Current Mood: bummed out
Current Colour: black... I'm mourning
Current Music: Whatever it takes- The Faders
Current Annoyance: the nkotb forum is shutdown
Current Obsession: being bummed out
Current Physical Ailment: feeling over bummed out?
I know, I know... I've been neglecting this blog. I have nothing much to say these days.
I've been really really active in the NKOTB Community, most particularly the Jonathan forum. I'm like the "Queen" in there coz I have the most posts but... LMAO... I am not the Queen coz we are all equally the same, just fans. Plus there IS someone useing Queen as her nick. ;)
Thursday, suddenly the Jonathan forum was shut down, lock down, whatever. I was online when it happened and I freak out. And then came a flood of private messages. Thank God for that, or else I'd probably would have fainted or something... but I could not offer an explaination. Up to now.
And Saturday 12 noon, the whole forum closed down! Seriously! And I was online again when it happened and I freaked again. but I was prepared and this time I wasn't at work so had MSN on and one of my fellow fans IMing me. We were both freaking out but it worked out ok.
Right now feeling bummed coz I miss the forum. Been keeping in touch through FB, Myspace and emails... :( I miss my support group... heheheh..
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Saturday, June 21, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Randomness
Current Mood: random
Current Colour: blue
Current Music: Time is on our side (NKOTB) do you think I'd ever listen to anything else now?
Current Annoyance: I need my NKOTB fix!! Craaaaving...
Current Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: I hate food. lol
Random. Random. I just wanna blog. It is odd. I don't usually bother to blog for months but this month is a record! Blame NKOTB! lol...
Probably coz I'm feeling pretty hormonal... lol... Not that my hormons have been stable but lately it has been better than it has been for the past 1 year! LoL... My skins is almost flawless (don't look at the blackheads on my nose... they are almost gone...), my hair actually grew faster than usual and it freakingly much fuller and silkier now. And the best of all... I'm actually losing weight!! Yaaay!!! LoL...
What this have got to do with NKOTB? Well, for starters, I've been much much happier now, laughing and giggling a lot (thanks to all the crazy stuffs I read on nkotb.com) and also been in such a dreamy mood that I barely got time to snap at ppl even when I am stressed and over worked (except that time when I had a panic attack coz of a dateline... I was cursing like mad, feeling abt to faint/ blackout and on the verge of jumping down the building! LoL). I have a new crush (hahahha...) and major crushes like this leads to very good doses of endorphines and stabilises my hormons (LoL)...
ok ok... I'm crapping here again. but at 12.42am who wouldn't? I just need to wait for my manicure to dry then i can sleepzz... hmm... If i type sleepzz in my msn, a picture of Jonathan sleeping pops up... LoL...
I'm really into this 80s thing since January la... I have a bunch of Jem and the Hologram cartoons on my laptop, i have a couple of 80s inspired/ style tops, my nails have been pretty bright coloured (now it's hot pink, toe nails are bright electric blue), been buying big bangles and earrings... listening to NKOTB songs (LoL)... luckily my hair is still normal... my perm didn't work! LoL... Never mind... I have two sets of crimper........ lol.... Been getting 80s style tips from mum! LoL....
hmm... I've been "LoL-ing" a lot lately... as well as ROFLMFAO.... must be a little high on endorphines... lol... Or mayb I'm just showing my age again. LoL... I was talking to my 3rd boss in my office & I said somethings which sounds so odd in the office... kinda slang-ish and he was laughing... he's not that much older, same age as Joe but I think I do sound like a teenager...LoL.. which, I'm afraid (despite my NKOTB obsession) isn't that long ago (LoL... how old should one be to be considered NOT a teen? 20? Then 19 isn't that long ago... It's like 5 years ago! LoL)
Do I miss my teens? probably. I had a crappy teenage years in brunei 15 1/2 until 17 1/2 then i moved out to uni... the worse 2 years of my life probably was then or 2006 after i graduated and bummed at home looking for a job and had no friends... :( Now? Still pretty crappy-ish but I am just waiting for the right man to sweep me off my feet and i will follow him to the ends of the earth... LoL... a KNIGHT in shinning armour (a suit would be fine) on a white horse (or in a white car/ plane...)LoL....
Hmm... It's 1.12am.. really late. My manicure has set so I'm Off to sleep... Do drop a note in my guest book ok... and do comment if you want to (just click the comment link below). gd nite... yawn... i know wat and who I want to dream of tonight....
Current Colour: blue
Current Music: Time is on our side (NKOTB) do you think I'd ever listen to anything else now?
Current Annoyance: I need my NKOTB fix!! Craaaaving...
Current Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: I hate food. lol
Random. Random. I just wanna blog. It is odd. I don't usually bother to blog for months but this month is a record! Blame NKOTB! lol...
Probably coz I'm feeling pretty hormonal... lol... Not that my hormons have been stable but lately it has been better than it has been for the past 1 year! LoL... My skins is almost flawless (don't look at the blackheads on my nose... they are almost gone...), my hair actually grew faster than usual and it freakingly much fuller and silkier now. And the best of all... I'm actually losing weight!! Yaaay!!! LoL...
What this have got to do with NKOTB? Well, for starters, I've been much much happier now, laughing and giggling a lot (thanks to all the crazy stuffs I read on nkotb.com) and also been in such a dreamy mood that I barely got time to snap at ppl even when I am stressed and over worked (except that time when I had a panic attack coz of a dateline... I was cursing like mad, feeling abt to faint/ blackout and on the verge of jumping down the building! LoL). I have a new crush (hahahha...) and major crushes like this leads to very good doses of endorphines and stabilises my hormons (LoL)...
ok ok... I'm crapping here again. but at 12.42am who wouldn't? I just need to wait for my manicure to dry then i can sleepzz... hmm... If i type sleepzz in my msn, a picture of Jonathan sleeping pops up... LoL...
I'm really into this 80s thing since January la... I have a bunch of Jem and the Hologram cartoons on my laptop, i have a couple of 80s inspired/ style tops, my nails have been pretty bright coloured (now it's hot pink, toe nails are bright electric blue), been buying big bangles and earrings... listening to NKOTB songs (LoL)... luckily my hair is still normal... my perm didn't work! LoL... Never mind... I have two sets of crimper........ lol.... Been getting 80s style tips from mum! LoL....
hmm... I've been "LoL-ing" a lot lately... as well as ROFLMFAO.... must be a little high on endorphines... lol... Or mayb I'm just showing my age again. LoL... I was talking to my 3rd boss in my office & I said somethings which sounds so odd in the office... kinda slang-ish and he was laughing... he's not that much older, same age as Joe but I think I do sound like a teenager...LoL.. which, I'm afraid (despite my NKOTB obsession) isn't that long ago (LoL... how old should one be to be considered NOT a teen? 20? Then 19 isn't that long ago... It's like 5 years ago! LoL)
Do I miss my teens? probably. I had a crappy teenage years in brunei 15 1/2 until 17 1/2 then i moved out to uni... the worse 2 years of my life probably was then or 2006 after i graduated and bummed at home looking for a job and had no friends... :( Now? Still pretty crappy-ish but I am just waiting for the right man to sweep me off my feet and i will follow him to the ends of the earth... LoL... a KNIGHT in shinning armour (a suit would be fine) on a white horse (or in a white car/ plane...)LoL....
Hmm... It's 1.12am.. really late. My manicure has set so I'm Off to sleep... Do drop a note in my guest book ok... and do comment if you want to (just click the comment link below). gd nite... yawn... i know wat and who I want to dream of tonight....
Thursday, April 24, 2008
NKOTB DAY!!! (dedicated to NKOTB...lol)
Current Mood: Estatic & unbelievably high (stil haven't eaten all day)
Current Colour: Orange (again)
Current Music: Happy Birthday by NKOTB! (LoL) followed by more NKOTB songs
Current Annoyance: I wish I can sit in Starbucks LA all day long *wink, wink*
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!!!!
Current Physical Ailment: Not feeling hungry but a little high coz lack of food!
24 April= NKOTB Day!! Wheee... lol..
So, all Blockheads out there, Let's Paaar-taay!! LoL.
Seriously, I'm partying alone tonight. LoL.. Just came back from work at6.30 (now's 7.32pm) and my parents went out. Came home and sat in front of my laptop listening to NKOTB mp3s... lol... As I had pledged! (more about that later). Brrr... a bit chilly here. My air conditioning is on high and well... I'm not exactly dressed. LoL... I'll shower after I blog. LoL
So, NKOTB Day... Someone asked what will I do to celebrate it. Well, cant exactly go out celebrating coz I don't personally know any fellow Blockheads in Brunei, which is weirs since the whole population here (est 391,450 in 2007) is definitely much smaller than the whole of Boston (est 590,763 in 2006)! lol...
Anyway, as part of NKOTB Day, I had pledged on nkotb.com to:
So someone asked me, why is NKOTB so great? I'm like, they are the father of all boyband, they are more successful than any other boybands (hmmm... did the word boyband even existed before them?), great music, fun, crazy crazy people (LoL), yummy looking (i kind of have a crush on all of them but nah, Jon's THE ONE... LoL), erm... I could go on forever... Hey, they were my 1st love (musically) and Joe was once my 1st crush (way, way, way before I ever saw Yusry.. LOL) that no one ever knew (ever wonder I ALWAYS like dark/ dark-ish/ reddish wavy/curly haired guys?)
K, what else to blog on NKOTB?? -break. shower first-
Back. I have no freaking idea... They llok hot in suits (ahh... I love gorgeous men in suits). They have funky dance steps. Their music is good for the mind, body and soul (to release stress or day dream, to dance/exercise, to Rejuvenate the soul -music therapy- etc...LoL). Okay, I've coming up with crap now.
