteers! (CV!)

To all my "babies" of CV!Curtin Volunteers! At time of trying to put all these into words, i have a mix feelings about everything -it won't fit if I were to list them down in here. But I am sure of one, and that I am so proud of all of you for all the untiring support and effort you have put into making the John Curtin Charity Month 2004 a great success, despite of all the challenges coming our way. Zillion of thanks to all those wonderful people who were involved, for without their sacrifices, commitement and team spirit, JCCM04 could not have happened.

A saying goes "We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give". Sowing seeds that benefit others probably won't mean traveling to another country to serve the poor or anything like that, but to help others in your own small ways like what you have done, whether it's sacrificing your saturdays & sundays to reach out the community in need, or putting your desires on hold for the sake of your team's success. Success in life has nothing to do with what you gain in life or accomplish for yourself. It's what you do for others. The success journey will not look the same for everyone because the picture of success is different for every person. But the principles used to take the journey don't change.

My very special thanks to Serena and Jae - the two iron ladies who stand still with all the ups and downs ever since the initiation of CV in 2002. You both have brought CV to greater heights and remember, NEVER QUIT!

Gretchel - I could not have made Dance for Humanity a reality without you sacrificing your Hong Kong trip. Of course the rest of the CV dancers - Tiang, Ehon, Lis, Navodi, Iqbal, Jack, Kian, Barke, Fiona, Jae, Sara, VJ, KC, Azie, Bella, Joanna and the great Eng Kiat. We all were awesome!

Ehon - thank you for coordinating the Kidney Dialysis visit and the Love Box Campaign. Your spirit and enthusiasm are your strengths to share with others.

Iqbal - I have so much of things to say about you but first, let me thank you for coordinating the Blood Donation. I am always amazed by your friendliness. Your kindness and easy-going attitude have touched many people around you, and yes that is including me. I have no regrets that you are Mr. O-Week Feb 2004.

Tiang - with all the preparation you have done and your "never give up" spirit in coordinating the Sunflower visit, you have earned trust from others. From the moment of awarding the Mr. O-Week July 2004 title to you, I have seen big potential in you. Learn to grow and share with others.

Daryll - with a question "how can I help?", you became the head for the Maths Workshop facilitators. Thank you for a job well-done. The modules prepared are fun, inspiring and informative. Many thanks to the other facilitators - VJ, Iqbal, Serena, Jae, Jessie, Nadia, Lis, Amos, Edmund, Navodi, Bay, Jenny, Tiang, Ehon & Joanna. Great team!

VJ, Jenny & Navodi - Excellent Happy Hour for charity. My deepest appreciation for your hard work and preparation for a lovely night. My special thanks to Azie for without your live band perfomance, the night would be dull and empty. It is hard to imagine what some people had missed for not being there.

Bay - Your Charity Singing contest was a great success. I can still remember how nervous you were in the beginning, but hey, it turned out so well. To all my babies, the dancers - Gretchel, Giegel, Joanna, Lis, Bella & Icha: You guys were AWESOME!

Amos - i know you had lots of stress coping up with your studies and at the same time coordinating the Longhouse visit but it was fantastic. I must say, it's the best! For the rest who came, i can't thank you enough for your active participations.Mother Teresa once said, "we can cure physical disease with medicine, but the only cure for loneliness, despair & hopelessness is love".You guys have brought that love to others and certainly to ME, and I thank you all, deep from the bottom of my heart.

Love - Abel

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THIS IS FROM ME, AS THE VICE PRESIDENT of CV!, on behalf of CV! (I guess)

To Abel, thanx so, so, so much for everything, most of all you support for CV! all this while. If Jae and I (and once Deb) are the pillars, you ARE the FIRM foundation that keep us all standing. since 2002, when you first came to Curtin, you have always been there for us. I don't know HOW you can stand all the criticism for people but the way you handle them, it always gives us THE MOTIVATION to GO ON (esp our 'best friends'). I know there are times we don't do our work as well as you expected but we learn through time and I know, in time we'll improve. Look how CV! have grown (member wise and reputation wise). It's all through all OUR (you, then Deb, Jae, Me and of course, the members) hard work TOGETHER. I really appreciate your help, guidance and motivation. Thanx so much & I know, there's not enough 'THANK YOU's that I can say. Basically, there's no words to say how much your support means to US. Thanx once again for working together WITH US.

