Thursday, March 31, 2005

Current Mood: dunno... moody
Current Colour: blue
Current Music: You've got a friend (McFly)
Current Annoyance: jez annoyed...
Current Obsession: losing 20 kilos so dat ill be underweight (haha *sarcastic)
Current Physical Ailment: sick la.... mentally insane & down wid sore throat, cough & flu

sigh... i'm goin crazy... jez wanna put sum words down... supposed to sleep but after i got offline & listen to the song below I jez cant sleep... Tho dat's not the only reason y i cant sleep... Y do i have so much pressure from so many ppl... all around me... in Miri, Brunei & kuching... I'm only human. i also haf feelings la... now so torn abt things... i wanna run 4 council & ppl re counting on me too but my mum said if i run she'll be very sad... what shud i do???? Aaaargh!!!!! i wish my 2 best frens r here... esp Jaja coz she's so used to my complains & stuffs... at least she can calm me Damn!! life sucks! :(

Seryna (sick, sad & insane)

P/S: Ja & Ai Ling, this song is dedicated to the two of u... wish u were here... still down & despressed by Sunshine too (a little) even though he's an ass... i do miss him a little... especially since it's rainining here in Brunei.. :( & sometime i can talk abt things wid him coz he has a calming effect on me.. shit la... shud not think of him anymore la!! he's is wherever he is & I dun care anymore... (yeah, who m i kidding???)


You've Got A Friend (McFly)

When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, Oh nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running (yeah) to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you got to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend (ooh)

If the sky above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud, yeah
Soon I'll be knocking upon your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running, oh yes I will
To see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you got to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
People can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
Well they'll take your soul if you let them
Oh yeah, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
(Oh baby don't you know about)
Winter, spring, summer or fall

Hey Now!
All you have to do is call
Lord, I'll be there yes I will.
You've got a friend
Oh, you've got a friend.

Aint it good to know you've got a friend.
Aint it good to know you've got a friend.
You've got a friend.

(Ja, check ur yahoo mail)

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Colour: maroon
Current Music: tuned to MTV
Current Annoyance: sleepyt
Current Obsession: losing weigh
Current Physical Ailment: i'm fat

at last, back home in brunei... second night... good to be back. my back. my bro's taller & i'm still growing fatter... hahahah...

went shopping with my mum & bought 2 shirts. i also convinced my mum to buy hair dye for me... heheheh... sigh... wat to say? i just wanna download songs but my kazaa damn slow la.

life was so crazy last week... i learned new things, lost few things (most my mind) reconcile so friendships, broken off an impossible tie (bye @ass!!), shed some tears (yeah, i did), discover some surprising things, reconfirm my suspicions on some stuffs, got turn off... etc.. damn, life sucked then. btw, some fatcs.

1. i dont suck in public speaking if i'm comfortable with the crowd & topic.
2. but even if i do, i still suck if u expect me to talk with a mic coz i hate mics. i sound weird.
3. i am fat.
4. guys suck sometimes... u dun know what theyactually want from u.... (trust me, i know)
5. some ppl act so perfect but they r not
6. some ppl r so nice but they might haf hidden agendas- trust no one including urself
7. i am my worse enemy.
8. i'm so lonely
9. and sad
10. and easily being manipulated sometimes... :(

sigh... dunno wat i'll end up doing... anyway i got this from JAJA.


"Life is Like A Bed of Roses. Life is like a Bed of Roses,The Roses symbolizes beauty,And the thorns from the roses symbolizes pain."


.::. Call Me Crazy .::..::. Mark Your Word .::.

1.Would you marry for money?- nope... I think it does not guarantee a marriage. he might not be hot!! hahahaha...

2. Do you have a LOVELIFE?- yes, with myself... who would love me (which reminds me of wat i said s other day... i was so depressed n said "nobody wants me, nobody loves me" & my new bro Oscar said "i love u lorr..." hahahah... crazy kid.

3. Could you live without a computer?- no... hehe... nope... a big no no! everywhere I go, my laptop goes! Imagine goin 4 Ram's class & thr's no laptop to type notes on or no macs to edit movies on. worse, no internet or music!!

4. If you could live in any past time period where would it be?- marilyn monroe's time coz they like fat women... hahahah... or in ancient greece (& become a goddess... ahhahah) {sorry, me drunk with sleepiness.