NKOTB reminds of fun times as a child. Makes me all excited to revisit my childhood. BUT now they are much older, reminds me of why I think music is so great (if I had the talents, I wouldn't have majored in Film Making, instead I'd take Music... LoL). Music should be fun, not a popularity contest/ beauty contest. Of course that did play a factor in the success of of NKOTB but for me, it's all about the music (and Jonathan... ;p), the dance, the live shows (seen the vids but dying to go to at least one), the videos and perhaps, the merchandise (Len, you know what I want for my b'day- which is same as Jordan's... LoL).
Did I ever have a NKOTB merchandise? No. A NKOTB cassette (old school ma)? No, but I did have a "Greatest Hits" CD, which I have to hunt for in my room. Did I ever meet them? No, except in my dreams, unless I did meet D, D or Jon but din recognise them... LoL.
What got me excited was the whole phenomenon of them getting back together, the new music, the upcoming tour (please please PLEASE come to South East Asia!! I know Brunei has only 0.00001% of osting them, though). Maybe new merchandise? LoL... (it's like taboo to mention it to some ppl... LoL). Or maybe the fact that Jonathan reads the threads in the NKOTB Community? (eeek... Pretend you did not see the Jonathan's Mile High Club or stuff about Jonathan's Elevator Shaft! {or what I said!} LoL)
Hmm... I don't know. I just LOVE, LURVE NKOTB. New Kids On The Block Rocks!!
*Oh ohoh, she's my covergirl....*
-Shit! I have bruises on my body... Did I knock on another table today? or... what did I do in my sleep last nite? Karate?-
Back to blog... Dial up really sucks but right now that's all I've got (not worth getting eSpeed when you don't know whr u'd be in 10 mths time... Mayb Boston, perhaps? )
Ok I seriously have nothing to say abt NKOTB coz I can't express it in words!!! So just go to NKOTB.com and here to know more...
Current Colour: Orange (again)
Current Music: Happy Birthday by NKOTB! (LoL) followed by more NKOTB songs
Current Annoyance: I wish I can sit in Starbucks LA all day long *wink, wink*
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!!!!
Current Physical Ailment: Not feeling hungry but a little high coz lack of food!
24 April= NKOTB Day!! Wheee... lol..
So, all Blockheads out there, Let's Paaar-taay!! LoL.
Seriously, I'm partying alone tonight. LoL.. Just came back from work at6.30 (now's 7.32pm) and my parents went out. Came home and sat in front of my laptop listening to NKOTB mp3s... lol... As I had pledged! (more about that later). Brrr... a bit chilly here. My air conditioning is on high and well... I'm not exactly dressed. LoL... I'll shower after I blog. LoL
So, NKOTB Day... Someone asked what will I do to celebrate it. Well, cant exactly go out celebrating coz I don't personally know any fellow Blockheads in Brunei, which is weirs since the whole population here (est 391,450 in 2007) is definitely much smaller than the whole of Boston (est 590,763 in 2006)! lol...
Anyway, as part of NKOTB Day, I had pledged on nkotb.com to:
- Vote for NKOTB at least 24 times here (oops... I voted 62 times! lol);
- Influence my friends to vote;
- Dedicate a blog post to NKOTB (nothing new, my last few posts were already abt them);
- Listen to NKOTB songs at work, at home, in the car, in the shower (LoL), and anywhere else possible on my mp3;
- Change all my mobile ringtones, message tones, reminder tones and alarms to NKOTB songs;
- Change all my mobile phones wallpaper to NKOTB pics;
- Change the wallpapers of the 3 laptops and 2 PCs at home to NKOTB related pics;
- Change my MSN/Gtalk usernames;
- Watch NKOTB videos (I just watched 2 parts of the E True Hollywood Story)
- and etc which I have yet to come up with...
So someone asked me, why is NKOTB so great? I'm like, they are the father of all boyband, they are more successful than any other boybands (hmmm... did the word boyband even existed before them?), great music, fun, crazy crazy people (LoL), yummy looking (i kind of have a crush on all of them but nah, Jon's THE ONE... LoL), erm... I could go on forever... Hey, they were my 1st love (musically) and Joe was once my 1st crush (way, way, way before I ever saw Yusry.. LOL) that no one ever knew (ever wonder I ALWAYS like dark/ dark-ish/ reddish wavy/curly haired guys?)
K, what else to blog on NKOTB?? -break. shower first-
Back. I have no freaking idea... They llok hot in suits (ahh... I love gorgeous men in suits). They have funky dance steps. Their music is good for the mind, body and soul (to release stress or day dream, to dance/exercise, to Rejuvenate the soul -music therapy- etc...LoL). Okay, I've coming up with crap now.
NKOTB reminds of fun times as a child. Makes me all excited to revisit my childhood. BUT now they are much older, reminds me of why I think music is so great (if I had the talents, I wouldn't have majored in Film Making, instead I'd take Music... LoL). Music should be fun, not a popularity contest/ beauty contest. Of course that did play a factor in the success of of NKOTB but for me, it's all about the music (and Jonathan... ;p), the dance, the live shows (seen the vids but dying to go to at least one), the videos and perhaps, the merchandise (Len, you know what I want for my b'day- which is same as Jordan's... LoL).
Did I ever have a NKOTB merchandise? No. A NKOTB cassette (old school ma)? No, but I did have a "Greatest Hits" CD, which I have to hunt for in my room. Did I ever meet them? No, except in my dreams, unless I did meet D, D or Jon but din recognise them... LoL.
What got me excited was the whole phenomenon of them getting back together, the new music, the upcoming tour (please please PLEASE come to South East Asia!! I know Brunei has only 0.00001% of osting them, though). Maybe new merchandise? LoL... (it's like taboo to mention it to some ppl... LoL). Or maybe the fact that Jonathan reads the threads in the NKOTB Community? (eeek... Pretend you did not see the Jonathan's Mile High Club or stuff about Jonathan's Elevator Shaft! {or what I said!} LoL)
Hmm... I don't know. I just LOVE, LURVE NKOTB. New Kids On The Block Rocks!!
*Oh ohoh, she's my covergirl....*
-Shit! I have bruises on my body... Did I knock on another table today? or... what did I do in my sleep last nite? Karate?-
Back to blog... Dial up really sucks but right now that's all I've got (not worth getting eSpeed when you don't know whr u'd be in 10 mths time... Mayb Boston, perhaps? )
Ok I seriously have nothing to say abt NKOTB coz I can't express it in words!!! So just go to NKOTB.com and here to know more...
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Oh Crap..
Current Mood: OMG
Current Colour: RED
Current Music: This One's For The Children (NKOTB)
Current Annoyance: Oh crap... I can't concentrate on my workCurrent Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: absentmindedness, breathlessness and loss of appetite (I swear I've lost a few pounds in 1 week)
Oh Crap! I just put a link to THIS blog in my comment to Jonathan's blog. Crap. Dieee... Wonder if there are any embarrassing stuffs in HERE. lol... Anyway, been feeling like crap the whole day at work. Depression soon sunk in (can't be PMS, that's over 2 weeks ago) but at lunch I logged on to nkotb.com and I saw sth that almost made me cry the tear I've been trying not to shed the whole morning. Kinda cheered me up. And I'm thankful for that. Could concentrate a little better after that and I had a silly grin on my face. But thank God me n Jul were not in the mood for double entre talk online today... lol...
Anyway, Jonathan's Blog (I really need to figure out how to do all this RSS stuff... LoL)
xoxox
Current Colour: RED
Current Music: This One's For The Children (NKOTB)
Current Annoyance: Oh crap... I can't concentrate on my workCurrent Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: absentmindedness, breathlessness and loss of appetite (I swear I've lost a few pounds in 1 week)
Oh Crap! I just put a link to THIS blog in my comment to Jonathan's blog. Crap. Dieee... Wonder if there are any embarrassing stuffs in HERE. lol... Anyway, been feeling like crap the whole day at work. Depression soon sunk in (can't be PMS, that's over 2 weeks ago) but at lunch I logged on to nkotb.com and I saw sth that almost made me cry the tear I've been trying not to shed the whole morning. Kinda cheered me up. And I'm thankful for that. Could concentrate a little better after that and I had a silly grin on my face. But thank God me n Jul were not in the mood for double entre talk online today... lol...
Anyway, Jonathan's Blog (I really need to figure out how to do all this RSS stuff... LoL)
xoxox
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Current Mood: WHOAH!! Semi shocked/ semi turned on... hahahaha...
Current Colour: Orange baby, orange.
Current Music: You Got It (Right Stuff)
Current Annoyance: Dial up so slow la
Current Obsession: NKOTBS (need I repeat? lol)
Current Physical Ailment: Still pretty dazed! hahaha...
Ok, I left my internet on while I went to sleep coz I was loading a video on youtube and dad woke me up at 5.45am screaming "why is the internet still on??" Lol.. oops. supposed to off it at 4.30... lol...
So in my dazed and sleepy condition I walked to my laptop and check it has finished loading. Since It was done so I watched it at 5.45am... It's the Hangin' Tough Live VHS (thanks to you tube it's digitized!) and was part 5, singing Right Stuff... Suddenly at around 5:15 my eyes opened wide and I was like OMG!! hahahah... Love 6:20 tho. lol... hahahah... "The party is just starting"
Can you handle 5 times? (Uh oh... give it to me baby! I think thr's more than 5 times thr!)
Current Colour: Orange baby, orange.
Current Music: You Got It (Right Stuff)
Current Annoyance: Dial up so slow la
Current Obsession: NKOTBS (need I repeat? lol)
Current Physical Ailment: Still pretty dazed! hahaha...
Ok, I left my internet on while I went to sleep coz I was loading a video on youtube and dad woke me up at 5.45am screaming "why is the internet still on??" Lol.. oops. supposed to off it at 4.30... lol...
So in my dazed and sleepy condition I walked to my laptop and check it has finished loading. Since It was done so I watched it at 5.45am... It's the Hangin' Tough Live VHS (thanks to you tube it's digitized!) and was part 5, singing Right Stuff... Suddenly at around 5:15 my eyes opened wide and I was like OMG!! hahahah... Love 6:20 tho. lol... hahahah... "The party is just starting"
Can you handle 5 times? (Uh oh... give it to me baby! I think thr's more than 5 times thr!)
