Aargh!!! I have a job interview on Thursday morning!! *starts to freak out now* This is my second time at the same place with the same people but for a different post. Still wonder if I am doing this coz I want to or coz I have to... More like I have to coz my parents push me to apply. Grrr....

If I get this job, it's gonna be a HUGE responsibility (really, really huge responsibilty. Bigger than that of Curtin's PR officer... ;/ Scary!) and yeah, I'm most definitely NOT going back to Kuching lorr... :( I miss home.

Sigh... i'm not going to Miri too tomorrow coz of the haze situation and coz my dad has an appointment later in the afternoon (think so) and then we have to attend this dinner at night... Sigh... so busy doing 'diplomatic' works with the family, huh? Oh well, can't complain since I've been doing this since I was born and besides- free food! hahahah...

Current Mood: annoyed... stoopid haze making Brunei so warm
Current Colour: red
Current Music: the sound of d computer
Current Annoyance: haze. haze. haze! I need a thunder storm!
Current Obsession: Dynomite & solitaire!

Grr... So annoyed right now. The haze is killing me. Itchy (an occassionally sore)eyes, itchy nose leading to flu, sore throat & heat! Grrr!!! plus now, I can smell my neighbour downstairs cooking roti canai. Dunno why but during non fasting month their roti canai smells so delicious that even in my sleep I can dream of it and when I wake up, I haf to raid the kitchen to make myself some! But now it seems as if the roti canai is burnt every night (well, if I'm awake during sahur time la!)

Anyway, I'm sure a couple of ppl reading this knows something abt my dad being one of those up for a 'promotion' thingy gummy. Not really a promotion la, just that my dad' 'boss' is retiring and well, the need someone to be the new 'boss'. (well, if u know abt this, u obviously what line of job my dad is in...) Dad made the annoucement this morning (Sunday) and the whole place (church) was pin drop silence. LOL... my sis & I were sniggering away. it's not that my dad got it la. We were sniggering at the whole situation thing. My sis said she could haf droped a feather and hear it touch the floor!

I guess lots of people think/ feel that we/I am disappointed. Seriously, we are more relieved than disappointed. I guess it's a huge burden off our backs now. Why? Well, for starters, we would ahve to move back to Kuching. I hate packing!! LOL. but seriously, what we were scared of was that if my dad had gotten it, the family would be uprooted AND separated (mom working here & mike completing form 5 next year) Plus, it would be an added responsibility to dad and we probably won't ever see him much. I mean, right now he's barely home sometimes coz of work, meetings, visitations etc... What more if he had gotten it?

Worse still... I probably have to continue to be a 'goody two shoes'. hahahah... well, I guess I'm pretty tame right now compared to my rebellious day. but still, those were just minuscle (spl?) things compared to what is happen round the world. I proud to say I don't do drug, drink nor smoke nor do I engage in "straineouss physical activities involving bodily fluids". If u get what I mean. In fact, i think i was pretty much a homebody/ girl next door since i moved to brunei. No sneaking out like before (i was always sneaking out to the post office to send fan mails... LOL). no playing truant or getting dimerit marks or being a pain in th ass for teachers. hahaha...

In uni I had the opportunity to do what ever I wanted, esp the last 2 years since I lived ALONE. no house mates to say anything if I did anything they disapprove. hahaha... Hey, cud haf brought a boy back/ sleep over/ whatever if I wanted but of course, the way i was brought up and by my own choice i never did that. LOL. hell, I would probably regret it til the day I die if had done so! Thank God for being so grounded. hahaha... but I guess i turn out right. mom told me before, she was worried I wont turn out right. but I know myself, my limits and what choices to make. If I had made the choice of saying yes to someone, probably I might even be married with kids today. who knows what wud happen?

It's weird, i have all sorts of friends. from the straight laced clean ones to those with a past to those who aren't so clean to suicidal ones to addicts of many sorts (sex, cigarettes, alcohol, etc) but i've pretty much remained the same. The peer pressure and temptations were always out there but yeah, never really succumb to it. Of course not only cos of my upbringing, i have really good friends who really cared and they prevented me from doing anything stupid that i might regret. Hey, I almost started smoking coz of stupid rows with a friend. not once but a couple of times but my other friends were always there to watch out for me. Thanks Guys! Esp Sameen & Shaun during the CV Environmental Rally 2003. I was really depressed. Another time I nearly jumped off my friend's 10th floor balcony coz of a row with the same person. Thank God my guardian angel was 'working' over time that night. : ( Never want to live another episode like that.