Jae... 3 yrs... It's a long time. Now it's up to us to keep the flame alive, to keep CV! alive. We've been through high and lows together and yes, some days of PMS, depressions and I guess, thr were one or two misunderstandings. Then again... I hope we can remain as we are work well together for CV! The PMS is normal for us right? Let no guy problems (esp. mine) keep us from doing our work together.

Hmm... everyone else... too many to mention.

EHON: thanx for organising the Love Box & Kidney dialysis. And of course, writing the minutes. Thanx so much for running around too... hehehe...

GRETCHEL: thanx so so much too for the dance team & the Cheerleading team. Without your help, support & enthusiasm thr would be no dance team and definitely no cheerleading team. Thanx thanx so much for your support and I hope we as CV! can work together for a long long time.

JOANNA: Thanx for your help and support too... both you and Gretchel were the backbones of the cheerleading team. Without both of you and your team... I don't know how the publicity for Curtin Carnival & JCCM would be. Thanx again & let's work together for CV! again next year ya!!

IQQY: Thanx so much for actually being able to understand all my ups and downs! I dunno wat to say... I guess you know wat I haf to say esp thank you so, so much!! Oh Able says "my ass is bigger than yours" hahahaha.... You are a great guy and I really appreciate you handling the donation money (with Nadia) and most of all, the t-shirts. Hey, need my help to sell t-shirts next time?? If I'm free. after all, it's for the CV! we love. Thanx thanx so much.

NADIA: Thanx for helping to keep the donation money and helping to look after the booth. :-) And Yes, you were also a great MC at the Happy Hour!!

LIS: Thanx for your support and participation in d dance & cheerleading teams. also, thanx for looking after the booth. :-)

JENNY: Yo! You put a lot of effort in the promo for Happy Hour & I really thank you for your help & support. Without you, Navodi & Vijay doing the promo & organzing the Happy Hour would haf not been a success. Thanx so much.

NAVODI: Sis, I really dun know wat to say. Just a simple thank you isn't enough. I know you sacrificed a lot of your time for CV! (like many others) and your lifely & happy -go-lucky attitude actually motivated (U din know, but thr were some bad days...)Thanx so much for working together once again. CV! would not be a lifely without you and these past 2 yrs since you were in CV! we've worked together... I dunno wat else to say... Love ya, sis!

VIJAY: Yes, the man. You were the core of all the promos man (of course, the Cheerleader, Jenny & Navodi too! ) But the way you handle the mic & catch ppl's attention in d canteen... I salute you. Charity Happy Hour... You & Nadia were great!!! Be our MC next year again can? ;-)

AZIE: You haf a great voice girl!! Thanx so, so much for singing at Charity Happy Hour. Please thank your relatives too for their support! Oh yeah, you can dance too!

TIANG: Mr Pole dance... hehehehe... I'm so, so sorry I didn't attend the Sunflower visit & I'm really disappointed I didn't go. I heard it was great fun! Thanx so much for organizing it... You were also a great sandwichman!! I haf a cute pic of you... hehehe... Keep up the good work and hope that we can work together agian next year.

DARYLL: Mr Maths himself. I really salute you man, esp the way you did the maths thingy. So far, I know how to do question one already! hehehehe...

AMOS: Hey, u seemed so quiet all trip... I know you were worried about the Long House Trip but Hey! It was a success. I hope we can haf more of such activities. It's an eye opener for many especially the international and non sarawakian student. Thanx so much 4 ur hard work... next year ya!

To everyone else Thanx so much. Thr's so many of you that I wanna say THANK YOU to... Words can't describe the gratitude to all... Keep on working together for CV! and the community. Keep the CV! Flame burning and may we achive better things in the future. I'm so, so sorry IF I DID HURT ANYONE'S FEELINGS ALL THIS WHILE. SOMETIMES, AS WE ALL KNOW, WHEN WE ARE ALL BUSY, EMOTIONS TEND TO FLARE... So, so, so sorry... I dunno what else to say... Thanx so much!! :-)

so confused...confused... life is full of confusions.... definitely full of confusions..... I'm confused....