Friday, April 18, 2008
What the...??
Lol... my sis just told me the weirdest/funniest comment/insult/compliment...
Apparently, last year when she went back to Kuching she met my supestar fren Stanley outside the church and he asked her the weirdest thing:
He asked me if I was a model in Brunei!
hahaahahah... WTF??
Then he started laughing coz he could not believe it. LoL. and ran to church coz he was late.
Weird. Me a model? LoL... I'm too short la. But if HE who is shorter (and fatter) than me can be a superstar, then maybe I have hope... and the rest of humanity!! LoL...
I dunno if i should be offended or amused... as of now I feel weird and confused at what made him said that. LoL. Oh no... don't tell me he saw my Bodyshop session photos.... die... lol...
P/S: still cant believe my mum is so addicted to watching him on TV everyday. LoL... hahahah... he's still d guy who liked to bully my sis (like hitting her with the hanger and scaring her with a live but dazed bat!), who liked a couple of my frens (and I tried to matchmake them...lol) and is always shorter than me. lol...
Apparently, last year when she went back to Kuching she met my supestar fren Stanley outside the church and he asked her the weirdest thing:
He asked me if I was a model in Brunei!
hahaahahah... WTF??
Then he started laughing coz he could not believe it. LoL. and ran to church coz he was late.
Weird. Me a model? LoL... I'm too short la. But if HE who is shorter (and fatter) than me can be a superstar, then maybe I have hope... and the rest of humanity!! LoL...
I dunno if i should be offended or amused... as of now I feel weird and confused at what made him said that. LoL. Oh no... don't tell me he saw my Bodyshop session photos.... die... lol...
P/S: still cant believe my mum is so addicted to watching him on TV everyday. LoL... hahahah... he's still d guy who liked to bully my sis (like hitting her with the hanger and scaring her with a live but dazed bat!), who liked a couple of my frens (and I tried to matchmake them...lol) and is always shorter than me. lol...
Wrote this from 12am-2am, Friday morning.
Current Mood: "overstimulated" lol. hahaha...
Current Colour: Orange...damn, I watched that vid of a live show whr someone wore an orane shirt n it's stuck in my head! lol...
Current Music: I'll be Missing You Come Christmas by NKOTB- I dunno who though. But i feel so lonely now… :'( and other NKOTB songs... on repeat mode for 2 week & counting!
Current Annoyance: Not inspired
Current Obsession: NKOTB and Jonathan...woooo
Current Physical Ailment: sleepy n tired n... only Jul knows. lol
Aaargh!!!!!!!! I'm like supposed re-design the flyers for the church camp for KOOL & YDM and I'm seriously out of ideas!! If I can put NKOTB photos and write about my beloved JJJDD (as Jul & I call them)- Jon, Joey, Jordan, Donnie & Danny (yeah in that order!) or Double D Tripple J or Triple J DD or... nevermind! I can do that with flying colours. But sadly I'm so uninspired… Damn, even my spelling, grammar and punctuation suck but coz I'm typing this in Word, spell check can check me. Lol
Realistically, I'm been a 'mess' these 13 days since the announcement. Oh wait, since I got the email from nkotb.com on 1 April (it's 31 March in US then) I've been like a kid! I didn't stop squealing for a week like a 5 yr old (think I became a fan at 4 or 5 when I moved back to Kuching)! And don't mention work, I'm pretty zonked out (P.A.s should never, never do that!) and a couple of people have caught me smilling or grinning to myself (Jul knows that without seeing me coz I tell her what I read… lol) and someone said I'm in love. Lol. Yeah, with NKOTB! Lol… Not to mention that I finally lost my appetite to eat (my 'dinner/super' a can of tuna is on the table now and it's half eaten only) so I've been having these weird diet.
Lol… Tomorrow, eh later, I'll be going for lunch with Lina and I reminded her I'm 'semi-vegetarian' at the moment- I only eat vegetables and seafood- and am on a diet so no pigging out for me. Lol. I've been eating so much over the last few years. Depression and boredom was the main cause la. Depression caused mostly by two people who I used to be damn close to (no, my then crush did not contribute to this depression) and seriously I got so inferior complex-ed and probably went cuckoo. Hahaha… just kidding! Lol.
But all is fine now. A little inferior complex still lurking around but I'm coping. I have to, in my line of job. With people I know and am comfortable with I can be loud and chatty but with strangers I can be pretty shy, which is weird since in uni I was so in-your-face! Lol… hahaha…
Oooh… I forgot to continue for ½ hr. chatting with Jul lah! Lol… Ooh… Joe looks so young in d Please Don't Go Girl video. The original coloured one (need to llok 4 the link one day). He looks 10!! Hahaha…. Hide it (the video) Joe! LoL… Jonathan looks so thin there. He needs a woman to feed him! (I'm single, what's your number? Lol)
Damn… another ½ hr gone. Lol.. Busy chatting with Jul again. Lol.. (and d/l Jonathan's pics. Yum! Sorry Joe, you are my 2 now… lol) hmm… my mind is so easily distracted lately. Lol… Now feeling sleepy. Think I'd sleep for a while then wake up to continue the flyers. So no mood la. I need a massge. Hmmm… wonder who I have in (my filthy) mind… lol….
Gtg & zzz before i wake up to finish my 'task!
Current Mood: "overstimulated" lol. hahaha...
Current Colour: Orange...damn, I watched that vid of a live show whr someone wore an orane shirt n it's stuck in my head! lol...
Current Music: I'll be Missing You Come Christmas by NKOTB- I dunno who though. But i feel so lonely now… :'( and other NKOTB songs... on repeat mode for 2 week & counting!
Current Annoyance: Not inspired
Current Obsession: NKOTB and Jonathan...woooo
Current Physical Ailment: sleepy n tired n... only Jul knows. lol
Aaargh!!!!!!!! I'm like supposed re-design the flyers for the church camp for KOOL & YDM and I'm seriously out of ideas!! If I can put NKOTB photos and write about my beloved JJJDD (as Jul & I call them)- Jon, Joey, Jordan, Donnie & Danny (yeah in that order!) or Double D Tripple J or Triple J DD or... nevermind! I can do that with flying colours. But sadly I'm so uninspired… Damn, even my spelling, grammar and punctuation suck but coz I'm typing this in Word, spell check can check me. Lol
Realistically, I'm been a 'mess' these 13 days since the announcement. Oh wait, since I got the email from nkotb.com on 1 April (it's 31 March in US then) I've been like a kid! I didn't stop squealing for a week like a 5 yr old (think I became a fan at 4 or 5 when I moved back to Kuching)! And don't mention work, I'm pretty zonked out (P.A.s should never, never do that!) and a couple of people have caught me smilling or grinning to myself (Jul knows that without seeing me coz I tell her what I read… lol) and someone said I'm in love. Lol. Yeah, with NKOTB! Lol… Not to mention that I finally lost my appetite to eat (my 'dinner/super' a can of tuna is on the table now and it's half eaten only) so I've been having these weird diet.
- Monday- only dinner.
- Tuesday- lunch and dinner.
- Wednesday- only dinner.
- Thursday- lunch & supper.
Lol… Tomorrow, eh later, I'll be going for lunch with Lina and I reminded her I'm 'semi-vegetarian' at the moment- I only eat vegetables and seafood- and am on a diet so no pigging out for me. Lol. I've been eating so much over the last few years. Depression and boredom was the main cause la. Depression caused mostly by two people who I used to be damn close to (no, my then crush did not contribute to this depression) and seriously I got so inferior complex-ed and probably went cuckoo. Hahaha… just kidding! Lol.
But all is fine now. A little inferior complex still lurking around but I'm coping. I have to, in my line of job. With people I know and am comfortable with I can be loud and chatty but with strangers I can be pretty shy, which is weird since in uni I was so in-your-face! Lol… hahaha…
Oooh… I forgot to continue for ½ hr. chatting with Jul lah! Lol… Ooh… Joe looks so young in d Please Don't Go Girl video. The original coloured one (need to llok 4 the link one day). He looks 10!! Hahaha…. Hide it (the video) Joe! LoL… Jonathan looks so thin there. He needs a woman to feed him! (I'm single, what's your number? Lol)
Damn… another ½ hr gone. Lol.. Busy chatting with Jul again. Lol.. (and d/l Jonathan's pics. Yum! Sorry Joe, you are my 2 now… lol) hmm… my mind is so easily distracted lately. Lol… Now feeling sleepy. Think I'd sleep for a while then wake up to continue the flyers. So no mood la. I need a massge. Hmmm… wonder who I have in (my filthy) mind… lol….
Gtg & zzz before i wake up to finish my 'task!
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Just to pass time...
Current Mood: bored n sleepy
Current Colour: orange... dunno y
Current Music: Bubble Wrap- McFly (on repeat mode)
Current Annoyance: I forgot to do the minutes coz was busy at work and is busy being sick!
Current Obsession: McFly & James Marsden songs, Heroes Ability & Superheroes games on Facebook
Current Physical Ailment: Swollen throat n cough, heart pain listening to this song (lied to Ade. I mite said I finally m over him n gave up but.... the heart remembers...)
Just passing some time while do the Minutes for some church stuff, do laundry n FB-ing... Came across some Blogthings on my sister's blog so I did a few n prob doing more to pass time while i think how to do the minutes. Hate to be a Secretary coz I suck at minutes... Why do I always get chosen to be Secretary?? Is it coz I'm always copying stuffs down? I'm doing that to stay awake!! Anyways...
See... It saws I should not be a Secretary... And worse... I'm a PA at work. :s
Ngaiteh... My heart gets broken 4 times? Does 4 times by d same guy counts? Sigh... can go thru this more than once... so 3 more times? probably gonna kill me. And compatible wid ppl born on *th? Hey, Milo's birthdate! lol
Oh WOW! This is so true!! and the questions they ask r like so unrelated coz they ask u abt animals! Wow! Probably d most accurate n true blogthing I ever did. Period.