5. Do you drink enough water?- me thinks, NO.

6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take em off?- take them off...tho sometimes i do wear flip flops ind hse... esp d kitchen. heheheh:)

7. What are your favorite fruits?- English guys... nah, jez kidding. peaches, mandrin oranges, grapes, rambutans, etc... oh & mangoes esp d huge red ones i get 4 Chinese New Yearhahaha...

8. What is your favorite place to visit?- la la land, dream land & seryna's world of fantasy... heheheh... hmmm... d land of impossibleness, storybook fiction & hollywood romance. (ok ok, it's KL & NZ la) :)

9. Are you photogenic?- hmm... am i? yeah, sometimes... c my friendster pics la...

10. Do you dream in color or black and white?- 100% technicolour, dah-ling. I dream in a Hollywood-like world. hahaha... :)

11. Why do you take surveys?- coz i'm bored n sleepy but got insomnia.

12. Do you drink alcohol?- nope.

13. What is the most beautiful language?- the language of love... that is, any language love is expressed in... ahhahaha... french & british english

14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?- I would love it... but noone has ever kissed me... :(

15. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?- both coz they r nice sceneries to take pics of. esp sunsets because it is just plain romantic! HAHA!!

16. Do you want to live to be 100?- hmm... I don't know... :)

17. Is a flat stomach important to you?- guess so... how to wear baju ah? i cat look decent witha tummy!

18. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?- guess so coz one of my best's Muslim & the other is Buddhist & i haf frens wid many different nationalities, beliefs, religions & culture. so ok la.

19.When you watch movies at home, do you likethe lights on or off?- always on coz i dun off my bedroom lights!

20. Do you believe in magic?- hmm... maybe... life is full of question marks???

21.Do you think you can draw well?- dunno...depends on mood... but i did get a credit for art in O levels eventhough i only did art for 1 1/2 yr!

22.Do you like to watch cartoons?- most definitely... i was jez watching Cartoon Network... haha!

23.At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?- i dunno... did i even cared? no
24. Do you write poetry?- i do.. sometimes. only when i'm depressed & really mad... i haf a blog of it... jez a few. u gotta search coz i dun put any links to it. hahaha...

25.Do you snore?- only when i'm EXTREMELY tired. like dat day i had only 2 hrs of sleep & d wek b4 dat i sleep 4 hrs everyday so when i fell asleep at mabel's i was snoring. hehehe

26.Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?- back & sides. i must sleepon my side to fall asleep. haha!! :)

27.Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?- NONE! I don't like dogs... i mean, dog attacks are getting rather critical!! =s & they smell & hates me... hehehe

28. Are you basically a happy person?- well mostly I'm happy but sometimes i jez get sad like others but 99% of the time no one really knows. I put on an act more often than u know.

29.Are you tired?- now, yes... almost dead on my @ss... sleepy la. 4.30am!!

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?- nope. no cola at all today. had 2 cans on friday & got told off buy parents! hehehehe... i'm nearly 21 la io! hehehe
31.How many phones do you have in your house?- in miri 1- mine. but in brunei 5 handphones-(i haf 2) & 3 hse phones.

33.Do you get along with your parents?- ok la... only except when they bug me... hehehe...

34. Do u smoke?- nope. dun wanna died so fast!!

35. If you're gonna talk to someone, today, who would it be? and why?- if i see any cute guy & he & i got chemistry ok la... hehehehe... jez bein friendly ma.


lalalala... k. wanna sleep soon. jez waiting 4 kazza to complete d/l songs... heheheh... sleeping in the living room again coz i get to use d internet & watch MTV til i drop... heheheh.. :p

Seryna

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Current Mood: Depressed
Current Colour: black
Current Music: none
Current Annoyance: "I'm too free..."
Current Obsession: supposedly to be free but now facing a dead end...
Current Physical Ailment: headache & heartache

Hmmm... I think I hurt sum ppl's feelings in yesterday's blog... so what d fuck do I care since ppl tend to think that they have the rught to hurt me but no me them? Anyway, still quite mad rite now & last nite i sleep quite late & had nightmares... where everyone hates me & there was like a riot to get rid of me... so damn fucking freaky la.

Anyway, I REALLY REALLY need help here... I can't think of any product/services to do an ad on... & my assignment is due like this Thursday... have to write a product statement, write the script & draw the storyboard in two nights... tho I think I'm gonna flunk this coz I HAF NO TIME TO DO IT!!!! ppl seem not to notice i need time alone to do my work! sheeh!

