Life Out Of Order

UPDATE: Skin change

2009-09-13T13:00:00.003+08:00

Current Mood: Temperamental
Current Colour: colourful
Current Music: Freaky G by KRU
Current Annoyance: Job search
Current Obsession: NKOTB, Twitter, CSI:Miami
Current Physical Ailment: FLU! Damn haze!

Ok, this is my temporary blogskin. The candies look very cute! LOL...

Will work on a new NKOTB skin when I find time. And will try to start blogging more often... again.

frustrated

2009-09-13T04:41:00.001+08:00

So apparently my links all don't work. UGH! Will try to work it out ASAP when I can.

2008-08-26T04:10:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: mixed emotions... mood's been a rollercoaster since Thursday
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Single (NKOTB fr Ne-Yo)
Current Annoyance: I would like to kick a gossip monger to the the center of the sun
Current Obsession: NKOTB, duh!
Current Physical Ailment: headache.... maybe been thudding too much?

This is what that I am waiting for!! Yaaay!! These men have been my distraction for the past 4 coming to 5 months!

2008-07-30T13:04:00.001+08:00

Current Mood: Excited
Current Colour: Pink
Current Music: Click Click Click
Current Annoyance: I don't live in LA
Current Obsession: NKOTB, Jonathan Knight. (LOL)
Current Physical Ailment: Jet Lagged. LOL

OMG I can't wait for the new album! I have order two CDs and one Deluxe Edition CD. LMAO... Anyway, I'll leave something that I have been doing for the past 1 month...

(To Leave Comments http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXe60OPcjfE)

Enjoy!

2008-07-30T13:01:00.002+08:00

Yo! I noticed I have been abandoning my blog for I don't know... a month? LOL... Anyway, I was busy with 1001 stuffs... LOL..

Would try to work on the blogskin soon! And remove the audio loop. LOL...

2008-07-05T13:37:00.001+08:00

Grrr... no time to edit the blog skin yet... but i'm put it back up coz I love it and miss it. lol... Oh yeah, gonna change some of the pics around.

Bear with me. :)

2008-07-01T02:24:00.002+08:00

Current Mood: Wacky
Current Colour: Orange! heheheh
Current Music: none. weird. I usually have something on.
Current Annoyance: Time zone differences
Current Obsession: NKOTB, Jonathan Knight. Ebay. LMAO Bad combination!
Current Physical Ailment: Sleepy! hehehe...

I decided to put up my old NKOTB blog skin coz I miss it! hehehehe.... I have not had the time to edit the dead links so bear with me. =D

2008-06-22T19:53:00.003+08:00

I'm currently modifying my NKOTB Blogger skin so bear with the current skin for at least the next day or so! =D

Bummed out

2008-06-21T23:57:00.005+08:00

Current Mood: bummed out
Current Colour: black... I'm mourning
Current Music: Whatever it takes- The Faders
Current Annoyance: the nkotb forum is shutdown
Current Obsession: being bummed out
Current Physical Ailment: feeling over bummed out?

I know, I know... I've been neglecting this blog. I have nothing much to say these days.

I've been really really active in the NKOTB Community, most particularly the Jonathan forum. I'm like the "Queen" in there coz I have the most posts but... LMAO... I am not the Queen coz we are all equally the same, just fans. Plus there IS someone useing Queen as her nick. ;)

Thursday, suddenly the Jonathan forum was shut down, lock down, whatever. I was online when it happened and I freak out. And then came a flood of private messages. Thank God for that, or else I'd probably would have fainted or something... but I could not offer an explaination. Up to now.

And Saturday 12 noon, the whole forum closed down! Seriously! And I was online again when it happened and I freaked again. but I was prepared and this time I wasn't at work so had MSN on and one of my fellow fans IMing me. We were both freaking out but it worked out ok.

Right now feeling bummed coz I miss the forum. Been keeping in touch through FB, Myspace and emails... :( I miss my support group... heheheh..

Happy Birthday Jordan (and Happy Birthday to me)

2008-05-17T12:40:00.003+08:00

Current Mood: tired but estatic, on an all time NKOTB High
Current Colour: Black and white
Current Music: Radio (for once)
Current Annoyance: I wish I am in New Jersey for the Zootopia concert!
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!
Current Physical Ailment: 1 1/2 months without proper sleep... panda eyes!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORDAN!!

Hope you have a great birthday this year, with after the amazing comeback show yesterday and the concerts today and tomorrow! You get to share it with thousands of Blockhead!

Erm, sorry Danny, Happy belated birthday to you too! You also celebrated your birthday with the Blockheads at HOB too!

New Kids On The Block is BACK! Thanks for the great show guys!

Jonathan, you did great! Looking hot n sexy!!! :) You did that thrust thing too riiight?? I nearly fell off my chair! :D

Joe, the hat almost made me cry! :')

Donnie, OMG! The Thrust is back and you tease! You should kept ur shirt up longer! :D

Jordan, you looked sexy today! We need you to dance more! We miss your moves! ;)

Danny! You're looking fine these days! :)

I'm lazy to post the videos up just yet so I'll just put the links. Afterall, the blog is still blasting Tonight at the moment. LoL...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irlfv4VNHrY [NKOTB Live in NYC Part 1]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mG2_zcw-gw8 [NKOTB Live in NYC Part 2]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e1H1xluB6js [NKOTB Live in NYC Part 3]

On another note... It's my birthday too! LoL.... So what do I want? Go here to see (Wishlist)!! And whatever is on the column on the right, under the heading "I still believe in Santa Claus"!! hehehe....

NYSE

2008-05-16T04:15:00.002+08:00

Current Mood: OMG OMG OMG
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: no music... watching New York Stock Exchange on CNBC (wtf?)
Current Annoyance: NYSE link not working (online)
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!!!!!!
Current Physical Ailment: I forgot how nice it is to actually get sleep...

OMG OMG OMG... NKOTB looked so yummylicious at the closing of NYSE!!! Yum Yum YUM!! Jon looks so......ooooh. I dunno, I forgot all my vocabs! LoL..

Ok, it's 4.24am as I type this. I woke up at 3.30am just to wait for the closing at 4am (4pm NYC time). Damn... SE usually drives me to sleep, now I'm watching it coz of NKOTB! LoL... Real estate used to bore me, now I'm trying to learn more too... hahahaha... what next? me trying to learn the NKOTB moves? LoL... Been trying too actually. LoL.. I know the "New Kids dance" already and the "Right Stuff" chorus move... lol.. Funny. My poor yoga mat is flattened already.

Bet u went "yoga mat????" right? lol.. yeah, i bought a yoga mat & a set of dumbells... lol... Trying to get serious about losing weight and getting tonned!

Damn I am in NYC camping with my fellow Blockheads. yup, there's about 200 Blockheads camping outside the Rockefella Plaza right now... A few of them camped since wednesday night and... Donnie n Jon popped by! LoL... Jon says that they are nuts (in a good way) coz they are camping out TWO days in advance waiting for the Today Show!! LoL... I'd probably died if he said that to me and go to heaven.. LoL...

Okay, I better head off to zzz now. I'm so worn out these days!!

2008-05-10T02:49:00.001+08:00

Current Mood: odd, weird, sleepy
Current Colour: Orange
Current Music: Popsicle by NKOTB (hehehe... Jul, "popsicle"!)
Current Annoyance: Monday can't come soon enough and eurgh! Have to to minutes again
Current Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: Backache n stiff neck due to long hours on the pc, sore muscles coz of my work out on Thursday!

I nearly bought an orange shirt on Friday! hahahaha...

Instead, I bought a size M off white linen shirt and it fit perfectly (did not try it at the shop.)

I had one wild dream during my afternoon nap, I'm pissed mum woke me up. :( Wonder how far it could have gone. need a cold shower

I saw a guy that reminded me of Jonathan Knight.

I managed to control myself from over eating a buffet.

I can't wait til Monday to download Summertime.

I can't wait til Monday coz there's a surprise on nkotb.com.

Oh oh oh oh oh...

2008-05-08T20:54:00.003+08:00

Current Mood: Weird out
Current Colour: Orange
Current Music: Favourite Girl (NKOTB) too many oh ohs.... Donnie said when they saing "Oh Oh" it actually means "I wanna grab your ass!" LoL... gotta find that quote! LoL
Current Annoyance: I wish I cud b in NYC on Thursday to join the Slumber Party at the Plaza (Rockefeller Plaza) and celebrate my 24th b'day with NKOTB. Hey's it's Jordan's b'day on the same day as mine too... LOL. Have fun everyone!
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!!!!!
Current Physical Ailment: Lack of sleep.... need to cut down my time on nkotb.com..

This is random... Sth Nong gave the link to me... LoL. Can u guess who the Sagittarius guy is? LoL...

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Will randomly blog again later...

Summertime

2008-05-06T02:29:00.003+08:00

Current Mood: Groovyliciously hot
Current Colour: summer colours... why do I keep on imagining orange again?? :p
Current Music: Summertime NKOTB (radio-ripped by someone...)
Current Annoyance: I wish I was in USA
Current Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: Sleepy, not had any sproper sleep the past 3 weeks!

OMG OMG OMG... Summertime is so groovylicious!! I can magine the guys on the beach and Jon in swimming trunks only (yellow/ green... why do I see this colour?). OK it's 2.33am, I'm high and grooving with the music played really loud (thank God for headphones)

The song makes me wanna dance... squirming in my seat now... lol... Ca't wait for May 13 where I can download the song from iTunes!! OMG, can't imagine the music video! It would be sizzling HOT HOT HOT!!!!

Listening to it the 17th time... trying to memorize the lyrics... lol... hahaha... i don't wear flip flops baby, but if you want me to, okay then... LoL...

This is abt summer in '88?? Apooo.... LoL... I was 4 ok! lol.. hahaha... But this line:

Do you remember
I’ll never forget
Touchin your body all
Soakin wet
The water was cool
The feelin was hot
Kissin on you while the ocean rocked

makes me wanna imagine a soaked Jonathan! LoL... weird... must be what I read in the thread board in the afternoon... lol...

Ooooh... 2.39pm. I gotta get some sleep... I will look like a dazed zombie in the morning! Perhap smilling like a loon to myself though... LoL.... Gd nite, babes!

-18 times now... LoL-

Randomness

2008-04-27T01:14:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: random
Current Colour: blue
Current Music: Time is on our side (NKOTB) do you think I'd ever listen to anything else now?
Current Annoyance: I need my NKOTB fix!! Craaaaving...
Current Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: I hate food. lol

Random. Random. I just wanna blog. It is odd. I don't usually bother to blog for months but this month is a record! Blame NKOTB! lol...

Probably coz I'm feeling pretty hormonal... lol... Not that my hormons have been stable but lately it has been better than it has been for the past 1 year! LoL... My skins is almost flawless (don't look at the blackheads on my nose... they are almost gone...), my hair actually grew faster than usual and it freakingly much fuller and silkier now. And the best of all... I'm actually losing weight!! Yaaay!!! LoL...

What this have got to do with NKOTB? Well, for starters, I've been much much happier now, laughing and giggling a lot (thanks to all the crazy stuffs I read on nkotb.com) and also been in such a dreamy mood that I barely got time to snap at ppl even when I am stressed and over worked (except that time when I had a panic attack coz of a dateline... I was cursing like mad, feeling abt to faint/ blackout and on the verge of jumping down the building! LoL). I have a new crush (hahahha...) and major crushes like this leads to very good doses of endorphines and stabilises my hormons (LoL)...

ok ok... I'm crapping here again. but at 12.42am who wouldn't? I just need to wait for my manicure to dry then i can sleepzz... hmm... If i type sleepzz in my msn, a picture of Jonathan sleeping pops up... LoL...

I'm really into this 80s thing since January la... I have a bunch of Jem and the Hologram cartoons on my laptop, i have a couple of 80s inspired/ style tops, my nails have been pretty bright coloured (now it's hot pink, toe nails are bright electric blue), been buying big bangles and earrings... listening to NKOTB songs (LoL)... luckily my hair is still normal... my perm didn't work! LoL... Never mind... I have two sets of crimper........ lol.... Been getting 80s style tips from mum! LoL....

hmm... I've been "LoL-ing" a lot lately... as well as ROFLMFAO.... must be a little high on endorphines... lol... Or mayb I'm just showing my age again. LoL... I was talking to my 3rd boss in my office & I said somethings which sounds so odd in the office... kinda slang-ish and he was laughing... he's not that much older, same age as Joe but I think I do sound like a teenager...LoL.. which, I'm afraid (despite my NKOTB obsession) isn't that long ago (LoL... how old should one be to be considered NOT a teen? 20? Then 19 isn't that long ago... It's like 5 years ago! LoL)

Do I miss my teens? probably. I had a crappy teenage years in brunei 15 1/2 until 17 1/2 then i moved out to uni... the worse 2 years of my life probably was then or 2006 after i graduated and bummed at home looking for a job and had no friends... :( Now? Still pretty crappy-ish but I am just waiting for the right man to sweep me off my feet and i will follow him to the ends of the earth... LoL... a KNIGHT in shinning armour (a suit would be fine) on a white horse (or in a white car/ plane...)LoL....

Hmm... It's 1.12am.. really late. My manicure has set so I'm Off to sleep... Do drop a note in my guest book ok... and do comment if you want to (just click the comment link below). gd nite... yawn... i know wat and who I want to dream of tonight....

NKOTB DAY!!! (dedicated to NKOTB...lol)

2008-04-24T21:31:00.001+08:00

Current Mood: Estatic & unbelievably high (stil haven't eaten all day)
Current Colour: Orange (again)
Current Music: Happy Birthday by NKOTB! (LoL) followed by more NKOTB songs
Current Annoyance: I wish I can sit in Starbucks LA all day long *wink, wink*
Current Obsession: NKOTB!!!!!!
Current Physical Ailment: Not feeling hungry but a little high coz lack of food!

24 April= NKOTB Day!! Wheee... lol..

So, all Blockheads out there, Let's Paaar-taay!! LoL.

Seriously, I'm partying alone tonight. LoL.. Just came back from work at6.30 (now's 7.32pm) and my parents went out. Came home and sat in front of my laptop listening to NKOTB mp3s... lol... As I had pledged! (more about that later). Brrr... a bit chilly here. My air conditioning is on high and well... I'm not exactly dressed. LoL... I'll shower after I blog. LoL

So, NKOTB Day... Someone asked what will I do to celebrate it. Well, cant exactly go out celebrating coz I don't personally know any fellow Blockheads in Brunei, which is weirs since the whole population here (est 391,450 in 2007) is definitely much smaller than the whole of Boston (est 590,763 in 2006)! lol...

Anyway, as part of NKOTB Day, I had pledged on nkotb.com to:

Vote for NKOTB at least 24 times here (oops... I voted 62 times! lol);

Influence my friends to vote;

Dedicate a blog post to NKOTB (nothing new, my last few posts were already abt them);

Listen to NKOTB songs at work, at home, in the car, in the shower (LoL), and anywhere else possible on my mp3;

Change all my mobile ringtones, message tones, reminder tones and alarms to NKOTB songs;

Change all my mobile phones wallpaper to NKOTB pics;

Change the wallpapers of the 3 laptops and 2 PCs at home to NKOTB related pics;

Change my MSN/Gtalk usernames;

Watch NKOTB videos (I just watched 2 parts of the E True Hollywood Story)

and etc which I have yet to come up with...

So someone asked me, why is NKOTB so great? I'm like, they are the father of all boyband, they are more successful than any other boybands (hmmm... did the word boyband even existed before them?), great music, fun, crazy crazy people (LoL), yummy looking (i kind of have a crush on all of them but nah, Jon's THE ONE... LoL), erm... I could go on forever... Hey, they were my 1st love (musically) and Joe was once my 1st crush (way, way, way before I ever saw Yusry.. LOL) that no one ever knew (ever wonder I ALWAYS like dark/ dark-ish/ reddish wavy/curly haired guys?)

K, what else to blog on NKOTB?? -break. shower first-

Back. I have no freaking idea... They llok hot in suits (ahh... I love gorgeous men in suits). They have funky dance steps. Their music is good for the mind, body and soul (to release stress or day dream, to dance/exercise, to Rejuvenate the soul -music therapy- etc...LoL). Okay, I've coming up with crap now.

NKOTB reminds of fun times as a child. Makes me all excited to revisit my childhood. BUT now they are much older, reminds me of why I think music is so great (if I had the talents, I wouldn't have majored in Film Making, instead I'd take Music... LoL). Music should be fun, not a popularity contest/ beauty contest. Of course that did play a factor in the success of of NKOTB but for me, it's all about the music (and Jonathan... ;p), the dance, the live shows (seen the vids but dying to go to at least one), the videos and perhaps, the merchandise (Len, you know what I want for my b'day- which is same as Jordan's... LoL).

Did I ever have a NKOTB merchandise? No. A NKOTB cassette (old school ma)? No, but I did have a "Greatest Hits" CD, which I have to hunt for in my room. Did I ever meet them? No, except in my dreams, unless I did meet D, D or Jon but din recognise them... LoL.

What got me excited was the whole phenomenon of them getting back together, the new music, the upcoming tour (please please PLEASE come to South East Asia!! I know Brunei has only 0.00001% of osting them, though). Maybe new merchandise? LoL... (it's like taboo to mention it to some ppl... LoL). Or maybe the fact that Jonathan reads the threads in the NKOTB Community? (eeek... Pretend you did not see the Jonathan's Mile High Club or stuff about Jonathan's Elevator Shaft! {or what I said!} LoL)

Hmm... I don't know. I just LOVE, LURVE NKOTB. New Kids On The Block Rocks!!

*Oh ohoh, she's my covergirl....*

-Shit! I have bruises on my body... Did I knock on another table today? or... what did I do in my sleep last nite? Karate?-

Back to blog... Dial up really sucks but right now that's all I've got (not worth getting eSpeed when you don't know whr u'd be in 10 mths time... Mayb Boston, perhaps? )

Ok I seriously have nothing to say abt NKOTB coz I can't express it in words!!! So just go to NKOTB.com and here to know more...

Oh Crap..

2008-04-23T00:00:00.005+08:00

Current Mood: OMG
Current Colour: RED
Current Music: This One's For The Children (NKOTB)
Current Annoyance: Oh crap... I can't concentrate on my workCurrent Obsession: NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: absentmindedness, breathlessness and loss of appetite (I swear I've lost a few pounds in 1 week)

Oh Crap! I just put a link to THIS blog in my comment to Jonathan's blog. Crap. Dieee... Wonder if there are any embarrassing stuffs in HERE. lol... Anyway, been feeling like crap the whole day at work. Depression soon sunk in (can't be PMS, that's over 2 weeks ago) but at lunch I logged on to nkotb.com and I saw sth that almost made me cry the tear I've been trying not to shed the whole morning. Kinda cheered me up. And I'm thankful for that. Could concentrate a little better after that and I had a silly grin on my face. But thank God me n Jul were not in the mood for double entre talk online today... lol...

Anyway, Jonathan's Blog (I really need to figure out how to do all this RSS stuff... LoL)

xoxox

2008-04-19T10:56:00.003+08:00

Current Mood: WHOAH!! Semi shocked/ semi turned on... hahahaha...
Current Colour: Orange baby, orange.
Current Music: You Got It (Right Stuff)
Current Annoyance: Dial up so slow la
Current Obsession: NKOTBS (need I repeat? lol)
Current Physical Ailment: Still pretty dazed! hahaha...

Ok, I left my internet on while I went to sleep coz I was loading a video on youtube and dad woke me up at 5.45am screaming "why is the internet still on??" Lol.. oops. supposed to off it at 4.30... lol...

So in my dazed and sleepy condition I walked to my laptop and check it has finished loading. Since It was done so I watched it at 5.45am... It's the Hangin' Tough Live VHS (thanks to you tube it's digitized!) and was part 5, singing Right Stuff... Suddenly at around 5:15 my eyes opened wide and I was like OMG!! hahahah... Love 6:20 tho. lol... hahahah... "The party is just starting"

Can you handle 5 times? (Uh oh... give it to me baby! I think thr's more than 5 times thr!)

What the...??

2008-04-18T23:17:00.003+08:00

Lol... my sis just told me the weirdest/funniest comment/insult/compliment...

Apparently, last year when she went back to Kuching she met my supestar fren Stanley outside the church and he asked her the weirdest thing:

He asked me if I was a model in Brunei!

hahaahahah... WTF??

Then he started laughing coz he could not believe it. LoL. and ran to church coz he was late.

Weird. Me a model? LoL... I'm too short la. But if HE who is shorter (and fatter) than me can be a superstar, then maybe I have hope... and the rest of humanity!! LoL...

I dunno if i should be offended or amused... as of now I feel weird and confused at what made him said that. LoL. Oh no... don't tell me he saw my Bodyshop session photos.... die... lol...

P/S: still cant believe my mum is so addicted to watching him on TV everyday. LoL... hahahah... he's still d guy who liked to bully my sis (like hitting her with the hanger and scaring her with a live but dazed bat!), who liked a couple of my frens (and I tried to matchmake them...lol) and is always shorter than me. lol...

2008-04-18T22:27:00.004+08:00

Wrote this from 12am-2am, Friday morning.

Current Mood: "overstimulated" lol. hahaha...
Current Colour: Orange...damn, I watched that vid of a live show whr someone wore an orane shirt n it's stuck in my head! lol...
Current Music: I'll be Missing You Come Christmas by NKOTB- I dunno who though. But i feel so lonely now… :'( and other NKOTB songs... on repeat mode for 2 week & counting!
Current Annoyance: Not inspired
Current Obsession: NKOTB and Jonathan...woooo
Current Physical Ailment: sleepy n tired n... only Jul knows. lol

Aaargh!!!!!!!! I'm like supposed re-design the flyers for the church camp for KOOL & YDM and I'm seriously out of ideas!! If I can put NKOTB photos and write about my beloved JJJDD (as Jul & I call them)- Jon, Joey, Jordan, Donnie & Danny (yeah in that order!) or Double D Tripple J or Triple J DD or... nevermind! I can do that with flying colours. But sadly I'm so uninspired… Damn, even my spelling, grammar and punctuation suck but coz I'm typing this in Word, spell check can check me. Lol

Realistically, I'm been a 'mess' these 13 days since the announcement. Oh wait, since I got the email from nkotb.com on 1 April (it's 31 March in US then) I've been like a kid! I didn't stop squealing for a week like a 5 yr old (think I became a fan at 4 or 5 when I moved back to Kuching)! And don't mention work, I'm pretty zonked out (P.A.s should never, never do that!) and a couple of people have caught me smilling or grinning to myself (Jul knows that without seeing me coz I tell her what I read… lol) and someone said I'm in love. Lol. Yeah, with NKOTB! Lol… Not to mention that I finally lost my appetite to eat (my 'dinner/super' a can of tuna is on the table now and it's half eaten only) so I've been having these weird diet.

Monday- only dinner.
Tuesday- lunch and dinner.
Wednesday- only dinner.
Thursday- lunch & supper.

Lol… Tomorrow, eh later, I'll be going for lunch with Lina and I reminded her I'm 'semi-vegetarian' at the moment- I only eat vegetables and seafood- and am on a diet so no pigging out for me. Lol. I've been eating so much over the last few years. Depression and boredom was the main cause la. Depression caused mostly by two people who I used to be damn close to (no, my then crush did not contribute to this depression) and seriously I got so inferior complex-ed and probably went cuckoo. Hahaha… just kidding! Lol.

But all is fine now. A little inferior complex still lurking around but I'm coping. I have to, in my line of job. With people I know and am comfortable with I can be loud and chatty but with strangers I can be pretty shy, which is weird since in uni I was so in-your-face! Lol… hahaha…
Oooh… I forgot to continue for ½ hr. chatting with Jul lah! Lol… Ooh… Joe looks so young in d Please Don't Go Girl video. The original coloured one (need to llok 4 the link one day). He looks 10!! Hahaha…. Hide it (the video) Joe! LoL… Jonathan looks so thin there. He needs a woman to feed him! (I'm single, what's your number? Lol)

Damn… another ½ hr gone. Lol.. Busy chatting with Jul again. Lol.. (and d/l Jonathan's pics. Yum! Sorry Joe, you are my 2 now… lol) hmm… my mind is so easily distracted lately. Lol… Now feeling sleepy. Think I'd sleep for a while then wake up to continue the flyers. So no mood la. I need a massge. Hmmm… wonder who I have in (my filthy) mind… lol….

Gtg & zzz before i wake up to finish my 'task!

"Special project"!!!!!!