I love d attention!!! LOOK AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! LoL
LoL... this is funny!! NC-17??/ R u sure....??
LoL...
Well, duh! I was a teen in Kuching and was at my peak of rebelliousness...lol
Lol... I haf maroon nails now...
Really??
OK. LET'S SEE IF THIS IS TRUE.
Cool! I get to make out Cyclops! hahahah... I've always had a crush on James Marsden anyway... LoL -)
Swoon.....
LoL.. Johnny's my Daddy n Angie is my mummy... Y aren't i Half as hot as them?
TRUE!!!!!!!!!
LOL! YES IT'S TRUE!!! But there's hope...
Told ya...
LoL... Listening Joey McIntyre and also NKOTB now... so??
Hmmm......... how?
LoL... wrong job now?
That's me! Beware...
To end this entry... LoL
Current Colour: orange... dunno y
Current Music: Bubble Wrap- McFly (on repeat mode)
Current Annoyance: I forgot to do the minutes coz was busy at work and is busy being sick!
Current Obsession: McFly & James Marsden songs, Heroes Ability & Superheroes games on Facebook
Current Physical Ailment: Swollen throat n cough, heart pain listening to this song (lied to Ade. I mite said I finally m over him n gave up but.... the heart remembers...)
Just passing some time while do the Minutes for some church stuff, do laundry n FB-ing... Came across some Blogthings on my sister's blog so I did a few n prob doing more to pass time while i think how to do the minutes. Hate to be a Secretary coz I suck at minutes... Why do I always get chosen to be Secretary?? Is it coz I'm always copying stuffs down? I'm doing that to stay awake!! Anyways...
Your Career Type: Artistic |
 You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary. |
See... It saws I should not be a Secretary... And worse... I'm a PA at work. :s
There's a 78% Chance That You Need Therapy |
 You almost certainly need therapy. And there's nothing wrong with that. Lately life has not been easy for you. Why not let a therapist help you sort things out? |
Hah!! I'm depressed, traumatised, heartbroken, stressed and now I'm nutters?? Oh man!
You Should Wear Bright Red Lipstick |
 In Your Face Sexy and Flirty Your look: Flawless Beauty Your signature lip gloss flavor: Cherry |
LOL. M already wearing red Lipstick since uni tho I stopped for a few years n got back into it this year. Almost used up abt 1/2 of my Revlon Red red lipstick.
Your Birthdate: May 17 |
 You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single. Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you! Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month. |
Ngaiteh... My heart gets broken 4 times? Does 4 times by d same guy counts? Sigh... can go thru this more than once... so 3 more times? probably gonna kill me. And compatible wid ppl born on *th? Hey, Milo's birthdate! lol
The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Oh WOW! This is so true!! and the questions they ask r like so unrelated coz they ask u abt animals! Wow! Probably d most accurate n true blogthing I ever did. Period.
You Are An Attention Seeker |
 You're only human, so you can't help but want a little attention every now and then. You love the spotlight, but only when it's well deserved. You'd hate to be known for the wrong thing. And you also don't mind sharing the spotlight. You can easily give someone else credit or a complement. You know there's enough attention to go around, and it makes you happy when your friends shine. You come across as: Friendly and interesting People may wrongly think you're: A little more modest than you actually are! |
I love d attention!!! LOOK AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! LoL
Your Mind is NC-17 Rated |
 You're mind is so filthy... you should should be washing every part of you out with soap. If your thoughts can go dirty, they do. Almost everything is NC-17 to you! |
LoL... this is funny!! NC-17??/ R u sure....??
You Are 68% Pure |
 Well, you're not exactly an angel - but you're pretty darn close. But chances are, you have a couple juicy secrets deep in your closet. |
LoL...
You've Changed 72% in 10 Years |
 Compared to who you were ten years ago, you've changed a great deal. In fact, you're probably in a completely different phase of your life - and very happy about it! |
Well, duh! I was a teen in Kuching and was at my peak of rebelliousness...lol
Your Nail Polish Color is Purple |
 How you're unique: You are artistic and expressive Why your style rocks: You pay special attention to color and fabrics What this color says about you: "I'm creative and know how to take care of myself" |
Lol... I haf maroon nails now...
You Are Picky When it Counts |
 Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well. But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating. You probably have quite a few great guys you can date! |
Really??
You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Months |
 Maybe you need a bit more time to get over an ex Or maybe you need a confidence boost to talk to new guys Either way, you'll find a boyfriend in time... As long as you keep getting out there and meeting new guys |
OK. LET'S SEE IF THIS IS TRUE.
You Are Jean Grey |
 Although your fate is often unknown, you always seem to survive (even after death). Your mind is your greatest weapon, literally! Powers: telepathy and telekinesis, the ability to project thoughts into the mind of others, communication with animals |
Cool! I get to make out Cyclops! hahahah... I've always had a crush on James Marsden anyway... LoL -)
Your Daddy Is Johnny Depp |
 What You Call Him: Big Daddy Why You Love Him: He's the Mack Daddy |
Swoon.....
Your Mommy Is Angelina Jolie |
 What You Call Her: Mum |
LoL.. Johnny's my Daddy n Angie is my mummy... Y aren't i Half as hot as them?
Your Mind is Purple |
 Of all the mind types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself. |
TRUE!!!!!!!!!
You Don't Need a Man ... or Want One! |
 Generally, you're very happy being a single woman. And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem. Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy. You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man! |
LOL! YES IT'S TRUE!!! But there's hope...
Your True Love Will Find You Eventually |
 You definitely put yourself out there a little - but you could be doing more. If you're truly looking for love, try doing more things and meeting more people. You don't have to actively look for love, you just need to stay active. Be out there a little more, and the right person will find you! |
Told ya...
You Are 64% A Child of the 80s |
 Not only did you experience the 80s... you are practically an expert. You should be totally stoked! |
LoL... Listening Joey McIntyre and also NKOTB now... so??
Your Job Satisfaction Level: 32% |
 Your job is definitely a bummer, and you probably should get a new one. Make sure you know what's getting you down. Is it your co-workers? The work environment? Your boss? Getting a new job is important, but so is not repeating the same mistakes. |
Hmmm......... how?
Your Career Personality: Capable, Friendly, and Energetic |
 Your Ideal Careers: Actor Advertising Executive Artist Counselor Entrepreneur Musician Politician Psychologist Teacher Television Reporter |
LoL... wrong job now?
You Are a Comma |
 You are open minded and extremely optimistic. You enjoy almost all facets of life. You can find the good in almost anything. You keep yourself busy with tons of friends, activities, and interests. You find it hard to turn down an opportunity, even if you are pressed for time. Your friends find you fascinating, charming, and easy to talk to. (But with so many competing interests, you friends do feel like you hardly have time for them.) You excel in: Inspiring people You get along best with: The Question Mark |
You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut |
 A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image. On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex. You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time. Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence. |
That's me! Beware...
You Are a Great Liar |
 You can pretty much pull anything over on anyone. You are an expert liar, even if you don't lie very often. |
To end this entry... LoL
Sunday, February 24, 2008
I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart...
Mood: Emo
Music: Bubble Wrap by McFly
Colour: Black n Maroon
Damn... just minding my own business and downloading a tonne of McFly song when I came upon this song from their "Motion in the Ocea" album entitle Bubble Wrap... makes me wanna cry.. Before that I was listening to a song entitled "Lonely" by them too... Guess this is how I feel right now...
Finally, once & for all, last Sunday I gave up all hope n watever feeling etc I had for Sunshine. He's such an ASS. I found out what he was trying to do... such a playa... thank God I was thinking straight or I'd end up like his miri ex... :(
Anyway, here's "LoneLy" and "Bubble Wrap".
P/S: Sharon & Mike, miss u 2!! :P No one to fight with me.... lol
Lonely (McFly)
It's only been a day
But it's like I cant go on
I just wanna say
I never meant to do you wrong
And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live
Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
'Cause thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby
Im so sick of being lonely
The stuff is in my house
So many things I cant ignore
Coats still on the couch yeah
Your photos on my freezer door
And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live
Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
Thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby
Im so sick of being lonely
lalalalalalalalalala
I am so lonelyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
lalalalalalalalala
And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live
yeahyeahyeahh..
Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
Thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby Im so sick of being lonely
I am so lonely
I am so lonely...
Bubble Wrap (McFly)
I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart,
In case I fall and break apart,
I'm not God I can't change the stars,
And I don't know if there's life on Mars,
But I know you hurt,
The people that you love and those who care for you,
I want nothing to do with the things you're going through.
This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.
I'm a little dazed and confused,
But life's a bitch and so are you,
All my days have turned into nights,
Cos living without, without, without you in my life,
And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,
And lose all your friends,
Did I mean nothing at all?
Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed?
Cos this is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.
Yeah!Turn on the radio honey,
Cos every single sad song you'll be able to relate!
And this one i dedicate!
Whoa oh!
Don't get all emotional baby
,You can never talk to me,
You're unable to communicate!
This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised...
This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.
This is Goodbye.
Music: Bubble Wrap by McFly
Colour: Black n Maroon
Damn... just minding my own business and downloading a tonne of McFly song when I came upon this song from their "Motion in the Ocea" album entitle Bubble Wrap... makes me wanna cry.. Before that I was listening to a song entitled "Lonely" by them too... Guess this is how I feel right now...
Finally, once & for all, last Sunday I gave up all hope n watever feeling etc I had for Sunshine. He's such an ASS. I found out what he was trying to do... such a playa... thank God I was thinking straight or I'd end up like his miri ex... :(
Anyway, here's "LoneLy" and "Bubble Wrap".