Song: Forever Blue (Gareth Gates)

Mood: I dunno... should I b happy 2 b able 2 walk pass him wid out any feeling or shud I b sad?

Outfit: Black spaghetti strap top & black jeans, pink & silver Nike trainers, purple/blue/white/ maroon strip scarf, purple bracelet & wrist band... (I'm mourning... hahahaha!)

wat do i need to put down in words
can been seen thru actions
u mite think it's a game
but u din know it involved my emotions

Aargh!!! dun wanna write anymore poetry!!! it's just annoys me coz when's i'm down or sad or mad, i write crap poetry!!! & yeah, sumtimes words are sharper that a double edged sword coz sum ppl... lets just say "he who eats the chilli tastes it's hotness..." what ever la. direct translation from malay "dia yg makan cil terasalah pedasnya..." hahaha... aargh!! turned my life upside down & not been able to sleep or eat properly... Hungry!!

I'm so down, down....
~~Princess~~


F**k f**k f**k!!! he was next to me in d complab a minute ago & my heart leaped when he said hi to me. Shit!!!!!! Y m I not over yet?? & as crappy as life can be, y did dat stupid JLo song start playing on media player!!! aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm close to tears now!!!! so s**tty!!! Oh no!!! Now d stupid Guilty is playing... why must d media player play all of our songs???? why???? Please God, let it get over & done ok? Oh no... now it's playing unsaid things.... is this a sign??

Confused Princess....

hahahaha... nice to jeling ppl orr... esp ppl dat make u f***ing mad... wat kinda fren?? a**hole... hahahha.... do u believe i spent nearly rm300 yesterday on shopping??!! my nike shoes cost rm199.90 wat!! hehehe... got scarf & stuffs too... hehehe.... Farisan can't beat me!! nya nya nya... :P hehehehhe.....

Song: Burn (Usher)
Mood: Uncertain
Mood Ring: Pink- uncertainty (hahaha....)
Physical: sore jaw from clenching, holding back tears and insults and sarcasm

a stranger,
so gd looking,
sitting opposite me
in a cold & quiet room...
alas, he's but a stanger......

avoidin my gaze
hiding his face in his arm...
am I dat scary??

U'll never knew how much u hurt me
doin wat u did...
wat an insult....
i'm disappointed, really am...

i hope
some day
we would be
friends
again

Sad Princess.... disappointed

Mood: dunno. NUMB, i guess
Song: Burn (Usher)
Physical: Neck & Back aches, red eyes from holding back tears

aargh!!!!!!!!!!!! Just say I'm sorry ok. so so so sorry. Mayb coz i annoy u so much or wateva. if i did anything wrong, i just wanna say i'm sorry. even if i din, i'd still like to say i'm sorry...

Change song : Anytime (I miss you) by Brian Mcknight

i wish this sem never happened... wish i could be like last time... july/august/september 2003... best 3 months of my life.... haiya, maybe i was a bad fren la... wateva... or maybe coz i suck in writing poetry n dat u dun wanna b associated wid a crap poet... hehehhe... i dunno. just wanna say sorry.......... :(


BURN (Usher)

I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby
I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same
find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn


Sad & Depressed Princess....

wah syok man... last nite we went to watch cabin fever... dat was a crap movie. but only 5 of us went : farisan, shenton, linda, kim & I. d others watch super sapiens... we finished early & while waiting for them we played wid those huge box posters in d cinema - pushing them around- and also d shopping troley- linda sat in it & we pushed he around!! hahaha.... oops... gtg...got class!! to be continued.........

I'm sorry, so sorry...
Can u give me one more chance...

Haiya!! shit la. y m i singing d stupid Britney song?? hahahaha... Just feel kinda bad & guilty like wat I've been for d past 19 days.... :( anyway, it's damn cold here in d comp lab. later goin out wid d gang... hehehehe... Think might be watching a horror movie... aargh!!! hehehhe... ciao!

Xtreeeemelyyyy COLD Princess

so sick, so sick. love sick? maybe, maybe not. miss someone? yeah, maybe not... wat's wrong wid me? so indecisive!!! am i crazy? yeah, maybe. just lolok at my hair... hahahaha... i'm using multi coloured rubber bands. sum ppl hate it. But who cares?