2008-04-13T15:01:00.004+08:00

Current Mood: Syok sendiri (erm... how to put this in English? I'm just smiling to myself n grinning like a nut... in Coffee Bean!)
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Please Don't Go Girl (Live) by NKOTB (Music Video from a show... damn cheesy... 80s cheesy that I love it!)
Current Annoyance: I wish I have such great connection at home
Current Obsession: NKOTB aka New Kids On The Block, downloading stuffs
Current Physical Ailment: Lack of sleep + stiff neck coz of spending too much time online doing my 'special project'

So a few ppl know I've been doing a 'special project'... for the past 6 days. lol.. So here it is... A NKOTB blogskin!! Lol... hahahaha...

My friend aka Juliana think's I'm obsessed. Lina probably thinks I'm crazy. lol...

This is my first self made blogskin so please be very forgiving... hehehehe... Over the next few day/ weeks there will be some little changes to the layout or pics (depending of there are anything new on NKOTB's Official Flickr site.

Anyway, wanna share some videos. I so wish I could in New Jewsey for their first concert on MY BIRTHDAY!!! lol... dream on... But I'd love to have NKOTB merchandise for my birthday ya... LoL...

NKOTB Stay Tuned!

A Little Buzz

NKOTB- Thank You!

What would the weirdest...

2008-04-10T01:19:00.006+08:00

Current Mood: sleepy (n freaking out, my boss is back tmrw)
Current Colour: pink
Current Music: You Got It (Right Stuff) by who else? NKOTB
Current Annoyance: Y cant I find d pics that Papa need??
Current Obsession: Duh. As if u need to ask ... NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: sleepy, squinting now. lol

What would be the weirdest song for NKOTB to sing after 22 years? I thought of it either when i was half asleep in bed or in the shower, can't recall.

My picks are those from the first album:

3. Angel

2. Popsicle

1. I Want to be Love By You ( hahahaha...)

Why I wanna be loved by you? Read this and tell me that u did not try notL laugh imagining mid 35-39 yr old men sing this:

I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

Hi, I’m danny, and I’m a taurus,
And I wanna be loved by you.
Do you wanna be loved by me?
If you do, check this out.
Aaaaah....
Sounds good to you, don’t it?

Oh baby, I just got to let you know
I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

I’m jon, and I’m a sagittarius
And I really, really wanna be loved by only you
And I want you to only love me too.
And if this is the way it’s gonna be, girl, then check me out

I wanna be loved by you, baby
I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

Yeah, I know, I know, I’m young....
I might be young, but I’m not too young to let you know how I feel.
I’m Joe, and I’m a capricorn.
And if you can relate to that, then check this out.

Oh, girl, I wanna be loved, loved by you baby
I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

I’m donnie, a loveable leo
And rather than tell you how I feel,
I’m gonna sing it for you,
babyI wanna be loved by you girl
I wanna take you by the hand and make you understand

I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

Well, I guess they saved the best for last
I’m jordan, and I’m a taurus
And if you think you know everything about me,
then check this out

I wanna be loved by you baby, by you baby
I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be loved by you

LoL. Cheesy. It'll be so weird to hear them sing, esp Joey (then Joe) sing Yeah I'm young... hahahah....

Ok. Off to bed now... & dream of going to NJ on my birthday. Darn it, I live so far away! (Jon is hot too)

NKOTB! NKOTB! NKOTB!

2008-04-05T15:18:00.004+08:00

Current Mood: estatic & squealing like a 5 year old!!
Current Music: Baby I Believe in You (NKOTB!!)
Current Annoyance: NKOTB not stopping by Brunei!!! :'(
Current Obsession: NKOTB NKOTB NKOTB
Current Physical Ailment: losing my voice coz squealing too much!

OMG!! Think blog is so 4 days late! hahahah... On Tuesday morning d first thing I saw in my inbox was an email from nkotb.com... Eeeek!!! Opened it and... NKOTB was gonna do a show + annoucement on Friday... Eeek!! NKOTB's finally coming back???

And yes!! They are!! eeek! so many many news n blogs abt them today. I'm still squealing coz I cant get over it! heheheh... Weeeeeee.... lol... OMG OMG OMG I adore NKOTB!! lol... was so addicted to their cartoons...lol.. and who can forget "Step by Step, oooh baby" and "I'll be loving you forever" hahahhaha... OMG I LOOOOVE NKOTB.

Cant wait for their new album! Btw, anybody wanna offer to get me NKOTB merchandise (not opened yet at time of blogging) ??? heheheh... My birthday is just next month! Never thought I'd say this to anyone, but yeah, NKOTB was my first favourite even before KRU. LoL.. Btw, who can get me ALL the NKOTB albums??? I WANT!!! lol....

P/S: Eeek! Joey is still hot! lol... hahahaha... Sorry Yusry, Milo, Wentworth, Shayne, Gareth etc etc...

Just to pass time...

2008-02-28T23:26:00.002+08:00

Current Mood: bored n sleepy
Current Colour: orange... dunno y
Current Music: Bubble Wrap- McFly (on repeat mode)
Current Annoyance: I forgot to do the minutes coz was busy at work and is busy being sick!
Current Obsession: McFly & James Marsden songs, Heroes Ability & Superheroes games on Facebook
Current Physical Ailment: Swollen throat n cough, heart pain listening to this song (lied to Ade. I mite said I finally m over him n gave up but.... the heart remembers...)

Just passing some time while do the Minutes for some church stuff, do laundry n FB-ing... Came across some Blogthings on my sister's blog so I did a few n prob doing more to pass time while i think how to do the minutes. Hate to be a Secretary coz I suck at minutes... Why do I always get chosen to be Secretary?? Is it coz I'm always copying stuffs down? I'm doing that to stay awake!! Anyways...

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.

Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor

Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer

Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer

Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

See... It saws I should not be a Secretary... And worse... I'm a PA at work. :s

There's a 78% Chance That You Need Therapy

You almost certainly need therapy. And there's nothing wrong with that.

Lately life has not been easy for you. Why not let a therapist help you sort things out?

Do You Need Therapy?

Hah!! I'm depressed, traumatised, heartbroken, stressed and now I'm nutters?? Oh man!

You Should Wear Bright Red Lipstick

In Your Face Sexy and Flirty

Your look: Flawless Beauty

Your signature lip gloss flavor: Cherry

What Shade of Lipstick Should You Wear?

LOL. M already wearing red Lipstick since uni tho I stopped for a few years n got back into it this year. Almost used up abt 1/2 of my Revlon Red red lipstick.

Your Birthdate: May 17

You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single.

Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you!

Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4

You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Ngaiteh... My heart gets broken 4 times? Does 4 times by d same guy counts? Sigh... can go thru this more than once... so 3 more times? probably gonna kill me. And compatible wid ppl born on *th? Hey, Milo's birthdate! lol

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Oh WOW! This is so true!! and the questions they ask r like so unrelated coz they ask u abt animals! Wow! Probably d most accurate n true blogthing I ever did. Period.

You Are An Attention Seeker

You're only human, so you can't help but want a little attention every now and then.

You love the spotlight, but only when it's well deserved. You'd hate to be known for the wrong thing.

And you also don't mind sharing the spotlight. You can easily give someone else credit or a complement.

You know there's enough attention to go around, and it makes you happy when your friends shine.

You come across as: Friendly and interesting

People may wrongly think you're: A little more modest than you actually are!

Are You An Attention Whore?

I love d attention!!! LOOK AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! LoL

Your Mind is NC-17 Rated

You're mind is so filthy... you should should be washing every part of you out with soap.

If your thoughts can go dirty, they do. Almost everything is NC-17 to you!

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

LoL... this is funny!! NC-17??/ R u sure....??

You Are 68% Pure

Well, you're not exactly an angel - but you're pretty darn close.

But chances are, you have a couple juicy secrets deep in your closet.

How Pure Are You?

LoL...

You've Changed 72% in 10 Years

Compared to who you were ten years ago, you've changed a great deal.

In fact, you're probably in a completely different phase of your life - and very happy about it!

How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?

Well, duh! I was a teen in Kuching and was at my peak of rebelliousness...lol

Your Nail Polish Color is Purple

How you're unique: You are artistic and expressive

Why your style rocks: You pay special attention to color and fabrics

What this color says about you: "I'm creative and know how to take care of myself"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

Lol... I haf maroon nails now...

You Are Picky When it Counts

Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well.

But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right

You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating.

You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!

Are You Too Picky When It Comes To Men?

Really??

You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Months

Maybe you need a bit more time to get over an ex

Or maybe you need a confidence boost to talk to new guys

Either way, you'll find a boyfriend in time...

As long as you keep getting out there and meeting new guys

When Will You Meet Your Next Boyfriend?

OK. LET'S SEE IF THIS IS TRUE.

You Are Jean Grey

Although your fate is often unknown, you always seem to survive (even after death).

Your mind is your greatest weapon, literally!

Powers: telepathy and telekinesis, the ability to project thoughts into the mind of others, communication with animals

Which of the X-Men Are You?

Cool! I get to make out Cyclops! hahahah... I've always had a crush on James Marsden anyway... LoL -)

Your Daddy Is Johnny Depp

What You Call Him: Big Daddy

Why You Love Him: He's the Mack Daddy

Who's Your Daddy?

Swoon.....

Your Mommy Is Angelina Jolie

What You Call Her: Mum

Who's Your Mommy?

LoL.. Johnny's my Daddy n Angie is my mummy... Y aren't i Half as hot as them?

Your Mind is Purple

Of all the mind types, yours is the most idealistic.

You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.

Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Mind?

TRUE!!!!!!!!!

You Don't Need a Man ... or Want One!

Generally, you're very happy being a single woman.

And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem.

Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy.

You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man!

Do You Need a Man?

LOL! YES IT'S TRUE!!! But there's hope...

Your True Love Will Find You Eventually

You definitely put yourself out there a little - but you could be doing more.

If you're truly looking for love, try doing more things and meeting more people.

You don't have to actively look for love, you just need to stay active.

Be out there a little more, and the right person will find you!

Will Your True Love Find You?

Told ya...

You Are 64% A Child of the 80s

Not only did you experience the 80s... you are practically an expert.

You should be totally stoked!

Are You a Child of an 80s?

LoL... Listening Joey McIntyre and also NKOTB now... so??

Your Job Satisfaction Level: 32%

Your job is definitely a bummer, and you probably should get a new one.

Make sure you know what's getting you down.

Is it your co-workers? The work environment? Your boss?

Getting a new job is important, but so is not repeating the same mistakes.

Should You Get a New Job?

Hmmm......... how?

Your Career Personality: Capable, Friendly, and Energetic

Your Ideal Careers:

Actor

Advertising Executive

Artist

Counselor

Entrepreneur

Musician

Politician

Psychologist

Teacher

Television Reporter

The Quick and Dirty Career Test

LoL... wrong job now?

You Are a Comma

You are open minded and extremely optimistic.

You enjoy almost all facets of life. You can find the good in almost anything.

You keep yourself busy with tons of friends, activities, and interests.

You find it hard to turn down an opportunity, even if you are pressed for time.

Your friends find you fascinating, charming, and easy to talk to.

(But with so many competing interests, you friends do feel like you hardly have time for them.)

You excel in: Inspiring people

You get along best with: The Question Mark

What Punctuation Mark Are You?

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image.

On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex.

You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time.

Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

What Donut Are You?

That's me! Beware...

You Are a Great Liar

You can pretty much pull anything over on anyone.

You are an expert liar, even if you don't lie very often.

Are You a Good Liar?

To end this entry... LoL

I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart...

2008-02-24T02:10:00.002+08:00

Mood: Emo
Music: Bubble Wrap by McFly
Colour: Black n Maroon

Damn... just minding my own business and downloading a tonne of McFly song when I came upon this song from their "Motion in the Ocea" album entitle Bubble Wrap... makes me wanna cry.. Before that I was listening to a song entitled "Lonely" by them too... Guess this is how I feel right now...

Finally, once & for all, last Sunday I gave up all hope n watever feeling etc I had for Sunshine. He's such an ASS. I found out what he was trying to do... such a playa... thank God I was thinking straight or I'd end up like his miri ex... :(

Anyway, here's "LoneLy" and "Bubble Wrap".

P/S: Sharon & Mike, miss u 2!! :P No one to fight with me.... lol

Lonely (McFly)

It's only been a day
But it's like I cant go on
I just wanna say
I never meant to do you wrong

And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live

Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
'Cause thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby
Im so sick of being lonely

The stuff is in my house
So many things I cant ignore
Coats still on the couch yeah
Your photos on my freezer door

And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live

Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
Thats the worst thing you could do!
Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby
Im so sick of being lonely

lalalalalalalalalala
I am so lonelyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
lalalalalalalalala

And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live
yeahyeahyeahh..
Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
Thats the worst thing you could do!

Now I'm singing such a sad song
These things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on
Help me baby Im so sick of being lonely

I am so lonely
I am so lonely...

Bubble Wrap (McFly)

I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart,
In case I fall and break apart,
I'm not God I can't change the stars,
And I don't know if there's life on Mars,
But I know you hurt,
The people that you love and those who care for you,
I want nothing to do with the things you're going through.

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

I'm a little dazed and confused,
But life's a bitch and so are you,
All my days have turned into nights,
Cos living without, without, without you in my life,
And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,
And lose all your friends,
Did I mean nothing at all?
Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed?

Cos this is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

Yeah!Turn on the radio honey,
Cos every single sad song you'll be able to relate!
And this one i dedicate!

Whoa oh!
Don't get all emotional baby
,You can never talk to me,
You're unable to communicate!

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised...

This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised,
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who-oo-oo-oo
Do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye.

This is Goodbye.

Heroes!! Lurve Heroes! (aka I have nothing better to blog?)

2007-11-13T22:46:00.000+08:00

oodlCurrent Mood: estatic !!
Current Colour: light Bluuuueee (aiyo, how cud Milo/Peter look so freak hot in a hoodie??)
Current Music: Freak Me by Another Level (uh uh... ya know why... lol... tho this reminds me of Sunshine!)
Current Annoyance: Dial up freaking slow
Current Obsession: 1) Heroes Season 2. 2) Facebook. 3) Scrabulous 4) Britney's Gimme More (dammit, it's addictive! LoL)
Current Physical Ailment: Sleepy... lol. No thanks to my med...dang...

Okie... me nothing to blog so...

Hmm... I've finally caught up with my Heroes Season 2. Missed two (yes, TWO) weeks worth of Heroes. Hmmm ... but what I DIDN'T miss last week was this:

or you can watch it at here. (BEWARE: MINOR SPOILER )LoL.

Not 100% the sole reason I watch Heroes but probably erm... 85%?? hahahah.... Anyway, Ep. 8 is out... the one everyone has been waiting for: the one about what happened during & after the HUUGE PETER EXPLOSIO!! So gonna watch it tmrw... if m lucky.

Btw, abt the meds I was talking abt?? I'll blog abt it when I have a lil more time. basically me pretty high on some sort of 'dope'... my sis has been teasing me abt not getting involved in sports! lol.. It's prescription leh. but man, I do have a hell of an appetite... been trying to control it tho my tummy rumbling. lol... And yeah, i can't sleep or lie down within 2 hrs after meals. Damn. LoL... That means no bed time at 7.30pm after dinner. grr....

Anyway... it's alreasdy over 5 hrs after dinner but since i had chocs while baking choc & almond cookies... it's considered 3 hrs... can zzz now... so ciao.

Later babes.

2007-11-06T00:10:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: Annoyed... can't find the hidden room/ clue!
Current Colour: seeing RED
Current Music:Photo by Ryan Cabrera (go figure why)
Current Annoyance: can't find d hidden room/ clue (what is this? read on)
Current Obsession: Heroes Official Game
Current Physical Ailment: Sore thumbs!!

Yatta!!! hahahah... I finished the Heroes game... THREE time already. lol. At first it took me 4 days, then two days then one night to complete. Lol... The first time was draggy coz it tooke me almost 3 day to finish the Final Battle... tricky but i figured it out finally. If you are playing, you'll get what I mean.

I'm not here to do a review, nor am I here to tell you how to play (sorry, i'm not a spoiler queen even though I do read them!) lol... The only thing I can tell you is that there is a HIDDEN ROOM in the game wich will provide a vital CLUE related to tehe current 2nd season. WHERE? I also dunno... still looking for it. I think on one of Hiro's level I did wander off in a different path somewhere but i'm NOT totally sure. LoL...

It's weird to blog when I know practically no one reads this but what the hell... this is my only outlet. Anyway, probably will be changing the blog skin... so see how it goes. Kinda sick of the purple look now. lol...

Heroes Mania!

2007-08-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

Grrrr... I wanna go to LONDON!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah Lina. LONDON!! OMG, I'd cut ppl's brain open and eat them like Sylar to be there!! LOL LOL... eew... I take that back. LoL. But yeah, I need a break too... :( So freaking bored here. Aiyo, Wanna go Singapore with Ai Ling also parents dun let, wanna go London?? Dream on la. (besides, I haf no money la... LoL)

Ok, ok.. I'm so kinda obsessed with Heroes these days. I just can't wait for the DVD!!! Ppl in Singapore, London, where ever... Get me the DVD set! Oh well.. u know how lagging Brunei is. Beside WHERE IN BRUNEI CAN YOU GET ORIGINAL DVDs?? Lol...

Hmmm... can't wait til season 2 starts showing here. Aiyo. How come we r not getting the Heroes specials which the stars host their special episodes?? aiyama... have to rely on youtube but... dial up worr... so slooooow... hahaha

Anyway, these are my favourite links

Heroes 360

Heroes MySpace

Heroes Wiki I love this site. Gives lots of indepth info on the show. even on things you never noticed! LoL. M such a geek...

Heroes the Series

Heroes transcript

Heroes Store I want everything there!!!

LoL... M such a geek leh. hahaha...need to get a life but... hey, who has a life here in brunei? LoL. All we do is work, eat, shop and sleep.... and repeat again. Is isn't a wonder why I seem to spend hundreds every month! (OMG Hundreds??? mum's gonna kill me!) Hmmm... they should have a Heroes store here....

Ok ok.. I better stop before everyone thinks I'm too heroes-crazy or a heroes maniac. Lol... Sigh... Y Brunei so sien one??? NOTHING ever happens here... :( AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Linaaaaa!!!! Knock my head!! LoL... (R u sick of me yet ah?) Damn, my sis not here for me to bug! LoL...

Freaking mad!!! M 23, not 5!!!

2007-07-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: Freaking mad
Current Colour: red and black
Current Music: a pretty hypnotic song- teardrop by massive attack (listening to Prison Break OST) wait... change to deftones cd. not my kninda thing but my emo guy listens to it. it has serve it's purpose... it's emo enough for my emo mood... grrrrr....
Current Annoyance: parents being a pain in my@ss... they treat my sis as if she's 20 years older than me n i'm only 5!!
Current Obsession: getting the hell out of brunei

Ok. so I lie. I do hate getting stucked in brunei, no frens except Lina and Khiong, working with OLDER ppl who have kids my age, no life except go to work- come home- sleep- and repeat that every freaking working day!!!

I've been trying to convince myself, life isn't so freaking bad here in brunei. no tax, no war, earn enough money to convince myself not to kill myself after work each day....

do i hate my job? no... i hate my freaking life! d only fun i ever get is when i go out with lina to shop/ eat/ hunting/ wahatever... enough fun to be contented to actually have only one real fren here in this WHOLE country. sad? i think i really should have taken up mum's offer to bring me to psychatrist when i was 15-16. yeah, i've been pretty fucked up since i stepped into brunei. i had a normal life in kuching. when i was in miri at least i have a semi normal life. Now?? i dont haf a life. One day might go haywire and be dysfunctional. maybe i shud do a britney and shave my freaking hair off...

yes. this is my cry for attention, i want, no, i NEED to get out of brunei. it's screwing up my life- depression at 15, suffered from bully-ish from form 4-5, low self esteem at 16, inferior complex at 16, duel/multi personality complex by 18 (if u know me from uni, u'd b surprise to know the me in brunei), no bf til 23.... damn. How to get a bf if wanna go out with a FEMALE friend (aka Lina, who else?) also haf to ask for permission?? Am 23 orr, not 15! My sis sometimes just go out and she's 20!!

my sis allowed to travel on her own (she flew ALONE yesterday) or with frens by 18 or 19. me? d furthest is miri la, by bus n sampan. u think my parents even allow me to go further? once off handedly said wanna go to sibu by land with frens, they freak out... yeah. That bad. and that was when i was in uni.

the first time i went out with frens (legally) was when i was 17 (at 123 0r 14 or so got sneak out la... pretend go to post office or sch or buy sch project stuffs... but go lim teh or just browsing at BOOKSTORE... m such a nerd/ geek). my first sleepover was at 18. my first sem in uni (foundation at riam time) i was grounded for 1 sem coz i got caught at d shopping mall at 10.30pm by my cousin (tale tell... :( grrr...) My first date... hahahha... u think any guy wanna date me? considering that they probably haf to send in written request to my parents just to go out with me or worse probably wanna chaperone. Oh hell...

come on la. M old enough to think here! if in uni manage to fend off ppl who wanted to get into my pants (yeah, a few... including... nevermind), definitely know how to think properly. I mean, d idea of u know, one night stand... to some it's fun but to me... i have a sense of dignity and self worth. i still respect myself and even if no 1 respect me, i still wanna respect myself in d morning when i get up. me no prude (oh hell, further than that ok. my mind is like an x rated movie store sometimes, thanks to listening to too much guys' talk in uni) but dont expect me to screw around.

drug, smoking, drinking, sex... all the vices... i manage to graduate without trying any of those. what makes it different now?? considering i had frens who r alcoholics, chain smokers ( normal ciggies n also those who did weed...), druggies/ pusher (well i suspect only la, cant confirm... lol. dunno whr they r now), permiscuous frens (yeah, some bitches i know slept with HIM)... i don't condemn them for their choices... it's a free world. but they never influenced me. hell, idont even go clubbing!! not that i'm a goody two shoes... iame home at 9am before (but stayng alone so who cares... din come back for days also no1 scold...)

parents shud give me some slack la... m 23, repeat, 23. I work and earn my own money. yes, i did set aside some for d future. for my studies but hey... i need to relax sometimes. need to go out, meet some friends, meet guys (brunei no guys that interest me, all i meet are OLD ppl from work related thingies) mayb date a few guys? Grrr!!! I wish some guy jsut sweep me off my feet, bring me away to a far far away land and live happily ever after... when i was 12, i said i wanna marry at 24... hello, m 23 and no bf... u think my parents let me get married after a short courtship??? no way... ppl gossip only later, must b pregnant one la, shotgun al, whatever la... probably at least 5 years by d looks of it... if i even manage to get a guy to date me in d first place!! sigh... scared of ending up alone... a lonely spinster with 30 cats... Oh hell!! that's scary. if by 40 din marry probably kill myself liaw lorr or b permiscuous... hahahaha.... sigh... only if.... who knows, probably dun even live to be 30 with all this stress and depression... lol. touch wood!!!

But m raring to leave this place so ppl, if u wanna make me happy, offer me a job OUTSIDE of brunei and sarawak/sabah ok. The further aka Hollywood d better! of course m not cutting ties la... come back 4 holidays but hell... need to get out n learn how to cope in d real world. how to be a mother to a 23 year old next time if i cant give advise how it is to b a 23 year old trying to survive in the real world???? Grrr...right now my family is dysfunctional enough ok (not immediate family, extended family). dont make my future like that too... need space to breathe!! aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, my point is... I'm 23. Give me opportunity to grow up and experience life as a 20 something. Allow me to make decissions ( how to how to learn if never get opportunity?? like this job, i applied for it and took it because MY PARENTS want me to, not because I WANT to... more like I HAD to coz I HAD NO CHOICE... I need a job that i enjoy and not a job whr i haf to lie that i liked it whenever i meet YOUR friends) Let me go outh with friends sometimes. If my youngers sister can go for holidays alone, why not me. After all, I'm going with my best friend of 13 years.... who was like another daughter in the family. So... Let me go to Singapore!!!!!!! aargh!!! Stressed enough in office. need to let go some steam before i explode.

P/S: M not disrespecting my parents here or how they r bring us up/ parenting skills. we turn out ok but please... no need to hold on too tight. I need to grow up and leave the nest.