P/S: Sharon & Mike, miss u 2!! :P No one to fight with me.... lol
Lonely (McFly)
It's only been a day
But it's like I cant go on
I just wanna say
I never meant to do you wrong
And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live
Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
'Cause thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby
Im so sick of being lonely
The stuff is in my house
So many things I cant ignore
Coats still on the couch yeah
Your photos on my freezer door
And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live
Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
Thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby
Im so sick of being lonely
lalalalalalalalalala
I am so lonelyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
lalalalalalalalala
And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live
yeahyeahyeahh..
Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
Thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby Im so sick of being lonely
I am so lonely
I am so lonely...
Bubble Wrap (McFly)
I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart,
In case I fall and break apart,
I'm not God I can't change the stars,
And I don't know if there's life on Mars,
But I know you hurt,
The people that you love and those who care for you,
I want nothing to do with the things you're going through.
This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.
I'm a little dazed and confused,
But life's a bitch and so are you,
All my days have turned into nights,
Cos living without, without, without you in my life,
And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,
And lose all your friends,
Did I mean nothing at all?
Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed?
Cos this is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.
Yeah!Turn on the radio honey,
Cos every single sad song you'll be able to relate!
And this one i dedicate!
Whoa oh!
Don't get all emotional baby
,You can never talk to me,
You're unable to communicate!
This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised...
This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.
This is Goodbye.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Current Mood: Annoyed... can't find the hidden room/ clue!
Current Colour: seeing RED
Current Music:Photo by Ryan Cabrera (go figure why)
Current Annoyance: can't find d hidden room/ clue (what is this? read on)
Current Obsession: Heroes Official Game
Current Physical Ailment: Sore thumbs!!
Yatta!!! hahahah... I finished the Heroes game... THREE time already. lol. At first it took me 4 days, then two days then one night to complete. Lol... The first time was draggy coz it tooke me almost 3 day to finish the Final Battle... tricky but i figured it out finally. If you are playing, you'll get what I mean.
I'm not here to do a review, nor am I here to tell you how to play (sorry, i'm not a spoiler queen even though I do read them!) lol... The only thing I can tell you is that there is a HIDDEN ROOM in the game wich will provide a vital CLUE related to tehe current 2nd season. WHERE? I also dunno... still looking for it. I think on one of Hiro's level I did wander off in a different path somewhere but i'm NOT totally sure. LoL...
It's weird to blog when I know practically no one reads this but what the hell... this is my only outlet. Anyway, probably will be changing the blog skin... so see how it goes. Kinda sick of the purple look now. lol...
Current Colour: seeing RED
Current Music:Photo by Ryan Cabrera (go figure why)
Current Annoyance: can't find d hidden room/ clue (what is this? read on)
Current Obsession: Heroes Official Game
Current Physical Ailment: Sore thumbs!!
Yatta!!! hahahah... I finished the Heroes game... THREE time already. lol. At first it took me 4 days, then two days then one night to complete. Lol... The first time was draggy coz it tooke me almost 3 day to finish the Final Battle... tricky but i figured it out finally. If you are playing, you'll get what I mean.
I'm not here to do a review, nor am I here to tell you how to play (sorry, i'm not a spoiler queen even though I do read them!) lol... The only thing I can tell you is that there is a HIDDEN ROOM in the game wich will provide a vital CLUE related to tehe current 2nd season. WHERE? I also dunno... still looking for it. I think on one of Hiro's level I did wander off in a different path somewhere but i'm NOT totally sure. LoL...
It's weird to blog when I know practically no one reads this but what the hell... this is my only outlet. Anyway, probably will be changing the blog skin... so see how it goes. Kinda sick of the purple look now. lol...
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Heroes Mania!
Grrrr... I wanna go to LONDON!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah Lina. LONDON!! OMG, I'd cut ppl's brain open and eat them like Sylar to be there!! LOL LOL... eew... I take that back. LoL. But yeah, I need a break too... :( So freaking bored here. Aiyo, Wanna go Singapore with Ai Ling also parents dun let, wanna go London?? Dream on la. (besides, I haf no money la... LoL)
Ok, ok.. I'm so kinda obsessed with Heroes these days. I just can't wait for the DVD!!! Ppl in Singapore, London, where ever... Get me the DVD set! Oh well.. u know how lagging Brunei is. Beside WHERE IN BRUNEI CAN YOU GET ORIGINAL DVDs?? Lol...
Hmmm... can't wait til season 2 starts showing here. Aiyo. How come we r not getting the Heroes specials which the stars host their special episodes?? aiyama... have to rely on youtube but... dial up worr... so slooooow... hahaha
Anyway, these are my favourite links
Heroes 360
Heroes MySpace
Heroes Wiki I love this site. Gives lots of indepth info on the show. even on things you never noticed! LoL. M such a geek...
Heroes the Series
Heroes transcript
Heroes Store I want everything there!!!
LoL... M such a geek leh. hahaha...need to get a life but... hey, who has a life here in brunei? LoL. All we do is work, eat, shop and sleep.... and repeat again. Is isn't a wonder why I seem to spend hundreds every month! (OMG Hundreds??? mum's gonna kill me!) Hmmm... they should have a Heroes store here....
Ok ok.. I better stop before everyone thinks I'm too heroes-crazy or a heroes maniac. Lol... Sigh... Y Brunei so sien one??? NOTHING ever happens here... :( AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Linaaaaa!!!! Knock my head!! LoL... (R u sick of me yet ah?) Damn, my sis not here for me to bug! LoL...
Ok, ok.. I'm so kinda obsessed with Heroes these days. I just can't wait for the DVD!!! Ppl in Singapore, London, where ever... Get me the DVD set! Oh well.. u know how lagging Brunei is. Beside WHERE IN BRUNEI CAN YOU GET ORIGINAL DVDs?? Lol...
Hmmm... can't wait til season 2 starts showing here. Aiyo. How come we r not getting the Heroes specials which the stars host their special episodes?? aiyama... have to rely on youtube but... dial up worr... so slooooow... hahaha
Anyway, these are my favourite links
Heroes 360
Heroes MySpace
Heroes Wiki I love this site. Gives lots of indepth info on the show. even on things you never noticed! LoL. M such a geek...
Heroes the Series
Heroes transcript
Heroes Store I want everything there!!!
LoL... M such a geek leh. hahaha...need to get a life but... hey, who has a life here in brunei? LoL. All we do is work, eat, shop and sleep.... and repeat again. Is isn't a wonder why I seem to spend hundreds every month! (OMG Hundreds??? mum's gonna kill me!) Hmmm... they should have a Heroes store here....
Ok ok.. I better stop before everyone thinks I'm too heroes-crazy or a heroes maniac. Lol... Sigh... Y Brunei so sien one??? NOTHING ever happens here... :( AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Linaaaaa!!!! Knock my head!! LoL... (R u sick of me yet ah?) Damn, my sis not here for me to bug! LoL...
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Freaking mad!!! M 23, not 5!!!
Current Mood: Freaking mad
Current Colour: red and black
Current Music: a pretty hypnotic song- teardrop by massive attack (listening to Prison Break OST) wait... change to deftones cd. not my kninda thing but my emo guy listens to it. it has serve it's purpose... it's emo enough for my emo mood... grrrrr....
Current Annoyance: parents being a pain in my@ss... they treat my sis as if she's 20 years older than me n i'm only 5!!
Current Obsession: getting the hell out of brunei
Ok. so I lie. I do hate getting stucked in brunei, no frens except Lina and Khiong, working with OLDER ppl who have kids my age, no life except go to work- come home- sleep- and repeat that every freaking working day!!!
I've been trying to convince myself, life isn't so freaking bad here in brunei. no tax, no war, earn enough money to convince myself not to kill myself after work each day....
do i hate my job? no... i hate my freaking life! d only fun i ever get is when i go out with lina to shop/ eat/ hunting/ wahatever... enough fun to be contented to actually have only one real fren here in this WHOLE country. sad? i think i really should have taken up mum's offer to bring me to psychatrist when i was 15-16. yeah, i've been pretty fucked up since i stepped into brunei. i had a normal life in kuching. when i was in miri at least i have a semi normal life. Now?? i dont haf a life. One day might go haywire and be dysfunctional. maybe i shud do a britney and shave my freaking hair off...
yes. this is my cry for attention, i want, no, i NEED to get out of brunei. it's screwing up my life- depression at 15, suffered from bully-ish from form 4-5, low self esteem at 16, inferior complex at 16, duel/multi personality complex by 18 (if u know me from uni, u'd b surprise to know the me in brunei), no bf til 23.... damn. How to get a bf if wanna go out with a FEMALE friend (aka Lina, who else?) also haf to ask for permission?? Am 23 orr, not 15! My sis sometimes just go out and she's 20!!
my sis allowed to travel on her own (she flew ALONE yesterday) or with frens by 18 or 19. me? d furthest is miri la, by bus n sampan. u think my parents even allow me to go further? once off handedly said wanna go to sibu by land with frens, they freak out... yeah. That bad. and that was when i was in uni.
the first time i went out with frens (legally) was when i was 17 (at 123 0r 14 or so got sneak out la... pretend go to post office or sch or buy sch project stuffs... but go lim teh or just browsing at BOOKSTORE... m such a nerd/ geek). my first sleepover was at 18. my first sem in uni (foundation at riam time) i was grounded for 1 sem coz i got caught at d shopping mall at 10.30pm by my cousin (tale tell... :( grrr...) My first date... hahahha... u think any guy wanna date me? considering that they probably haf to send in written request to my parents just to go out with me or worse probably wanna chaperone. Oh hell...
come on la. M old enough to think here! if in uni manage to fend off ppl who wanted to get into my pants (yeah, a few... including... nevermind), definitely know how to think properly. I mean, d idea of u know, one night stand... to some it's fun but to me... i have a sense of dignity and self worth. i still respect myself and even if no 1 respect me, i still wanna respect myself in d morning when i get up. me no prude (oh hell, further than that ok. my mind is like an x rated movie store sometimes, thanks to listening to too much guys' talk in uni) but dont expect me to screw around.