Then I just found out that tomorrow (wednesday) I have to bring my documentary draft & present it to class tmrw... how to do when i have no time??? I need to go to the Family Planning centre to do research and stuffs (coz my topic is Sexual Education) but no time... not even sure if i can go back for Easter this weekend... Just now my dad's friend just called to tell me to pass sth to my dad but how can I if I dun go back??? Terrible... My relationship with my family is like deteorating.... Well, some ppl dun care if their do or are happy if their do but SORRY I really care abt my family ok... I really miss home & I miss my bro... haf not seen him since Chinese New Year!!!

*sigh... my life is going down the drain... I told my friend if I die... some ppl would have a party and celebrate!! Shit ya but i guess & i'm sure it's true... WELL, IF U REALLY WANT ME TO DIE PUSH ME MORE & ONE DAY I'LL FALL OFF THE CLIFF LA.... The sooner the better coz it hurts.... So better plan my death soon la.... I can bet RM10 that thr is perhaps a committee by tonight... hahahaha..... I wonder which groups of friends ya.... since I haf so many friends... CV ke, class ke, others ke, media ke, Sunshine's friends ke (i'm sure they wanna get rd of me 4 him!).... etc... hahahhaha...... Yes... I'm on the BRINK OF INSANITY NOW so if u dun wanna kill me, send me to mental hospital la... Assholes.

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.....
"I'm goin crazy, I'm going cra--zaie, I'm goin crazy, I'm goin crazy...."
-KRU's Girlfriends's Girlfriend

Monday, March 21, 2005

~ What I've been up to in the last 36 hours

Current Mood: Sad,heartbroken & depressed... cried twice in 2 hrs (btw, i dun cry easily)
Current Colour: Black & red
Current Music: Take My Breath Away (well crying does dat rite?)
Current Annoyance: being underestimated & lack of time to study
Current Obsession: Suicidal (hahaha....)
Current Physical Ailment: headache, fever & period (but do ppl care? NOOO!)

What I did in the past 36 hours or so (in no particular order) regarding CV! matters.

  1. help Tiang to search & burn pictures for slides, blog etc.
  2. help Iqbal to search, copy, burn or transfer pictures for CV! flash presentation
  3. Ask Debbie for past CV! files
  4. Check CV! email & read the reply from Noizy Minority regarding Tsunami Charity
  5. Check CV! friendster & approve new friend
  6. Look for free web hosting, domain & email to enable easier, faster & effective communication & to store CV! data such as name database.
  7. Email Philip Khor (my friend) regarding the webhosting services he offer
  8. Count CV! t-shirts until i forget how to count coz I'm too exhausted
  9. ATTEND AN IMPROMPTU MEETING
  10. complete the namelist database
  11. Try to come up with a pop up for CV! t-shirt sales, due on Tuesday.
  12. Search for the CV! banners signed during O Week club registration
  13. Retrieve email from Philip regarding my enquiries about the website hosting, domain, email etc...
  14. not sure yet but got meeting at 8.30

hmm... nothing to do? Gimme a call to do my product statement, script & storyboard for an advertisement due this Thursday 24/3 at 12 noon. 3 assiggnments-in-1!! Tag me or call me!

I REALLY dun haf time to study anymore yet ppl still moan I'm too free. shit la. if i'm so fre might as well go back to Brunei la. Mum's mad at me coz I dfidn't go back as planned last week & Dad's mad at me coz I'm not going back this weekend for Good Friday & Easter. Ppl can be so inconsiderate. I think I'll die young & go to hell coz I live a stressfull life (stress=highblood, heart disease & perhaps brain cancer) & hell coz I DON"T GO TO CHURCH coz I haf no time. Hell, I had 2 hrs of sleep only last nite & I practically 'fainted' at Mabel's & if coz I wasn't thinking of work, bet I'll sleep til the end of week free... heheheh.... I wish I haf a clone to do all my work the I can go carvotting around town.... I WISH! (*Dexter... can I borrow ur clonning machine... Please...) Hahahaha...

my eyes r sore from crying but no one cares except Jae & Izzah... & i never cry in fronty of them... hell, I dun cry much & d last time was when my sis & I had a physical fight whr I got cuts. Sometimes I wonder who r my real friends... What Jae said a long time ago is true & Candy was right when she told me somethings (but i've not told others yet...) Jaja said ppl can step on my head to easily & I'm too nice... Damn! I'm so dumb & stupid. I'm no puppet but ppl consider me to be... I feel like quiting running 4 council.... but i dunno la... dunno WHO wud vote 4 me... maybe those dat wanna 'use' me or perhaps NO ONE wud vote. so embarrasing leh....