My Cutie's Going To Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-23T21:11:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: Love sick & ecstatic
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Way Back Into Love from the Music & Lyrics OST (on repeat & singing it too)
Current Annoyance: being so far away from.... ;p
Current Obsession: Heroes and milo peng addiction
Current Physical Ailment: Love sick

OH my God, Oh my God!! My dream guy is coming to Singapore in like 3 months!!!! Aiiiii!!!! (Scream!!) Just found out the news about 20 Minutes ago! OMG OMG OMG!!! Gonna die from excitement!!! LOL. See, I have not blogged for ages and now m blogging abt him! AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh man!! I need to find a way to Singapore then! Planning ahead. Ok, ok…. If he is confirm going I’m gonna book tickets. Hopefully I can go. Please please let it be a Saturday so I can fly on Friday and come back on Sunday. OMG…. Like planning a rendevous!! Hahahaha… IZZAH DO NOT MENTION HIS NAME HERE!!!! OMG…. Now I feel like drinking a glass of cold milo peng… aiyo… had one already today!! Hahahah….

Calm down, calm down… Ok who is he? Hahahaha… not gonna say… *Sing* “all I wanna do is find my way back into love” Oh Gosh he’s so freaking hot. Damn, I was so engrossed with “Sunshine” back then I never saw how hot he is…. LoL… And I thought “Sunshine” was all that… damn. This guy makes “Sunshine” pale in comparison!! His brown eyes, cute smile and tousled hair…. Aiyo, makes Sunshine look blah. Seriously, how does Sunshine look like again??? Hahahahaha… M serious!!! LOL.

Oh man, m so in love with the song. Who cares if it’s Hugh Grant singing… I love the lyrics and the melody!! Hehehehe… It kinda makes makes me nice, worm and fuzzy inside like thinking of my cutie does… LoL… hahahaha… makes me imaginew me & cutie dancing together… lol lol lol… The lyrics kinda speak of what I'm feeling right now...

Was under some sort of hypnosis thingy the other day... The psychologist said thing of a happy memory and in my mind i suddenly remember how save and secured I felt in Sunshine's car that one rainy day... how the air smelled, the feling of his car seat, my wet clothes, the smell inside the car, his perfume, how his smie looked like and his voice etc... then the psychologist said "now it is time o let go and forget of the past. move on. forgive and forget..." and then he counted backwards and I woke up... freaky but i kinda find it easier to forget sunshine... sigh... and that was at a talk by a psychologist i went with my family & some church ppl...

Now I'm ready to move on and think abt my cutie!! Damn, why cant he come to Brunei eh? And Lina, stop SMSing me all that stuff just now... not too X Rated at church k... LoL... I know u dont mean it to sound x rated but u know d state of my hormone right now!! LoL.... ROTFLMAO!!! Oh man.... I dunno wat to do now.... Shit better not effect my work la. Hope my boss dont find me drooling abt him or me sending him Myspace messages... LoL... Which reminds me... I supposed to ask Lina what to ask him. Damn. lol... oh man, I swear a lot today, huh? and to think that all it takes to get me all swear-y wa the thought of a rendezvous with him!! Hmmm.. i should realy get him a nick name.... will think of it tonight. The one Lina & I use is too conspicuous !! Man, my feet r tingling! LoL... hahaha... M I in love??? nah, until d day of the skin on skin contact (ew... sound so x rated... til we r physically near each other?) probably?? LoL...

Hmmm... gotta go off now... Need to shower and start the beautification regime... LoL. I love it when I'm crushing... My face's skin becomes all soft and smooth with out much work. Don't even need to worry to exfoliate or do facial... and my face glow from inside. must be too happy... LoL...

Oh man.. update!! he's gonna be inSingapore on Aust 31 & Sept 1st!!!! OMG!!! Tickets!!

Hugh Grant & Haley Bennet- Way Back Into Love (Music & Lyrics OST)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

What an eventful week!

2007-05-02T23:29:00.001+08:00

Seems that I have not updated for a zillion years!! Been pretty busy these few weeks. To sum up last week...

One day I had to work at 5.30AM and it was raining cats and dog (some parts of Bandar flooded!!) but luckily I had the rest of the day off after the event I had to do.

A few days later I went to an ambassador's house an was overwhelmed by her 'down to earth-ness'... She's so nice and frankly speaking, treats everyone equally but yet still retains their respect for her and her people really looks up to her. Who? Someone who is quite a good friend of dad's (or so I think). We even had dinner at the same table as her!! I feel so touched by her humility that I feel like such an ass for being so diva-ish sometimes! LOL

Been a pretty hectic week this week and yesterday was so hectic I felt so faint... esp since I had to go for another meeting after work. So stressed!!! 1 hour after i got home I decided to check my blood pressure... OMG! It had shot up to 131/83!!! I wonder how high it would have been if I had checked an hour earlier! Anyway, we also had soem sort of family gathering with my mum's God daughter's family at my place as her bro just celebrated his birthday. They her mum did facial for mum, me & my sis (in that order...) LOL. She's a beautician ma... My God sister is so cheeky... she wanted to polish our then-white-with-masque faces with black shoe polish!! She & her sis were running around climbing over chairs and people... I wish I was 5 again... hahahah..

Today was quite ok, not as bad a yesterday la. But my boss woke me up when she called at 7am! (I wake at 7.20am every working day). Just came back from a dinner actually. A 'rojak' dinner- thanksgiving, early 39 Wedding anniversary (uh-oh... I thought it was 40! My bad...), a belated wedding dinner by the couple's son, family gathering/ reunion, friends gathering etc... Pretty ok. Had quite good company at my table (though it was the last table at the back but we could actually have more 'privacy' to talk). They are all my parents' friend but hey, I'm cool with them. Prefer them to some young people (who kinda freak me out! yeah, soem of my sister's friends do!)

Oh yeah, yesterday got a call from Body shop that my pics are ready to be collected. But since I was rushing home from meeting for the family thingy I didn't manage to collect it. Dad collected it this morning for me (thankie...) and it's ok la. Though my family said I look like Bollywood actress pulang (heh??!!? Me Chinese, not Indian... As fas as I know I have no Indian blood in family line... What am I? Read my sister's blog entry on that.) Anyways, I'll put up one pic at a time at my friendster site so if you are curious look at it la... hehehe... The link to my friendster is at the link area on the right --->>

Okies... gotta shower and go to bed now... Got hay fever and allergies from a HUGE vase of flowers at the dinner... I'm allergic to pollen! My eyes are pinkish, watery and and had running nose during the dinner. Din help that I was (am still) wearing a very low cut dress... Was worried that my bra would come out! lol.. Ok... Nite nite... Ooh... gotta wish ppl happy birthday before midnight!

P/S:: My birthday is 2 week's time!! Yahoo!!! Hope i get many prezzies! lol...

What an eventful week!

2007-05-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

Facelift

2007-04-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: pissed
Current Colour: seeing red
Current Music: tv
Current Annoyance: ppl who dont like me to input into conversations... ppl trying to make conversation ma... if i dun talk ppl say i'm sulking again n not sociable

Nothing much to blog coz got mood killer at home... ppl cannaot kill that person's mmod but that person can kill other's mood la... grr...

Anyways, in d next few days would be giving my bloggie a face lift. Deleting some entries, esp those of me ranting about more oh-so-boring job. Why can't I have a job half as exciting as what I studied? The closes thing to a production set/ studio i have now is the RTB studios!!! *Groan* Can't wait til Rama announce that Curtin would be offering MA in mass Comm... though he did say it could be Media Management... Not my kinda thing... prefer to work my way up first... It's weird that nowadays ppl tend to get managerial jobs without knowing what they are supposed to be managing. I mean, if a person is a Media manager, of course he/she needs to have a knowledge and experience of the people they are managing. eg, managing a TV network... should know how TV programming is done, handled, the selection proccess that has to be done when selecting tv shows, time slots, adverts etc... Besides... I'm kinda sick of working in an office with no action! LOL... need the adrenaline rush, moving here and there, working under extreme pressure... Syok man!!

Anyways... I'll better stop before I go off ranting about my 'job' again... People would think i hate my job. No I don't actually hate it. Frankly speaking.. I don't feel anything about it. I do what I have to do, not because I want to but because I have to. Most ppl hate their bosses... Mine's not bad. Pretty nice. too bad I cant say the same about my DOB (only I know what DOB means) colleagues... Plus... the AGE GAP!! and the lack of men... Married older men with kids my age or older ada lah in my office but sorry... Not interested at all... Sigh...

PPl think I hate my life in Brunei... Truly, if this is any other country and my life is still like this, I'd stil hate it. It's not the country (unless it's a country where I can actually see/meet young hot guys and not boring old people only)... it's d ppl (or lack of ppl) I'm around. Need to hang out with more younget ppl... Other ppl can hang out with their colleagues after work... Mine? Hello... they haf families to return to. Had so much fun that day cruising around and hanging out at coffeebean til pass midnight with Lina & Khiong... and coming back only when my parents were already sleeping! hahaha... Definitely better than coming back from workand crashing on d bed
each night, day in and day out...

Pain...

2007-03-27T01:38:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: melancholic
Current Colour: navy blue, dark red
Current Music: Pain by Three Day's Grace
Current Annoyance: Get out of my head!
Current Obsession: getting someone out of my system again

this song's one of my fav new songs... cant find the CD song manage to get the ring tone. Saw d music vid on MTV & loved d song from the first time... Lyrics says it all... got a "relapse". wonder when can I get over this????

Pain - Three Days Grace (Album- One X)

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
‘Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

Thank God it wasn't him!

2007-03-18T02:20:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: tired
Current Colour: black
Current Music: sleeping with the lights on (busted)
Current Annoyance: my body aching
Current Obsession: sudoku on my N73! oh noooo....
Current Physical Ailment: body aching all over

Sigh... cant sleep again. so checking mail & what not. hmm... was reading my previous entry. hahahha... wanna laugh la. Was laughing d other day. I saw d guy-who-looks-like-Sunshine at airport. he was checking in. same flight as my sis. i had a good look at him. Definitely NOT Sunshine! why?

his nose is sharper & lips r different.
face is smaller & sharper. kinda ratty! lol.
he is a left hander (Sunshine's right handed. I should know. I observe him enough to know dat)
SKINNIER!!!
shorter
when i really got to look at him, i realised his build is not d same. small shoulders, d waist also different. dunno how i can tell but yeah.
his ass!! His Ass made me decide it wasn't Sunshine! LOL! Why? coz Sunshine's ass was wider! lol. and rounder and so nice to look at that it makes one wanna smack it! huhuhu...

hahaha... I sound like a perv la! But hey, I stare at his ass enough to enjoy it. din help dat he even purposely raise his t-shirt a bit to show his sexy red undies & then tug his short up... in front of me IN THE RAIN... after we got to uni... together... LOL. huh? together? hehehe... ader la... not gonna tell... *wink wink*

U shud haf heard my sighs of relieve when I realised it wasn't him. Kus semangat! Nearly died when i thought it was him. why? coz if it was him... i'd probably die of curiosity why he's here 7 all dat. Plus I had a weird dream abt him becoming a manager in brunei & we get invited to d same function (by French embassy at Yacht club!! must. be. wary. if. i. get.invite. from. french. embassy). weird, weird , WEIRD!!!

anyways... happy it's all over. but stress out coz my boss it back & i feel like my ass is gonna get busted. dunno la. when she was away office was very tensed bah. I have d feeling i used to have in uni or sch when i feel/know/think dat i will get called up and get busted! damn!

I thought I saw Sunshine in Brunei!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: confused
Current Colour: navy blue... hehehe
Current Music: some a1 songs my sis is playing... sigh remind me of......
Current Annoyance: was it you just now?
Current Obsession: is he is brunei?
Current Physical Ailment: headache due to confusion! heart ache is back again coz it remembers all d beautiful things of 2003-2004... sigh....

I just need to blog before I go crazy! was waiting 4 dad after work & i saw this guy talking to another guy (I assume asking something/ directions/ whatever). the first guy's back was facing me but something abt d physical build and mannerism reminded me of -HIM-. was wearing a cap and something abt d side of his face/ jaw under d cap reminded me of... Grrr...

when he walked passed me... aiyoyo... really looks like -HIM- except thinner and darker. height same, eyes, facial features all same. d guy din seem to show any recognisation when he passed me so maybe it's just me being silly and it wasn't him. then again, mayb if it WAS -HIM- then mayb he din recognise me with all my clothes on. eh, dont think d wrong way... i meant, he prob din recognise me (If it was -HIM-) coz he used to see me in skippy spaghetti strap tops and mini skirts in uni. Not that he had seen me nude la... choy! u think i so cheap ah? got offer but u think i want meh? wanna kena disown ka? cheh!

Anyway, now i cant sleep thus am blogging coz me so confused if that was -HIM- of his doppelganger (sp?) Aargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! d first 2-3 hrs i was grinning like a fool, now my head is spinning like a whirlpool.... oh man. I'm starting to rhyme again. He makes me rhyme & write poems... beware if u get poems in my blog!! Damn!!! if it is him... wat's he doing here? where is his other half (rumoured to have one already...) wt was he doing where he was (just now) and looking for wat? Aaargh!!!! I nearly fell off the steps just now and my heart cud haf dropped out when he passed me. the eyes wa... it was similar... Kinda know how he looks like with out know it is him (physical-wise/ mannerism) coz i probably spent more time studying him than my books (lol... actually yes, i did but cant tell u when & where. but canteen & football field/ basketball court area are some of d places but thr's another place i spent hours 'studying'!).

Grrr... i need sleep!! got work in less than 7 hrs time! probably have night mares dreaming of him stalking me this time! LOL... Sigh... If anyone knows if that was -HIM- or not tell me please!!!! but.. "As if u'll know who -HIM- is!!"

Pictures from 2004

2007-02-04T01:36:00.000+08:00

Just an old picture from my uni days... An Orientation Night party I organised. Need to find the original picture (sorry Fi, I cropped you coz I wanted to use the pic as my display pic in MSN). The theme was Hawaiian & Carribean... As u could probably see (if ur eyes r sharp) I was wearing a bikini top! Lol! just needed the top for decency's sake!

Randomness....

2007-02-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

Technorati Profile

Blog thing quizes

2007-02-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

You Are 60% Extrovert, 40% Introvert

You are quite outgoingYou are a social connector - you know a ton of peopleWhile you aren't a wild extrovert, you are a great talkerA fantastic storyteller, you keep everyone laughing

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

You Are 47% Angry

Generally, you are not an angry person.
But you're easily frustrated and enraged. You have one heck of a temper.
And because of your anger, you tend to feel resentful and even spiteful.
You already know how to quell your anger. You just need to do it more often.

How Angry Are You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts)

You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced.
You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

YES!!! I SHOULD!!!

You Should Be an Actor

You have a flair for the dramatic, and you probably already do a lot of acting in your day to day life, just to entertain yourself.
No need to steal the spotlight from your friends... You'll get plenty of attention once you start acting professionally!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack,
I've been too long, I'm glad to be back"

Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos.
But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

What's Your Theme Song?

You Are 64% Control Freak

You are a pretty major control freak, though you may not know it.
While your confidence is inspiring, your bossy ways tend to scare people off.

Are You A Control Freak?

Hahaha... I am?

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.
While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

Coz I m a 'teenager' stuck in an office full of 'deperate women...' LOL!! Seems like an episod of Despearte Housewives everyday!

Your Hair Should Be Blue

Wild, brilliant, and out of control.
You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

You Are 36% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Your Stress Level is: 62%

You are prone to stress, and you're probably even pretty stressed right now.
Life's problems seem to pile up on you, and this often makes you feel depressed and burned out.
Learn to take time to relax and enjoy life, even if things are stressful. It's the only way you'll get through the bad times.

How Stressed Are You?

You Should Drive a Bentley Azure

You're all flash, and you love to show off to anyone who will watch.
And you're such a high roller, this is just one car of many for you...

What 2007 Car Should You Drive?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few.
But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky.

Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

You Are Shadowcat

You're like a little sister to some, but others see you as a sex kitten.
You are well trained in martial arts, a bit of a computer geek, and can totally kick butt.

Powers: the ability to "phase" through walls and other physical objects

Which of the X-Men Are You?

You Are a Chick Rocker!

You're living proof that chicks can rock
You're inspired by Joan Jett and the Donnas
And when you rock, you rock hard
(Plus, you get all the cute guy groupies you want!)

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

You Are Very Worldly

You're an international jet setter - or pretty darn close.
And while you may feel like you have many more places to visit...
Most people live their whole lives without seeing what you've seen.
In fact, you're probably going to be traveling again soon. So Bon Voyage!

How Worldly Are You?

You Are a Drama Queen (or King)

And the oscar goes to... you!
You're all about overreacting and just plain acting.
You see the world as your stage, and give a great performance.

And while you're friends may find you entertaining at times...
Everyone's secretly hoping that you'll just chill a little.
(But they'd never tell you - they fear your wrath!)

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

Your Birthdate: May 17

You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single.
Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you!
Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4

You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

You are a Rocker Girl!

If you don't have musical talent, you've got a talent for picking out great CD's.
Music rules your life - and you've got the best MP3 collection of anyone you know.
Many guys find you intimidating, but a select few think you're the catch of a lifetime.
Start hanging out in more used record stores, and you'll find love with a fellow rocker!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

You Should Be a Cherry Redhead

Sexy, dramatic, but still sweetly feminine. Perfect for getting out of the hair color doldrums!

What Kind of Redhead Should You Be?

I used to have cherry red hair!! Coincidence?

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Marquise Diamond!

Like most Marquise diamond wearers, you are sexy and impulsive.
You're also good at getting what you want in life, no matter what it is.
You tend to be successful at love, your career, and anything else you desire.
Think Victoria Beckham and Catherine Zeta Jones: proud wearers of this ring!

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring?

Your Perfume is Still

You are simply and totally sophisticated.

Your style and class mesmerize everyone you meet.

Underneath it all, you are delicate and refreshing.

You're different enough to make an impression, that's for sure.

Power scents: White pepper, musk, and honeysuckle.

What Perfume Are You?

You Are Most Like Christina Aguilera

“I'm experimental by nature...always exploring my creativity.”

What Modern Bombshell Are You Most Like?

2007-01-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: dense, dark and moody... probably in a killing mood
Current Colour: b lack
Current Music: jazz (weird for moody mood but jazz is kinda dark too)
Current Annoyance: lots of things. read my other blog... friendster one... go to my links to c access it.
Current Obsession: manicures & pedicures... i go every forthnight!
Current Physical Ailment: sick physically & in d head

what to say? I'm still alive. 'nuff said. read my other blog.

2006-12-26T13:26:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all!!

May you all have a happy & blessed Christmas and a prosperous & meaningful new year!! Woo hoo!!!

Sorry, i've been updating lots lately coz i'm so damn busy but what to do? heheheh...

Hope you haf a great Christmas. did you get what you want?? hehehe... in 4 years, I've finally received presents for Christmas!! better still, for once, I've actually received a present fromone of my friends!!! hehehe... last yr I had no presents! And this year I'm so excited abt receiving a present from a friend coz my friends never ever did give me any presents, except Ai Ling but we usually exchange gifts at least twice a year and not during Christmas. hehehe...

Anyway, take care you all...

P/S: not sure who's actually reading this except for Fifi, Lu Jee & Ai Ling as 99% of my friends who I've been trying to "reconnect" to are not responding... So while this is a happy season, I'm actually still slightly broken heart... friends who made plans with me & never did fulfill it, ppl i've contacted to meet up have not replied. ppl that I'm trying to patch up with isn't replying too... Sheesh! So much for "friends you make in university are friends for life!" << note for the Dean of Curtin, don't repeat this at graduation again!

My friends now r those I made when I was a kid and those who I met in uni but never really hung out with/ barely talk with! ppl that i practically 'sehidup, semati' (live together, die together) with and those who I hung out with through out most of my waking hours aren't even texting or emailing/ messaging me any more. So, what the.... they can rot whr they r.

2006-10-09T15:41:00.000+08:00

Aargh!!! I have a job interview on Thursday morning!! *starts to freak out now* This is my second time at the same place with the same people but for a different post. Still wonder if I am doing this coz I want to or coz I have to... More like I have to coz my parents push me to apply. Grrr....

If I get this job, it's gonna be a HUGE responsibility (really, really huge responsibilty. Bigger than that of Curtin's PR officer... ;/ Scary!) and yeah, I'm most definitely NOT going back to Kuching lorr... :( I miss home.

Sigh... i'm not going to Miri too tomorrow coz of the haze situation and coz my dad has an appointment later in the afternoon (think so) and then we have to attend this dinner at night... Sigh... so busy doing 'diplomatic' works with the family, huh? Oh well, can't complain since I've been doing this since I was born and besides- free food! hahahah...

2006-10-09T04:18:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: annoyed... stoopid haze making Brunei so warm
Current Colour: red
Current Music: the sound of d computer
Current Annoyance: haze. haze. haze! I need a thunder storm!
Current Obsession: Dynomite & solitaire!

Grr... So annoyed right now. The haze is killing me. Itchy (an occassionally sore)eyes, itchy nose leading to flu, sore throat & heat! Grrr!!! plus now, I can smell my neighbour downstairs cooking roti canai. Dunno why but during non fasting month their roti canai smells so delicious that even in my sleep I can dream of it and when I wake up, I haf to raid the kitchen to make myself some! But now it seems as if the roti canai is burnt every night (well, if I'm awake during sahur time la!)

Anyway, I'm sure a couple of ppl reading this knows something abt my dad being one of those up for a 'promotion' thingy gummy. Not really a promotion la, just that my dad' 'boss' is retiring and well, the need someone to be the new 'boss'. (well, if u know abt this, u obviously what line of job my dad is in...) Dad made the annoucement this morning (Sunday) and the whole place (church) was pin drop silence. LOL... my sis & I were sniggering away. it's not that my dad got it la. We were sniggering at the whole situation thing. My sis said she could haf droped a feather and hear it touch the floor!

I guess lots of people think/ feel that we/I am disappointed. Seriously, we are more relieved than disappointed. I guess it's a huge burden off our backs now. Why? Well, for starters, we would ahve to move back to Kuching. I hate packing!! LOL. but seriously, what we were scared of was that if my dad had gotten it, the family would be uprooted AND separated (mom working here & mike completing form 5 next year) Plus, it would be an added responsibility to dad and we probably won't ever see him much. I mean, right now he's barely home sometimes coz of work, meetings, visitations etc... What more if he had gotten it?

Worse still... I probably have to continue to be a 'goody two shoes'. hahahah... well, I guess I'm pretty tame right now compared to my rebellious day. but still, those were just minuscle (spl?) things compared to what is happen round the world. I proud to say I don't do drug, drink nor smoke nor do I engage in "straineouss physical activities involving bodily fluids". If u get what I mean. In fact, i think i was pretty much a homebody/ girl next door since i moved to brunei. No sneaking out like before (i was always sneaking out to the post office to send fan mails... LOL). no playing truant or getting dimerit marks or being a pain in th ass for teachers. hahaha...

In uni I had the opportunity to do what ever I wanted, esp the last 2 years since I lived ALONE. no house mates to say anything if I did anything they disapprove. hahaha... Hey, cud haf brought a boy back/ sleep over/ whatever if I wanted but of course, the way i was brought up and by my own choice i never did that. LOL. hell, I would probably regret it til the day I die if had done so! Thank God for being so grounded. hahaha... but I guess i turn out right. mom told me before, she was worried I wont turn out right. but I know myself, my limits and what choices to make. If I had made the choice of saying yes to someone, probably I might even be married with kids today. who knows what wud happen?

It's weird, i have all sorts of friends. from the straight laced clean ones to those with a past to those who aren't so clean to suicidal ones to addicts of many sorts (sex, cigarettes, alcohol, etc) but i've pretty much remained the same. The peer pressure and temptations were always out there but yeah, never really succumb to it. Of course not only cos of my upbringing, i have really good friends who really cared and they prevented me from doing anything stupid that i might regret. Hey, I almost started smoking coz of stupid rows with a friend. not once but a couple of times but my other friends were always there to watch out for me. Thanks Guys! Esp Sameen & Shaun during the CV Environmental Rally 2003. I was really depressed. Another time I nearly jumped off my friend's 10th floor balcony coz of a row with the same person. Thank God my guardian angel was 'working' over time that night. : ( Never want to live another episode like that.

Eiy, it's almost 5am. i know I've been pouring my heart out and ranting so much. Sorry if i made life a little bothersome for a while. hehehe... But life goes on. I'm ok. Pretty happy these days. i try to. A laugh a day keeps the shrink away! hahaha...

2006-10-04T02:44:00.000+08:00

Mood: tired
Colour: dark colurs
Music: KRU's Mania Medley
Annoyance: Insomnia... sleepy but once i lie down I wont b able to sleep
Obsession: My blog skin! need to adjust it... again!

Ai Ling this is for you...