I dun wanna b just another gal with long limp hair walking around in t-shirt & jeans wearing sports shoes. hell, wat is the use of FASHION/CLOTHES/SHOES if we can't enjoy. I dun wanna b just another simple gal. I wanna be SERENA. Be who I wanna b. Being a girl means having fun with clothes, shoes, make up... watever. Doesn't mean I dun go clubbing I'm a spoil sport or boring!! I'm SICK of ppl TRY TO CHANGE ME & FORCING me TO DO THINGS I DON"T WANNA DO!!!! Let me be me!! I've my own principals! it's like forcing a vegetarian to eat meat, u know!!! I wanna be different!! Individualism & originality!


~One-of-a-kind Princess~

Aaargh!!!!! got flu d whole day. Media journalism lab is just so damn cold!! to make things worse, media room (G2 106) is almost as damn cold!!


Sick Princess.

P/S: Why r u still ignoring me??? (U know who u r) hehehe...


P/S: to d cute guy (if u r reading this u know who u r if u read d previous post... :P) why dun u come over & talk to me instead of just looking from afar? ;)

AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!! So brain dead. I gotta finish d story 4 SMS hunt soon but I got a migrain. plus I'm damn sleepy. Was up til 4 coz I had to do Kim & Farisan's hair & then mine. So gila man. I finished mine at 3.30am! Today's d CEM first game & our team mostly wore Red (me? Red t-shirt, nails, leather string bracelet, socks, lipstick, blusher, rubber band & yeah, my Man Utd bottle... hahahaha) & WE WON the paper plane origami. We had the furthest flyin planes... woohooo!!! Oh yeah, I had a red cap too but obviously it'll spoil my hair (Kim, Farisan, Linda & I haf twisted cornrows) so I kept it in d bag. sum ppl want me to do it 4 them... hahaha. not all gals, but d guys want d hairstyle too... so tiring la. one hour each orr... that's just 6 row & only half head...

Oh yeah, got my mood ring, which at d mo is mixed colour: pink & green meaning I'm active but I'm uncertain(yeah, d story).ooo... now change to purple.... meaning I'm feeling pretty sensuous now... hahaha... well, considering d song I'm listening to dat really REMINDS me of someone. hmm, some guys been acting weird around me these days. some go all their way to avoid me, some give me extra attention & yeah, one is really weird coz he's been ignoring me - if he isn't avoidin mr- but been caught looking at me... hahaha.. Hey, i'm private property, no starring... hahahahah.... Yeah, charlie said too one pretty cute guy was starring at me... hahahaha... to think of it, yeah, he's pretty cute but nah, I won't stand a chance. But it was weird when charlie was asking abt me liking a guy wid specs or not. (well, if i were blind i wouldn't be able to see, so dun matter much la...) Seriously, the guys (my gang) haf been picking on me a lot man... teasing me a lot abt EVERYTHING, from bodily functions & propotions to how i eat & walk. Sheeh guys... aren't u bored doin that yet? but it's fun hanging out wid d gang coz at least it makes me forget my troubles/problems.

One more thing. Farisan bought a walkie talkie & kim too... now practically all of us are getting one. cool isn't it? imagine d amount of credit i save... hahahaha.... too bad it can only cover a 3km range... imagine using it to talk to nong in kuching!! hahahah.... d mood ring's turning blue : relax, calm or lovable. hahahaha... Bah, gotta finish d story... it sucks though. hehehehe.... :P


Sunshine :P

Princess goin' 2 slumber land

Hey gals... U shud read Seventeen mag April issue (Malaysian edition) coz it has lots on boys... hahaha... my fav part? Best friend to Boy friend... hahahaha... cool man. it's typical for girls to ignore boys bcoz of dat... hahahaha... wonder if I know anyone dat experienced dat... ;)

wat am I to say? Life's a big mess. being independent has it's ups & downs... I mean, what I did was to cacth with time. no one told me anything but since we haf to finish it ASAP I just went ahead. Now they r mad at me. First of all, why choose a day when ppl r busy? I had to sacrifice. not that they knew. U know me. These past months I've learned a lot abt being independent. but the bad side of it, I tend to be TOO independent, esp when things dun start moving when they should. I've realised, since JCW, if ppl dun do their work, fine, forget it. I'll do it. that's d problem. ppl dun like it. but i cant stand it if I really wanna do sth, esp if I HAVE TO, and i'm not doing it. Now I'm the enemy. Aargh!!!!!! how can I turn things around?? It isn't my fault when ppl go missing, isn't it?