drug, smoking, drinking, sex... all the vices... i manage to graduate without trying any of those. what makes it different now?? considering i had frens who r alcoholics, chain smokers ( normal ciggies n also those who did weed...), druggies/ pusher (well i suspect only la, cant confirm... lol. dunno whr they r now), permiscuous frens (yeah, some bitches i know slept with HIM)... i don't condemn them for their choices... it's a free world. but they never influenced me. hell, idont even go clubbing!! not that i'm a goody two shoes... iame home at 9am before (but stayng alone so who cares... din come back for days also no1 scold...)
parents shud give me some slack la... m 23, repeat, 23. I work and earn my own money. yes, i did set aside some for d future. for my studies but hey... i need to relax sometimes. need to go out, meet some friends, meet guys (brunei no guys that interest me, all i meet are OLD ppl from work related thingies) mayb date a few guys? Grrr!!! I wish some guy jsut sweep me off my feet, bring me away to a far far away land and live happily ever after... when i was 12, i said i wanna marry at 24... hello, m 23 and no bf... u think my parents let me get married after a short courtship??? no way... ppl gossip only later, must b pregnant one la, shotgun al, whatever la... probably at least 5 years by d looks of it... if i even manage to get a guy to date me in d first place!! sigh... scared of ending up alone... a lonely spinster with 30 cats... Oh hell!! that's scary. if by 40 din marry probably kill myself liaw lorr or b permiscuous... hahahaha.... sigh... only if.... who knows, probably dun even live to be 30 with all this stress and depression... lol. touch wood!!!
But m raring to leave this place so ppl, if u wanna make me happy, offer me a job OUTSIDE of brunei and sarawak/sabah ok. The further aka Hollywood d better! of course m not cutting ties la... come back 4 holidays but hell... need to get out n learn how to cope in d real world. how to be a mother to a 23 year old next time if i cant give advise how it is to b a 23 year old trying to survive in the real world???? Grrr...right now my family is dysfunctional enough ok (not immediate family, extended family). dont make my future like that too... need space to breathe!! aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, my point is... I'm 23. Give me opportunity to grow up and experience life as a 20 something. Allow me to make decissions ( how to how to learn if never get opportunity?? like this job, i applied for it and took it because MY PARENTS want me to, not because I WANT to... more like I HAD to coz I HAD NO CHOICE... I need a job that i enjoy and not a job whr i haf to lie that i liked it whenever i meet YOUR friends) Let me go outh with friends sometimes. If my youngers sister can go for holidays alone, why not me. After all, I'm going with my best friend of 13 years.... who was like another daughter in the family. So... Let me go to Singapore!!!!!!! aargh!!! Stressed enough in office. need to let go some steam before i explode.
P/S: M not disrespecting my parents here or how they r bring us up/ parenting skills. we turn out ok but please... no need to hold on too tight. I need to grow up and leave the nest.
Current Colour: red and black
Current Music: a pretty hypnotic song- teardrop by massive attack (listening to Prison Break OST) wait... change to deftones cd. not my kninda thing but my emo guy listens to it. it has serve it's purpose... it's emo enough for my emo mood... grrrrr....
Current Annoyance: parents being a pain in my@ss... they treat my sis as if she's 20 years older than me n i'm only 5!!
Current Obsession: getting the hell out of brunei
Ok. so I lie. I do hate getting stucked in brunei, no frens except Lina and Khiong, working with OLDER ppl who have kids my age, no life except go to work- come home- sleep- and repeat that every freaking working day!!!
I've been trying to convince myself, life isn't so freaking bad here in brunei. no tax, no war, earn enough money to convince myself not to kill myself after work each day....
do i hate my job? no... i hate my freaking life! d only fun i ever get is when i go out with lina to shop/ eat/ hunting/ wahatever... enough fun to be contented to actually have only one real fren here in this WHOLE country. sad? i think i really should have taken up mum's offer to bring me to psychatrist when i was 15-16. yeah, i've been pretty fucked up since i stepped into brunei. i had a normal life in kuching. when i was in miri at least i have a semi normal life. Now?? i dont haf a life. One day might go haywire and be dysfunctional. maybe i shud do a britney and shave my freaking hair off...
yes. this is my cry for attention, i want, no, i NEED to get out of brunei. it's screwing up my life- depression at 15, suffered from bully-ish from form 4-5, low self esteem at 16, inferior complex at 16, duel/multi personality complex by 18 (if u know me from uni, u'd b surprise to know the me in brunei), no bf til 23.... damn. How to get a bf if wanna go out with a FEMALE friend (aka Lina, who else?) also haf to ask for permission?? Am 23 orr, not 15! My sis sometimes just go out and she's 20!!
my sis allowed to travel on her own (she flew ALONE yesterday) or with frens by 18 or 19. me? d furthest is miri la, by bus n sampan. u think my parents even allow me to go further? once off handedly said wanna go to sibu by land with frens, they freak out... yeah. That bad. and that was when i was in uni.
the first time i went out with frens (legally) was when i was 17 (at 123 0r 14 or so got sneak out la... pretend go to post office or sch or buy sch project stuffs... but go lim teh or just browsing at BOOKSTORE... m such a nerd/ geek). my first sleepover was at 18. my first sem in uni (foundation at riam time) i was grounded for 1 sem coz i got caught at d shopping mall at 10.30pm by my cousin (tale tell... :( grrr...) My first date... hahahha... u think any guy wanna date me? considering that they probably haf to send in written request to my parents just to go out with me or worse probably wanna chaperone. Oh hell...
come on la. M old enough to think here! if in uni manage to fend off ppl who wanted to get into my pants (yeah, a few... including... nevermind), definitely know how to think properly. I mean, d idea of u know, one night stand... to some it's fun but to me... i have a sense of dignity and self worth. i still respect myself and even if no 1 respect me, i still wanna respect myself in d morning when i get up. me no prude (oh hell, further than that ok. my mind is like an x rated movie store sometimes, thanks to listening to too much guys' talk in uni) but dont expect me to screw around.
drug, smoking, drinking, sex... all the vices... i manage to graduate without trying any of those. what makes it different now?? considering i had frens who r alcoholics, chain smokers ( normal ciggies n also those who did weed...), druggies/ pusher (well i suspect only la, cant confirm... lol. dunno whr they r now), permiscuous frens (yeah, some bitches i know slept with HIM)... i don't condemn them for their choices... it's a free world. but they never influenced me. hell, idont even go clubbing!! not that i'm a goody two shoes... iame home at 9am before (but stayng alone so who cares... din come back for days also no1 scold...)
parents shud give me some slack la... m 23, repeat, 23. I work and earn my own money. yes, i did set aside some for d future. for my studies but hey... i need to relax sometimes. need to go out, meet some friends, meet guys (brunei no guys that interest me, all i meet are OLD ppl from work related thingies) mayb date a few guys? Grrr!!! I wish some guy jsut sweep me off my feet, bring me away to a far far away land and live happily ever after... when i was 12, i said i wanna marry at 24... hello, m 23 and no bf... u think my parents let me get married after a short courtship??? no way... ppl gossip only later, must b pregnant one la, shotgun al, whatever la... probably at least 5 years by d looks of it... if i even manage to get a guy to date me in d first place!! sigh... scared of ending up alone... a lonely spinster with 30 cats... Oh hell!! that's scary. if by 40 din marry probably kill myself liaw lorr or b permiscuous... hahahaha.... sigh... only if.... who knows, probably dun even live to be 30 with all this stress and depression... lol. touch wood!!!
But m raring to leave this place so ppl, if u wanna make me happy, offer me a job OUTSIDE of brunei and sarawak/sabah ok. The further aka Hollywood d better! of course m not cutting ties la... come back 4 holidays but hell... need to get out n learn how to cope in d real world. how to be a mother to a 23 year old next time if i cant give advise how it is to b a 23 year old trying to survive in the real world???? Grrr...right now my family is dysfunctional enough ok (not immediate family, extended family). dont make my future like that too... need space to breathe!! aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, my point is... I'm 23. Give me opportunity to grow up and experience life as a 20 something. Allow me to make decissions ( how to how to learn if never get opportunity?? like this job, i applied for it and took it because MY PARENTS want me to, not because I WANT to... more like I HAD to coz I HAD NO CHOICE... I need a job that i enjoy and not a job whr i haf to lie that i liked it whenever i meet YOUR friends) Let me go outh with friends sometimes. If my youngers sister can go for holidays alone, why not me. After all, I'm going with my best friend of 13 years.... who was like another daughter in the family. So... Let me go to Singapore!!!!!!! aargh!!! Stressed enough in office. need to let go some steam before i explode.
P/S: M not disrespecting my parents here or how they r bring us up/ parenting skills. we turn out ok but please... no need to hold on too tight. I need to grow up and leave the nest.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
My Cutie's Going To Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood: Love sick & ecstatic
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Way Back Into Love from the Music & Lyrics OST (on repeat & singing it too)
Current Annoyance: being so far away from.... ;p
Current Obsession: Heroes and milo peng addiction
Current Physical Ailment: Love sick
OH my God, Oh my God!! My dream guy is coming to Singapore in like 3 months!!!! Aiiiii!!!! (Scream!!) Just found out the news about 20 Minutes ago! OMG OMG OMG!!! Gonna die from excitement!!! LOL. See, I have not blogged for ages and now m blogging abt him! AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh man!! I need to find a way to Singapore then! Planning ahead. Ok, ok…. If he is confirm going I’m gonna book tickets. Hopefully I can go. Please please let it be a Saturday so I can fly on Friday and come back on Sunday. OMG…. Like planning a rendevous!! Hahahaha… IZZAH DO NOT MENTION HIS NAME HERE!!!! OMG…. Now I feel like drinking a glass of cold milo peng… aiyo… had one already today!! Hahahah….