Ingredients:

250g self rainsing floor
150g butter
85g sugar
125g chocolate rice/ coloured rice/ etc (you can add more or use less according to taste)
1tsp baking powder or Bicarbonate soda
1 egg
1 tsp vanilla essence
**for decorations, you can use coloured rice, coloured starts or silver/coloured sugar balls. or cherries if u want)

Method:

Beat butter & sugar.
Add in Egg.
Add in BP & Flour (which have been sieved together).
Add in chocolate rice.
Make into balls.
Press lightly with fork. Make sure it is not too thick or the center would nor bake properly. Also, not too thin or it'll burn.
Put decorations on tops if desired.

You can add or lessen some ingredients such as sugar or chocolate rice. If the cookies don't turn out like mine, don't blame me worr... hehehehe... SMS me if u need any further instructions ya.

** If you r doing d chocolate rice one, it's a family recipe, just modified a bit by me. But if you use stars like the one I gave you it's "Serena's Superstar Cookies." It tastes different.

*** If anyone else wanna use this recipe, please do let me know & please credit it to me. Thanks!

2006-10-02T16:27:00.000+08:00

Mood: mix moods
Colour: red
Music: Truly, Madly, Deeply
Annoyance: Stooopid Haze!! brunei is so hazy & my poor nose is suffering!
Obsession: Trying to upload a song that fits my blog!

Grrr... stoopid haze is killing me!! it's giving me a running nose. Not to mention that I'm so exhausted after yesterday's treasure hunt and those sleepless nights and late nights (actually early mornings coz i din sleepm til 8.30AM on Friday & 7AM on Sat) coz I was busy doing d posters for the church thingy. better b appreciated or I'll just rip them off. hahaha... If you've known me for ages... two things that pisses me off lots more than anything else (except being backstabbed la) are

being ignored especially if I'm there and the people act as if I'm not or stupidly ask "where is Serena" when I'm in front of them. Or just ignoring my SMS. That's plain rude!
Being under appreciated! I hate that!! My uni life can be sum up as "Overworked and Underappreciated"

But then again, who gives a f*** sometimes when d ppl dat unappreciate u r d ones dat u dun care to impress... I dun mean d church thingy, I mean d ones in uni. My mottos in uni in addition to "Overworked & Underappreciated" was "Sh!t Happens", "Life Without Stress is Meaningless" and "Curtin No Cute Guys!" hahahaha... the last one is more of a statement than motto la. No offense to d Curtin guys, but my 'taste' varies lots from the other girls in uni. Besides, who wanna haf a bf dat was once a friends bf who was once another friend's bf? That's d scenario in Curtin u know.

Not that no guy actually tried to get close to me. Hell, some even try to get hanky panky with me (Yeah, you. If u read this, u r lame.) I had 3 stalkers in Foundation that I had to change my phone number! They like to call between 12am - 2am! 2 of them called me a few times at night, trying to talk crap. One really stalked me coz he knows whr I live, SMS me to tell me he can see me in d comp lab, what i'm eating, what i wear, etc... FREAKY!! . In my first year & second year some guys (not fr Curtin) got my number fr friends and start call me. Annoying la esp those that wanna talk crap! My number was spread to even as far as Labuan! Crazy! Worse of all, most of these guys would say "Can you speak Chinese?" Coz they cant speak English (or well enough). Aiyoyo... that irritates me.

Cant stand ppl who cant speak English. If u cant, then speak malay to me la! I'm not like typical ppl in Brunei who cant speak proper Malay la (they speak local Malay mostly). Hell, d examiners fort my O levels Malay oral said I can speak Malay better than malay ppl! hahaha... true or not sunno la but then again, I went to private school where English is emphasized lots. No surprises here. besides, i studied in Malaysia la. We have a HUGE advantage. Eh, but my English not so bad ya. One of d top students in my class leh. :P Of course, when I blog i use lots of malay & Chinese expressiojns & words too so it sound kinda bad sometimes. hahahah...

Anyways, gtg... got a vid to add to my blog. Hopefully it works. Grr... so hard to get it done. D song cant be loaded on line coz of d stooooopid connection! Did I say i talk crap most of d time? Oh no... forgot to finish mopping d hse. half way done! hahaha...

2006-09-29T07:31:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: frusty & tired
Current Colour: blue & green
Current Music: Crush by Mandy moore
Current Annoyance: Previous post got lost b4 i posted it! Posters still 50% done!! aargh!!!
Current Obsession: Prison Break. Arts & craft (papier mache words, words made out of toothpick, cardboard words etc... u geddit?), ~~wentworth & shayne ward~~, need sleep. need sleep.

Finally I manage to get my blog skin changed. it's 7.35am & I've not slept. not coz I was surfing. dat wud b 'suicide' for me if I'm online for such a long time surfing & my dad wake up to see me online. hahaha... Actually doing some typing and posters thing the whole night. feel like dying! so tired deh! Abt 6- 7 hours these stuffs. due tmrw for some church thingy la. haf abt 2 -3 hrs to sleep b4 i haf to dash off to do some printing in town b4 lunch then after lunch meeting!!! Aaargh!!!!!!!!!!! Need sleep. haf been up til 6 d past 3-4 day deh!

Hope it is appreciated or else... plus everytime i haf to go down to d office I haf to walk 5 floors down coz our elavator is being changed!! 2 weeks of walking up & down 5 floors is taking it's toll on my knees. In case u dunno, I haf a knee problem which wud hurt like hell dat i can walk properly if i use d stairs to much. like royalty/ diva pula eh! hahaha... even if I'm barefooted it'll hurt. Thank god so far so good but my back;s aching & numb from sitting in front of d computer d whole nite. Grrr...

Actually my typing thingies r done, just need to fwd them. And waiting to load my new mp3 to my blog. hahaha... Prison Break Anthem! hahaha... fits d layout dah. Now downloading some sort of mp3 converter then can upload it. ma fan. Interesting song. not sure if it's d one they use in season 2 since we r always like 6 months - 1 year behind (now ep 6 in US). Hmm... I even requested d song to b played tinite on radio. To all Wentaholics!! hahaha...

Anyway, gotta ciao. need to sleep soon. my bro just went off for extra class!! OMG it's almost 8! haiya, wat to do. well, atleast d email I want to send has been sent. Sigh... wanna pengsan already... ZZZzzz... got abt 2-3 hrs to sleep b4 I gotta dash to d printers to print some thingies b4 lunch then after lunch meeting at church again... Aaarghh... that's life. imagine how is it gonna be like when I work... considering d latest job i applied for is gonna b so hectic, bet my CV! experience working over time wud be like peanut! hehehehe...

Oh ya, talking abt CV, happy belated B'day to Dee Dee, Fiona (Fifi my cuzzie), Debbie, Ehon, Tiang & etc.. Sorry cant recall now since I'm more thasn half asleep. Grr... downloading so slow!! Oh well, a little time is enough for sleep & my ~~Wentasy~~ dreams & inspirations. completed 2 heading but got 2 more to do!! need inspiration & ideas!!! k, k... ciao.

2006-08-29T04:52:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: frustrated but yet also contented
Current Colour: purple!
Current Music: TV advert ... ooh It's Kiss Kiss by Holly Valance now (she was in PB too eh!)
Current Annoyance: my sis & mom insist on watching Siti's wedding reception on TV3 thus I miss PB on 8TV & Emmy's on NTV7... 30 seconds earlier I won haf missed wat I was waiting for!! Sh!T one
Current Obsession: Prison break la!
Current Physical Ailment: sleepy!!

Sigh... I jst found out I actually watched 4 episodes of PB dat day, not 2 as I thought. I watched another 4 just now... That makes it 8 episodes... 16 more to go!! aargh!!! can I do it tmrw?? I mean in The morning... hahaha... It's nearly 5am! wat m i doing awake so 'early'? watching PB just now & doing packing. now doing laundry la... sigh.. I wish i had more time of my own (and not doing housework...)

Goota soon. Need to hang d laundry & get my ass off to bed b4 dad wakes up! Need to b up latest by 9 or 10 coz I've got more cookies to bake!! 4 batches done... Perhaps another 4 or 5 to go... sigh... I lovew baking cookies but I wish I cud give it to someone I like/ love... Sigh...

Ciao....... I'll blog b4 I leave. No sleep 4 me tmrw... 12 hrs of car ride. sleep in d car la!

Hope that girl with Green Eyes isn't his g!! hahaha... yeah, pretty jealous tho I'm just dreaming on... hahaha.... He's too only 4 me!

2006-08-26T16:17:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: head in the clouds
Current Colour: green... beautiful green eyes' green... hahaha
Current Music: Disney Channel... K-U-Z-C-O Kusco, Kuzco, Kuzco! hahaha... Bro watching Kim Possible now.
Current Annoyance: Have to fight for TV. I wanna watch my Prison break DVDs la! hahaha...
Current Obsession: Prison Break, http://www.vidilife.com, Happy Tree Friends. hahaha...
Loving: my beautiful green eyes... who? hahaha... Won't say.

**wrote this last night**

Finally… I could take a break & ‘goyang kaki’. Today was a busy, busy day. Started at around 5.30am when mom woke me up. Around 6am mom, dad, grandma & I went to Limbang Immigration. I had to walk across the border with my grandma to ‘cop’ aka stamp her passport (visit pass is only 14 days ma so have to stamp it before it expires). Wah lau eh. Can u imagine me half asleep walking across the border? Luckily it is not like Miri immigration which is so far. Mati pula if haf to walk across. Hahaha… It was so cold la this morning. What do you expect at 6.30am? Lots of car… about 20 -30 car nya la, not like in the end/ beginning of the month after pay day. Definitely about 40-60 cars la then.

Anyway, after stamping the passport we went back la. On the way we saw this truck towing a ‘pulley’ with a buffalo on it! Aiyoyo… so kesian la I saw it. The buffalo was on its way to the butcher! To make things worse, another buffalo’s head was placed at its feet. Ish… Mom said “why are they so cruel? I think it must be crying because it knows it is going to be slaughtered because it can see its’ friend’s head at its feet.” Aiyoyo… so kesian pun ada. Anyway, got so pictures… not so clear la coz my dad didn’t want to go so near the buffalo coz it ‘shitted’ on d pulley. Hahaha… we saw shit coming out! Eew!! So gross la. But really kesian la… I dun like to see fresh or life stock, poultry, fish, seafood or whatever before I eat it. A family friend used to give us some chickens that she slaughtered. They were fro her garden! Eeew!!! I refuse to eat it coz I’ve been to her house before and the chickens/hens were like pets! Ish! Imagine eating your pet. I also can’t stand fresh fish that have not bee ‘claeaned’ and cooked, especially in the fish market. Aargh!!! Make me wanna vomit only. I get nauseous if I go to the market and the smell of the fish is so strong and pungent! It’s minging especially the putrid smell of rotten fish and its ‘insides’. Eew!! Uwek!!!!!

So we got home around 8 something. By 8.30am I was already in bed, continuing my sleep. Sleepy la. Come on la, you guys know my bed time is like after 1am. I slept at 2am yesterday night bah. At 10.30 I got up and then we all went shopping at the mall. Bought a couple of things for some people & I got myself ‘pearl’ bracelets.

(Ooh…got to go. My dad wants to use the computer… hmm… I know. I’d just watch my new DVD box set la. My first box set. Hahaha… Prison Break. Wentworth’s such a hot jailbird! Hahaha… brb…)

Aaah… back once more. It’s 3.07am now. No. no. I didn’t watch the whole set la. I started at 10.30 plus and watched the first & second episode. The Pilot was 2 hours long bah… so finished around 1.30am. Then I kind of hung around d living room, walk up & down… disturb my sis… anyway, more about that later la.)

So anyway, as I was saying, I bought a couple of things to bring back to Kuching. Can’t wait to get back home. We’re leaving on Wednesday morning at 5.30am!! Or so I was told. Hahaha… about noon we went to pick my dad from the office then we went to Hua Ho Mall Manggis to have lunch. One of dad’s friend ‘belanja’ us lunch at the Emperor’s Court. My first time there. The Dim Sum’s not bad. Hey, Royal Brunei Catering 9RBCF) food, what do you expect? Kind of frustrating though, he said today is Friday so we won’t order meat. Haiya, my family isn’t THAT strict you know. Considering what a feast we had for dinner later on… Anyway, food not that great compared to Dim Sum. Then again, maybe because it lacked the taste/ ingredients of meat! Hahaha… I’m a ferocious meat eater! After lunch we went back and the whole household except for my dad (who went back to work because he’s got a meeting) had a nap. Fuyoo… letih gila man. I was so exhausted for I don’t know what reason and when mom woke me up at 5.30 I couldn’t get up. I was like trapped in this semi-conscious state for a while. Plus my bro was playing this instrumental soundtracks CD I bought for him. Good music plus tiredness made me fall asleep. Finally I managed to drag myself out of bed. After I went to freshen up I sat in the living room and nearly doze off again! Sigh… I miss those days in uni when I could sleep all I want when I have nothing better to do. (Clubbing isn’t an option. It’s out of the question because I can’t stand the loud- and sometimes unpleasant- music plus the smoky atmosphere. And I prefer shopping than spend my money on useless things like alcohol)

At almost 7 we went to have dinner at Excapade Sushi Japanese Restaurant. One of the owners belanja us dinner at the Gadong branch. Pretty packed when we arrived but we got a VIP room! Hahaha… one of the waitress told another to bring us to “VIP room 5” bah. Hehehe… the room was in the new extension of the restaurant. We had to take off our shoes and kind of sit on the floor. It’s different, we don’t have to sit crossed legs, there’s like a ‘hole’ ion the middle of the room for the table and our legs. Hahaha… sakai bah. Never been into the room before. My sis goes there pretty frequent over the last 2 years or so. So she was the “head order-er” (I’m the one in charge when we have meals at the Le Taj Indian restaurant because I ate lots of Indian food when I was in miri… sometimes everyday or every other day!) She got me the prawn with rice sushi thingy, crab meat thingy, fried chicken sushi (she had the seaweed) and sizzling beef steak and soup. Hahaha.. think that’s a lot, I think we at about B$60 worth of food. My bro, dad & gandma had bento, my mom had this ‘kim chi’ soup thingy, and my bro also had raw salmon (eew! Fish is bad, raw is even worse! Luckily no smell!!!). then we had some other sushi which my sister feasted on, octopus, seaweed jelly, jellyfish and some kind of Japanese fried kuih or something like that la… the pics…

After that amazing filling dinner (had been on a 1 meal a day soup diet and today I had to ditch it. Lost a few pound already though) we went to this place that sell VCDs, DVDs and CDs. We call it Communist shop or komunis tiam (in Hokkien). Don’t know why, ask my sis la. Darn cheap stuffs there. I got POTC2 DVD, Mariah Carey music video (come on… it’s not to see her but the hot guys in there. Seriously.), Christina Aguilera’s Back to Basics, my 3rd Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights CD (my first got stolen so I replaced it and it got borrowed and never returned) and my Prison Break box set. I didn’t get the original box set because I didn’t have enough money (only have 20 & it’s 30. hey, Mall got the same box set –though looks different- & it’s 28 only!) and because I want to check the price in Kuching. If cheaper I buy there la. Ooh la la… 24 hours of Wenworth… should be worth it. Hahaha… don’t mind the pun! But I’m definitely going to get the original DVD. I would also buy Just My Luck original DVD in Kuching la. Was searching for Jessica Simpson’s new CD (not sure it’s out yet, got to check), nelly Furtado, Paris Hilton (hey, just curious you know. Also to add to my ever expanding collection), McFly’s American Edition album (Just My Luck… the ‘fake’ ones here have the correct cover but the wrong songs! Weird, they have other singers on it but none of McFly’s songs. Not even the title song. Weird.), Fightstar (good for smashing things around) and Shayne Ward’s album. Shayne’s song “No Promises” is stuck in my head. Nice song and sad video… reminds me of “No Me Ames” and the movie Ghost (I saw a music video –I think karaoke- of the Righteous Brother’s Unchained Melody using clips from the movie) where the guy dies and he comes back to see the girl kinda thingy. This kind of movie/video always make me want to cry and it would bother me for days… kind of disturbs me psychologically. I don’t know why but it seems like Dé Ja Vu you know. Maybe it because I had this recurring dream that I was married in the 60s to a Man Utd (or England, can’t really recall) footballer who died or something. Weird la… but it kept on recurring when I was 16… for a few months then it went off. Weird. But I don’t believe in reincarnation so it’s just bollocks!! Hahaha…

So, back to today. As I was saying I watched the DVD. Cool series and not what you imagine. I mean for a title like “Prison Break” you would imagine a lot of fighting and all that, Not so much. Maybe in the first few episode. It’s more of a psychological thing. It’s brilliant. Some of you guys know I like to read book or watch movies that toys with your mind and make you think here and there. Lots of plot and subplot which makes it interesting and captivating (I should know. I studied this kind of thing in uni, remember? Hehehe…) Wentworth as Michael Scorfield is the Mastermind of the escape and his character is very mysterious and intriguing. I like watching characters that are more than what you see. Actually I watched it on 8TV since July but I missed the first half and there’s two more episodes left (next week and the one after) so I might as well get the DVD right. Don’t want to spoil it for anyone interested but it is interesting la. Sigh… I’m going to devote this weekend to 100% sheer Prison pleasure (definitely worth it. Hahaha...)

Oops… got to go. My sis wants to sleep already. She’s sleeping in the living room tonight. Damn, I can’t go online on nights like this. She likes extreme darkness when she sleeps where as I hate the dark. I slept with the lights on when I was in Miri!! Hahaha… especially when I lived alone for two years. Scary bah coz… I see dead people… hahahaha…. Cheers y’all.

2006-07-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. whoever wanna know la.. I might not b online these few days (unless I really HAVE TO coz I'm ADDICTED) coz I will be busy this weekend.

Tmrw, I mean, today (Saturday) I'm going down to Miri wid my dad for a funeral. My dad's cou7sin who he grew up with just passed away today. he was d owner of Base Camp, d eating place next to CB & Coco's opposite Sultana. His sons run it now. Gonna miss him and his jolly personality. Though I'm not that close to him, he is kinda part of shaping me as who I am. Know why? Coz of him I never dare to go to CB & coz of dat I din end up getting addicted to clu7bbing & drink (probably would haf if I went coz I'm addicted to having addictions. Go figure. I'm complicated). Plus, I would have gone to meet 'someone' there when he SMS me to meet him. Thanks uncle, coz my heart would haf be broken by dat guy. Plus I got some cooking tips fr d shop too.. hehehe.. I make aweseome french fries now. "Secret recipe". God bless hi8s soul.

Anyway, coming back in d afternoon after d church service then going to the Tattoo thingy. not d one whr ppl draw/ink their skins. It's some kinda military exhibition/ show kinda thingy. would definitely blog abt this (eventho no one reads, at least i can inform Fifi abt it rite?).

Sunday morning abt 6am if not 5am d family wud b going to Limbang coz my dad haf to take this weddoing seminar service thingy whr couples renew their vows (if they had married in church) or have their marriage blessed in church (if they had cicil marriage in d court thingy gummy or a long hse traditional marriage). There are so many ways to get married in Sarawak u know, no need to have "love chapels' or 'Elvis chapels' to elope to! hahaha... anyway it's gonna be a day trip too coz coming ho9me at night as my siblings have school & my mom has to work (dad's day off is on Mondays coz he work on Sundays! duh!)

Anyway... gonna some sort of jet setting lifestyle, just that I'll be travelling by car! hahaha... Kesian my dad, he's been travelling since last week! last Sunday he went to HK wid mom then on Monday they went to macau. On friday they came back. On Monday this week he went to Kuching, back yesterday (Thurday) and going to Miri & limbang this wekend! Tired man! Miss my daddy... hahaha... bah, gotta ciao. need to sleep for a 6am wake up- call. grr...

P/S: Fi, Sam said hi to u. Well, to everyone la but only u read this bah.

2006-07-28T13:36:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously thinking of closing down this blog. No one evr seems to come by anymore. Only my cousin Fiona is a 'pengunjung setia'. hehehe... Anyway, probably would blog on friendster sajer la. Though this blog can do more than d friendster blog... but at least more ppl drop by. :(

2006-07-27T15:52:00.000+08:00

I had a nervous breakdown. I'm never the one to bare my soul to anyone, especially not to my mom. Since I was a kid, I could never express my feelings or emotions out loud. Mom got freaked out I guess when I started to cry when I talked to her last night. You see, in my family, if I do cry it must be something really bad coz I am not the type than cry. I can get through 2 - 3 years without crying. no problem. So if I do cry, everyone would freak out. I guess it's been building up since my health is really screwed up, getting periods 2 a month, my skin all dried up & peeling, hair falling, feeling lethargic all the time & getting insomnia... It's just so bad & last night was the breaking point.

** Lots of heart baring, rants & complains from here on... If u get hurt from reading, terasa ke, ape ke, sorry la... not my problem. Siapa makan Cili terasa pedasnya lah!(Whoever ate the chilli tastes it's spiciness or hotness. -> direct translation

It was bad. Cried for nearly an hour! Was so bad, i finished a packet of tissues & probably half a box of tissues too. Mom had to sit with me & talked it out. Not really gonna say what it's all about. Let's just say all those months of keeping my emotions inside come out... kinda blew up like a volcano. Most about feeling betrayed by those I called 'friends' & 'family away from home'. Who am I kidding. They needed me more just to do stuffs for them, not to hang out with. I mean, it was apparent that they'll only call me up to say "Serena, I need you help.", "serena, can you help us to do this?", Serena this, Serena that. Don't mean to complain but how much of that could a person handle?

I know I would help them wilingly because I want to. I mean as friends we'd help each other & be there for each other right? Like I told my mom, the people I care for the most and did a lot for are the ones that hurt me the most. Who didn't know of the fall out with one of my closes friend in uni? When the person was sick, I cared for him/her (dun wanna say). No money, I lend. Homework not completed I helped. Helped to cover up hi/ her ass so many times. I bet the lecturer knew too. I know the fault isn['t mine. Coz I'm not the only one who isn't talking & keeping in touch with him/her.

Who are my REAL friends? I also don't know. The one people I REALLY REALLY know that are my friends are Jaja & Ai Ling my two best friends & Violet my childhood friend til now. Look at my 2 best friends, distance never really changed our friendship. Over the years they probably also have new best friends for all I know... Well, Jaja & I are close to Aishah, whi8ch is her other best friend but that's different. Ai Ling was once 'fought' over by me & another friend (well, everyone thought so too then) but se still remained friends. Violet & I haf been friends since we were 4, went to the same schools & chuch & then d same uni. There was once when there were some people who didn;t like me & kinda backstab me... she wa their friend too but it seems she is still my friend til now... I guess that's what i call a strong friendhip... and not letting out side ppl mess it up...

These few months the only few people from uni that had been in touch with me aren't those who I'm always seen with. No, they are friends who even though I never really hung out with still remember. SOme of them, I never really talk to much, just maybe a hi & bye or maybe some short conversation. that's all. When I go on MSN, 99.999999% of the time no one chats with me. Some really close friends, When I saw hi just ignore me... not once or twice but a few times. I get it. U just mean get lost la? No use to SMS people... no one would rep[ly anyway. Like I said before... waste of money only. I tried when I went down to Miri for my cousin's wedding, granduation & also church camp. 3 times. most of d people don't even reply!!

I know some one who I was close to asked me for help for something that day. I sill haf the SMS. Debating with myself if I shud do it. I mean, this person hurt me too... Maybe he didnt realise it or what but he did. Lots of time. I stuck up for him, I always defend him but as years gone by... everyone says he's using me to get things done. i dunno la. But if making decisions that includes me without consulting me isn't hurting me... I dunno la.

Like I told my mom, I guess the most hurt I get if from CV. is CV a volunteer group or a social club now? Don't get me wrong. I still love CV, it's like my baby. But as the baby grows up, he has no use of his mother already right? I'm sorry if anyone feels hurt by this but you guys must remember what is CV all about & what is that we are established to do. I know they are looking for a new Advisor now... Hope you get a good one. Just don't make decisions with out telling others... like electing a new president without telling the current one. I hope Debbie would be Advisor. If Debbie is the Advisor, i'm sure she knows how to handle things. I guess since Debbie left this started to get screwed up. Suddenly all the responsibilities fall on me & jae yet I tend to feel it's more on me. i dunno la. mayb coz I had to manage all the internal stuff... Seriously, Last year I had a breakdown too... They who saw it should remember la. but no one knew I had a slight mental breakdown too... I spent nearly a week at home, not talking to anyone, not meeting anyone. nearly drove me crazy. well kinda did since i started laughing alone when watching tv, talk to me teddies abt my problems... hahaha... Maybe Curtin DID make me go crazy! hahaha... I don't ever wanna count t-shirts again esp if it is in the hundreds... drive me crazy only! hahaha...