Ja, wish u r here to help me out of my misery... I ddn't cry so much when Sunshine hurt me... Damn! I'm so stress & got period dat I need a break dat's y I brokedowqn... I'm getting a nervous breakdoiwn but no one cares... Sunshine, if u read this, send me a sms, gimme a call or SMS k... I need a friend who's subjective to my current life in Uni (coz u r not here anymore...)

Damn, damn, damn!! I feel so sucky now. I've not taken my books yet & it's out of stock... no time what... hey, Maybe i jez collapse & ten they admit me to hospital good kan?? Hmmm... a good idea since I'm gonna start the all orange juice diet soon... hehehe... my vision is blur now la... bzzzz..... feeling dizzy... hehehehe.... Wheee...!!! lack of blood due to period plus lack of food plus lack of sleep make a maniacal Seryna!! hehehehe... Wheee...!! just found out meeting is cancelled. Damn!! think I'm so free to come & go ka? I haf to study la dum dum.... sheeeh!!! lalalala... better log off BEFORE I OFFEND PPL... *so weird... i dun wanna offend ppl but ppl LOVE offending me... hehehehehe....*

Tatatatata

I'm A Maniac...

SORRY LA IF I OFFEND ANYONE... Lalala.... can u book me a room in the mental hospital in Kuching?? First class ya... thanks!!! Wheeee......

Current Mood: dunno... haf feeling all day
Current Colour: black
Current Music: purest of pain (correct ka d name) spannish version
Current Annoyance: itchy eyes
Current Obsession: Alonso, Alex & Andy (hahahaha....)
Current Physical Ailment: wanna shit... hahahaha


This is a reply to Iqqy's question:

"What is it that qualifies a man to be bestowed the benevolent title of a Brother?"

- be there when I'm in need (even buy food for me... hehehe)
- giving advices to me
- cheering me up when i'm down
- giving good hugs *GRIN* esp Iqqy & Charlie.
- just being fun ppl to be with & learn things from a 'man's point of view'
- get 'theory education' in Desserts... I think they think we're nuts! hehehe
- keeps me safe when we go out (well 3 bros to 1 girl is considered safe rite?)

erm.... dunno eh. it's just destined to be... Maybe... hehehe... But i can say for sure, i dun call a person brother jez to stop him liking me... hehehehe.. THANK GOD I NEVER HAF TO DO DAT... hehehe... coz it's weird... hahahaha....

Monday, March 14, 2005

Bizarre day in Miri

SUNDAY- Something bizarre happened in Miri. The soon-to-be Resort City located in South East Asian country Malaysia was hit by a heat wave for the past one week. Today it hit a record of 39.5° Celsius centigrade. However, this is not the most bizarre occurrence. Today, the streets of Miri town especially around Bintang Plaza and The Imperial Mall we practically bare of people- residents and visitors from Brunei were almost non-existent!

According to a driver, Miss Hee, the roads were for once free of congestions and one could practically drive in the middle of the road. Her friend who refused to be identified said that it is as if the place was haunted and if she were dared, she could probably lie on the roads! Any Miri residents that frequent Bintang Plaza and The Imperial Mall would probably tell you that the roads in those areas are usually congested by cars and empty parking spaces are usually limited or non-existent. However, today the parking lots of these two popular shopping malls were barely half occupied. Bear in mind, it is a Sunday when every Tom, Dick and Harry are usually seen with the friends, families and so on in to town. The ever busy round about near the Bulatan Park was also void of traffic.

So my dear readers, what has happened to the residents of Miri? One resident of Miri said that perhaps Miri was finally been invaded by aliens thus the heat wave and the ‘disappearances’ of most of the population. She then went on to cite the events that occurred in Roswell, emphasizing on the similar heat wave period. Yours truly however, believes that Miri is now facing a dry and hot season. Some places have already shown signs of draught and lakes are drying at an alarming rate. Any self respecting individual would be saving water right now for a rainy day. Sorry, I mean for any emergencies, though everyone would be glad for a heavy downpour anytime soon. So dear readers, remember to control the usage of water and consume on what is needed.

What about the supposedly ‘missing’ people in town? Perhaps they find the weather too hot to venture out. Or perhaps they have been abducted by aliens….