Calm down, calm down… Ok who is he? Hahahaha… not gonna say… *Sing* “all I wanna do is find my way back into love” Oh Gosh he’s so freaking hot. Damn, I was so engrossed with “Sunshine” back then I never saw how hot he is…. LoL… And I thought “Sunshine” was all that… damn. This guy makes “Sunshine” pale in comparison!! His brown eyes, cute smile and tousled hair…. Aiyo, makes Sunshine look blah. Seriously, how does Sunshine look like again??? Hahahahaha… M serious!!! LOL.
Oh man, m so in love with the song. Who cares if it’s Hugh Grant singing… I love the lyrics and the melody!! Hehehehe… It kinda makes makes me nice, worm and fuzzy inside like thinking of my cutie does… LoL… hahahaha… makes me imaginew me & cutie dancing together… lol lol lol… The lyrics kinda speak of what I'm feeling right now...
Was under some sort of hypnosis thingy the other day... The psychologist said thing of a happy memory and in my mind i suddenly remember how save and secured I felt in Sunshine's car that one rainy day... how the air smelled, the feling of his car seat, my wet clothes, the smell inside the car, his perfume, how his smie looked like and his voice etc... then the psychologist said "now it is time o let go and forget of the past. move on. forgive and forget..." and then he counted backwards and I woke up... freaky but i kinda find it easier to forget sunshine... sigh... and that was at a talk by a psychologist i went with my family & some church ppl...
Now I'm ready to move on and think abt my cutie!! Damn, why cant he come to Brunei eh? And Lina, stop SMSing me all that stuff just now... not too X Rated at church k... LoL... I know u dont mean it to sound x rated but u know d state of my hormone right now!! LoL.... ROTFLMAO!!! Oh man.... I dunno wat to do now.... Shit better not effect my work la. Hope my boss dont find me drooling abt him or me sending him Myspace messages... LoL... Which reminds me... I supposed to ask Lina what to ask him. Damn. lol... oh man, I swear a lot today, huh? and to think that all it takes to get me all swear-y wa the thought of a rendezvous with him!! Hmmm.. i should realy get him a nick name.... will think of it tonight. The one Lina & I use is too conspicuous !! Man, my feet r tingling! LoL... hahaha... M I in love??? nah, until d day of the skin on skin contact (ew... sound so x rated... til we r physically near each other?) probably?? LoL...
Hmmm... gotta go off now... Need to shower and start the beautification regime... LoL. I love it when I'm crushing... My face's skin becomes all soft and smooth with out much work. Don't even need to worry to exfoliate or do facial... and my face glow from inside. must be too happy... LoL...
Oh man.. update!! he's gonna be inSingapore on Aust 31 & Sept 1st!!!! OMG!!! Tickets!!
Hugh Grant & Haley Bennet- Way Back Into Love (Music & Lyrics OST)
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
Oh oh oh
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Way Back Into Love from the Music & Lyrics OST (on repeat & singing it too)
Current Annoyance: being so far away from.... ;p
Current Obsession: Heroes and milo peng addiction
Current Physical Ailment: Love sick
OH my God, Oh my God!! My dream guy is coming to Singapore in like 3 months!!!! Aiiiii!!!! (Scream!!) Just found out the news about 20 Minutes ago! OMG OMG OMG!!! Gonna die from excitement!!! LOL. See, I have not blogged for ages and now m blogging abt him! AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh man!! I need to find a way to Singapore then! Planning ahead. Ok, ok…. If he is confirm going I’m gonna book tickets. Hopefully I can go. Please please let it be a Saturday so I can fly on Friday and come back on Sunday. OMG…. Like planning a rendevous!! Hahahaha… IZZAH DO NOT MENTION HIS NAME HERE!!!! OMG…. Now I feel like drinking a glass of cold milo peng… aiyo… had one already today!! Hahahah….
Calm down, calm down… Ok who is he? Hahahaha… not gonna say… *Sing* “all I wanna do is find my way back into love” Oh Gosh he’s so freaking hot. Damn, I was so engrossed with “Sunshine” back then I never saw how hot he is…. LoL… And I thought “Sunshine” was all that… damn. This guy makes “Sunshine” pale in comparison!! His brown eyes, cute smile and tousled hair…. Aiyo, makes Sunshine look blah. Seriously, how does Sunshine look like again??? Hahahahaha… M serious!!! LOL.
Oh man, m so in love with the song. Who cares if it’s Hugh Grant singing… I love the lyrics and the melody!! Hehehehe… It kinda makes makes me nice, worm and fuzzy inside like thinking of my cutie does… LoL… hahahaha… makes me imaginew me & cutie dancing together… lol lol lol… The lyrics kinda speak of what I'm feeling right now...
Was under some sort of hypnosis thingy the other day... The psychologist said thing of a happy memory and in my mind i suddenly remember how save and secured I felt in Sunshine's car that one rainy day... how the air smelled, the feling of his car seat, my wet clothes, the smell inside the car, his perfume, how his smie looked like and his voice etc... then the psychologist said "now it is time o let go and forget of the past. move on. forgive and forget..." and then he counted backwards and I woke up... freaky but i kinda find it easier to forget sunshine... sigh... and that was at a talk by a psychologist i went with my family & some church ppl...
Now I'm ready to move on and think abt my cutie!! Damn, why cant he come to Brunei eh? And Lina, stop SMSing me all that stuff just now... not too X Rated at church k... LoL... I know u dont mean it to sound x rated but u know d state of my hormone right now!! LoL.... ROTFLMAO!!! Oh man.... I dunno wat to do now.... Shit better not effect my work la. Hope my boss dont find me drooling abt him or me sending him Myspace messages... LoL... Which reminds me... I supposed to ask Lina what to ask him. Damn. lol... oh man, I swear a lot today, huh? and to think that all it takes to get me all swear-y wa the thought of a rendezvous with him!! Hmmm.. i should realy get him a nick name.... will think of it tonight. The one Lina & I use is too conspicuous !! Man, my feet r tingling! LoL... hahaha... M I in love??? nah, until d day of the skin on skin contact (ew... sound so x rated... til we r physically near each other?) probably?? LoL...
Hmmm... gotta go off now... Need to shower and start the beautification regime... LoL. I love it when I'm crushing... My face's skin becomes all soft and smooth with out much work. Don't even need to worry to exfoliate or do facial... and my face glow from inside. must be too happy... LoL...
Oh man.. update!! he's gonna be inSingapore on Aust 31 & Sept 1st!!!! OMG!!! Tickets!!
Hugh Grant & Haley Bennet- Way Back Into Love (Music & Lyrics OST)
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
Oh oh oh
Monday, April 09, 2007
Facelift
Current Mood: pissed
Current Colour: seeing red
Current Music: tv
Current Annoyance: ppl who dont like me to input into conversations... ppl trying to make conversation ma... if i dun talk ppl say i'm sulking again n not sociable
Nothing much to blog coz got mood killer at home... ppl cannaot kill that person's mmod but that person can kill other's mood la... grr...
Anyways, in d next few days would be giving my bloggie a face lift. Deleting some entries, esp those of me ranting about more oh-so-boring job. Why can't I have a job half as exciting as what I studied? The closes thing to a production set/ studio i have now is the RTB studios!!! *Groan* Can't wait til Rama announce that Curtin would be offering MA in mass Comm... though he did say it could be Media Management... Not my kinda thing... prefer to work my way up first... It's weird that nowadays ppl tend to get managerial jobs without knowing what they are supposed to be managing. I mean, if a person is a Media manager, of course he/she needs to have a knowledge and experience of the people they are managing. eg, managing a TV network... should know how TV programming is done, handled, the selection proccess that has to be done when selecting tv shows, time slots, adverts etc... Besides... I'm kinda sick of working in an office with no action! LOL... need the adrenaline rush, moving here and there, working under extreme pressure... Syok man!!
Anyways... I'll better stop before I go off ranting about my 'job' again... People would think i hate my job. No I don't actually hate it. Frankly speaking.. I don't feel anything about it. I do what I have to do, not because I want to but because I have to. Most ppl hate their bosses... Mine's not bad. Pretty nice. too bad I cant say the same about my DOB (only I know what DOB means) colleagues... Plus... the AGE GAP!! and the lack of men... Married older men with kids my age or older ada lah in my office but sorry... Not interested at all... Sigh...
PPl think I hate my life in Brunei... Truly, if this is any other country and my life is still like this, I'd stil hate it. It's not the country (unless it's a country where I can actually see/meet young hot guys and not boring old people only)... it's d ppl (or lack of ppl) I'm around. Need to hang out with more younget ppl... Other ppl can hang out with their colleagues after work... Mine? Hello... they haf families to return to. Had so much fun that day cruising around and hanging out at coffeebean til pass midnight with Lina & Khiong... and coming back only when my parents were already sleeping! hahaha... Definitely better than coming back from workand crashing on d bed
each night, day in and day out...
Current Colour: seeing red
Current Music: tv
Current Annoyance: ppl who dont like me to input into conversations... ppl trying to make conversation ma... if i dun talk ppl say i'm sulking again n not sociable
Nothing much to blog coz got mood killer at home... ppl cannaot kill that person's mmod but that person can kill other's mood la... grr...
Anyways, in d next few days would be giving my bloggie a face lift. Deleting some entries, esp those of me ranting about more oh-so-boring job. Why can't I have a job half as exciting as what I studied? The closes thing to a production set/ studio i have now is the RTB studios!!! *Groan* Can't wait til Rama announce that Curtin would be offering MA in mass Comm... though he did say it could be Media Management... Not my kinda thing... prefer to work my way up first... It's weird that nowadays ppl tend to get managerial jobs without knowing what they are supposed to be managing. I mean, if a person is a Media manager, of course he/she needs to have a knowledge and experience of the people they are managing. eg, managing a TV network... should know how TV programming is done, handled, the selection proccess that has to be done when selecting tv shows, time slots, adverts etc... Besides... I'm kinda sick of working in an office with no action! LOL... need the adrenaline rush, moving here and there, working under extreme pressure... Syok man!!