But i guess I feel better now... it's time to let go & look fowrd to the future. I told my mom, i'm reluctant to make new friends now coz i'm scared of being betrayed and hurt again. I mean all this while since I was in primary school, people always take advantage of me, step on my head, stb me in d back... really hurtful u know. Like Izzah said.. I'm too nice to people. maybe la, I dunno. I'm no saint. Of course I wanna hurt people. I mean, how many hours did I spend contemplating revenge? I dunno but I can bring myself to do it. I hurts me more just to think of it. I feel so guilty & bad if i did something wrong. I know I tend to speak before I think... but nit's just me. sometimes I feel so guilty just because i said sth & people get it the wrong way... But how can I protect everyone's feelings if i get hurt in d process?

I guess, I'm not cut out to b this out going social kinda person. I think I'm mde to be a loner. Like now. I mean, how many of my friends have I met these past 2 months ince graduation? I think only 1- Oja in church. Who else is there to meet? p[eople can forget so fast. they have their own lives to lead, new friends to hang out. yeah, i'm talking abt those people who lives in Brunei & promised to gimme a call & go out... I know I told Lina I wanna go out with her but I have no transport coz my parents have been travelling la... but others... I dunno & dun care. mom said let go & forget.

People said friends u make in uni r for life... i'll say friends u make in kindie & primary sch r d ones for life. Life in uni is superficial. u can be a different person altogether for God knows. Probably back home u r a nerd, in uni u r one cool dude... I dunno who to trust anymore. I never trust people but sometimes when u hang out a lot with certain people, u'll grow to trust them. People I trust, care for, look up to & think very high of are the ones that hurt me the more. When they stop calling, stop coming by & u don't c them around anymore... well it's time to let go & forget abt them. I dun wanna think abt them anymore... I feel like i wanna delete all their pics but it's memories.. Just cherish the memories & forget the hurt... time 2 move on...

Anyway, I don't know is this coincidence or fate or what ever... As I opened friendster I saw this Bulletin by Izzah... which truly refklects what I feel & have been going through...

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you
stop going along with the crowd and start realizing
that there are many things about yourself that you
didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared
because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were so
close to aren't exactly the greatest people you
have ever met, and the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones. What
you don't recognize is that they are realizing that
too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere
but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to
what you thought you would be doing, or maybe
you are looking for a job and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom and that scares
you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging more
than usual because suddenly you realize that you
have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are
insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your
life. You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and
cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize
that the past is drifting further and further away,
and there is nothing to do but stay where you are
or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how
someone you loved could do such damage to you.
Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet
anyone decent enough that you want to get to
know better. Or maybe you love someone but love
someone else too and cannot figure out why you
are doing this because you know that you aren't a
bad person.

You go through the same
emotions and questions over and over, and talk
with your friends about the same topics because
you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself...and while winning the
race would be great, right now you'd just like to be
a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading
this relates to it. We are in our best of times and
our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to
figure this whole thing out.

-Adapted-

*P/S: I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feeling but I just had to let it out....Why am I saying sorry?? see, I am the one always to apologise but I never hear ppl say sorry to me!! Sheesh!

2006-07-17T13:09:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: amused
Current Colour: light blue
Current Music: Siti Nurhaliza's press conference on TV
Current Obsession: Insaniquarium
Current Physical Ailment: sth wrong wid my skin. extremely dry & painful. using some kinda medication for it. Mom!! painful!

Wah lau eh, Siti announce dat she IS wid Datuk K, the guy she has been gossiped with this passed year eh. On TV lagi tu!! All to best to her. He's kinda old leh! hehehe... At last she's settling down la. People have been waiting for years to know when she is getting married. Wah, at last la. This is gonna b wedding of the year!! Wedding at KLCC worr!! (~~hehehe... kenapa tak kat PWTC? takut ade "orang" makan hati ke?? ;p heheh... Jangan mare...~~)

Siti said she'll announce when she is gonna haf a meet the fans wedding thing. kinda like d one Yusry & Erra had in d park la. Wah syok man. are her fans gonna exceed d 10, 000 or so ppl dat attended Yusry's? We'll wait & see... Although I'm not a fan of Siti's, I'm kinda curious how it's gonna be like. It's gonna be Grand!! Can't wait 2 see eh! hahaha... I LOVE weddings!! Anyway, jez have wait til 21st August for that! Eh, it's my dad's birthday then la! ahhaha...

Talking abt y dad, my parents are in Macau now! they left for Hong Kong yesterday. wah syok la. Din bring me one... Not honeymoon la. Got this Chinese church conference thingy la. But we kacau them it's honeymoon la! 5 days worr... Last year they went to Johor for a few days nya... I think over the weekend la. Wah... syok la. I wanna go la. Shopping!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.... I asked my mom for handphone leh. heheh... see la if I can get one! hehehe...

Anyway... gtg first. need to get my lunch la. Haven't cook. eh, better shower first la. Brunei so d@mn F*cking hot!! Melting like ice except dat I'm not sweating! Dunno why these days my sweat not coming out! maybe that's why my skin's so dry! Yet I still drink too much water these days! Blehz

2006-07-12T03:52:00.000+08:00

Read this.... I think what these lyrics say are true. Think about it.

C’MON LAH
(Norman/Yusry/Edry)
KRU Publishing Sdn Bhd

When was the last time you paid for a Malaysian movie
Or a music CD or if ever maybe…
Was it a pirated copy or illegal MP3
Cause the cinemas all look empty to me
Is it because everyone’s too busy
Fighting and voting on reality TV shows
Who’s better, Mawi or Jackie
And in awards shows, will anyone ever beat Miss Siti?
Who cares if she’s got something going on
With all these Datuks cause it’s a big yawn
A love saga or some courtroom drama
Yo, don’t be kaypo MYOB Joe

Haiya, why you want to fight-fight
Make noise some more
Make the blood go up
C’mon lah, we Malaysian what?!!
C’mon lah, together-gether mah

How to go far when we fight-fight
Make noise some more
Make the blood go up
C’mon lah, we Malaysian what?!!
C’mon lah, together-gether mah

Now pay attention sit down and listen
So why can’t we be obedient when no one’s watching us 24/7
Passing red lights in the middle of the night
What’s right is wrong, on the roads we become demons
Honks and fingers, abuses and sisters
That you force to stand and book your spot at the parking lot
Unless if you’re an AP king driving Ferraris
Hustlers will scratch your doors and nail your tyres
So which team do you support here?
Melaka, Pahang, Selangor or Johor?
Cause at the mamak stalls they watch the EPL scores
Maybe that’s why it’s hard for our national team to beat Singapore

Just think about it..just give it a chance coz we need it
There’s no one else in the world who cares if we don’t care at all
Just go on and on..and move on
Now everybody c’mon, Say ‘La-la-la..’

Haiya, why you want to fight-fight
Make noise some more
Make the blood go up
C’mon lah, we Malaysian what?!!
C’mon lah, together-gether mah

How to go far when we fight-fight
Make noise some more
Make the blood go up
C’mon lah, we Malaysian what?!!
C’mon lah, together-gether mah

Hey brutha..hey sista!

Too many wannabes in our Hip Hop community
Talking crap bout the ghetto, G thang and the rivalry
Talk the way you normally talk lah
You’re from KL, not an American rap star
What’s wrong with the honies wearing minis
Whether in the clubs or malls or streets in the cities
We make a big deal about the little things in life
On the differences rather than the similarities alike
Just chill, be cool with each other
After all there’s no one out there gonna do us this favour
Stop the slacking, dissin’, slammin’ and moanin’
Cause we’re brothers and sisters, now everybody sing

Haiya, why you want to fight-fight
Make noise some more
Make the blood go up
C’mon lah, we Malaysian what?!!
C’mon lah, together-gether mah

How to go far when we fight-fight
Make noise some more
Make the blood go up
C’mon lah, we Malaysian what?!!
C’mon lah, together-gether mah

2006-07-12T03:24:00.000+08:00

Yaay!! Italy won!! hahahaha... I told you so! Well, it IS the Year of the Dog! hahaha... sorry France. next time. Let's see if Italy or Brazil will win in 12 years' time. hehe... I should have bet man. Would have won heaps of money. Now so broke la. hahahah... Ciao!

Vivendo la vita pazzesca! VIVA ITALIA!!!

2006-07-06T03:18:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: bored
Current Colour: blue
Current Music: Lonely No More (Rob Thomas): this makes me wanna dance. all the time!
Current Annoyance: boredom
Current Obsession: blogging, insaniquarium, singingfool.com

Seriously, I dunno why I'm blogging since thr's nothing to blog abt today. Slept around 4am, woke up around 2.45pm! hehehe.. what a slob. mum din wake me up wat! watched cartoons til.. i dunno... dinner time. then played insaniquarium, singing out of tune wid my sis.

Seriously, she drove me off key thrying to sing an english song in its original malay wordings! And she was listening to d english version on her headphones! shessh! dunno d title but it's Siti's Aku Cinta Padamu covered by a band called North. d cd is full of cover versions man! Malay to english, Chinese to english... That's wat u get fr an Aussie band signed to local (Malaysian) record company. Cover versions coz not many ppl here can write good english pop songs. POP not INDIE ok. So far, the best POP songs dat i actually enjoy r from KRU only la.. hehehe... KRU fanatic but that's besides d point. most of the singers r kinda fake la. hehehe... esp d one dat had a problem wid KRU.

Anyway... after i played insaniwquarium i changed my bedsheets & made my bed (at 9.30pm! hahaha) then did mom's bed after i put on d pillowcases on her pillows. the back to insaniquarium then online la... when everyone's asleep! hehehe... ~hmm.. wonder how many shells has my snail collected in my insaniquarium screensaver... hmmm~

anyway, i had a nice surprise to know at least ONE person read this- my cousin fiona in kl! Miss her la. Last saw her... erm... 2 years ago? 2nd cousin who i just got to know off when we were in curtin. Mom's her dad's cousin (grandpa was her grandma's bro). I miss Fifi... my "Personal Assistant" when i was acting in rachel's movie. hehehe... carry my phone, my water, tissue & segala-gala dat i din need when shooting! hehehe... actually she came to support us only la but helped around. Then laugh so hard when i accidentally fell in d bushes! Well, the actually used dat footage anyway! Tho I had to fall again d second time but the first was unplanned & crazy! and to make things worse, I was wearing a skirt & high heels!! hahaha.. it wasn't in d script. supposed to duck as if i fainted but i really fell into d bush coz i backed up into the curb! hahaha... had a nice "Seryna-sized" space in it for a week! hahaha... & to my horror... a few days later i discovered dat if i fell a feet or so further, my head wud haf hit a piece of wood wid a nail sticking out of it! Aaargh!!!!!!!!!! I found it when i was showing my frens d place i fell! Thank God I was ok. A brush wid death! That's not as scary s d one i really cud haf died but i'll blog it another time... freaks me out when i think of it. Mom freaked out when i finally told her... like almost 2 years after it happened.

ok ok... gotta sleep. it's 3.38am again. shesh! late nite quite common these days for me... not even watching footie now... coz England & Brazil's out! BUT gonna watch finals la! Go Italy!! read my previous post & know why i support Italy la hehehe... Oh yeah, I better transfer d pics I took when we had ice cream buffet! hehehe... get some fr my bro too then put it online. hehehe... 6 ice creams! cant believe it... no wonder my sore throat now.

2006-07-05T03:03:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: tired & annoyed
Current Colour: magenta
Current Music: whatever's playing on Channel V... ooh it's Britney & Kevin on Chaotic (dunno how 2 spell.. it's late & I'm tired). it's their wedding episod.
Current Annoyance: mummy keeps on bugging me abt gettinga job & what jobs i shud do & when & why and how & etc... F**k it! Sick of this conversation la! everytime quarrel one
Current Obsession: Pop Cap Games

Sigh... I've just changed the layout again. to something esier to read, bigger space to blog. Kinda annoying to know that no one actually reads all my rants but u know, i just need to get this out. It's been ages since I've blogged regularly. Most regular was abt 2 years or so ago when I had this dreadful crush on a guy i nicknamed Sunshine. hehehe... sad man. Now he's back where he belongs, and moved on with his life. Think probably forgot his friends here la.. dunno eh. i'm not the one to keep in touch. It'll be a bit odd innit if I suddenly email him? Bet he blocked my MSN by now. Kinda pissed my fren lost his new number but what the hell! I'm not gonna SMS him kan? weird! waste my money nya if since he prob wont reply. Bet he dunno who I am anymore la. Sheesh!

Wei.. why suddenly talk abt him one. weird. Hmm... talking abt weird. Been having weird dreams. Few nites ago I dream I was roommates with HER in this thingy we had to attend. It's so weird. it's like a bunch of us (I think the whole Faculty of media) went to some sort of hotel or sth and we had some sort o9f conference then exams...something like final exams coz Curtin's so damn full, there's no place to have our exam. To cut d story short, SHE was my room mate and tortured me so much. Seriously, i can feel the pain it caused inside to be tortured by HER. Weird one. One time she was so me she sat on my books or file or bag... something like dat then she jump up & do9wn to squash it! Aiyoyo... scary man! I mean, we've not been in touch for month and I've tried to put the past behind & suddenly I dream of her torturing me. Sheesh!

Oh yeah, to make things weirder, I was kinda starved coz someone (i dunno who) was trying to starve me (to death, kot! mana la I tahu?). then there was some kinda locker room/showers in d place & i sneaked in. the weird thing was, it's d guys' locker room & my guy frens helped me. funny, these guys i only got to know during d Media conference thingy in February this year. Juniors la. then they gave me their lo9cker keys and got lots of food there! hahaha... the jaga outside so no1 came in. the got weird werewolf kinda sound outside d building! ish! think too much! I think i'm mentally stressed dat's why dream of weird stuffs! (Chaotic finish liaw! din even watch it!)

Then this morning (Tuesday) I dream dat i went to McFly's concert & 4 of us fans got chosen 2 b on stage with them. The weird thing was, TOM was playing keyboard instead of guitar!! hahaha... and I played tambourine next to him! heheheh... funny!! It's all baloney! then got weird happenings in d dream also but can vaguely remember... hehehe...

eh, gtg la. I need sleep. Kinda been complaining not enough sleep but it's my fault since i've been online nearly every night or playing Insaniquarium! hahahah... Rite, gtg.

P/S: Sorry for the spelling serrors. I'm sleepy la!

2006-07-04T03:21:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: dunno eh
Current Colour: flaming red
Current Music: somethuing on tv. some kids show
Current Annoyance:
1. stupid Portugal play cheat & d referee blind ka
2. Sheesh France beat Brazil again
3. Becks quits!
4. Alonso had problems wid his car... got 5th only. Sheesh!
Now Schumi catching up on points!
5. so full of ice cream... got sore throat la
Current Obsession: insaniquarium, dynomite, alchemy... GAMES!
Current Physical Ailment: sick from eating too much ice cream

K... U know how i feel abt my annoyance. malas la blog abt what I feel anymore. Just sum it up as me having a bad weekend. I guess now I'm supporting Italy la. Eh, I heard on radio abt more than a week ago that in the Year of the Dog, ONLY Brazil & Italy had ever won... hence I'm supporting Italy now since Brazil's out. Actually it was Italy (1934), no World cup in 1946 coz of WW II, Brazil (1958), Brazil (1970) Italy (182), Brazil (1994) and so I guess this might be Italy's year. I hope! Got this from FIFA World Cup on Wikipedia.

Ok... change topic. u know wat I did today wid my family? We went for this Ice-cream buffet in town!! hahaha... B$1.50 per person & eat as much ice-cream as u want! Damn, we only reached there abt 5.30pm & it ends at 6pm! But... I had a record of 6, yes, SIX ice-creams! hahaha... gonna post d pics up when i get the chance. Prob tmrw or so. hehehe... nuts man. now my gums r so sore & got sre throat! hahaha... previously my record was 5 ice creams but in 1 hr. Now it's 6 ice creams in 1/2 hr!! hahahaa... Sh*t la, make me get fatter nya. hahaha.... & ruin my appetite. But who cares... I had ice cream man! for free!p[robably had about B$6- B$10 worth of ice cream meaning... abt between RM12-20 worth of ice cream! Unbelievable!! hahaha..

Talking abt gorging myself with ice cream (mom had 5 ok..), i found this link on my sis's blog. Surprise, surprise... I'm not as greedy or glutton as I thought I'd be after the ice cream gorging... then again... most of the questions don't apply to my current situation. duh. I'm jobless & relationship-less la! but being a sloth! gosh! I dun work remember... of course i sleep til noon! I only have to wake up then to cook lunch & do laundry la! if mom isn't working mornings, I'll only wake up when it's lunch time. duh! And since when I'm so damn proud & angry eh? Envy shud b higher than pride & lust... shud b 0 since it doesn't apply. Anyway... what it is:

Greed:	Very Low
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

Anyway.. as crap as it is, I'm going to bed now.

2006-07-01T18:01:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: so so...dunno what it is
Current Colour: brown
Current Music: Mr Bean on TV! people laughing la! d one he goes to church during Easter.. "Alleluia!" (I know It's Easter coz d Hymn they sing is only sung during Easter!
Current Obsession: Insaniquarium & blogging. I have 3 blogs!

K... without further delay...

What is Formula One?

Formula One, abbreviated to F1, and also known as Grand Prix racing, is the highest class of single-seat open-wheel formula auto racing in the world. The "formula" in the name is a set of rules which all participants and cars must meet. The F1 season consists of a series of races, known as Grands Prix, held in most cases on purpose-built circuits, and in a few cases on closed city streets. The results of each race combined determine two annual World Championships, one for drivers and one for constructors. The cars race at speeds often in excess of 300 km/h (187 mph).

The formula introduces a number of restrictions and specifications that cars must meet, designed, amongst other things, to keep the ever-increasing cornering speeds in safe ranges. For 2006[1] engines were reduced to normally-aspirated V8s with a displacement (capacity) of 2.4 litres (providing around 800 bhp [559 kW] at nearly 20,000 rpm). The performance of the cars is highly dependent on electronics, aerodynamics, suspension and tyres.

The formula has seen many evolutions and changes through the history of the sport. There have been many different types of engines; normally aspirated, supercharged and turbocharged, ranging from straight-4 to H16, with displacements from 1.5 litres to 4.5 litres. The maximum power achieved in the history of the series was around 1200 bhp in racing trim, during the 1980s turbo era.

Europe is Formula One's traditional centre and remains its leading market; however, Grands Prix have been held all over the world, and with new races in Bahrain, China, Malaysia and Turkey since 1999, its scope is continually expanding. As the world's most expensive sport, its economic impact is significant, and its financial and political battles are widely observed. Its high profile and popularity makes it an obvious merchandising environment which leads to very high investments from sponsors translating into extremely high monetary budgets for the constructor teams, however, in recent years several teams have gone bankrupt.

The sport is regulated by the Fédération Internationale de l'Automobile (FIA), with its headquarters in Place de la Concorde, Paris. Its President is Max Mosley. Formula One's commercial rights are vested in the Formula One Group, now owned by Alpha Prema. Although now a minority shareholder, the sport is still generally promoted and controlled by Bernie Ecclestone.

As of today, the results are as below

Formula 1 driver standing

84 Fernando Alonso
59 Michael Schumacher
39 Kimi Raikkonen
37 Giancarlo Fisichella
28 Felipe Massa
26 Juan Pablo Montoya
16 Jenson Button
13 Rubens Barrichello
12 Nick Heidfeld
8 Ralf Schumacher
8 David Coulthard
7 Jacques Villeneuve
6 Mark Webber
4 Nico Rosberg
3 Jarno Trulli
1 Christian Klien

Formula 1 team standing

121 Renault
87 Ferrari
65 McLaren
29 Honda
19 Sauber
11 Toyota
10 Williams
9 Red Bull

For more information about Formula One (F1), go to Formula One's Official Page or Wikipedia.

2006-06-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: sleepy but insomniac
Current Colour: blue!
Current Music: the hum of the computer
Current Obsession: I didn't know insaniquarium got so many bonus levels!

Okay, i wrote this like an hour ago when my sis wanted to use the line... (Trivia is below)

Today was kinda an unusual day... First it rained cats & dog... but on & off! One minute i'd been looking at the clear sky & loading the wahing machine, the next minute it rained! then when i was half was cooking lunch, it stopped. then when I had lunch it started again! Aaargh!!! I barely could hang the wet clothes! Anyway, after lunch I managed to rush doing the dishes, finish 1 load of laundry, hang them, start another load of laundry, mop the kitchen floor and showered within 1 hour!
Why did I rush to do that in 1 hour? Coz at 2pm I followed my dad to his office to do some work. Kinda to help him out la coz the had some kinda talk/semi8nar/ whatever kinda session the whole day. What did I do? I design a few samples of car passes for the church members! hahaha... yeah, the church is under demolition now for reconstruction. However we still have church services at the parish hall. The passes are for car that dropping off th elderly or for wardens or musicians to load their stuffs... really, this kinda sound complecated to u all izzit? Nah, we just use the other gate ajoining the flat next door but since they've got security guards there, so need passes la. Of course I didn't do that only la.. I made registration forms too! hahaha... actually the initial passes took me about 10 mi8nutes to9 make nya... but then i modified la. Haiya, nothing much la. Just utilising what I learned from My days as a CV-ian (Curtin Volunteers la) and SOAR Advisor. Sorry to say, didn't actually learn much as Student Ambassador.. Most of it I've learned as a SOAR and the rest was biasa la... work behind the counter in the office. hell though coz the other students think we haf 10 hands and can work really fast & know evrything and correct everything even if it's their mistake. hahaha... anyways, that's just crapping about the Good Old Days...

Talking abt CV... Sadly, we've been inform that Abel our Advisor is no longer working in Curtin. Daryll, did you send the email to me by mistake? Anyway, all the best for CV as they now seek for a new Advisor to lead them. I'm sure Daryll and the CV-ians especially the EX-COs would get another dynamic leader to lead them as Advisor. hehehe...Sorry ya, I can't do anything since I'm only th Ex-Officio... hehehe...But whatever problems that exists, I'm sure there are ways to solve it. Been there, done that. Still remember the days when only 3 of us ladies ran CV with a little help from our friends and Abel... Well, CV wasn't exactly started by 3 of us, as the story usually goes. It was 5 of us but only 3 of us remained active in CV up to the day of our 1st major event- Beach Cleaning. And the rest is history.. hmm.. some day I gotta put some of the pics up...
The next year I was put as Event co-ordinator... not that i wanted it but as we were delegating jobs and positions to our first real committee, I was some how left out & suddenly Abel said "Serena, you be the Event Coordinator." Terkejut beruk, dek! Working with the first ever committee was fun, exciting & challenging. Those guy & girls were all friends of our... in fact, we ended being the First family la... SAmeen was the dad & I was 1st wife, my cousin Fiona was 2nd, president Debbie was 3rd, then there was Barke etc.. yeah, there were 'kids', in-laws, grandkids, great grandkids... etc. Don't be surprise u hear ppl calling me grandma or popo or auntie! hahaha...

I love those days & I love u all! hahaha... back then I was way thinner, had a massive crush on some hottie in uni (hehehe... Sunshine. Dunno he remember I'm alive or not), busy juggling my studies & CV, etc etc.. I stil remember walking to uni on a scorching hot Sunday afternoon (2pm!) in black slack, black top & high heels! hahaha... back then I lived further down from where I lived for the last 2 years.. walked there copz there's no bus & I had to got o uni to make sure everything has been se up, kinda have a briefing to my friends and watch footie! hahaha... Managed to bump into the pillar watch some guy! hahaha... even curi curi go to the hostel to change my clothes then emerge to watch the football match & cuci mata! hehehe... Got la something happened 2 days before that... I love rainy days!! hahaha... ;p ;p ade la...

Sigh... how time has passed! 3 years worr!! so long ago!! now getting older la... Kinda bored a lot these days coz lack of things to do. Hmm... John did ask me to9 help with some things tho... hmmm... need to crack my brains to get those info bro... Anyway, enough of reminising (betul ka spelling?), back to business...

OUR TOPIC FOR TODAY IS... FIFA WORLD CUP!