then thr's sum1... A fren. he's been ignoring me for 1 whole week. Okay, fine. Sorry I ignored you last week. but thr's a reason why ok. U shud know how is it like when girls start ignoring guys... U kinda scare me. I dunno why. ppl change... maybe coz thr seems to b sth different but I dunno wat. Sorry, sorry, sorry ok... but that day... it hurt when u seem to be looking but look away when I look... Huh... must be payback time... oh well, lets kiss & make up... Life's too short.

Aaargh!!! Fuck fuck fuck!! (sorry for d swearing!!) This is my mo0st embarrassing day in uni!!! Everyone laughed at me & yeah, the lecturer too. Aaargh!!!! Not to mention dat I found out today y sum ppl are so hostile to mee this days. Shit man. dun even wanna look at my face. Just go to hell la. yeah yeah, if u (they) are my fren(s), shud jez tell straight to my stupid face rite?? Aaargh!!! Today, I'm just gonna plain ignore ppl... except those who wasn't there to laugh at me or annoy me...

what's d so at d mo?? Well, my head's playing "WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?"... Hmm...if i wanna use KRU songs, thr are lots...

Yep.... nothing less than a front page
When I go on a rampage
all you can do is to get outraged
It's like screamin' in a cage
Don't start a battle unless you're prepared for a war
A long, long war.... barbaric and raw
Shut that jaw, if you really wanna take on me
I'll be as bad as I can be and you'll be sorry
So wotsup G?
If you're thinkin' what I'm thinkin'
It's the right move sonny boy you betta get goin'
If you're not, it's gonna get hotter than hot
Gotta give your best shot, full stop, dot

Iin a crappy mood... hahaha... Coz I saw a cute guy but I dunno if he saw me... hahahah... Nah, jez in a weird mood la. I'm all sporty today... Hmm, I've a got song stuck in my head... Btw, gotta ciao coz got class...

I'll be waiting (KRU) <<<< change d girl to boy la... hahahahhaha....

Ooh! Baby…..
Once, I had plans
To woo you with sweet love songs
Ooh! Baby….
But time changed my mind
Now I'd just rather talk to you
But as soon as I tried to call you baby
I'll tend to forget what I'm trying to say
Maybe you don't see it the way that I do
The way that I do

IF ONLY YOU KNEW THE TIMES I'VE TRIED
TO LET YOU KNOW I CARE
SOMEDAY I KNOW YOU'LL REALIZE
AND I'LL BE WAITING THEN

Why can't you see
That you mean the world to me
Ooh! Baby
Words can't describe the feelings I hide inside for you
Cause as soon as I try to say it out loud
I stop to think and I start to doubt
Maybe you don't see it the way that I do
The way that I do

IF ONLY YOU KNEW THE TIMES I'VE TRIED
TO LET YOU KNOW I CARE
SOMEDAY I KNOW YOU'LL REALIZE
AND I'LL BE WAITING THEN

Girl…If only I could tell you that I love you
Would you feel the same or would you turn me away
But I hope and I pray that someday you'll understand
Just so you know… I'll be waiting for you then

IF ONLY YOU KNEW THE TIMES I'VE TRIED
TO LET YOU KNOW I CARE
SOMEDAY I KNOW YOU'LL REALIZE
AND I'LL BE WAITING THEN

Day/Date/ Time: Tuesday, 22/3/04 4.50pm

Song: Forever Blue (Gaz Gates)