Anyways... I'll better stop before I go off ranting about my 'job' again... People would think i hate my job. No I don't actually hate it. Frankly speaking.. I don't feel anything about it. I do what I have to do, not because I want to but because I have to. Most ppl hate their bosses... Mine's not bad. Pretty nice. too bad I cant say the same about my DOB (only I know what DOB means) colleagues... Plus... the AGE GAP!! and the lack of men... Married older men with kids my age or older ada lah in my office but sorry... Not interested at all... Sigh...
PPl think I hate my life in Brunei... Truly, if this is any other country and my life is still like this, I'd stil hate it. It's not the country (unless it's a country where I can actually see/meet young hot guys and not boring old people only)... it's d ppl (or lack of ppl) I'm around. Need to hang out with more younget ppl... Other ppl can hang out with their colleagues after work... Mine? Hello... they haf families to return to. Had so much fun that day cruising around and hanging out at coffeebean til pass midnight with Lina & Khiong... and coming back only when my parents were already sleeping! hahaha... Definitely better than coming back from workand crashing on d bed
each night, day in and day out...
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Pain...
Current Mood: melancholic
Current Colour: navy blue, dark red
Current Music: Pain by Three Day's Grace
Current Annoyance: Get out of my head!
Current Obsession: getting someone out of my system again
this song's one of my fav new songs... cant find the CD song manage to get the ring tone. Saw d music vid on MTV & loved d song from the first time... Lyrics says it all... got a "relapse". wonder when can I get over this????
Pain - Three Days Grace (Album- One X)
Current Colour: navy blue, dark red
Current Music: Pain by Three Day's Grace
Current Annoyance: Get out of my head!
Current Obsession: getting someone out of my system again
this song's one of my fav new songs... cant find the CD song manage to get the ring tone. Saw d music vid on MTV & loved d song from the first time... Lyrics says it all... got a "relapse". wonder when can I get over this????
Pain - Three Days Grace (Album- One X)
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
‘Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Thank God it wasn't him!
Current Mood: tired
Current Colour: black
Current Music: sleeping with the lights on (busted)
Current Annoyance: my body aching
Current Obsession: sudoku on my N73! oh noooo....
Current Physical Ailment: body aching all over
Sigh... cant sleep again. so checking mail & what not. hmm... was reading my previous entry. hahahha... wanna laugh la. Was laughing d other day. I saw d guy-who-looks-like-Sunshine at airport. he was checking in. same flight as my sis. i had a good look at him. Definitely NOT Sunshine! why?
Current Colour: black
Current Music: sleeping with the lights on (busted)
Current Annoyance: my body aching
Current Obsession: sudoku on my N73! oh noooo....
Current Physical Ailment: body aching all over
Sigh... cant sleep again. so checking mail & what not. hmm... was reading my previous entry. hahahha... wanna laugh la. Was laughing d other day. I saw d guy-who-looks-like-Sunshine at airport. he was checking in. same flight as my sis. i had a good look at him. Definitely NOT Sunshine! why?
- his nose is sharper & lips r different.
- face is smaller & sharper. kinda ratty! lol.
- he is a left hander (Sunshine's right handed. I should know. I observe him enough to know dat)
- SKINNIER!!!
- shorter
- when i really got to look at him, i realised his build is not d same. small shoulders, d waist also different. dunno how i can tell but yeah.
- his ass!! His Ass made me decide it wasn't Sunshine! LOL! Why? coz Sunshine's ass was wider! lol. and rounder and so nice to look at that it makes one wanna smack it! huhuhu...
hahaha... I sound like a perv la! But hey, I stare at his ass enough to enjoy it. din help dat he even purposely raise his t-shirt a bit to show his sexy red undies & then tug his short up... in front of me IN THE RAIN... after we got to uni... together... LOL. huh? together? hehehe... ader la... not gonna tell... *wink wink*
U shud haf heard my sighs of relieve when I realised it wasn't him. Kus semangat! Nearly died when i thought it was him. why? coz if it was him... i'd probably die of curiosity why he's here 7 all dat. Plus I had a weird dream abt him becoming a manager in brunei & we get invited to d same function (by French embassy at Yacht club!! must. be. wary. if. i. get.invite. from. french. embassy). weird, weird , WEIRD!!!
anyways... happy it's all over. but stress out coz my boss it back & i feel like my ass is gonna get busted. dunno la. when she was away office was very tensed bah. I have d feeling i used to have in uni or sch when i feel/know/think dat i will get called up and get busted! damn!
Friday, March 09, 2007
I thought I saw Sunshine in Brunei!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood: confused
Current Colour: navy blue... hehehe
Current Music: some a1 songs my sis is playing... sigh remind me of......
Current Annoyance: was it you just now?
Current Obsession: is he is brunei?
Current Physical Ailment: headache due to confusion! heart ache is back again coz it remembers all d beautiful things of 2003-2004... sigh....
I just need to blog before I go crazy! was waiting 4 dad after work & i saw this guy talking to another guy (I assume asking something/ directions/ whatever). the first guy's back was facing me but something abt d physical build and mannerism reminded me of -HIM-. was wearing a cap and something abt d side of his face/ jaw under d cap reminded me of... Grrr...
when he walked passed me... aiyoyo... really looks like -HIM- except thinner and darker. height same, eyes, facial features all same. d guy din seem to show any recognisation when he passed me so maybe it's just me being silly and it wasn't him. then again, mayb if it WAS -HIM- then mayb he din recognise me with all my clothes on. eh, dont think d wrong way... i meant, he prob din recognise me (If it was -HIM-) coz he used to see me in skippy spaghetti strap tops and mini skirts in uni. Not that he had seen me nude la... choy! u think i so cheap ah? got offer but u think i want meh? wanna kena disown ka? cheh!
Anyway, now i cant sleep thus am blogging coz me so confused if that was -HIM- of his doppelganger (sp?) Aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! d first 2-3 hrs i was grinning like a fool, now my head is spinning like a whirlpool.... oh man. I'm starting to rhyme again. He makes me rhyme & write poems... beware if u get poems in my blog!! Damn!!! if it is him... wat's he doing here? where is his other half (rumoured to have one already...) wt was he doing where he was (just now) and looking for wat? Aaargh!!!! I nearly fell off the steps just now and my heart cud haf dropped out when he passed me. the eyes wa... it was similar... Kinda know how he looks like with out know it is him (physical-wise/ mannerism) coz i probably spent more time studying him than my books (lol... actually yes, i did but cant tell u when & where. but canteen & football field/ basketball court area are some of d places but thr's another place i spent hours 'studying'!).
Grrr... i need sleep!! got work in less than 7 hrs time! probably have night mares dreaming of him stalking me this time! LOL... Sigh... If anyone knows if that was -HIM- or not tell me please!!!! but.. "As if u'll know who -HIM- is!!"
Current Colour: navy blue... hehehe
Current Music: some a1 songs my sis is playing... sigh remind me of......
Current Annoyance: was it you just now?
Current Obsession: is he is brunei?
Current Physical Ailment: headache due to confusion! heart ache is back again coz it remembers all d beautiful things of 2003-2004... sigh....
I just need to blog before I go crazy! was waiting 4 dad after work & i saw this guy talking to another guy (I assume asking something/ directions/ whatever). the first guy's back was facing me but something abt d physical build and mannerism reminded me of -HIM-. was wearing a cap and something abt d side of his face/ jaw under d cap reminded me of... Grrr...
when he walked passed me... aiyoyo... really looks like -HIM- except thinner and darker. height same, eyes, facial features all same. d guy din seem to show any recognisation when he passed me so maybe it's just me being silly and it wasn't him. then again, mayb if it WAS -HIM- then mayb he din recognise me with all my clothes on. eh, dont think d wrong way... i meant, he prob din recognise me (If it was -HIM-) coz he used to see me in skippy spaghetti strap tops and mini skirts in uni. Not that he had seen me nude la... choy! u think i so cheap ah? got offer but u think i want meh? wanna kena disown ka? cheh!
Anyway, now i cant sleep thus am blogging coz me so confused if that was -HIM- of his doppelganger (sp?) Aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! d first 2-3 hrs i was grinning like a fool, now my head is spinning like a whirlpool.... oh man. I'm starting to rhyme again. He makes me rhyme & write poems... beware if u get poems in my blog!! Damn!!! if it is him... wat's he doing here? where is his other half (rumoured to have one already...) wt was he doing where he was (just now) and looking for wat? Aaargh!!!! I nearly fell off the steps just now and my heart cud haf dropped out when he passed me. the eyes wa... it was similar... Kinda know how he looks like with out know it is him (physical-wise/ mannerism) coz i probably spent more time studying him than my books (lol... actually yes, i did but cant tell u when & where. but canteen & football field/ basketball court area are some of d places but thr's another place i spent hours 'studying'!).
Grrr... i need sleep!! got work in less than 7 hrs time! probably have night mares dreaming of him stalking me this time! LOL... Sigh... If anyone knows if that was -HIM- or not tell me please!!!! but.. "As if u'll know who -HIM- is!!"
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Current Mood: dense, dark and moody... probably in a killing mood
Current Colour: b lack
Current Music: jazz (weird for moody mood but jazz is kinda dark too)
Current Annoyance: lots of things. read my other blog... friendster one... go to my links to c access it.
Current Obsession: manicures & pedicures... i go every forthnight!
Current Physical Ailment: sick physically & in d head
what to say? I'm still alive. 'nuff said. read my other blog.
Current Colour: b lack
Current Music: jazz (weird for moody mood but jazz is kinda dark too)
Current Annoyance: lots of things. read my other blog... friendster one... go to my links to c access it.
Current Obsession: manicures & pedicures... i go every forthnight!
Current Physical Ailment: sick physically & in d head
what to say? I'm still alive. 'nuff said. read my other blog.
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