Records and statistic from FIFA World Cup records

Largest margin of victory: Hungary 9-0 South Korea, 1954; Yugoslavia 9-0 Zaire, 1974; Hungary 10-1 El Salvador, 1982
Most goals scored in a World Cup qualifier: 31, Australia 31-0 American Samoa, 2002 qualification.
Most World Cup tournaments, player: Antonio Carbajal (Mexico, 1950-1966) and Lothar Matthäus (West Germany and Germany, 1982-1998), 5
Most World Cup match appearances, player: Lothar Matthäus (Germany), 25
Most goals scored, player, career: Ronaldo (Brazil 1994-2006), 15
Most goals scored, player, tournament: Just Fontaine (France), 13, 1958
Most goals scored, player, match: Oleg Salenko, 5, Russia vs Cameroon, 1994.
Fastest goal from kickoff: Hakan Şükür, 11 seconds, Turkey vs South Korea, 2002
Fastest goal during qualification: Davide Gualtieri, 8 seconds, San Marino vs England, 1994 qualification on 17th November 1993.
Most consecutive wins by a coach in World Cup finals: 11 Scolari with Brazil 2002 (7) and Portugal 2006 (4)
Most consecutive wins by a team in World Cup finals: 11 Brazil - 2002(7)-2006(4)
Youngest player to appear at a FIFA World Cup: Norman Whiteside: 17 years and 41 days Northern Ireland vs Yugoslavia, 1982.
Youngest player to score a goal: Pelé, 17 years and 239 days, Brazil vs Wales, 1958
Oldest player to appear at a FIFA World Cup: Roger Milla, 42 years and 39 days, Cameroon vs Russia, 1994
Oldest player to score a goal: Roger Milla, 42 years and 39 days, Cameroon vs Russia, 1994
Most cards shown in a match (yellow and red): 16 yellow cards and 4 red cards, Portugal vs Netherlands, 2006 (referee: Valentin Ivanov). Also this was the most red cards given out in a game which was 4.
Previous record for most red cards given out in the world cup was 22 red cards in 64 matches in the 98' World Cup in France. On June 25 the total red cards in Germany 2006 is 23 red cards in 52 matches.

hahaha...ok... now i've 'educated' everyone on some World Cup Trivia, it's time for me to go to bed... Good nite, babes!

P/S: Tomorrow... Formula One Championship Trivia!

2006-06-27T23:51:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: dunno
Current Colour: blue & purple
Current Music: whatever is playing on Channel V
Current Obsession: Insaniquarium

Ok more things to "lower" our IQ... hehehehe... Today we read useless trivia... I got it from here.

A rat can last longer without water than a camel.
Your stomach has to produce a new layer of mucus every two weeks, otherwise it will digest itself.
The Declaration of Independence (the very official copy in the Rotunda of the National Archives) is written on parchment, not paper.
The dot over the letter 'i' is called a tittle.
A raisin dropped in a fresh glass of soda will bounce up and down continually from the bottom of the glass to the top.
A female ferret will die if it goes into heat and cannot find a mate.
A 2x4 is actually 1-1/2" x 3-1/2" .
40% of McDonald's profits come from the sales of Happy Meals.
Every person has a unique tongue print. (Like cows eh!)
The 'spot' on 7UP comes from its inventor who had red eyes. He was an albino.
315 entries in Webster's 1996 Dictionary were misspelled.
During the chariot scene in 'Ben Hur' a small red car can be seen in the distance.
On average, 12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents daily.
John Wilkes Booth's brother once saved the life of Abraham Lincoln's son. Irony.
Warren Beatty and Shirley MacLaine are brother and sister.
Chocolate kills dogs! Chocolate affects a dog's heart and nervous system. A few ounces is enough to kill a small sized dog. (U wanna try? PETA wud kill u!)
Daniel Boone detested coonskin caps.
Playing cards were issued to British pilots in WWII. If they were captured, the cards could be soaked in water and unfolded to reveal a map for escape.
Most lipstick contains fish scales. (Eeew...)
Dr. Seuss actually pronounced Seuss such that it sounded like Sue-ice.
Ketchup was sold in the 1830s as medicine.
Leonardo da Vinci could write with one hand and draw with the other at the same time.
During the California Gold Rush of 1849 miners sent their laundry to Honolulu for washing and pressing. Due to the high costs in California during these years it was deemed more feasible to send the shirts to Hawaii for servicing.
American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating one olive from each salad served in first class.
The number of possible ways of playing the first four moves per side in a game of chess is 318,979,564,000.
Upper and lower case letters are named 'upper' and 'lower', because in the time when all original print had to be set in individual letters, the 'upper case' letters were stored in the case on top of the case that stored the smaller, 'lower case' letters. The proper term for upper case letters is "majuscule" and for lower case it's "minuscule".
The question mark came from a monk habit of writing the Latin word for question, quo, at the end of sentences. Over time, the letters were written vertically to save space and morphed into the ? we write today. Similarly, the exclamation point came from the Latin word "Lo", meaning something important that should be heeded. (Lo and behold...)
Wellfleet, Massachusetts has the only town clock in the world that strikes ship's time. (Rings every half hour, to a maximum of 8 rings at the end of each four hour period.)
There are no words in the dictionary that rhyme with the words orange, purple, or silver, or month.
The numbers '172' can be found on the back of the U.S. $5 dollar bill in the bushes at the base of the Lincoln Memorial. (New or old? Not sure. Probably the old one.)
The very first bomb dropped by the Allies on Berlin during World War II killed the only elephant in the Berlin Zoo.
There are four cars and eleven lightposts on the back of a $10 dollar bill.
Scissors as we know them today (well, pretty much) were invented in Rome in about 100 AD (or CE, if you want to be politically correct).
If one places a tiny amount of liquor on a scorpion, it will instantly go mad and look like it is stinging itself to death. It spasms a lot. (Quite sadistic, innit?)
Most scorpions will glow under black (ultraviolet) light. (really?)
Bruce Lee was so fast that they actually had to SLOW a film down so you could see his moves. That's the opposite of the norm.
If you have three quarters, four dimes, and four pennies, you have $1.19. You also have the largest amount of money in coins without being able to make change for a dollar.
The first CD pressed in the US was Bruce Springstein's 'Born in the USA.'
The mask used by Michael Myers in the original Halloween was actually a Captain Kirk mask painted white.
The first product Motorola developed was a record player for automobiles. At that time the most known player on the market was the Victrola, so they called themselves Motorola.
Roses MAY be red, but violets ARE, indeed, violet.
By raising your legs slowly and lying on your back, you can't sink in quicksand. One should carry a stout pole while travelling in quicksand country...when placed under one's back, it helps one to float out of the quicksand. (Those ppl dat wanna go to Deserts, pay attention!)
Casey Kasem is the voice of Shaggy on Scooby-Doo.
Celery has negative calories! It takes more calories to digest a piece of celery than the celery has in it to begin with.
Charlie Chaplin once won third prize in a Charlie Chaplin look alike contest.
In Gulliver's Travels Jonathan Swift described the two moons of Mars, Phobos and Deimos, giving their exact size and speeds of rotation. He did this more than one hundred years before either moon was discovered.
Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying!
Sherlock Holmes NEVER said, "Elementary, my dear Watson." For that matter, Sherlock Holmes never existed in the first place. But the address where he supposedly lived, 221B Baker Street, still gets a lot of fan mail. I am told that there is a desk there that has the sign "Secretary to Mr. Holmes".
An old law in Bellingham, Wash., made it illegal for a woman to take more than 3 steps backwards while dancing. (WTF??)
Birds have the right of way on all Utah highways.
Sharon Stone was the first Star Search spokesmodel.
The glue on Israeli postage stamps is certified kosher. (Ignorant ppl: It's kinda like Halal but for Jews la)
The Guinness Book of Records holds the record for being the book most often stolen from public libraries.
Astronauts are not allowed to eat beans before they go into space because passing wind in a spacesuit will damage it.
The number one selling CD in history is the third Beatles anthology. It recently beat out the Eagles' "Their Greatest Hits." (not sure wat year this was compiled eh!)
Bats always turn left when exiting a cave.
If you drop a penny off of the Empire State Building, it will be going 106 miles per hour (terminal velocity) when it reaches the ground. Something moving this fast may actually cause head injuries if it lands on you. (OUCH!!)
The original Winnie the Pooh was a real live bear found outside of Winnipeg, Canada, hence the name Winnie.
Francis Bacon died in his attempt to find a better way to serve food. He caught a case of pneumonia while attempting to stuff a chicken with snow. Ironically, the chicken survived the ordeal.
Dachshunds were originally bred in 1600 to hunt dachs, which is German for badgers. (Historically speaking, 1600 was a slow year.)
Houdini's real name was Ehrich Weiss.
The first zoo in America was in Philadelphia.
Laser is actually an acronym for "Light Amplification by Stimulated Emissions of Radiation."
The world's first passenger train made its debut in England in 1825.
If you hate our "QWERTY" keyboard layout, blame Christopher Sholes. He changed it from the original in 1873 to lessen the chances of the keys jamming.
Napoleon III suffered from ailurophobia, which is a fear of cats.
Escalator is one of many words that were originally trademarks but have become ordinary words found in dictionaries. Some other words which were originally trademarks and have now passed into common use are aspirin, autoharp, band-aids, breathalyzer, cellophane, Coke (in some areas, at least), corn flakes, cube steak, ditto, dry ice, dumpster, formica, Frisbee, granola, gunk, jeep, kerosene, Kleenex, mace, nylon, ping-pong (also an onomatopoeia: words that sound like their meanings; words that give sound effects, such as "buzz," "hiss," "plop," "pow," etc.), popsicle, Q-tip, rollerblade, rolodex, Scotch tape, sheetrock, spandex, styrofoam, tabloid, thermos, trampoline, yo-yo, xerox, and zipper.
The citrus soda 7-UP was created in 1929; "7" was selected because the original containers were 7 ounces. "UP" indicated the direction of the bubbles.
Mosquito repellents don't repel. They hide you. The spray blocks the mosquito's sensors so they don't know you're there. Also, the powder on the bark of a quaking aspen tree works as a mosquito repellent.

So, if u wanna read more... just go to the website... Coz thr's not much to write abt my life rite now, each day or every other day i'm gonna post something new I found online k. Maybe a website, a trivia, jokes, stories, etc... u get it... But, now & then I'd definitely gonna blog abt what's going on around me la... if it is sth to talk abt. For now, ciao!

2006-06-27T04:20:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: weird out
Current Colour: blue
Current Music: the hum of d comp & cars outside d flat
Current Annoyance: sleepy, bored
Current Obsession: insaniquarium... last bonus level of bonus level 4!!
Current Physical Ailment: hungry?

Ok... today I'm gonna lower ur IQ with these unanswered qeustions. I love this site that I got it from.. It's crazy! Read more here.

Ok, here's some of it!

Why do "cool" and "hot" mean the same thing?
If you sneeze and fart at the same time, does a vacuum form in your stomach?
Why does triangularly cut bread taste better than square bread?
Does a baby feel the umbilical cord being cut off?
Is it legal to name your kid "Anonymous"? (hahaha...)
Why is it that no matter what color of bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?
If you have a pet with 2 heads do you have to name both heads?
Why can't liquor freeze?
If you dig a hole in the south pole are you digging up or down?
How come they don't add the time that we were in our mom's to our age?
Why do people squint their eyes when they can't see? Wouldn't that just make it less space to see out of?
Why do we have to pay a toll on "freeways"?
Why do they call them pepperoni if there is no pepper in it?
How old does something have to be to become an antique?
Can a school teacher give a homeless child homework?
Why do they say "an alarm going off," if it is really going on?
Do babies produce more spit than adults? (eew...)
How come French fries are not considered a vegetable, they are just deep fried potatoes? (Ya, bah!)
Do cows have calf muscles?
Why is shampoo clear but conditioner not?
If conjoined twins participate in sports, do they count as one or two players?
If a singer sings their own song during a karaoke party, is it considered karaoke?
Why do mattresses have designs on them when they're always covered with sheets?
If you died with braces on would they take them off?
If a person suffered from amnesia and then was cured would they remember that they forgot?

hahaha... there's more to come tmrw...

2006-06-26T04:29:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: bored, sleepy
Current Colour: black
Current Music: something on mtv
Current Annoyance: boredom
Current Obsession: trying not to b bored, insaniquarium to keep me sane
Current Physical Ailment: nothing, just plain bored

yeah, u got it. i'm bored of being bored. what more can I say? Anyway, I'd complete my 'updating' these few days. Something's wrong with my tag board.Planning to start blogging regularly again... that is if something interesting do happen in my boring life right now...

P/S: Do u know:
Nicole Kidman just got married.
David Beckham scored England's only winning goal against Ecuador.
Fernando Alonso won the Canadian Grand Prix.
A few days ago, Cadburry England recalled more than a million specific choclates for fear that they may be contaminated with salmonella or something like that. Read it here.

2006-03-18T03:24:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: bored n pissed coz my comp is crazy
Current Colour: darkl magenta
Current Music: The Faders (PLug In + Play)
Current Annoyance: hungry all the time. unemployed (damn!)
Current Obsession: html, MySpace, Glitter Graphics
Current Physical Ailment: always hungry at 3am!

So, I'm bored. I can't sleep coz my tummy's growling (no, not eating anything now). Anyway was surfing around & found this at my sister's blog (~*LuvSickz*~). It's from her friendster.

1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR EX IF YOU COULD?
* do i haf one? hmmm.. nope. ex crush got la but i dun think so. bet we won't ever meet again in our life. last saw him in Dec 2004.

2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
* my dark magenta tie-dye dress... rady for bed. lol..

3. HAVE YOU MADE OUT WITH ANYONE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
* Nope.

4.HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
* out of 300? erm.. most of them.

5. DO YOU HOLD GRUDGES?
* not often. unless u hurt me badly, insulted or hurt my family or frens, backstab. yeah. "Hell hadth no fury like a woman wrath"

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANNA HAVE?
* used to want 6 but then, giving birth is so scary! eee... maybe 4? entah..

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
* yeah. tho they can be 'heated' moments. if my sis is d noise maker of the family, i'm the troublemaker. troublesome la. hahaha... and i'm like BBC or CNN can talk nonstop. always have something to say like in my handwriting analysis here cant help it.

8. DO YOU MAKE OVER 40K A YEAR?
* i wish! i'm an unemployed recent graduate. do u think my mom pay me to do the dishes and laundry, cook, n clean the house?

9. NAME ONE SONG OR SONGS YOU CAN RELATE TO RIGHT NOW:
* Jump by the Faders (see the lyrics here), Can't Break Through by Busted (see the lyrics here) and Just A Kid by Simple Plan (well yeah, I wait for ppl to call but my so called frens n 'family' from uni... huh. it's like the line's been cut the day i got my final results.)

10. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE THAT YOU HAVE?
* My name's fine.

11. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?
* Do u think I'm Crazy?? No way!

12. WHAT IS YOUR MOTHER'S NAME?
* Cecilia

13. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BDAY?
* u really wanna know? U won't believe it.

came home from uni (spent d nite in d computer lab doing unappreciated work) at 7.30am
skipped classes coz of a splitting headache and lack of sleep
kinda "dragged" out of bed by a fren who took me fod lunch at Pizza Hut but can really eat coz
I got a bad cold
went to a meeting late coz of traffic jam n no one know or remembered my b'day. got dirty looks though.
went to meet my group members abt some production work they were in bad mood (think dat day the lecturer was mad at our group. i think coz i skipped class n discussion abt our production thingy. my fault la. i was sick remember?) so i just kept quiet. (guess no party eh?)
went home and watch VCD (to cheer me up) but
fell asleep
two friends convinced me to haf dinner with them at Leez Cafe
went home and slept around 9.30-10pm. sad.

some birthday ya? and it was my 21st.

14. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
* 1.05 am coz got driving class

15. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
* online surfing n chatting.

16. HOW MANY EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
;p

17. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
u think i'm crazy or sadistic ka? of course not. my hair is precious. spend more on my hair than shoes these days.

18. FAVORITE CITY?
* home sweet home- Kuching

19. FAVORITE COLOR?
* purple, black n blue.

20. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
* sleep? pass my driving (it's tiring la doing parking for 1 hour... i parked like 6-10 times today!), lose weight, graduation!

21. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
a few hours ago before she went to bed. erm like 6 hrs ago....

22. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLINGS?
* my sister and brother? if i didnt, who will entertain me with lame jokes (my sis) or play playstation or computer games or fight with (my bro)? plus, as lame as she is, my sis can understand my sick/lame/weird/sarcastic jokes n sense of humor. most of the time

23. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
be less nicer (is my grammar rite?) and me meaner to ppl who r mean to me. don't be a softie (if i fight with my siblings, they usually physically injure me but i can't do so. weird)

24. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
* i wanna go UK! Shop, shop, shop. hey it say $ so of course it's more than RM rite? woowee... if it's US$ it's almost RM1 MILLION!! buy jimmy choos n manolo blahnik shoes, lots of clothes, bags, make up etc... then give some of those to my family n frens. donate some of the money to charity too... and pay tuition fees at London Film School or New York Film School!

25. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?3
* unemployed? since i finished my finals on 10 February 2006 at approx 10.40am. Being a pain in the ass? since i was born.

26. LAST PERSON YOU CALLED?
* eek... dunno. either mom or dad.

27. LAST THING YOU ATE?
* kuih sepit (dunno how to explain it... local food)

28. YOUR FAVOURITE MONTH?
* December! coz it's holiday and christmas!!!!!!!!!hahaa

29. LEAST FAVOURITE MONTH?dunno...

30. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
*erm, mum's tie dye dress coz mine are all in the laundry? hey... i like wearing dresses at home bah

31. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
* my sis said i was getting on hers, so i'd say it's her too. yeah. my sis is. good 2 shoes

32. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
* Gmail, Friendster, MySpace, KRU, Contact Music, etc...

33. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
Mabel Friday morning

34. LAST PERSON MAKING YOU SAD?
* dunno. can get sad suddenly one.

35. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
* maybe... yeah.

36. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINKS?
* coffee... it's alcoholic to me coz it makes me woozy and too much of it can make me tipsy. seiously. once after 8 cups, i couldn't walk straight and talked in a slur and laugh a lot. also too much soft drink= sugar overdose= laught a lot (mostly alone)

37. NAME ONE THING YOU ARE PASSIONATE ABOUT?
* sleep! hahaha... God, though i dont really show it, people, friends, family, music.. there's too many things la! but my #1 passion now is Film Making esp editing! Damn I miss editing!

38. WOULD YOU RATHER HAVE GOOD SEX OR AN ECSTASY PILL?w
* at the hell? I don't do both so?

39. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE:
* i wish. in my dreams yes.

40. LAST TIME YOU HAD SEX:
* i dun do stuff that dun benefit me

41. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
* send my condolences? Hey, I'm not that mean ok... i'm 'too nice' remember?

2006-03-15T02:17:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: bored, sleepy
Current Colour: blue (feeling blue...)
Current Music: Sleeping With The Lights On (Busted) , Close to heaven (Color Me Badd), Water Runs Dry (Boyz II Men)
Current Annoyance: bored n jobless
Current Obsession: getting a job, blogging, MySpace
Current Physical Ailment: hungry again!

Nah, nothing to say. just keeping this site alive until i hear news that Curtin has unbanned Blogger n Blogspot as well as Myspace. Anyway, blogging at Seryna's MySpace and Seryna's Crazy Life. So keep in touch and drop a line in my tag board okie...

2006-02-26T04:51:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: sleepy n tired n hungry
Current Colour: red
Current Music: love you no more (i'm sorry) on repeat
Current Annoyance: stupid diet make me hungry
Current Obsession: need to lose weight. HTML (updating my blog & myspace) and adding celebrity mysopace to my friendster and myspace friend lists... LOL
Current Physical Ailment: hungry n sleepy n cranky... lol

Anyway, just dropping by. My blog is running again, i guess... damn. it's so boring to be out of uni... LOL nothing to look forward for ...yet. anyways... i'll update again. perhap these few days...

ciao baby

P/S: Charles Simpson is still hot! ;p

2006-02-05T05:04:00.000+08:00

Hey guys... sorry din update for soooo long. So busy. Anyway, u guys can read my other blog on Friendster ( http://seryna.blogs.friendster.com/serynas_crazy_life/). oh yeah, I can't update from campus too coz as usual, DANS GUARDIAN is thr to ban stuffs... Blogger is banned on campus. So I'll update once I get out of there ya! ;p Rite now in Brunei n going back to Miri in a few hours... Take care...

2005-12-29T05:56:00.000+08:00

hey guy... sorry no update lately. too busy. just managed to change the layout a bit. wud try to get it done real soon. take care. happy new year 2006

2005-12-22T05:43:00.000+08:00

Hey guys... sorry abt the site ya... it's under (re)construction... hehehe... anyway, would get it done before Christmas!

2005-08-27T04:05:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: melancholic

Current Music: Slow love songs with some memories

Current Physical State: sleepy

Current Obsession: Peanut butter & rain (not necessarily together)

Something some friends had mention got me thinking. A few times, friends had made passing comments about my single status. Then just a few hours ago my dad also asked me if i had found a boy friend.

Everyone that knows me know that I hang out with guy friends a lot and have a sizable number of guy friends. What confuse them is that my ability to actually have platonic relationships with these guys. I mean, so of these guys are really close friends and people have mistaken some of them as my boyfriend or boyfriends (yup, at the same time). Which is pretty weird since I once had a guy friend whom no one actually thought is a friend of mine and worse, I had a crush on him! hahaha...

What do I look for in a man that I have not found? The guys I know, they are not bad- any girl that get them would be lucky girls. Those who I am really, really close to are really caring guys and they do take care of me as a sister or as they care for any of their chums (yeah, some times I get 'mistaken' for a guy too- blame it on my potty mouth n filthy mind. LOL). Seriously, my guy freinds are all the 'alright' bunch. No worries of them actually harming or hurting any girls.Nice guys... But... as I said, it's all platonic for me. No feelings.

Other girls might find it hard to maintain platonic relationships with guy but for me it's like a second nature. I grew up with boy cousins. at a very young age I had already experienced hanging out with the older guys (yeah, some of them were then TWICE my age or more!! i was a child, they were my 'koko' in their teens) and since then the guys I hang out with have been taking care of me. seriously, if any girls want me to be the 'middlewoman',I have no problem. Been there, done that anyway.

But back to what I want.

It's nothing like liking a guy or just wanting aguy to be a boyfriend. Hell, I'm 21! Time fly by really fast. No more time for 'fun fun' or just for the hell of it. Yeah, pretty much want something stable. Even had a conversation about this.

What do I want?

Comfort, security and contentment. I know some are saying that I sound so old. But that's the truth. I grew up really early and fast. No normal childhood. Therefore my mind is pretty much more mature (tho I cant say the same about my emotions... they get me into trouble very often).

Comfort, security and contentment... Everyone would say "Haven't your parents given you that?" Yes, but it is on a different level. No it's not so much on physical objects, but more on emotions. The kind that makes you feel that there nothing more that you want because these 3 (Comfort, Security & Contentment- CSC) are all met.

Have I felt that before. Seriously, I can say I have. Yes, once in my life. For a short while, about 10-15 minutes. the longest but yet also the shortest 15 minutes of my life. With whom? Aahh... There has always been only one man in my life. :| *bittersweet smile*

It felt so perfect. Us, alone (really ALONE for once) and no one around for miles(?) or something like that. He was like a knight in shinning amour. Has always been anyway. Never was this close to him (though, I really wish I was in HIS ARMS... hahaha). There and then, I felt the CSC. There's nothing more that I want. I was contented. If i were to die there and then, I'd die a happy and contented woman. hahaha... Sigh... Like I said, there was like nothing more I wanted in life. not even fame or money... I think, if I could (and if he had asked),I'd marry him right away... sigh...

(Geez... Unchained Melody is setting the mood here for me)

There... I think I sound like a fool. Does he know? I mean, DID he know? (should use past tense, he's a distant memory now) 99% no. There is a small possibility he knew how I felt but i think it's pretty slim.

THAT I cant possibly say is LOVE. A crush yes. if a crush can make me feel like that, how much more can being in love be like! I guess, I'm not in a relationship now because no one can make me feel like that yet (again). I'm pretty much of an emotional person, but privately. I like to be in control of my emotions and I like them to be CSC. I don't really care if he isn't rich,as long he can support me financially. I need a man to support me emotionally and i guess also to support me in my undertakings, as I would to him too.

Bet you'll Question why I never told Sunshine... I guess it's mostly is due to the different worlds we are in. We are worlds apart. Our interest are waaaaay different, the only common thing is Man Utd, I guess (but all my celeb crushes like Man Utd too anyway). He's like so hot and cute, so yummy. me so short and although I was not as pudgy as I am now, i'm still no supermodel. (oh yeah, the girls I see him with are those type). Plus, I don't think he likes loud (both in audible volumes and in (vulgar) language wise), domineering and independent girls. oh well, I also prefered looking but not owning. Once the chase was over, the fun was over...