Hehehe... in a wacky mood again today... wat to do... U know, life is so weird & annoying... why do i alsways get attention from other guys but one specific guy?? hahaha... I almost wore d same outfit as him today... hahahaha... Hmnm, u know wat? As I said in my friendster, I've been hanging out wid guys too much these days dat I kinda forget how to hang out wid gals... Guess maybe it's time for me to learn how to be friends with guys... Actually, I used to freak out from being frens wid guys coz I was scared I might get attracted to them (hell yeah, dat happen twice only). But man, guys are crazy to hang out wid. Me & Kim, we get bullied by them all the time. But i've learn more abt this 'weird' species more in these 3 week than in my entire high school life... hehehehe

haiya, malas to talk abt guys la. Ya ya, sum 1 'ignored' me but still was looking. watever... I'm kinda in a wacky mood today too coz tomorrow KRU's gonna release a new compilation alb called Relax- a compilation of love ballads & includes two new songs... woo hoo!! new CD to accompany me all day... heheheh.... Sum ppl can't understand how devoted I am to them and how they played a role in shaping who I am this day... To put it into words is just too hard. It's like how ppl can't understand why I'm so into ________. It's inexplainable (is thr such a word?) But basically, I'm weird ok... hhahahahhaha.... Can't wait to haf purple hair then green... hahhaha... I'm a punk gal,man... Busted wud b proud! (Busted: punk rock guys wid crazy hair [mattie] but wears d cools outfits esp Chazzy [suit!! I love men in suits! hehehe) and yeah, the skateboard!) Know u know y I'm so nutty & wacky!

"To be different from other is to be daring to do & be d unimaginable..." hahahhaha... dat was crap.
"To be our ownself is to dare to be different!!"

K, gtg... wanna go soak up d sun rays... I need SUNSHINE... hahaha... both types... nah, I just need to even out my tan... it sucks these days due to d rainy season in d past months... Ciao...

Impossible Princess... :P 5.11pm

Hmm... in a weird mood now... ( Freak Me is playing in my head) I am when I c a cute guy around... a certain one?? Not gonna say... hahaha... Hmm, actually still pretty traumatised by Kuliah cinta coz dat movie, tho it isn't d best of films, reminds me of my life... hahahaha.... Kuliah Cinta means "Love Lecture" hehehehe.... Maybe I should apply to transfer & maybe it'll be like the movie's ending... hahahaha.... today too I'm in flirt mode & cheeky mode... well, I feeli like teasing people & annoying people... (Some guy couldn't stop looking... hey, u dun even bother to talk to me last week!!!! hehehehe) In d political kinda mood coz d national elections was yesterday (hav't got d results yet) & today's d first day of d Curtin Student council (i wanted to run but I'm just too busy these days... :( hehehe)

"The trouble of love is...." hahahaha... Love suck man coz there ain't no love for me... hahahaha... i hope my frens love me...hahahaha... Just hope they dun try to change me or try to make me do things I dun wanna do......... coz... let's say, been there done dat to sum of dat.... I'm in a mushy mood now....

"the room is empty, the lights are dim, and my heart wonders, if I'll ever see you again... my tears are hungry for an open door......... I'll be waiting & I'll be watching under a blue moon, taste of heaven only happens, once in a blue moon...."

hehehhe... told u i'm in crappy mood..... The cool weather contributes to it too... kinda mellow-ish mood ma... Well, when gals see cute guys they'll be like dat rite? hehehe.... I'm Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered bah... :P cannot meh?? ;P

He's a fool and don't I know it
But a fool can have his charms
I'm in love and don't I show it
Like a babe in arms

Love's the same old sad sensation
Lately I've not slept a wink
Since this half-pint imitation
Put me on the blink

I'm wild again
Beguiled again
A simpering whimpering child again
Bewitched bothered and bewildered am I

Couldn't sleep and wouldn't sleep
When love came and told me I shouldn't sleep
Bewitched bothered and bewildered am I

Lost my heart but what of it
He is cold I agree
He can laugh but I love it
Although the laugh's on me

I'll sing to him each spring to him
And long for the day when I'll cling to him
Bewitched bothered and bewildered am I

Men are not a new sensation
I've done pretty well I think
But this half-pint imitation
Put me on the blink

I've sinned a lot
I'm mean a lot
But now I'm like seventeen a lot
Bewitched bothered and bewildered am I


Hehehehe... K, Princess signing out... Ciao... Gonna go out to look 4 a prince charming... There are no gentlemen left on Earth!! well, can really find any here in Curtin... hahahhaha...

Impossible Princess (Monday 22/3/04 4.33pm)