Why do people always act like they own me that they have the right to ask/make/force/ expect me to do all that they want and would forever bad mouth me if i refuse? Don't Ihave a right to do what i choose to do, what i wanna do or not do? Geez... some people always act like I don't have a brain and that they are always better than I am (eventhough at times I do even more that they do!)
Can't people face it that last sem I had to do 5 units and I'm never as free as I seemed? All the sleep I lot for nothing!
Last but not least....
Why people can always change the thing I do yet I can do so? Damn!! all my work should be copyrighted. And it would be so from July 18th 2005. (You would understand how it feels if you are an artiste/writer/composer/director/ anyone doin anything connected to THE ART!
Hmm... been thinking over... Who are my REAL friends?? Not people that rub it in or proclaim it every other day though... It seems so fake... I think my real friend are just a small handful and the rest are acquaintances. the rest are either one or more of these :
- hangers-on
- wannabe
- gossip mongers
- 2facers
- 'scissors-in-the-blanket'.
- or someone who are frens with me just to make me look bad, terrorise or psycho me (yeah, u d psycho person)
LOL... who wanna b me? I don't wanna be me. Some people told me that hate my personality so I guess I should turn back time and be the ME when I was 13-15: No responsibilities, who-cares, annoying, don't-give-a-damn trouble maker. It's about time I had some fun... won't hurt that Ai Ling might be coming next month and maybe who know Jaja might come also... hahaha.... But Curtin no Bukit (hill) to hang out orr... St mary's Bukit is the best! no1 sees u b u see every1... hahaha... Hmm... Won't it be nice being THE ONE giving excuses for not doing anywork for once?? which excuse to use? "sorry, I had to go for a manicure.." or "Sorry, i was caught up in the saloon" or "Eh, have to be there ka? I din know leh... I was out shopping alone. got sale bah/ at the cinema" or "Got class now? Damn la... I'm in town now... Cuci mata. Lazy to go back now la. Ta!" or "I was assigned to this meh? When? how come no one told me?/ R u sure?/ Why u dun do it yourself?/ why dun delegate or assign to others also?" It'll be heaven to use these... It's be a laugh!!! hahahaha....
I'm in a weird mood & it's coz some one gave me the feeling that he/she is sick with me (I'm complaining & whining again ma)... oh well, each to his own! Besides... it's the feeling I get when i'm going back to Curtin... soemthing sinister is going on... Of course someone sniffed out this fishy thing last year and slowly I'm realising it... More investigating to do to find the intentions and purpose of this fishy fiend... hahahaha... I love a good mystery...
gotta ciao & I'll blog more on my mundane, Idyllic and euphoric life in Brunei away from all the hassle and bustle of my usualy life. Some people have been telling me that when they think of me, they would always see me rushing or running from one place to another or from one (or more) errand(s) to another. LOL... I'm no superwoman la.
"Chacun a son gout" Each to his own...
P/S: do u haf a feeling dat as each sem goes by, I seem to be disliking going back to uni after the holidays??
PP/S: Dun be mad with what I say if u think it is u i am writing about.. might not be u... besides, who want to actully take to heart the endless rantings of a mentallt unstable person? hehehehe...