One of the few things that was said about me that scare guys that people have told me. izzah said I look (and am) too independent, no guys dare to approach me or think that I don't need a guy. My mom said that I shouldn't show guys that I CAN be more Intelligent than them (meaning, guys' ego like them to think that they are smarter la). someone else (not sure who) said that my ability to actually know what guys are talking about scares them (like if they had their 'guy talk' like sex, I kinda know what they are talking thanks to my 'bros' or if they talk about Formula One... u get what I mean). JAJA told me I'm tough inside though I don't look it. Another close friend (cant recall who) said I'm mean to guys. I can get rude or don't give them a chance to get close. I'm not sure la.The weirdest & most contradictory thing I was told before was told by Lotezcia years ago- "you're a natural flirt. You flirt with all the guys here (choir guys)" eheheh... did I coz I never knew... It's like so weird. Mabel did say I flirt a lot la... But I think I'm just being friendly, not meant to flirt.. Sigh...

Just wanna say, people can say what they wanna say. They can think what they want, do what they want to. Afterall, it's nothing wrong being young, single, free and loving it. Who have time for a boyfriend if they are busy as me anyway?? (I have a feeling in the future, I might get involved in politics... maybe a politician's aide? don't know. But I'm forever busy anyway...)

Amen to singledom!

2005-08-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: undecidabley annoyed and tired
Current Colour: black
Current Music: how can i not love u (joy enriquez)
Current Annoyance: unknown status
Current Obsession: to hurt as i was hurt
Current Physical Ailment: tired (physical, mentally, emotionally & spiritually.)

Nyeh. life sucks.... rumors r circulating. i lost my job. nyeh. no two weeks notice for me eh! how leh? no1 inside is telling me anything... hell, now i know how those KFC Holding directors feel now!

on the bright side, i had really, really nice dream abt my long lost crush. hahahha.. i dreamt he can back to curtin to do some stuffs. i think he can to do some training ka, apa ka... he join military or sth & he was doing search & rescue training. i avoided him like hell but he notice my reaction towards him. one day i ran away somewhere & end up in a river or tunnel or sth. got running water la & got lost. and who should save me but him... hahahaha... then the story goes on but it's for me to enjoy n not for u to know... Don't think dirty! i'm a good girl... ahaks! (Ja, I'll story u soon!)

sigh... which crush?? the one i vowed never to remember again. Sunshine. Sigh... He's so cute. hahaha... i forgot how cute he could be, u know. Aaargh!! cutie addiction. hehehe... make me so happy in a time when i am so down. hahahaha...it help more to think dat the ppl dat hurt me din like him. hahahaha... so i'm on the same side of the line now. nyeh! ;p hehehehe....

sigh... y life is so damn troublesom n boring here. no excitement. these day i get out of bed a late as possible n drag myself out of bed every morning. sigh... no excitement ma... two years ago i'll jump out of bed... gor motivation ma... hahaha... oh well, that is life... :(

2005-07-14T04:30:00.000+08:00

Some questions....

Why do people always act like they own me that they have the right to ask/make/force/ expect me to do all that they want and would forever bad mouth me if i refuse? Don't Ihave a right to do what i choose to do, what i wanna do or not do? Geez... some people always act like I don't have a brain and that they are always better than I am (eventhough at times I do even more that they do!)

Can't people face it that last sem I had to do 5 units and I'm never as free as I seemed? All the sleep I lot for nothing!

Last but not least....

Why people can always change the thing I do yet I can do so? Damn!! all my work should be copyrighted. And it would be so from July 18th 2005. (You would understand how it feels if you are an artiste/writer/composer/director/ anyone doin anything connected to THE ART!

Hmm... been thinking over... Who are my REAL friends?? Not people that rub it in or proclaim it every other day though... It seems so fake... I think my real friend are just a small handful and the rest are acquaintances. the rest are either one or more of these :

hangers-on
wannabe
gossip mongers
2facers
'scissors-in-the-blanket'.
or someone who are frens with me just to make me look bad, terrorise or psycho me (yeah, u d psycho person)

LOL... who wanna b me? I don't wanna be me. Some people told me that hate my personality so I guess I should turn back time and be the ME when I was 13-15: No responsibilities, who-cares, annoying, don't-give-a-damn trouble maker. It's about time I had some fun... won't hurt that Ai Ling might be coming next month and maybe who know Jaja might come also... hahaha.... But Curtin no Bukit (hill) to hang out orr... St mary's Bukit is the best! no1 sees u b u see every1... hahaha... Hmm... Won't it be nice being THE ONE giving excuses for not doing anywork for once?? which excuse to use? "sorry, I had to go for a manicure.." or "Sorry, i was caught up in the saloon" or "Eh, have to be there ka? I din know leh... I was out shopping alone. got sale bah/ at the cinema" or "Got class now? Damn la... I'm in town now... Cuci mata. Lazy to go back now la. Ta!" or "I was assigned to this meh? When? how come no one told me?/ R u sure?/ Why u dun do it yourself?/ why dun delegate or assign to others also?" It'll be heaven to use these... It's be a laugh!!! hahahaha....

I'm in a weird mood & it's coz some one gave me the feeling that he/she is sick with me (I'm complaining & whining again ma)... oh well, each to his own! Besides... it's the feeling I get when i'm going back to Curtin... soemthing sinister is going on... Of course someone sniffed out this fishy thing last year and slowly I'm realising it... More investigating to do to find the intentions and purpose of this fishy fiend... hahahaha... I love a good mystery...

gotta ciao & I'll blog more on my mundane, Idyllic and euphoric life in Brunei away from all the hassle and bustle of my usualy life. Some people have been telling me that when they think of me, they would always see me rushing or running from one place to another or from one (or more) errand(s) to another. LOL... I'm no superwoman la.

"Chacun a son gout" Each to his own...

P/S: do u haf a feeling dat as each sem goes by, I seem to be disliking going back to uni after the holidays??

PP/S: Dun be mad with what I say if u think it is u i am writing about.. might not be u... besides, who want to actully take to heart the endless rantings of a mentallt unstable person? hehehehe...

2005-06-09T04:38:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: dunno... nuts maybe
Current Colour: blue & black
Current Music: the tv in the background
Current Annoyance: sleepy
Current Obsession: to take masters or not? (retain BA or get MA?)
Current Physical Ailment: sleepy

yikes! nearly 4am. hehehe... well, feeling a bit surprised with what i found out.

as a kid, the name Canterbury was always floating around. I still remember my dad said something about going there, something abt meeting the Archbishop or Canterbury, the cathedral, etc etc... So, it's like not surprising that when i finally got over the phase of wanting to marry in Greece (yeah, yeah... i know i dream a lot), Canterbury is next. (whr next ah?) Read the guide, know the layout of the Cathedral (found in my dad's bookshelve) did my research & etc... Did not hurt dat Orlando is also from Canterbury... LOL... :P

Talking abt Orlando, I just found out that one of the uni that are my options (if I do decide to get MA) is practically his neighbor.. LOL. yeah, the uni of Kent is next to his old school (st. edmunds) and is opposite St. Thomas Hill where he lives (well, his mom la). hehehe... I didn't know when i was looking for uni. (I also found another uni nearby that offered courses dat my sis wanted.) the point was to find a place that offer courses that i want (& perhaps my is at the same time but in different unis) and is cheaper than London (yeah, i wanna do my Masters in UK). so i stumbled upon U of Kent (for me) &w as browsing through Canterbury uni & found out that they offers my sis' choices. U of Kent i like at leat 2 thousand pounds cheaper than London Film School. still wondering.. should i go?the problems are:

1. financial (duh!)

2. requirements: have to graduate with degree honours, which UNFORTUNATELY Curtin is not offering us (Mass Comm students)

3. It's kinda against my parents wishes: they dun want me to get into the industry (film)

4. it's gonna be c-o-l-d! (Yeah, i'm afraid of the cold. :p )

So now pening pening think of it. wanna prove to sum @ssholes that i actually have a brain. Besides, i'm actually scared to go into the working world. hehehe... My dream of studying in Uk esp London has been around for ages and got worse once in got into British music, films and celebrities (hell, look my my walls & the music i listen to). hehehe...

A background info.

it's not surprising when i got into this "British phase". the reasons?

1. i grew up around adults (my dad's friends & collegues) , quite number of them are English

2. One of my earliest memories is learning how to read from my dad's lecturer, an English man.

3. growing up, we tend to get gifts, cards & letters from UK.
4. I interracted a lot with foreigners (considering my dad's job & growing up in public, it's not surprising la)

5. There was a period where i had a slight accent, which i tend to slip into when i speak to foreigners. accidentally okay.

6. We were pretty close to the British High Commissioner in Brunei when we first moved here. He played the piano for the choir (my sis & I used to sing in the choir then)

7. I am registered in the Royal School of Church Music (RSCM)in UK since i was like, 8 years old.

8. since my dad studies in Australia then when he's alder he studies in UK, so why cant I study in an Australian uni (S'wak campus though) and then go to UK? hehehehe...

I stop at 8 before i tell u more nonsense. another reason why i wanna go to UK instead of US is coz my dad has more frens in UK than in US. hehehe... DUN MEAN TO BRAG but it doesn't hurt to dream right? Education is something one should pursue when one is still capable, innit? Besides, it doesn't hurt when the campus is near where i can 'cuci mata'. hehehehe... I miss doing that. Sigh... hopefully my life in 1 year's time is waaaay better than it is now...no more shit from psycho ppl...

Bleh, time to log off... it's nearly 4.30 am! wanna dream of Orlando la... Hmm... isn't it a wonder why I like guys who all have the ame features?

2005-05-30T15:31:00.000+08:00

a quote from Jaja's may 27th blog

"I hate people who claim to hate hypocrites when they are the hypocrite! As for me, my hupocrisy is only due to my emotions. I hate it when people who are so much older than me proves themselves to be nothing more than childishly stupid or naive! Hypocrite."

Jezsiema's blog. (check my link if u wanna read the whole thing nyeh, it's almost like what i wanna write.)

2005-05-30T15:06:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: crazy
Current Colour: colour colour
Current Music: entah
Current Annoyance:Serena
Current Obsession: me!
Current Physical Ailment: everything

u suck! ;) luv from, Len

2005-05-30T14:26:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: bad
Current Colour: black
Current Music: orlando talking
Current Annoyance: be an annoyance and to be annoyed
Current Obsession: send the email
Current Physical Ailment: still on the verge of breakdown

need i explain myself? nah. ppl wud never under stand (media so busy do they actually believe dat? of course not. y? coz assistant editor is always so free... duh! coz she is an ASISTANT, not the main!!)

should haf listen to Jaja n dun take up any responsibility... be like the old me... no responsibilities, no cares, no worries... i can do what i want, be what i want, say what i want and hell, till get top grdes without bothering to study (yeah, i haf to study now coz i'm no longer that smart.) Jaja said curtin is eating away my IQ... damn, i had an IQ almost as high as Bill Gates (he's 160, mine's 156) when i first started uni but over these years i've been taking the same test every sem and each sem my IQ gets lesser!!

"a man i known by the comapny he keeps"

nyeh, nyeh... i wonder what kind of comp[any is eating away my IQ... definitely the ppl i hang out in class... i get more creative with them... must be oneor more of the 6 or so other groups i hang out with... esp with that person that psychos me so much.. damn!!!

U know what... i'm willing to drop any responsibilities (including editing if i am force to) to get my sanity back, my dignity and my my social life. when i have to do something because of my parents ppl blame me for being so lame and stuffs... Hell, if i have to go back to brunei, it' not my fault ok... I dun drive!!! if i haf to go back from any events, meeting etc early, i have my reasons. i dun clubbing... i have my reasons.... damn. i keep uncomfortable lifestyle. maybe i should reassess my life and drop off all the unimportant stuffs...

fame get to one's head? nah, how to get to my head when nothing is right? i rather have a fuss n worry free life now. if i do what i really wanna do, do u think ppl respect me? hell, as Jaja said, curtin is ruining me.. i've changed. yeah, i guess so. bck then i never cared what ppl said but now one word can make o depressed...and to think that i cant be mean to ppl coz i dun wanna feel guilty. damn!I should haf jsut aid "f**k u" and leave all the times i'm so pressured and depressed by these ppl.. yeah, esp that person that have been psychoing me all this while. i know she is trying to do sth... make everyone hate me. damn. i think a HUGE group of ppl hates me now and after readin this more whould hate me... damn, i dun care anymore if they love her more. those who really care for me told me to ignore her... if only they knew who...

damn damn damn. life sucks. should have just appied to go to perth.t least i'll be in my element- ppl dun care abt u at all. rather be where no one is than be be with some many insecure uncaring ppl. i know why some ppl r hitting back at me... i make them look bad!!! hahahaha... self image...

U know what? i dun wanna say more. those ppl who thinks i have too much time for myself would haf lots to hate me for later...

serena

i have too much time? doin this while doin laundry la. how many sleepless nights i had these one month? who cares? no one cares. i'm not important. i'm not some royalty or famous or popular person. if i drop[ dead, bet there would be ppl saying "thank go she's gone. such an a**hole" think i dunno dat A LOT of PPL THINK I"M A LOSER?? We r all hypocrites so i know ok... U r lo$ers for not admiting it... y? do every1 know the REAL REAL u?? of course not. u put on ur best behavior. DUH! The real me? I'm a Bitch. full of revenge and yes, i dun give a damn for responsibility. all i wanna do is haf fun and shop, watch movies and hang out with frens... so sorry but I dun haf a social life so that's what i crave for now... drop all my responsibilities u said? Hello?? u saw how ppl talkso bad abt deb when she resigned fr CV? I know i'll be practically 'crucified' if i do anything CLOSE to that. hell, if i do that, (CV, council, group projects/assignments etc) Ppl would just hang me alive or bury me alive. damn.wish i never took the first step and ran for council in 2002... it gave me back the confidence i lost in brunei... life sucked in high sch but at least i had a life... hahahaha... nyehnyeh. I'll be p[rimanded when i get back to miri. i know... i would have a long list of ppl looking for me then... i know...

2005-05-17T06:23:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: sombre
Current Colour: black
Current Music: Busted & McFly
Current Annoyance: sleepy
Current Obsession: sleep, sleep, sleep
Current Physical Ailment: hungry, sleepy n smelly

Nyeh... nth to put here... I love Orly. hehehehe... Hmm.. oh yeah, I updated my wishlist again TODAY. hehehehe... I want Orly leh... can I have him in a HUGE box for my birthday? hehehe.... wonder how u can transport him to Miri in less tahn 24 hours ah??? ;p

2005-05-16T20:37:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: bad
Current Colour: black
Current Music: non
Current Annoyance: tired & overloaded with work & no time to rest or party
Current Obsession: finish work, work work work
Current Physical Ailment: sleep & hungry

just before i turn 21 i have one question...

who am i?
what am i?
what am i supposed to be?
WHO m i supposed to be??
do i even have an identity????

shit man i'm so depressed... i duneven know who m i supposed to be anymore. this bunch of ppl tell me i shud be like this... my parents tell me to be like that. my close classmates tell me to be like who i want to be (but how m i supposed to know??) & my best fren Jaja tell me i shud follow my heart n do what ever i want n be who ever i wanna be (carefree like i was before i step into curtin!!).... I m so stressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What can i do?????????????????????????

2005-04-12T01:20:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: dunno
Current Colour: black
Current Music: some jiwang Richard Claderman song (not me play one!)
Current Annoyance: wanna shit... hahaha
Current Obsession: sleepy
Current Physical Ailment: back ache & stomach ache (PMS I think)

hmmm... i dunno la but this jiwang music makes me feel... erm, dunno la... *SIGH* u know, all this while (for the past 6 months) I've been pretty mum abt my 'relationship' with Sunshine (as friend la). Outside I seem pretty ok esp since he is now out of my life.

But seriously, eventhough the time we were frens i treasure a lot, thr's lots of up & downs in that 1 year plus... I dunno but maybe i'm just sensitive la but sometime i feel like he only befriended me (well, i took the first step but yeah, he accepted it) only for his own gain. Dunno la... Just my feelings. I mean yeah, he's pretty nice & did do some nice thingies like opening the door & stuffs but I dunno how to say la... It's like sometimes I'm so invisible. Oh well, most ppl think I am so anyway.

I dunno y but these Curtin guys r really crazy & insane sometimes. They scare me alot u know sometimes. I know some close frens knows this but it was SHOCKING when someone "invited" me to bed with him.... (not in those words). HELLO!!! u CRAZY KA??? ppl think dat i'm like dat jez because i hangout with guys. Excuse me! then thr's this guy, i wrote notes for him when he was sick but he dun really seem to remember it (duh! & I failed dat unit pula).

Sometimes, it's nice to be appreciated u know... lots of ppl treat me like dat. I'm so sad. I mean, i do do things sincerely from the heart but sometimes it's nice to be appreciated & thanked. Esp from friends dat u care for, ppl dat u respect. Yeah.... life's like dat & i shud jez take it as it is. I'm jez bein a bitch now... PMS wat to do...

Aaargh!!! I dunno y i'm so crazy today... these few days. Sunshine is giving nightmares each night (no more sweet dreams of him...) I fear dat he might one day coem to murder me... hahahah,..... dat's wat my dream says wat... hahhaha... well, gtg & gd nite...

2005-03-31T03:37:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: dunno... moody
Current Colour: blue
Current Music: You've got a friend (McFly)
Current Annoyance: jez annoyed...
Current Obsession: losing 20 kilos so dat ill be underweight (haha *sarcastic)
Current Physical Ailment: sick la.... mentally insane & down wid sore throat, cough & flu

sigh... i'm goin crazy... jez wanna put sum words down... supposed to sleep but after i got offline & listen to the song below I jez cant sleep... Tho dat's not the only reason y i cant sleep... Y do i have so much pressure from so many ppl... all around me... in Miri, Brunei & kuching... I'm only human. i also haf feelings la... now so torn abt things... i wanna run 4 council & ppl re counting on me too but my mum said if i run she'll be very sad... what shud i do???? Aaaargh!!!!! i wish my 2 best frens r here... esp Jaja coz she's so used to my complains & stuffs... at least she can calm me Damn!! life sucks! :(

Seryna (sick, sad & insane)

P/S: Ja & Ai Ling, this song is dedicated to the two of u... wish u were here... still down & despressed by Sunshine too (a little) even though he's an ass... i do miss him a little... especially since it's rainining here in Brunei.. :( & sometime i can talk abt things wid him coz he has a calming effect on me.. shit la... shud not think of him anymore la!! he's is wherever he is & I dun care anymore... (yeah, who m i kidding???)

You've Got A Friend (McFly)

When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, Oh nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running (yeah) to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you got to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend (ooh)

If the sky above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud, yeah
Soon I'll be knocking upon your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running, oh yes I will
To see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you got to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
People can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
Well they'll take your soul if you let them
Oh yeah, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
(Oh baby don't you know about)
Winter, spring, summer or fall

Hey Now!
All you have to do is call
Lord, I'll be there yes I will.
You've got a friend
Oh, you've got a friend.

Aint it good to know you've got a friend.
Aint it good to know you've got a friend.
You've got a friend.

(Ja, check ur yahoo mail)

2005-03-27T04:38:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Colour: maroon
Current Music: tuned to MTV
Current Annoyance: sleepyt
Current Obsession: losing weigh
Current Physical Ailment: i'm fat

at last, back home in brunei... second night... good to be back. my back. my bro's taller & i'm still growing fatter... hahahah...

went shopping with my mum & bought 2 shirts. i also convinced my mum to buy hair dye for me... heheheh... sigh... wat to say? i just wanna download songs but my kazaa damn slow la.

life was so crazy last week... i learned new things, lost few things (most my mind) reconcile so friendships, broken off an impossible tie (bye @ass!!), shed some tears (yeah, i did), discover some surprising things, reconfirm my suspicions on some stuffs, got turn off... etc.. damn, life sucked then. btw, some fatcs.

1. i dont suck in public speaking if i'm comfortable with the crowd & topic.
2. but even if i do, i still suck if u expect me to talk with a mic coz i hate mics. i sound weird.
3. i am fat.
4. guys suck sometimes... u dun know what theyactually want from u.... (trust me, i know)
5. some ppl act so perfect but they r not
6. some ppl r so nice but they might haf hidden agendas- trust no one including urself
7. i am my worse enemy.
8. i'm so lonely
9. and sad
10. and easily being manipulated sometimes... :(

sigh... dunno wat i'll end up doing... anyway i got this from JAJA.

"Life is Like A Bed of Roses. Life is like a Bed of Roses,The Roses symbolizes beauty,And the thorns from the roses symbolizes pain."

.::. Call Me Crazy .::..::. Mark Your Word .::.

1.Would you marry for money?- nope... I think it does not guarantee a marriage. he might not be hot!! hahahaha...

2. Do you have a LOVELIFE?- yes, with myself... who would love me (which reminds me of wat i said s other day... i was so depressed n said "nobody wants me, nobody loves me" & my new bro Oscar said "i love u lorr..." hahahah... crazy kid.

3. Could you live without a computer?- no... hehe... nope... a big no no! everywhere I go, my laptop goes! Imagine goin 4 Ram's class & thr's no laptop to type notes on or no macs to edit movies on. worse, no internet or music!!

4. If you could live in any past time period where would it be?- marilyn monroe's time coz they like fat women... hahahah... or in ancient greece (& become a goddess... ahhahah) {sorry, me drunk with sleepiness.

5. Do you drink enough water?- me thinks, NO.

6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take em off?- take them off...tho sometimes i do wear flip flops ind hse... esp d kitchen. heheheh:)

7. What are your favorite fruits?- English guys... nah, jez kidding. peaches, mandrin oranges, grapes, rambutans, etc... oh & mangoes esp d huge red ones i get 4 Chinese New Yearhahaha...

8. What is your favorite place to visit?- la la land, dream land & seryna's world of fantasy... heheheh... hmmm... d land of impossibleness, storybook fiction & hollywood romance. (ok ok, it's KL & NZ la) :)

9. Are you photogenic?- hmm... am i? yeah, sometimes... c my friendster pics la...

10. Do you dream in color or black and white?- 100% technicolour, dah-ling. I dream in a Hollywood-like world. hahaha... :)

11. Why do you take surveys?- coz i'm bored n sleepy but got insomnia.

12. Do you drink alcohol?- nope.

13. What is the most beautiful language?- the language of love... that is, any language love is expressed in... ahhahaha... french & british english

14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?- I would love it... but noone has ever kissed me... :(

15. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?- both coz they r nice sceneries to take pics of. esp sunsets because it is just plain romantic! HAHA!!

16. Do you want to live to be 100?- hmm... I don't know... :)

17. Is a flat stomach important to you?- guess so... how to wear baju ah? i cat look decent witha tummy!

18. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?- guess so coz one of my best's Muslim & the other is Buddhist & i haf frens wid many different nationalities, beliefs, religions & culture. so ok la.

19.When you watch movies at home, do you likethe lights on or off?- always on coz i dun off my bedroom lights!

20. Do you believe in magic?- hmm... maybe... life is full of question marks???

21.Do you think you can draw well?- dunno...depends on mood... but i did get a credit for art in O levels eventhough i only did art for 1 1/2 yr!

22.Do you like to watch cartoons?- most definitely... i was jez watching Cartoon Network... haha!

23.At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?- i dunno... did i even cared? no
24. Do you write poetry?- i do.. sometimes. only when i'm depressed & really mad... i haf a blog of it... jez a few. u gotta search coz i dun put any links to it. hahaha...

25.Do you snore?- only when i'm EXTREMELY tired. like dat day i had only 2 hrs of sleep & d wek b4 dat i sleep 4 hrs everyday so when i fell asleep at mabel's i was snoring. hehehe

26.Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?- back & sides. i must sleepon my side to fall asleep. haha!! :)

27.Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?- NONE! I don't like dogs... i mean, dog attacks are getting rather critical!! =s & they smell & hates me... hehehe

28. Are you basically a happy person?- well mostly I'm happy but sometimes i jez get sad like others but 99% of the time no one really knows. I put on an act more often than u know.

29.Are you tired?- now, yes... almost dead on my @ss... sleepy la. 4.30am!!

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?- nope. no cola at all today. had 2 cans on friday & got told off buy parents! hehehehe... i'm nearly 21 la io! hehehe
31.How many phones do you have in your house?- in miri 1- mine. but in brunei 5 handphones-(i haf 2) & 3 hse phones.

33.Do you get along with your parents?- ok la... only except when they bug me... hehehe...