Eiy, it's almost 5am. i know I've been pouring my heart out and ranting so much. Sorry if i made life a little bothersome for a while. hehehe... But life goes on. I'm ok. Pretty happy these days. i try to. A laugh a day keeps the shrink away! hahaha...

Mood: tired
Colour: dark colurs
Music: KRU's Mania Medley
Annoyance: Insomnia... sleepy but once i lie down I wont b able to sleep
Obsession: My blog skin! need to adjust it... again!

Ai Ling this is for you...


Ingredients:

• 250g self rainsing floor
• 150g butter
• 85g sugar
• 125g chocolate rice/ coloured rice/ etc (you can add more or use less according to taste)
• 1tsp baking powder or Bicarbonate soda
• 1 egg
• 1 tsp vanilla essence
• **for decorations, you can use coloured rice, coloured starts or silver/coloured sugar balls. or cherries if u want)

Method:

1. Beat butter & sugar.
2. Add in Egg.
3. Add in BP & Flour (which have been sieved together).
4. Add in chocolate rice.
5. Make into balls.
6. Press lightly with fork. Make sure it is not too thick or the center would nor bake properly. Also, not too thin or it'll burn.
7. Put decorations on tops if desired.

You can add or lessen some ingredients such as sugar or chocolate rice. If the cookies don't turn out like mine, don't blame me worr... hehehehe... SMS me if u need any further instructions ya.

** If you r doing d chocolate rice one, it's a family recipe, just modified a bit by me. But if you use stars like the one I gave you it's "Serena's Superstar Cookies." It tastes different.

*** If anyone else wanna use this recipe, please do let me know & please credit it to me. Thanks!

Mood: mix moods
Colour: red
Music: Truly, Madly, Deeply
Annoyance: Stooopid Haze!! brunei is so hazy & my poor nose is suffering!
Obsession: Trying to upload a song that fits my blog!

Grrr... stoopid haze is killing me!! it's giving me a running nose. Not to mention that I'm so exhausted after yesterday's treasure hunt and those sleepless nights and late nights (actually early mornings coz i din sleepm til 8.30AM on Friday & 7AM on Sat) coz I was busy doing d posters for the church thingy. better b appreciated or I'll just rip them off. hahaha... If you've known me for ages... two things that pisses me off lots more than anything else (except being backstabbed la) are

1. being ignored especially if I'm there and the people act as if I'm not or stupidly ask "where is Serena" when I'm in front of them. Or just ignoring my SMS. That's plain rude!
2. Being under appreciated! I hate that!! My uni life can be sum up as "Overworked and Underappreciated"

But then again, who gives a f*** sometimes when d ppl dat unappreciate u r d ones dat u dun care to impress... I dun mean d church thingy, I mean d ones in uni. My mottos in uni in addition to "Overworked & Underappreciated" was "Sh!t Happens", "Life Without Stress is Meaningless" and "Curtin No Cute Guys!" hahahaha... the last one is more of a statement than motto la. No offense to d Curtin guys, but my 'taste' varies lots from the other girls in uni. Besides, who wanna haf a bf dat was once a friends bf who was once another friend's bf? That's d scenario in Curtin u know.

Not that no guy actually tried to get close to me. Hell, some even try to get hanky panky with me (Yeah, you. If u read this, u r lame.) I had 3 stalkers in Foundation that I had to change my phone number! They like to call between 12am - 2am! 2 of them called me a few times at night, trying to talk crap. One really stalked me coz he knows whr I live, SMS me to tell me he can see me in d comp lab, what i'm eating, what i wear, etc... FREAKY!! . In my first year & second year some guys (not fr Curtin) got my number fr friends and start call me. Annoying la esp those that wanna talk crap! My number was spread to even as far as Labuan! Crazy! Worse of all, most of these guys would say "Can you speak Chinese?" Coz they cant speak English (or well enough). Aiyoyo... that irritates me.

Cant stand ppl who cant speak English. If u cant, then speak malay to me la! I'm not like typical ppl in Brunei who cant speak proper Malay la (they speak local Malay mostly). Hell, d examiners fort my O levels Malay oral said I can speak Malay better than malay ppl! hahaha... true or not sunno la but then again, I went to private school where English is emphasized lots. No surprises here. besides, i studied in Malaysia la. We have a HUGE advantage. Eh, but my English not so bad ya. One of d top students in my class leh. :P Of course, when I blog i use lots of malay & Chinese expressiojns & words too so it sound kinda bad sometimes. hahahah...

Anyways, gtg... got a vid to add to my blog. Hopefully it works. Grr... so hard to get it done. D song cant be loaded on line coz of d stooooopid connection! Did I say i talk crap most of d time? Oh no... forgot to finish mopping d hse. half way done! hahaha...