34. Do u smoke?- nope. dun wanna died so fast!!

35. If you're gonna talk to someone, today, who would it be? and why?- if i see any cute guy & he & i got chemistry ok la... hehehehe... jez bein friendly ma.

lalalala... k. wanna sleep soon. jez waiting 4 kazza to complete d/l songs... heheheh... sleeping in the living room again coz i get to use d internet & watch MTV til i drop... heheheh.. :p

Seryna

2005-03-22T14:46:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: Depressed
Current Colour: black
Current Music: none
Current Annoyance: "I'm too free..."
Current Obsession: supposedly to be free but now facing a dead end...
Current Physical Ailment: headache & heartache

Hmmm... I think I hurt sum ppl's feelings in yesterday's blog... so what d fuck do I care since ppl tend to think that they have the rught to hurt me but no me them? Anyway, still quite mad rite now & last nite i sleep quite late & had nightmares... where everyone hates me & there was like a riot to get rid of me... so damn fucking freaky la.

Anyway, I REALLY REALLY need help here... I can't think of any product/services to do an ad on... & my assignment is due like this Thursday... have to write a product statement, write the script & draw the storyboard in two nights... tho I think I'm gonna flunk this coz I HAF NO TIME TO DO IT!!!! ppl seem not to notice i need time alone to do my work! sheeh!

Then I just found out that tomorrow (wednesday) I have to bring my documentary draft & present it to class tmrw... how to do when i have no time??? I need to go to the Family Planning centre to do research and stuffs (coz my topic is Sexual Education) but no time... not even sure if i can go back for Easter this weekend... Just now my dad's friend just called to tell me to pass sth to my dad but how can I if I dun go back??? Terrible... My relationship with my family is like deteorating.... Well, some ppl dun care if their do or are happy if their do but SORRY I really care abt my family ok... I really miss home & I miss my bro... haf not seen him since Chinese New Year!!!

*sigh... my life is going down the drain... I told my friend if I die... some ppl would have a party and celebrate!! Shit ya but i guess & i'm sure it's true... WELL, IF U REALLY WANT ME TO DIE PUSH ME MORE & ONE DAY I'LL FALL OFF THE CLIFF LA.... The sooner the better coz it hurts.... So better plan my death soon la.... I can bet RM10 that thr is perhaps a committee by tonight... hahahaha..... I wonder which groups of friends ya.... since I haf so many friends... CV ke, class ke, others ke, media ke, Sunshine's friends ke (i'm sure they wanna get rd of me 4 him!).... etc... hahahhaha...... Yes... I'm on the BRINK OF INSANITY NOW so if u dun wanna kill me, send me to mental hospital la... Assholes.

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.....
"I'm goin crazy, I'm going cra--zaie, I'm goin crazy, I'm goin crazy...."
-KRU's Girlfriends's Girlfriend

2005-03-21T19:52:00.000+08:00

~ What I've been up to in the last 36 hours

Current Mood: Sad,heartbroken & depressed... cried twice in 2 hrs (btw, i dun cry easily)
Current Colour: Black & red
Current Music: Take My Breath Away (well crying does dat rite?)
Current Annoyance: being underestimated & lack of time to study
Current Obsession: Suicidal (hahaha....)
Current Physical Ailment: headache, fever & period (but do ppl care? NOOO!)

What I did in the past 36 hours or so (in no particular order) regarding CV! matters.

help Tiang to search & burn pictures for slides, blog etc.
help Iqbal to search, copy, burn or transfer pictures for CV! flash presentation
Ask Debbie for past CV! files
Check CV! email & read the reply from Noizy Minority regarding Tsunami Charity
Check CV! friendster & approve new friend
Look for free web hosting, domain & email to enable easier, faster & effective communication & to store CV! data such as name database.
Email Philip Khor (my friend) regarding the webhosting services he offer
Count CV! t-shirts until i forget how to count coz I'm too exhausted
ATTEND AN IMPROMPTU MEETING
complete the namelist database
Try to come up with a pop up for CV! t-shirt sales, due on Tuesday.
Search for the CV! banners signed during O Week club registration
Retrieve email from Philip regarding my enquiries about the website hosting, domain, email etc...
not sure yet but got meeting at 8.30

hmm... nothing to do? Gimme a call to do my product statement, script & storyboard for an advertisement due this Thursday 24/3 at 12 noon. 3 assiggnments-in-1!! Tag me or call me!

I REALLY dun haf time to study anymore yet ppl still moan I'm too free. shit la. if i'm so fre might as well go back to Brunei la. Mum's mad at me coz I dfidn't go back as planned last week & Dad's mad at me coz I'm not going back this weekend for Good Friday & Easter. Ppl can be so inconsiderate. I think I'll die young & go to hell coz I live a stressfull life (stress=highblood, heart disease & perhaps brain cancer) & hell coz I DON"T GO TO CHURCH coz I haf no time. Hell, I had 2 hrs of sleep only last nite & I practically 'fainted' at Mabel's & if coz I wasn't thinking of work, bet I'll sleep til the end of week free... heheheh.... I wish I haf a clone to do all my work the I can go carvotting around town.... I WISH! (*Dexter... can I borrow ur clonning machine... Please...) Hahahaha...

my eyes r sore from crying but no one cares except Jae & Izzah... & i never cry in fronty of them... hell, I dun cry much & d last time was when my sis & I had a physical fight whr I got cuts. Sometimes I wonder who r my real friends... What Jae said a long time ago is true & Candy was right when she told me somethings (but i've not told others yet...) Jaja said ppl can step on my head to easily & I'm too nice... Damn! I'm so dumb & stupid. I'm no puppet but ppl consider me to be... I feel like quiting running 4 council.... but i dunno la... dunno WHO wud vote 4 me... maybe those dat wanna 'use' me or perhaps NO ONE wud vote. so embarrasing leh....

Ja, wish u r here to help me out of my misery... I ddn't cry so much when Sunshine hurt me... Damn! I'm so stress & got period dat I need a break dat's y I brokedowqn... I'm getting a nervous breakdoiwn but no one cares... Sunshine, if u read this, send me a sms, gimme a call or SMS k... I need a friend who's subjective to my current life in Uni (coz u r not here anymore...)

Damn, damn, damn!! I feel so sucky now. I've not taken my books yet & it's out of stock... no time what... hey, Maybe i jez collapse & ten they admit me to hospital good kan?? Hmmm... a good idea since I'm gonna start the all orange juice diet soon... hehehe... my vision is blur now la... bzzzz..... feeling dizzy... hehehehe.... Wheee...!!! lack of blood due to period plus lack of food plus lack of sleep make a maniacal Seryna!! hehehehe... Wheee...!! just found out meeting is cancelled. Damn!! think I'm so free to come & go ka? I haf to study la dum dum.... sheeeh!!! lalalala... better log off BEFORE I OFFEND PPL... *so weird... i dun wanna offend ppl but ppl LOVE offending me... hehehehehe....*

Tatatatata

I'm A Maniac...

SORRY LA IF I OFFEND ANYONE... Lalala.... can u book me a room in the mental hospital in Kuching?? First class ya... thanks!!! Wheeee......

2005-03-21T03:00:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: dunno... haf feeling all day
Current Colour: black
Current Music: purest of pain (correct ka d name) spannish version
Current Annoyance: itchy eyes
Current Obsession: Alonso, Alex & Andy (hahahaha....)
Current Physical Ailment: wanna shit... hahahaha

This is a reply to Iqqy's question:

"What is it that qualifies a man to be bestowed the benevolent title of a Brother?"

- be there when I'm in need (even buy food for me... hehehe)
- giving advices to me
- cheering me up when i'm down
- giving good hugs *GRIN* esp Iqqy & Charlie.
- just being fun ppl to be with & learn things from a 'man's point of view'
- get 'theory education' in Desserts... I think they think we're nuts! hehehe
- keeps me safe when we go out (well 3 bros to 1 girl is considered safe rite?)

erm.... dunno eh. it's just destined to be... Maybe... hehehe... But i can say for sure, i dun call a person brother jez to stop him liking me... hehehehe.. THANK GOD I NEVER HAF TO DO DAT... hehehe... coz it's weird... hahahaha....

2005-03-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

Bizarre day in Miri

SUNDAY- Something bizarre happened in Miri. The soon-to-be Resort City located in South East Asian country Malaysia was hit by a heat wave for the past one week. Today it hit a record of 39.5° Celsius centigrade. However, this is not the most bizarre occurrence. Today, the streets of Miri town especially around Bintang Plaza and The Imperial Mall we practically bare of people- residents and visitors from Brunei were almost non-existent!

According to a driver, Miss Hee, the roads were for once free of congestions and one could practically drive in the middle of the road. Her friend who refused to be identified said that it is as if the place was haunted and if she were dared, she could probably lie on the roads! Any Miri residents that frequent Bintang Plaza and The Imperial Mall would probably tell you that the roads in those areas are usually congested by cars and empty parking spaces are usually limited or non-existent. However, today the parking lots of these two popular shopping malls were barely half occupied. Bear in mind, it is a Sunday when every Tom, Dick and Harry are usually seen with the friends, families and so on in to town. The ever busy round about near the Bulatan Park was also void of traffic.

So my dear readers, what has happened to the residents of Miri? One resident of Miri said that perhaps Miri was finally been invaded by aliens thus the heat wave and the ‘disappearances’ of most of the population. She then went on to cite the events that occurred in Roswell, emphasizing on the similar heat wave period. Yours truly however, believes that Miri is now facing a dry and hot season. Some places have already shown signs of draught and lakes are drying at an alarming rate. Any self respecting individual would be saving water right now for a rainy day. Sorry, I mean for any emergencies, though everyone would be glad for a heavy downpour anytime soon. So dear readers, remember to control the usage of water and consume on what is needed.

What about the supposedly ‘missing’ people in town? Perhaps they find the weather too hot to venture out. Or perhaps they have been abducted by aliens….

2005-02-16T17:28:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: Okie okie la
Current Colour: Man Utd red coz I'm wearing d jersey & my devil site is red also!
Current Music: Always (Atlantic Starr)
Current Annoyance: wah so hard to understand html
Current Obsession: changing d blogs lyout & background etc...
Current Physical Ailment: neck ache & back ache coz stare at comp too long

Hey, jez wanna say I've finished changing d blog layout thingy... dunno wat error exist. sorry la. Sorry also coz clutter. Anyway, I got this from blogskins.com. Thanks to the person dat created this. =)

Btw, Jaja & I haf decided to public-ize (whatever) our nutty blog, which haf been dead for nearly 1 year. hehehe... well, gtg. Need rest coz my neck really ache & my head is giving me problem... tired la. U know what, once I start modifying my blog, i won't stop til I'm so bored of it or too busy. Plus, I've not updated my website so soon my mind would be thr...

So, ta ta for now... Still haf not decided to go for the interview tmrw or not... hahahaha... Hey, next week got new students coming in. Wonder got cute guys ka?? hahahha... hmm, too young la! I'll be like at least a year to 4 years older!! hahaha... I'll leave 'liking-younger-guys' sindrom to Jaja, Ai Ling & my sis. hehehehe. neway, Ciao!

Seryna

*Abel, Iqqy & Tiang, do u wanna change d background for d CV! site? I mite not do it but we can discuss la, k. Btw, I'm gonna give Jae access too. Okie?*

2005-02-15T17:23:00.000+08:00

JUST A NOTE... I'M CHANGING D LAYOUT OF MY BLOG SO BEAR WITH I YA... CIAO. LAB CLOSING NOW. ;-)

Seryna

2005-02-14T17:05:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: still ad & in desperate mood
Current Colour: Black!!
Current Music: Puupy Love (so? it's valentine's)
Current Annoyance: I still cant see the phone screen!!!!!
Current Obsession: I need a PHONE!!
Current Physical Ailment: mad!!!

To all the nice ppl in this world, please visit these site & grant my wish... hey, i forgot to put phone in it!

http://froogle.google.com/shoppinglist?a=SWL&id=432cecbabc6d8acebec63bd7fa829773ca6f1

Seryna...

2005-02-14T16:39:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: Mad!
Current Colour: Black
Current Music: Nothing Hurts Like Love (Daniel Beddingfield)
Current Annoyance: My phone's screen gone Kaput... cant read my SMS!!
Current Obsession: i dunno...
Current Physical Ailment: Sleepy & toothache

I NEED TO BORROW A PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY PHONE DROPPED FROM THE TABLE (RITE AFTER CURTIN CALLED ME, D@MN!) AND STH IS WRONG WID THA SCREEN & NOW IT'S BLANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO PLEASE, NICE PPL OUT THR.... CAN I BORROW A PHONE IF U HAF EXTRA(S)?? PLEASE?

Seryna.... (please phone me, not sms coz I cant read it now...)

Dear cupid...
On this Valentine's Day please send me a cute guy to share the feast I haf prepared. However, if you can't meet my demand, can you please send me an angel in disguise to lend me a phone? Please... Of course, it's better if you can strike someone with a caompassionate arrow and make them feel sorry for me so that they would buy me a new phone... (flutters eyelashes...) Just a nice phone... A Nokia, of course. It'll be nice to have on of the newer models, thank you very much... heheheheh... Thank you... You are so nice... ;-)

Love always,
Seryna XXX

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hahahaha... yes, I'm nuts!! the lack of phones is driving me crazy!!!!!!!!! I NEED A PHONE!!! IT'S KILLING ME NOT KNOWING WHO SMS ME... I HAF 2 UNREAD SMS NOW!!! It could be someone who SMS to say sorry for treating me like shit all of last sem... Who knows... :( God, please help me!!!

2005-02-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

VALENTINE’S DAY 2005

MENU

Aperitif/ appetizer
Corn & Potato Salade (Salad)

Entrée (first Course)
Champignon soupe (Mushroom Soup... amazing how a lil French flair can make it sound grand!)

Plat de résistance (main Course)
Pâtes in tuna sauce (pasta in tuna sauce, la!)
Prawns in tomato and egg sauce
Black pepper beef

Plat sucré/ dessert
Chocolaté Fruits & marshmallows
Chocolaté & caramel ice-cream

Boire
White grap sparkling juice

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hahahah.... above is my Valentine's Day menu... I dunno if my French is correct or not... D computer tend to change english to French after i wrote Entrée... hehehehehe....

anyway, the English version are in the brackets.

Haf a swell Valentine's Day

Seryna....

2005-02-12T02:25:00.000+08:00

It’s 2.25am. I’m supposed to be doing a movie marathon but I’m doing this instead. Well, I sort of start my movie marathon I watch Simply Irresistibleo n tv3 then the news then a docu-movie (sorry, only a term we media ppl know. hehehehe…) on fishes. Yeah, yeah. I know… I hate fish but dat doesn’t mean dat I cant watch dat rite? I mean, if ppl hate war so much, nwhy do wr movies sell so well? If I dun haf bf, why bother watch romantic films? Hehehehehe… see what i meant?

Anyway, I’m listening to once in a blue moon on repeat mode. I LOVE this song! And I really love the movie it came from… SIMPLY IRRESISTIBLE!!!! Yeah, I jez watch it like 4 ½ hours ago… but it’s not the first time… it’s like the fifth (yes, 5th!) time. Used to watch on HBO but it rarely goes on air… damn! I love dat movie! It’s about a girl who’s cooking make ppl feel her emotions. This guy fell in love with her after eating her cooking… her caramel éclairs. (hmmm… yum yum.) I’ve never eaten caramel ones but chocolate ones are at the top of my favourite food. Especially the ones in Empire Hotel, Brunei! Anyway, her cooking is magical and one thing leads to another… but I really love the way that the story develops. I mean, I dunno how to explain… but it’s so damn cool u know, that one person’s cooking can cause magic… it’s like they can suddenly be surrounded by vanilla flavoured smoke-like thingy when they eat her vanilla flavoured food. Her éclairs can make ppl fall in love (the guy’s secretary and the guy’s boss, other customers, etc). when they kiss, this couple would float… it’s d magic of love. Yeah yeah… I blabbing nonsense here. Ppl might not see why I love this movie but yeah, I do. It takes oneself to discover it themselves. Bleh :-p

Anyway, one of my favourite lines from the movie is “if the wind closes the door, it would open another...” it’s also in the lyrics of Once In A Blue Moon. In the movie the girl’s restaurant almost haf to close down but then the guy came and eat in this place and she can suddenly cook… like a miracle coz she used to suck. Then he was hooked to her cooking… to cut things short, in the moddle of the movie one day her éclairs become so famous and her restaurant become packed and successful…

In life, it’s true sometimes the wind closes the door, but do new stop and think that it might open another. Ppl claimed that “it is better to have loved and lost than never loved before”. I dunno la. Not been thr or done that yet. But I know, it’s better to haf crushed and lost than never to crush before… heheheheh… ;-p life is so full of opportunities. I few lose out on one, thr are still others for us, maybe even better ones. Maybe that is just life… I dunno. Maybe they ::are:: better fishes out thr. More beautiful butterflies flying around… when we find the right one, we will know… it’s like buying shoes… you can try on 1000 pairs of shoes but not liked any of them, even if it’s the most exclusive and beautiful Manolo Blahniks of Jimmy Choos on earth. But once you find the right one, you just know it. Even if it’s the normal Bata shoes or Vincci sheos. Coz you just know it. I dunno how to explain this. Yeah, it’s crap.

Anyway, I dunno when would this be posted. Most likely on Monday, 14th February 2005. another lonely year, alone with no one to celebrate. Even if it’s with friends for a movie or sth. Well, no one called so far. It’s a miracle if I can get flowers or a card… more of a prayer answered and a miracle if it’s someone I really fancy ( Charlie Simpson aka Charlie Busted/Fightstar, Sunshine, all d cute guys I fancy… do u hear me?? hehehehe…) maybe I’ll have another movie marathon. I do that a lot lately, it seems so. Either that or a book reading marathon (like 2-3 books in one night. Thick ones) well, both ::are:: educational anyway. Books for knowledge, to improve language and also for inspiration. Hehehehe… movies for entertainment, observation and education (well, taking Mass comm in film & TV production pays, innit? Tho most of the movies are romance… hahahaha… never mind. What is life without romance, eh?

Well, gotta sleep now, I guess. My eyes are partially blurred now… tired la, coz I’ve not slept much these 2 days. (my neighbor not sleeping yet ka? The door keep on creaking open n close. So annoying la!). Exams r over and done (YAAY!!) and I dunno when exactly I start work. Aqll I know is that I haf another interview for I dunno what (not connected to my job) on Thursday. Jeez, I still haf popcorn stuck on my teeth.. eew… better brush teeth again… hehehehe… anyway, gotta go. Below is the lyrics for Once In A Blue Moon… (which after this round is finish, is the twelve time I listen to it while writing this)

Seryna.

P/S: happy Valentine everyone!! ;-)

Once In A Blue Moon…

The room is empty
The lights are dim
And my heart wonder
If I’ll ever see you again?

My tears are calling
For an open door
When your arms held me
I never felt that way before

I’ll be waiting
And I’ll be watching
Under a blue moon
Taste of heaven
Only happens
Once in a blue moon

Do you remember
The wind blew free?
We fit together
So naturally…

I’ll be waiting
And I’ll be watching
Under a blue moon
Taste of heaven only happens
Once in a blue moon

If the wind closes the door
It will open another

And I’ll be waiting
And I’ll be watching under the moon
Taste of heaven only happens
Once in a blue moon

Once in a blue moon

2005-02-06T18:12:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: irritated....some ppl ingonring me online & I hate dat!
Current Colour: black (like Always.... duh!)
Current Music: Lost Like Tears in Rain by Fightstar (checkin out Chazzie's new music) ...for Sunshine
Current Annoyance: Being ignored (even by ppl at home... :( sad lerr)
Current Obsession: downloading songs...as usual
Current Physical Ailment: backache n stomach ache (at least I can breath now!)

Hmm... Jaja translated this for me (the English version are in italics)

Untukmu (KRU)

Angin bayu membawa diriku (The gentle breeze takes me away)
Sepintas lalu ku terkenangkan mu (Just a moment have i thought of you)
Memori silam meresap malam (past memories going into the night)
Kenangan bersama tersimpan selamanya (memories together are kept forever)

Walaupun kau pergi jauh dari diri ini (Eventhough u r far away from me)
Cinta ku masih bersemadi di hati (My love for u remains in my heart)
Keyakinan kita 'kan kembali (Confidence that we'll be together)
Menghidupkan semula, janji bara cinta (Reviving the flames of love)

Kita bersama mengejar mimpi (we're both chasing our dreams)
Terpisah sementara ku pasti (separated for the moment)
Suatu hari nanti...cinta kita bersemi (one day our love will come by)
Kembali menerangi mekar di taman hati (brighten the life in our hearts)

Walaupun jauh pandangan mata (althought by sight we're apart)
Ku yakin kau 'kan tetap setia (i am certain that you are still loyal)
Begitulah ku jua...keikhlasan di jiwa (that goes for me, too, honesty in my soul)
Dan cinta ku hanyalah...untukmu (and my love is only for you)

Saban hari diri ku menunggu (day by day i find myself waiting)
Khabar berita dari mu di sana (news from you at the other place)
Gerimis senja kembali reda (?)
Kerinduan di jiwa, kau jadi penawar (missing you, you're my saviour)< Saviour? penawar kan cure?

Rindu ku pada mu tak dapat ku terkata (words on missing you is great)
Setiap saat, waktu bagai terlalu lama (every second and time is too long)
Bila kita kembali bersama (when we get back together)
Hiduplah semula, janji bara cinta (we'll revive the promises of love)

Ermmm... It's sth like dat la... Jaj & I haf to translate it again... This is for someone la... wanna lok 4 new one now... hahhaha... Wud post a brand new version hopefully by tonite... some of the sentences don't complement each other (grammartically etc) and som don't make sense... Proof that translating Malay songs to English isn't sth easy nor is it a 'quality' as d original version... la la la..

going off 4 now... ciao

IGNORANCE ISN'T BLISS

2005-02-04T16:31:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: dunno
Current Colour: cyan
Current Music: non (malas to put on any)
Current Annoyance: sleepy, lack of rest
Current Obsession: I-N E E D-S L E E P
Current Physical Ailment: on the verge of collapsing

Finally d tampon report is finished!!! thought i'll never get to d day it'll end. this is also d end of summer course tho coz essay abt Dr. M due on monday... and haf to write abt ppl who ispire me... so i wrote... KRU!!! hahahaha... write so much leh. but good lerr coz I LOVE KRU! anyway, I'm going back to Brunei tonite... at last! rest & sleep & no need to cook & wash after myself... hahahaha... got mum to complain to now... goin back to senadin soon coz need to pack up...

hmm... can online late at nite now... so sum ppl cant escape me... muahahahahaha (dr evil laugh)... Hmm lately i've been really into KRU eh.. & last nite i found one song dat says it all...

Untukmu 94(Norman / Yusry /Edry)

Angin bayu membawa diriku
Sepintas lalu ku terkenangkan mu
Memori silam meresap malam
Kenangan bersama tersimpan selamanya
Walaupun kau pergi jauh dari diri ini
Cinta ku masih bersemadi di hati
Keyakinan kita 'kan kembali
Menghidupkan semula, janji bara cinta

chorus:
Kita bersama mengejar mimpi
Terpisah sementara ku pasti
Suatu hari nanti...cinta kita bersemi
Kembali menerangi mekar di taman hati
Walaupun jauh pandangan mata
Ku yakin kau 'kan tetap setia
Begitulah ku jua...keikhlasan di jiwa
Dan cinta ku hanyalah...untukmu

Saban hari diri ku menunggu
Khabar berita dari mu di sana
Gerimis senja kembali reda
Kerinduan di jiwa, kau jadi penawar
Rindu ku pada mu tak dapat ku terkata
Setiap saat, waktu bagai terlalu lama
Bila kita kembali bersama
Hiduplah semula, janji bara cinta

repeat chorus

Yeah, mimpi yang dikejar telah pun menjadi nyata
Teristimewa untuk anda semua...untukmu...

(I'll translate it tonite... I hope)

Jaja jez gave me another song

A Maudlin Song
Another day pass me by,
I hear the singing of birds die,
I let out a very heavy sigh,
Can love come between you and I?
Love is like a fully blossomed rose that is beautiful,
You have been a friend who've been wonderful,
My life with you have been colourful,
Why have I been such a cowardly fool?
I realised that I am in love with you,
I only hope you feel the same way, too,
I loved you for all that you do,
And it keeps me happy being with you;
Can you see this torture within me?
I could change from who I used to be,
Without you I can't possibly be free,
If only you and I were meant to be...

Gtg now... Curtin gonna haf power trip... Ciao!

Tired kid